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Broken Things


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This is a story about not being okay. There will be attempts to recreate the language of downward spirals, suicidal ideation, eating disorders, personality disorders, anxiety, and possibly other things. I will do my best to provide chapter warnings for chapters dealing explicitly with suicidal ideation or eating disorders. If there are other notices you would like me to add, feel free to ask. Mild references to substance use, but nothing will be ever shown on page.
This story deals with analogues to real world groups, albeit through an alternate universe lens. I have personal experience with some, but definitely not all of the things this story deals with. I have tried to read enough to not make big mistakes in my knowledge gaps, but I'll probably screw up. Feel absolutely free to point out any portrayals that don't sit well or quite work. As a minor disclaimer, not all POV characters are terribly knowledgeable about things. There are some "mistakes" made that I know full well are mistakes. And also the usual "no character could possibly encompass all aspects of an identity" thing.

Mission One: Normal

"Times of transition are strenuous, but I love them. They are an opportunity to purge, rethink priorities, and be intentional about new habits. We can make our new normal any way we want."
-Kristin Armstrong


Normal 1.1: Silver and Lead

The room is cold and clean and empty.

You drum your fingers on the table and hear the sounds of metal being struck and all the little echoes bouncing off of the glass and the walls. It fills the room but hurts your hand; you stop and the room is empty again. You think about going back to swinging your legs and sometimes kicking the side of the chair on accident but that hurt, too.

It has been a long time since the police officers left you in here. You don’t know how long. You’re pretty good at reading clocks now, even the old ones with the moving sticks, but there isn’t one in this room.

This is maybe the longest time out you’ve ever been given.

You’re cold. You’re cold and you want to cry. You’re cold and you want to cry and you want Dad to come and hold you but he can’t because Dad’s

The door opens with the sound of metal scraping across metal.

Two police officer men walk in. Their footsteps echo on the floor and fill the room with a power that none of your sounds ever matched. They sit down across from you and the door swings shut.

One leans forward and he clears his throat. Then he presses a finger against the part of the shirt right over his heart like he’s pressing a doorbell. “This is Sergeant Rick Johnson of the Virbank City Police Department. The time is 14:29 on May 11th, 1999. Can you state your name for the record, ma’am?”

You stare at him until he clears his throat again and you realize the last part wasn’t directed at the air or his pocket, but at you.

“My name is Rachel Eliza Bell.”

You speak as clearly as you can, but your voice doesn’t fill the emptiness of the room like the police officer’s does.

“And what’s your date of birth?”


“What’s your birthday?” He clarifies.

“April 16th.”

“And how old are you now?”


The other officer pulls out a notepad and a pen and starts writing on it. Did you say something wrong?

“Miss Bell, do you have any idea why you’re here today?”


You try to put words together but the officer gets bored first and speaks up.

“The department has been looking into a murder. Husband of a police officer found dead in the woods outside of town, anti-police graffiti on the trees around the area. The deceased was Marcus Bell.”

He looks you dead in the eyes for a few seconds. Was… was that a question?

“Yes,” you say.

“What was your relationship to the deceased?”

“I’m sorry—”

“How did you know Marcus Bell?”

“He’s my father.”

Everyone else keeps using past words. Was. Were. It’s… he’s still your father. Even if

“Right. Miss Bell, do you know what ‘death’ is?”


Your herdier (Fluffy) was playing in the street and got hit by a car when you were six and a half. You know what death is.

The man keeps going, barely letting your tinny echoes ring before he smothers them.

“We still haven’t found a suspect in the case. Now, your teacher says that you have an… interesting theory on the matter.”

You don’t like his eyes. At all. They’re the eyes your mom has when you spill things or interrupt her while she’s on the phone.

“Well, we’re here now. And we’d certainly appreciate it if you knew who did it.”

The other police officer has put the notebook down. He’s also showing you mean eyes, but… less. More like Dad’s mean eyes than Mom’s.

“Mom did it,” you whisper. It’s so quiet that there isn’t an echo at all.

“Can you speak up, miss?”

“My mom did it.”

“Your mother is Evelyn Bell, correct?”

You swallow down nothing and try not to cry. Your mom hates it when you cry and it might be a police thing.

