my life has sucked since i was 6. my mom had cancer. we have no dad (me and my sis) and we went to bed hungry a lot. people just didnt want to help. then i met my best friends ever, we had a tight nit group. then we had to move. they seem not to care about me sometimes. im bullied for being smart. i just hate it all. ik some people r worse off, but all that on top of being depressed and the meds not working and my ibs, its so horrible. i almost killed myself the other day. just to get away from mom. it just doesnt seem worth it. i mean, sure i have plans for the future, but its just so far away it seems. like, i get to drive in a year and a few months. im going to a nice private school next year. and all this has made me not feel right, and just overall depressed. i tell my mom "what do u want me to do about it?" in a smartalleck way. i tell her i need new/better depression meds, she tells me, u have an appointment on the 2nd.
sorry for telling u all this if u dont care, i just needed to vent some and to talk myself out of what im feeling.