I should start stalking you, Sogeking. Your posts are my drugs.
Diagnosed with depression? Ask your doctor about Prescription-Only Sogeking. Helps relieve stress by releasing laughs, cackles, and backed-up feces.
Side effects include embarassment as a victim, losing your spleen, getting fired, etc. Talk to your doctor to see if Sogeking is right for you.
Or get some Soge 'O's! On supermarket shelves near you.
All Sogeking aside, yes, you are insane.
You may want to take a detour from self-realization and skip right to the Suicide and Morality thread in the debate forum. I know I wouldn't want to continue in an obsession like that. And how many tens of years younger than you is she? Pedophilia? That could be another problem entirely.
Go ask Sogeking on that one- he's the expert.
Did you know that he was brutally raped at the age of 5? Every Labor Day he gets put to work by his rapist.