“Your mother is—”


It’s a quiet yes, but he doesn’t make you speak up again.

“She is currently an eleven-year veteran of the Virbank Police Department, correct?”

“I… I don’t know how long she’s been your friend.”

Officer Johnson sighs, rolls his eyes, and leans back into his chair.

“And why do you think Mrs. Bell killed her husband?”

You squirm in your seat. You just know. The feeling in the back of your head that tells you who took your pencil, or that Ms. Bethany thought you were annoying, or that Officer Johnson doesn’t believe you, or that the other police officer does but doesn’t care.

“Well, speak up.”

“A feeling,” you say. “In my head.”

Officer Johnson smiles. It’s very… wrong with the subject and the feelings.

“Rachel, I can’t imagine what you must be going through right now. But your mommy loved your daddy very much, and she has an alibi. Unless you have some real proof…”

He trails off. Gives you a chance to prove it to him. Which you can’t.

Even if you know that you’re right.


Three firm knocks on the door.

“Miss Bell? Mr. Sanchez is here.”

You look up and blink. Had you fallen asleep at your desk? It… happens, but you thought you’d gotten better at noticing.

“Send him in, Sheryl.”

The door opens and a tall, tanned man in an ill-fitting suit walks in. He glances around your office before his eyes finally settle on you. Only then does he walk forwards, hand extended.

“Hey. Manuela Sanchez. With The Battler.”

You stand up and shake his hand. His grip is a little too firm, but you’re just mature enough not to crush him back.

“Rachel Bell. Vice President of VStar.”

You both sit and he flicks out a notepad.

“Alright, so VStar.”

A feeling flashes in the back of your mind and you know that he’s cheating on his pregnant wife.

Eh. Could be worse.

You smile. “VStar,” you repeat.

“So, uh, Rachel—can I call you Rachel?”


“Right. What does VStar do? Just to make sure that I’m on base.”

“Of course.” You never stop smiling. “VStar helps fund trainers who might not have the means to complete an island challenge, or trainers who just finished an island challenge but can’t afford to keep all of their partners. We help them get rid of excess pokémon and give them to people who want them and can’t get one. Busy professionals and parents, the disabled, or just people who don’t have a team strong enough to go into the species natural habitat. Everyone wins.”

“Right, right. And how many users do you have?”

“Depends on how you define ‘users,’ Manuela. Right now we have 166 trainers currently on their journey with the app. Not all of them are active users. Several hundred trainers traded their pokémon in last year, a few thousand purchased a pokémon on the app.”


More notes. He doesn’t press into what your vague numbers mean. He’s not normally on the business beat, usually just does puff pieces on trainers in the Americas. Excused or not, it’s terribly sloppy. Not that you’re going to give him ideas.

“So, Rachel, are you a trainer?”

“Espy,” you call.

Your espeon gently rises to his paws before moving from his climbing structure in the corner to your desk in a single, elegant leap. He walks over to you and nuzzles your hand.

“I know the name’s basic, but come on, I was ten.”

Manuela laughs in a way that might be flirtatious appeasement or genuine amusement. Just on the border of being genuine. “I named my growlithe ‘Fuego’ back in the day, so I can’t really talk.”

{Espy, can you pay attention to him?}

{Treat?} he shoots back, mentally.


Satisfied, Espy walks across the desk and looks at Manuela expectantly. He starts to rub Espy’s ears without asking your permission. Espy recoils slightly and his tail flicks in disgust. Espeon aren’t that fragile, but they can feign injury better than a pro footballer.

“So, you bring your pokémon to the office?”

“Of course. We are a pokémon company, after all.”

Espy starts to turn away from Manuela and he rubs a hand over his back as the espeon leaves.

{Two treats,} you signal.

Espy turns back around.

“How long have you had her?” he asks.

You don’t bother to correct the gender. Espy doesn’t really care, and most people think of all espeon as female. “Since I was ten.”

“I meant how many years?”

You crack your smile a little wider. “Since I was ten.”

It takes him a half second, but he starts to laugh and you join. This time you get a better read on him, and you’re pretty sure he’s more interested in you and your body than the company right now.

“Is she your only pokémon?”

