I KNOW AND IM SORRY. mY PARENTS ARE JEWISH ORTHODOX, AND THEY ALMOST MADE ME APPLY FOR THE IDF, BUT THE COUNTRY RULED AGAINST IT, I WOULD FIGHT FOR MY NATIVE COUNTRY, BUT I CANT, SO IM SORRY, BUT THIS IS SUPPOSED TO BE A PLACE FOR JOY. IF YOU NEED HELP, THAN TALK TO SOMEONE, TRUST ME IT WORKS, THIS IS THE FIRST TIME I THOUGHT ABOUT JULIEN IN THE PAST WEEK