HOE SHNAP.
Aftershock is disintegrating, I spy. This is the third time I haven't updated in time, and my writer's block doesn't seem to be letting up. Point of No Return is the last complete chapter I have!
Of course, I mean in no way to let it die. No,m that just doesn't happen with my fictions, I think. it just might have to suffer a hiatus of indeterminate duration, while I catch up with my original pace. Ahhh... this fiction has been the fastest to progress, but also the fastest to lose fire out of all my works.
Well, keeping that morbid note in mind, let us commence with chapter 11! More gore this time, the usual staple of horror movies, though I hope this version differs sufficiently from that particular bird of prey.
Aftershock
Chapter 11: Point of No Return
The earliest remaining memory, immediately after my blackout, was of a blurred, pale-yellow figure hunched over my form.
As my senses focused back into vividness, I realized I was lying on my back in a deserted section of some unknown city, my clothes arranged in tatters over my body. I remembered again how to swivel the pupils of my eyes, and a dusty alley stretched out before and behind me, showing not a sign of life. I could barely make out the distant knives of silver, camouflaged with the reflections of the setting sun which shone directly into this rift – Saffron City’s steel skyscrapers.
Ytarrik, presumably, had sensed my sudden peril and followed me here, for he was beside me once again, looking out (as I did) into the dying sunlight. In any case, he claimed to have been shut from my mind for the entire duration of the lapse, and I wondered what truly I had done.
Regaining control of my limbs, I jumped smoothly from my prone position and strode quickly out of the side-path, Ytarrik seeming not to follow. I had little distance to erase before I suddenly emerged into a large expanse of space, a center in the city; looming impressively over me, as they had always, were the old mansion and laboratory of Professor Kalens Oak. In the twilight which was soon enveloping the city, the great rows of arched windows were melancholy eyes peering into withered night, and the turrets and chimneys, both indistinguishable from the other, seemed to carry the weight of the skies on their weary heads. The domed conservatory adjoining was darkened by the deprivation of light, though faint signs of Pokèmon movement were still emanating for close perception to see. These invisible flashes of light only served to make the gloom all the more prevalent.
The continuous sunlight on my eyes and the previous exertion had subdued the strength of my Mightyena blood, but it was soon regaining its parasitic footing on my wasted limbs, following the dominating night. The vapours returned to whip about over my body with characteristic lust, and a severe dehydration of a pain, induced from the continuous influence of sunlight in my senseless daze, made its existence apparent only by leaving rapidly. As I raised a hand to shield my eyes, an unusual flare of vapour leaped out to obscure my view for a moment.
I stopped in mid-stride.
The glimpse was infinitesimal, but the change so sheer and vast that it imprinted itself vividly into my memory. Through the lens of the translucent mist, the greenhouse glass had shattered, and its metal frame melted into the main mansion, as though blown apart by an explosive force from its right. The fallen glass of the conservatory dotted deformed, melted shards over the main wreckage, a wilderness of ash-mounds and unrecognizably charred figures: which bird, or beast, or fish or plant they had once been, no observer can say. Vast, near-unrealistic piles of skulls, larger and stranger formed than human components, lay over mangled jumbles of indiscriminate bones in varying sizes. However, it was to the mansion that my attention was chiefly given.
The vast majority of the building was crumbled to its foundations, but the general structure of the double staircases of the entrance hall still remained, and their outstretched arms cradled the lone remains of a human, standing out from the fallen glory. The soot-blackened bones were strung together weakly by the fuse of persistent bits of charred ligament, and the black, withered muscles hung loosely from the limbs, but it was upright with an unnatural energy, its permanent grin lit with an abominable glint. Balanced within the eye-sockets were half-molten spheres of gold, slowly falling apart, oozing down in splatters across the hollowed cheekbones; within the ribcage reclined a pulsating heart, its severed openings occasionally sputtering with the remains of dried blood which caked the surrounding bones. It was difficult to determine, but I believe I saw flanking the organ a set of withered lungs, wheezing and secreting a trickle of some unknown fluid. As I stared at the figure, my interest piqued, a pair of sapphire pupils squelched out of the midst of the melting eyes to gaze at me accusingly – and the vapours passed, and the vision was gone.