You shake your head. “I also raise an alakazam. But he’s moving up in the years and doesn’t really like coming to the office.”

His eyes widen.. Any half decent pokémon journalist know what alakzam ownership means. It’s why you aren’t going to replace Allen when he dies.

“So, you’re psychic?”

You nod. “Yeah.”

“You in my mind right now?” he asks with a raised eyebrow.

“I’m not that kind of psychic,” you say. Even though you essentially are that kind of psychic. But you really don’t think he’d appreciate it if you went into the details of the Standardized International Psychic Application Assessment, General and Specific Forms.

He relaxes. A lot. So much that he consciously corrects it by stiffening a little.

“So, what kind of psychic are you?” he asks.

You really doubt this is returning to the company, which is probably for the best. He clearly doesn’t have an interest in it anyway.

“Precognition. Get about a half second warning before I get physically hurt.”

“Huh. So, never been in a car crash?”

You laugh. “No, but that’s because I’m an excellent driver. Not because I’m a psychic. Really just means that I never stub my toe.”

“Oh.” He half-frowns. The kind that’s more unconscious than not. “Thought it’d be more useful.”

“It lets me train my alakazam,” you suggest.

“Yeah. I guess. You battle with them?”

“On the weekends. Chris likes his lieutenants to be halfway decent in a fight.”

He perks up at the casual mention of your boss. Because of course they do. You’re a pretty girl with a brain quirk and an espeon. Chris Foster? He’s the eight-time-running United States champion, highest ranked trainer in the world, tamer of victini, and at least the seventh biggest pain in the ass in Alola.

Yeah. Seeing that light in his eyes, you doubt Chris can mess things up too much. Maybe Manuela would be even more impressed by the man behind the curtain.

“You know, I think I can set up an interview with him.”

“Really? I had been told that he’s too busy.”

“Of course, but you’re The Battler. I’m sure he can find the time.”

You don’t doubt that. Competitive pokémon journalism and competitive trainers have this self-validating cycle where the journalists build up the trainers into semi-divine heroes in the public eye, and then revel in the attention they get from the celebrities they created. But you still have to screen these interviews, in case the sky fell and The Battler decided to blaspheme their gods.

You’re still reeling from a Hau’oli Tribune column last month calling VStar “Evil Incorporated.” It had taken you two hours on the phone with Chris to talk him down from making that the official name of the company.

You give Manuela the number of Chris’s secretary, exchange the parting pleasantries, and sit back down. Espy looks at you expectantly, so you take two treats out and put them on the table. It’s always fascinating watching the espeon eat, even after seventeen years. He nudges a treat into place with the tip of his claw, steps back, and lifts the treat just a little bit into the air. Then he pulls back his whispers and brings his mouth around it before swallowing it whole. No crumbs ever touch his fur.

With his food eaten, Espy levitates the crumbs off the desk and into the wastebasket. Then he stretches out, walks in a circle, and gracefully sits down with his tail outstretched and a paw on your hand.

{You’re tired.} he says.

“I could use a nap.”

{Mind tired.}

You pull up your schedule instead of giving him an answer.

New journey group initiation today. You should stop by that, scan for potential problems before they blow up in your face.

The governor’s having a fundraiser tonight and you’ll be there. He’s a nice man. Genuinely likes you. Has a tendency to talk a little too much when he’s lonely and just a little bit tipsy and trusts someone. And given the way that things seem to be going at home and in the polls, well, he’s very lonely and probably drinking a little more than he should with his office. And it’s your job to be likeable and trustworthy. When the public thinks of your company, they should think of their beloved sports star and hero. When the elites do, they should think of the pretty blond girl who either kind of flirted with them in just the way they liked or who gave them the kind of compliments they needed. Put a pretty face on your operation so no one ever wants to peel off the surface and look beneath.

Between the two meetings? Email. Hours of email. And maybe a quick nap, if you’re lucky.


It’s an hour into orientation. Sometimes you’ll stay to watch the full thing, make sure that you know what’s being taught and how. Saves you time when the wrong person leaks the wrong thing (that they remembered wrong) and you have to figure out what really happened before you can tell the press what pretty much happened.

