But what I'm talking about is that sort of spark or chemistry... That can develop after spending a lot of time with someone, too, but I can't be in a relationship with someone who I don't feel that with. It's too awkward. That's why I want to find someone who I feel that way about first, and then get to know them over time... Because I've tried dating guys I didn't feel that way about, hoping something would develop, and it never did. Well, I think the thing is I never had interest in them in the first place. Like, I thought they were cute, but there was no chemistry there. I've learned there's a difference between thinking someone's good looking and actually being attracted to them. Oh, it's not like that, I'm just awkward around guys I'm interested in because I'm nervous. I definitely know about wanting time alone, because I'm like that. My boss is always trying to get us to come out with him, and he bugs us about it, like, what do you have to do, anyway? And it's like, nothing, I just don't feel like going. I may just be knitting and watching anime, but I like doing those things. Eheh, and I'm trying to learn Japanese better with watching anime. It's going well so far; sometimes I'm surprised with how long I'm able to go without reading subtitles. A.Ny.Way. Yeah, the general problem isn't with guys, but with me. Like I keep saying, I'm just not interested in many people. It's not an attitude problem with me; I'm generally cheerful, friendly, and out-going. I get along with people easily, and guys tend to like me. Eheh, that may sound like bragging, but... Well, it's like the mom of a character in one of my favorite anime said: the secret to being beautiful is believing that you have a few admirers. There's more to it than that, of course, but yeah, it definitely helps.