Profoundly intrigued, I entered the atrium.
Kalens Oak, certain as the blood poisoning my own, was standing before me in the hall, a melancholy smile on his aged features. He wore a tweed coat and tie, and the bowl hat on his graying hair served to accentuate his resemblance to the old trainer Gentlemen on their world-voyages. I was given entirely to his frail harmlessness, taken by the quiet twinkle of hidden knowledge within the fragile frame, and it was with a sinking feeling that I walked towards him.
“Hello, Amaren,” he said levelly. “I see you’ve regained consciousness.”
I replied with a blank look of puzzlement.
“But not your wits yet, I see. Well, perhaps my recounting of the tale should demonstrate.
“What you see with your naked eye,” he continued, “is a detailed illusion set up by myself; what you can see through the filter of your vapours is my true situation. I made this illusion to prevent the consequent shock of raising my hands to eye level.” All this was said with polite amiability, as though discussing the weather.
“Why, what have I done?” I exclaimed.
“To be precise, you entered my house at half-past midnight, superhumanly powerful and unreasonable under the influence of Mightyena blood. After speaking to me at great lengths about the darkness of your soul (if I recall correctly), you stripped the container off the base of my blender, exposing the naked cross-blades, turned on the motor, and made quick work of the majority of my vital organs. After that, I can only suppose you set the conservatory and the house to fire and left me here to burn.”
I slumped against the wall, my head spinning. “Kalens, I’m sorry. How are you…”
“Alive?” he finished.
I nodded gratefully.
“It seems your influence was so strong as to lend some of your invincibility to me. From what I surmise, at this point, any number of injuries can befall me, but my general form will remain the same. Of course, I can additionally never die, though I am not exempt from pain. Currently, certain of my nerve endings are still keeping connections to the mind; but once they die out, I shall be capable of no physical feeling. What led you to such a delirious state, however?”
I grasped control of my vocal chords. “I was letting down my guard against the Mightyena isolation, but I slipped. Went too far. After that, I don’t remember
anything…
“How did my assimilation come to affect you, though?”
He gazed at me for an intent moment. “Amaren, do you really not know? This is no chemical component of the flesh of a Dark-type; it is the naked substance of the very soul of
the element. What you are injecting into yourself is only metaphorically blood!”
“You mean – “
“Yes, that’s exactly what I mean. The poison running through your blood is what makes a nip on the shoulder by a Poochyena so lethal; not a venom on their teeth, but a portion of their very element! Under appropriate influences, any object your mind is even directed towards will be infected.”
“But – I should have known! I never even considered that possibility! Kalens, why didn’t you tell me?”
“You never gave me a chance to,” he sighed.
“This is all so monstrously wrong; I’d never thought I would be
this deep! Surely, I made my farces, I told you, so many times, that I would never be the same, but…”
“It is impossible to estimate exactly the business you are considering until it’s too late, unfortunately.”
I raised my hands, coated in a writhing mass of shadow. I had used these very hands to sentence living creatures to death by torture; I had so often shed the blood of uncooperative strangers into these collectors, but to think, mere moments ago, that I had sprayed them with the innards of my last remnant of old Saffron…
I stepped back, into the shadow of a cabinet; and, as the shadowy vapours sprung into greater life, some of my old strength returned. My barriers began to reform.
“Why am I shocked?” I suddenly said aloud. The professor instantly saw the state of affairs, and replied with a look of resignation. He had suffered enough.
“The merry tale of lies I had been stirring of my lot has finally come true, I think.” I laughed insanely, harshly. “I’d always wanted to be the sufferer of a thousand wrongs, out on his bloodthirsty rampage of vengeance into the arms of hell, and now I am!”
The grief was welling up inside me as the welling of intestinal fluid within the Rattata’s papery skin, but it went no farther; my insides, raging in self-pity and horror, were entirely separate from the overtaking entity within my face, turning it into a maniacal, craven mask.
“Listen, Amaren,” Oak pleaded, struggle coming back into his weary eyes. “You can work out of this.
Everything can be healed! Come with me, I’ll – “
But he saw me raise a tendril of vapour once again to my eyes, signaling the darkness of my deeds, and faltered.