First few hours are nothing important, anyway. Here’s a little about Alola and the island challenge. What are tents and why should you use one? Like your food? Try not to get it stolen. Budgeting could maybe be helpful. This predator lives in these places and here is how you avoid it. The basics of life on the trail, with or without VStar.

The sensitive stuff—payment methods and tables, how to stay within the letter of the law, corporate facilities and affiliates, mortality rates, advancement paths, mission assignments, legal duties to the company—that all gets crammed in at the end.

Room’s emptier than usual. Only eight initiates, most mid- to upper-teens. It’s to be expected. October is a garbage month for starting a journey since it’s in the middle of a semester and right at the start of the rainy season. Most of your new trainers come to the April, May, and June sessions. The people who come in October are the really over-eager ten-year-olds who can’t wait to get on the trail or teenagers who can’t stay in their home a second longer.

Group isn’t bored yet. Doesn’t pay you too much mind when you sit down in a corner chair. Half of them look at you for a moment before glancing back to the presentation. One girl’s eyes linger for a little until she makes eye contact and immediately turns away.

Okay. Time to start scanning.

A lot of telepaths just read minds like a book. Or a monitor with code shifting faster than you could ever hope to read, as a former roommate put it. Your talent doesn’t work that way. It’s more akin to sonar. Send out a wave, wait to see what image you get back. Usually it just dredges up a secret or two: the thing that there’s the most resistance to you knowing. If you really focus you can get a general profile of all the parts and how they fit together, but you don’t get any of the details. Just the strengths and weaknesses and thought structure.

Theoretically you could have your scan bring everything back, but it’d probably take you a week to process and land you in a hospital bed for a few months. If you were lucky.

You click your tongue on the roof of your mouth (not necessary, but it helps you focus) and look at the first kid. And he is very much a kid. Ten, probably. Biggest secret is that his parents don’t want him to do this. Definitely an overeager child whose family won’t or can’t pay for the journey. No security risk, as long as someone sits him down and explains what the non-disclosure agreements mean.

Second ping. Another boy, late teens this time. Got a girl pregnant and ran away to avoid the fallout. Probably doesn’t have the money to pay for a journey and parental assistance is very unlikely. Life choices are crap and he might not stay for the full journey, but he’ll be good for some low-level missions up front and he’ll probably trade everything in when he does decide to face the consequences. Moderate security risk. Probably shouldn’t be told anything really sensitive, but you’ll greenlight him.

Third kid. Girl, mid-teens… scion of one of the Big Six landowning families. You automatically fire off a contour scan to supplement the secret dredging. Your main question is why she’s even her. VStar gives structure, but it’s not the most efficient way to go on a journey. And the money can’t possibly matter to her unless she’s been exiled or she ran away.

Exile is unproblematic, although it’s the type of gossip you’d like to be aware of. If she did something bad enough that her family would bring hell down upon you for sheltering her, you would have heard what she did by this point. If she’s a runaway her family might give you endless PR and legal hell until you give their daughter back.

Supplemental scan doesn’t dig up much. Kid’s kind of flighty, kind of lonely. Cautious and kind at her core. Very recent trauma with a trail of shame before and ahead of it. And maybe something buried. Supports either theory, but her temperament makes you think she’s not a runaway. Minds like hers are allergic to rebellion.

Fourth is an addict to harder stuff than anything you’ve ever dared experiment with. Only mid-teens, too. What a waste of a life. Moderate security risk.

Fifth is female, probably native. Kleptomaniac. Old enough to have been involved in Skull back in its heyday. Very high security risk. Shouldn’t let her download the app or sit through the last hour of the presentation.

Sixth. Young girl. Probably ten, maybe eleven. And she’s… oh. Abuse. Probably getting away as soon as possible. Smart kid. You’ll look the parents up so you have blackmail at the ready if they try and take their kid back. Low security risk.

Seventh is… familiar? You try to never forget a face but it still just eludes you. By the second minute of staring he’s (she’s?) definitely noticed and you avert your gaze. Secret dredging time then. See what you missed…

Yup. You recognized her. Jabari’s little sister. And for some reason she really, really doesn’t want you to know that. Definitely need to look into that situation. Could be a high risk or a very low one. Probably shouldn’t do a further scan. Jabari might take it the wrong way.

