i am so sorry to hear about your dad.
i have actually been through the same thing recently.
i lost my mom to cancer about 4 months ago.
i do know how you are feeling. and i understand what your going through.
if at anytime you need ta talk you can PM me or just chat over visitor messages.
i know its hard, but you need to try and get your mind away from it until you want to grieve. thinking about it all the time is really bad for your mental health and can send you into depression.
i have still not fully grieved over losing my mom, so everyone grieves in their own time.
just remember i can talk anytime ok?