“Give up, old man. You can restore a corrupted Amaren back to his original form, you say? Can you bring him back to life? This isn’t Amaren, this is a Luphinid,
the Luphinid!”
“No,” he defied. “No, I’ll never believe that.” And, bothering to hear only a fragment of his parting words, I whipped out of the mansion.
As though suffering the very swings of mood of the Rattata I had subjected to torture, at the beginning of my illustrious career, all anger, or hatred, or bitter-spirited cynicism, emptied out of me as water through a sieve. I was wasted, a dead leaf to the mercy of my assimilation’s whim, and as soon as I exited the house I melded into the darkness as I could so skillfully do, moving instantaneously through patches of shadow out into the darkened grassland.
The rosy glow that had lit the sunsetting field in my memories was removed entirely, and the artificial shine of the night-city and the chalky moon bathed the stalks in the light of long-past glory; a sea of writhing, phantom tentacles persevered fruitlessly to drown me in their suffering. I sunk into the darkness of the ever-shifting wind itself, the cold remorseless whisper of winter, and seas of viridian, dotted with blurs of cerulean, vermillion, abysmal navy, fuchsia, all crumbled away in my wake, leaving only the dark gray-blue of the night sky as legacies.
I fell into the shores of Route 19, the merciless eye of the vigilant moon pursuing me through all my suffering, and I saw fully the bitterness of my thought, that such a dazzling silver should burn me so repugnantly. From within the cover of this coverless wasteland of sand protruded a single, disease-ridden hand, embracing this never-warming light though it scalded him with a passion. I broke out of all restraint, running out onto the shimmering sands and the furnace of silver fire, burning, my skin on a fire more agonizing than hell, more divine than heaven, and I didn’t care that I was slowly shriveling into ash, that my flesh was nothing without the influence of the shadows which rapidly deserted my pain…
Do you feel alive now? asked the slowly-roiling waves, and I ignored their sarcasm. Yes, I felt alive; alive with the agony and the ecstasy of perspiration, alive with the last remnants of the fire which burned so brightly once, which now simmered remorsefully in its dying embers, never forgetting past glory. As I ran across the sands, it seemed as though the entire ensemble of the original party emerged from the trees to run with me, dancing around me as harmonies to my thought; Ytarrik, and Angin, and Lepena and Akale, their emotions fluorescing in my own to rise above their differences and transcend into a dark climax of brilliance.
My melody rose above all the rest, buttressed and complemented by theirs; and it was a symphony of feeling, of life in all its glory and defeat, such that the land shook in surprise at the beauty of this display which sprung so unexpectedly from my darkness. Rainbow threads of light branched out from our surrounding halo, spiraling around us in a canopy of shimmering colour, meeting together at our apex, our receptacle, our focus for the last memory of beauty which still thrilled our aching bones; all our power and life gathered for this blow, falling into the single, skyward Hyper Beam, seconds before wiping us out in an explosion of joy –
The sea rose up to engulf me as I stumbled into its frigid arms, and all our creations crumbled as ash before the wind, losing their complexity and falling back into our straining bodies. I had never truly known joy; I had never truly been alive. As the dark, inhospitable womb of the nighttime sea covered me whole, and the last filtering beams of moonlight dissolved into oblivion, I knew that no trace of light had ever permeated my essence; the show of light I had endeavoured towards was merely a farce.
I didn’t want my strength! I didn’t want the instantaneous speed, or the infinite wisdom, or the invincibility; even the maturity I had developed prematurely I would happily forego for the last flare of the summer sun, lazing under the golden fields of Saffron with the fragrance of clean, living flesh surrounding me and the beauty of a peaceful forest wafting from the nearby outskirts. If only I had ever had a choice, if only I had lived a true, formed life, if only I had never been stunted from the beginning, perfect as Ruki was in her short time – but speculation was vain. Surely, I would endure infinite losses to regain the life of Amaren, but I would never have the opportunity, would I? As my body hit the dark, sunless seafloor, and I deemed it time to swim out of my weakness and back to shore, I knew that not a single connection lay between my life and his, and no opportunity to bridge the distance. I was Luphinid Remana Silnaek, indestructible, monstrous, unforgivable, malformed, infected, and so I would eternally remain.