The eighth is in her mid-teens? Early teens? Still very thin, but her features make her look a little older. Native girl, if you had to guess. Jade green hair. If it’s natural, it’s rare but not unheard of. If it’s dyed, then you need to ask her where she got it done. Big thing? She’s blind. Half-closed eyes, white cane, whole deal. Can she really do this? You aren’t going to send a kid out into the woods knowing that she’ll get killed by the first predator she can’t see coming.

Still, in case you don’t rule her out, a secret scan can’t hurt.

A moment later alarm bells of panic and despair and random memories and pain rock your mind. The thoughts came back to you after the scan but it’s like they were cut up in a blender, sharpened into daggers and then launched straight back into your brain. An attack? How? She’s…

Yours eyes open wider as it dawns on you. She’s psychic. Probably another telepath. Strong. And not trained in any style you’re familiar with. All that? And native? And blind? This definitely shouldn’t be the first you’ve heard of her. You like to think that you’ve met every other psychic in the commonwealth and not a one has ever mentioned her.

You got her attention. She’s slowly rotating her head to survey the room with either sound or some remaining vision, her foot tapping nervously the whole time.

How do you salvage this? It’s literally never happened before, and that’s not something you can say very often these days. Thought process isn’t helped by the thrum of pain in your head, alternating sharp and dull so you never quite get used to it. You breathe deeply and send her a special ping, one with a message attached.

{Sorry. I’m Rachel. Work for VStar. Talk after this?}

Short, simple concepts. They translate best. Especially if she mostly thinks in Hawaiian. And it’s all you’re really capable of now after the beating you just took.

There’s not an immediate response, but you can feel her mind through the partial connection. It’s a terrible risk, leaving the connection open. If she’s a stronger telepath than you are, and you just gave her an access point to your mind… well, who knows what she could do with that. You’ve seen enough telepaths in your life that you don’t even want to imagine it.

{…hi?} You let out a sigh of relief. She’s not hostile. Not yet. {Are you human?}

You smile in spite of yourself. She might be strong, but she’s either bluffing or she has absolutely no idea what she’s doing. You could probably take her in a fight in your own mind while injured, if you had to. And she’s kind of cute; it’s fun watching the babies learn.

{Yes. I’m Rachel. Work for VStar. Talk after orientation?}

{Okay,} she shoots back almost immediately. A second passes as you ready your response. {Am I in trouble?}

{No. Want to talk.}


She leans forward in her seat and sets her arms down on the table. She sends no further messages. You should probably leave her now. Let her pay attention to the boring travel stuff. She, of all people, is going to need it.


Your alarm goes off at 3:00 P.M. and you swear at the ceiling before awkwardly rolling over in your pop-up hammock and turning it off. It had been a ninety-minute nap (really forty-five since you replied to some emails while lying still with the lights off). And you still feel miserable. How does that work?

Well… part of that’s the mental bruising. A cold and empty memory that keeps resurfacing, feelings of panic when looking at random objects, a slight fog over everything, and random sights and sounds getting turned into metal walls and tinny echoes. Plus you have an absolutely brutal headache. You make a point of taking an aspirin, knowing that it won’t really help but hoping the placebo effect does enough to make you comfortable. Which might negate the placebo effect. Is there a placebo effect where you know that the placebo effect does make people feel better, but that it doesn’t actually do anything physically, but the thought that this might make you feel better even though it doesn’t work makes you improve anyway because you half-expect it to? A placebo placebo effect.

This definitely isn’t making your headache any better.

First things first. You text the instructor to make sure that the possible Skull defector gets kicked out before the mortality tables come up. VStar’s mortality rates are lower than the League’s, but dead kids are dead kids and it never feels like there’s anything to say, much less anything good.

Second: a phone call. Two rings. Voicemail. Saw it but can’t or won’t answer. Understandable, since his job involves herding dragons. The room is cold and clean and empty. Focus. Deep breaths. The third ceiling tile diagonal from the corner does not want to kill you. Voicemail. You’re in your office, the year is 2020, and you are leaving a voicemail. The metal—not metal—walls have light blue wallpaper. “Hey, Jabari. This is Rachel. Call me back when you get a chance. It’s about your sister.”

Third: Ernest Gage’s daughter. That one you might have to deal with in person, or at least at the fundraiser tonight. He and his wife will probably be there. It would be rude to get the information directly on such a sensitive subject, but there will be other attendees who love nothing more than swapping secrets. The room is cold and clean

Fourth: …nah, Chris can’t screw up the interview that badly. You’ll save that for tomorrow.

Fifth: You pull up the new trainer’s files. Abused girl is Aiko Katou. Mother is a barber, dad is a plumber. Good news is that they can’t really go after the company.—They don’t believe you and never will.—Bad news is that if the family’s got nothing, they’ve got nothing to lose. Blackmail won’t do much. It might only succeed in letting them know where their daughter went. Still might try and get your hands on Why does the ceiling have teeth? By the kings, this headache sucks.

Sixth: Blind girl is Cuicatl Ichtaca. Nahua. Fifteen years old. Here on a challenge visa. Explains how you’ve never heard of her. Didn’t report any pokémon. You’ll need to start her off slow or put her with some strong teammates for her protection, but if she’s psychic then she might be worth keeping around. If your interview checks out. Moles can be annoying; a telepathic mole could be a catastrophe of the highest order. The room is cold and. Stop. Breathe. You can’t find anything online about her and the commonwealth’s immigration services can be annoyingly leak-proof on minors, so that’s the end of that investigation. For now.

Seventh—something brushes against your leg. You look down to see Espy looking up at you, holding his leash in his mouth.

Seventh: Go outside. Take your fox on a walk. Stop thinking about work for a minute. Make new memories. Be calm. Outside is warm and dirty and open.


You pull two water bottles and two packets from the refrigerator tucked under your desk and place them on the table. “Water, if you’re thirsty. I know those meetings last a while. And I put some gummies there, too. Good to eat every two hours or so. Good for your brain.”

Her hand freezes in midair right before taking the water. It’s only for a moment, and she proceeds on like nothing had happened.

“Hey, it’s fine. You can’t be responsible for things you didn’t know to do.”

She doesn’t answer that. Natural shyness? Nervousness? Poor English? You never realize how much your scans are a crutch until you find yourself without them.

“Who are you? Besides your name,” she asks.

You smile. Uselessly. Doesn’t matter either way.

“Right. I’m Rachel. I’m one of the Vice Presidents for VStar. I handle new recruits, among other things.”

“…and I’m not in trouble?”

“No. No, not at all. Just don’t get many psychics passing through. I try to meet with them individually.”

“I meant for the, um. Did I hurt you?”

Yes. Yes, you did.

“Not very much,” you say, bringing a smile into your voice. “Napped, took a walk, cleared my head. It’s fine now.” And it mostly is. Espy could help a little once he had some sunlight to focus on.

Her head dips a little. Shame, probably. “Okay. I’m sorry.”

“No, no. Don’t worry about it. I’m the one who,” time to take a drink of water and figure out how to finish that sentence without sounding invasive, “reached out to your mind first. Should have asked. Standard for new psychics.” You set the bottle down. Nailed it.


Is there a polite way to ask her about her English skills? Because you don’t actually have a Nahuatl speaker in the building. That you know of. Might be a good idea to check.

“You don’t have much training with your powers, do you?”

She gently shakes her head. “No. My mom’s reuniclus taught me a little. I figured some of the rest out. Never met a psychic but my brother.”

“You grew up around pokémon, then?”

Her lips curl into a smile and she makes (near) eye contact as a hundred tiny things change in her expression. She goes from sullen and afraid to absolutely adorable in the blink of an eye.

“Yes. My mom’s team lived near the house. I took care of them. She had a reuniclus, a heatmor, a swanna, a klinklang, a conkeldurr,” she really is infectiously cute when she’s excited, with her kind of high pitched voice and its rapid pace, “and a hydreigon.”

Your heart skips a beat. Her face is the exact same but all of the cuteness gone.

“A hydreigon?”

“Yes! Her names are Alice, Dorothy, and Ilsa. Alice was first so that’s her one name. But she prefers her three names.”