For there was no merciful one to forgive me. What angel would sink from the land of light to deliver
me?
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Over the ensuing decades, I devoted the vast entireties of my life to the sole act of righting, my techniques growing more ruthless and effective with every wrong, my certainty in my sentence setting deeper into concrete. Several times I considered returning to Oak, but in all my beleaguered visits to his ruined mansion never did I waver in my conviction, force-feeding myself the lies which had formed all my essence: that he was tainted with my blood, and incapable of true deliverance, so deep into my quicksand; that only one element of the world would heal me, and it was so removed from my life that the possibility could never occur onto my path; that it was unlikely in any case that the professor yet truly believed in me through all my wrongs and refusals. What matter was it that I could have been healed; that a simple admittance to a dear friend could have brought me back to some semblance of sanity? These were possibilities, but I was positive they would never transpire, and content in the assurance of my dark depression.
Certain metamorphoses had been crawling sluggishly through my body, result of my sins, my abhorrence of warmth, and my frequent brushes with lethal wrongs and addictive assimilations. I have been describing them disconnectedly at moments when they came to prominence, but perhaps it shall be more decisive and detailed to depict their long-term results at this point, though we are far from the end of my tale. Soon after an almost opaque peak of domination on the part of the Dark vapours over my hands, they withdrew entirely into my arms, leaving the flesh of the palms entirely untouched, though infused with a distinctive pallor. After the decimation of my velvet jacket, I took to the old-fashioned cloaks of ancient times, almost magelike, trailing in kingly drapes behind me; and over the unnatural silver hands I drew black gloves to hide the lustre. Though a hood deigned to obscure my face in half-shadow, streak by streak, shard after shard, my once-mellow dark brown eyes transformed into a piercing silver, more unnatural and more dazzling than the whites of my eyes; and they shone out in contrast from the dimmed vagueness of my features under the darkness of my attire.
I gained several vague, nameless abilities to do with the Dark type: superhuman strength, instantaneous speed through shadows, even the weak manipulation of light to shine away from a given object. Through a cold night wind I could twist my speed into flight, and move ambiguously high up into the heavens, skirting past the innumerable stars as a bodiless concept of no concrete shape or position. This was not to say, however, that I was free of limitations: continuous exposure to any natural, celestial light burned me (slightly, first, then at increasing degrees of harm), and I fell prey to many such senseless lapses of reason and memory of the kind which destroyed Kalens Oak. But for the most part my changes were almost inconsequential to few but me, harming me in subtle ways. Over time, my biological clock, the very permanent machinations of my body, shifted to an entirely nocturnal schedule, and I woke up well into the midst of midnight and moved into sleep at the arrival of the sunrise, taking care to insulate fully from the light. Indeed, in the later portions of my transformations my very respiration dipped into shallower and shallower gulps, until with vague surprise, near my one hundred and fiftieth year, I realized I had stopped breathing.
Ah, I seem to have forgotten to mention: assimilation had also granted me longevity, as though a human’s life of my infernal existence was too little. An assimilation heightener of the Mightyena is granted, on average, two hundred years, during which he rises to greater and greater levels of power before suddenly self-destructing. At the final moments before death, the skill and ability of the human is almost godly, and many choose this opportunity to perform their final act: a spectacular finale of their twisted, glorious life.
And revel in the glory I did, the reaches of my long arms growing greater and more precise with every heightening, every obliteration of a wrong. It seems I had been entertaining a species of involuntary hope before the moment of Kalens’ defilement, forsaking the possibility of salvation while still unhealthily attached to memories of those days. Shortly after the half-death of my mentor, however, in my despair (as though I had taken the thoughts of a man moments before near-inevitable death and held on to them for my eternity), I accepted the impossibility of clean, beautiful joy and made do with the alternative: power-lust, and vanity, and the adrenaline of near-death. They served a type of emotional fuel very similar to assimilation heightening in its efficiency at driving my deprived struggle on as long as I wished. I had no future; no harm could be done in practices which ruined it beyond recognition.
It was, therefore, this introduction into the full philosophy of my life which made the time ripe for a certain influence to take me by storm.