A wild hydreigon flew within thirty miles of the academy once and they shut down classes for a week. Parents accused them of underreacting.

“Uh huh. And, um, you took care of her? Them?”

“She likes ‘ellas.’ She doesn’t know that there’s more than one language and they have different words,” she says. As if this is just a normal thing.

“I see.”

You are very, very glad that she can’t see the color of your face right now. You know full well that you command a telepathic monster that can fry a man’s mind in seconds, but you will never, ever be comfortable with dragons. And why should you? You’ve seen one absolutely shred a tank without breaking a sweat. Do dragons sweat? You have absolutely no desire to look that up.

Focus. You need to change the subject a little. Useful information in those statements? She has a brother, but he’s presumably not here. If Cuicatl cared for her mom’s hydreigon, her mom also can’t be in the picture anymore. Or she was horribly irresponsible. Either way? Dangerous topic. Cuicatl said she doesn’t have any pokémon on the form. How did that happen? Did it happen? She wouldn’t be the first kid to tell a lie on their paperwork. Okay. Alice. Ellas. How did she find out that Alice liked ellas?

“Can you speak to pokémon?”

“Sometimes. Not with Alice. In her mind, at least. But we understand each other.”

“I see. What all can you do with your mind? I can tell secrets and foresee pain.”


She runs a shade paler and you can hear her foot tap against the side of the chair. Nervous tic that you share.

“Not yours. Your shielding is very good. Not trained, but effective.”

“Oh. Thank you. Renfield—reuniclus taught me that.”

That wasn’t an answer. But it does explain why it felt so much like the headaches Espy can give you when she’s really, really angry.

“Talking to pokémon is usually telepathy, then. Projecting and reading thoughts. Empathy is sensing emotions. There’s usually some overlap, but not always.”

She frowns. “I think I just have telepathy. Do people usually only have one thing?”

You shake your head. Um. Time to fix that. “Sometimes. You don’t see things before they happen? See things you shouldn’t? Move things with your mind?”

“I don’t see anything.”

Poor wording. Anne would’ve torn you a new one if she’d heard. But Cuicatl doesn’t look too offended. Even smiling, just a little. But not nearly as brightly as before.

“But you can’t do any of those things?”


You give her a chance to follow up. She doesn’t. Just shifts in her seat and idly taps a foot on the floor, soft enough that she probably doesn’t even know she’s doing it. Whatever rapport you built talking about her pokémon, it’s gone now. Time for another subject change.

“What brings you to Alola, then?”

“I wanted, um, to go on a journey? And Unova didn’t want to take me. I don’t have much money so a girl in the Pokémon Center said I should come here.”

There’s a shred of truth in there, but she’s an awful liar. Don’t even need your telepathy to see through that. New topic options: PsiTests seems a little too close to the last questions, she doesn’t want to talk about why she’s here, so… old pokémon.”

“Did you bring any of your mom’s team with you?”

She freezes up. Full deerling in headlights. **** **** **** **** abort abort abort.

“Hey its—”

“No, I didn’t.” Speech is off. Breathing is erratic. Approach and escalate? Keep quiet and seem callous? Response depends on the type of breakdown you’re seeing.

…the kid has to be alone here. Half an ocean from home, at least one parent out of the picture, apart from her pokémon for maybe the first time…

She shouldn’t have to have panic attacks alone.

You get up from your seat and move around the desk to kneel beside her. Then you put a hand on her shoulder and press down a little bit. “It’s alright,” you whisper, “we can get you new friends and a new pokémon.”

The waterworks open in full. Before you can decide if you should hug or not, Espy jumps into her lap. Kid didn’t mention owning a dog, fox, or cat, but she’s a gentle petter. Holds out her hand for a second for Espy to sniff. Then gently pets the ears and runs her hand back in slow, light strokes.

You take the moment to think as Cuicatl’s breaths get steadier. You remove your hand from her shoulder to avoid smothering her. Homesickness? Trauma? Other mental illness? Kid needs emotional support in any case. Ideally something intelligent enough for her to talk to, social enough to cuddle, and fluffy enough to pet. Difficulty of care shouldn’t be a problem. Neither should difficulty of bonding, if she got a hydreigon to not snack on her. Maybe something a little difficult to distract her. Eevee would work. Not big enough to be a good guide, though, even when fully evolved.

There is a pokémon that fits all of those criteria, but she’s trouble. She’d either be a silver bullet for Cuicatl’s problems or a lead bullet straight to her heart.

You put your hand back on Cuicatl’s shoulder and she flinches from the touch.


Middle of nowhere
Implied animal abuse and something akin to Borderline Personality Disorder. The latter holds for all of Pixie's POV chapters going forward and will not be repeated.

Normal 1.2: A Very Good Fox


They’re talking about you again.

You don’t understand many of the words, but you know the tone. Talking more in breath than sound, trying to sound quieter than they really are. The same mock concern they take on the moment they turn away from your table, like you aren’t still in the same room.

But you don’t care. You don’t really care about anything anymore, except maybe for Mother. You wonder if she’s thought of you in the last few… days? Weeks? Months? Between the capsule and the trailer you haven’t had many chances to be outside and count the changing skies and you aren’t sure if the humans work and leave once a day or not.

No, as much as you’d like to believe it you can’t imagine she cares about you anymore. The nine-tails only keep two of their litters to train. It lets them keep the territories intact. When the unchosen become three-tails they set off on their own. Your body and mind and comfort are your problems.

And, because you don’t care, those things are now the problems of the people in ice-colored-metal.

They keep you alive. They try to coax you into eating things that help with the bruises and scars. You won’t, because it’s your mouth and you eat what you want. Which is nothing. They took a capsule out once and you bit them. They let you sleep on the table instead of in a cage like the others, and you’ve learned to sleep in the dark while the humans are away and rest on the table in daylight, keeping an eye open for more capsules.

There’s a new human, this time, talking with the faux-ice humans. Young and female. Like you. You caught a glimpse of her mane when she walked in. Thick, curly and went a little past her shoulder-blades. Light-yellowish, like the fire-tails in the stories you’d been told as a kit.

It had leaves in it, some dirt. Even from a distance it smelled unclean, although humans seemed to have a higher tolerance for that. It would be pretty if cared for and you want to run your paws and tongue through it to clean it up like you would for your own coat.

You suppose you still care that you look like a fox should. But presentation is sort of like breathing, so you aren’t sure that counts.

The human approaches you again, with the other humans behind her. She walks up to your table, looking away like this isn’t premeditated, and stops at the edge. You cast her the sort of wary, frigid look that only an ice-type can manage in response.

“Hey,” she says. “Can I pet you?”

You don’t understand the words, but she offers her paw, keeping it head-length away from your snout. She doesn’t smell nervous. Is this how humans communicate social receptiveness? You haven’t had much chance to see that behavior.

It takes you a few seconds to decide, but you eventually do move to push your face against their paw, rubbing your scent glands against it. Her paw is warm, but not unpleasantly so. You sneeze and a burst of cold air radiates from your body as it compensates a little for the heat. The human recoils for a second, probably on reflex, but puts her paw back up to your head when you look at her expectantly.


She’s back the next time the ice-metal humans are.

This time she opens up the door and looks at you.

“You want to go outside?”

The words are mostly unfamiliar, but you grasp the intent. Yes, you decide, sunlight heat and flower smell would be nice. Rising on your paws is painful as you feel the muscles and skin ripple around your scars and bruises, but nothing tears. One of the humans picks you up gently and cradles you in his arms, like Mother would in her jaws when you were a kit. You are unsure how you misbehaved this time. Was it a not genuine offer? A trick?

They set you down in the grass outside. No. It was just a different way of communicating.

The sun and air are much warmer on the surface, but your body quickly begins cooling itself and the air to adjust. Everything around you cools to your temperature, but you can feel the sunlight striking your fur. And you can smell the foliage. There are different flowers here than you have on the mountain and there are far more of them. You absent-mindedly walk up to one and wrap your jaws around it to get a better feel for its taste and texture. The young human pulls you away.

“If you want food, they have more vulpix-friendly stuff in there.”

Her tone is cheerful, but you recognize the pleading edge and the ‘food’ vocalization. You turn away and walk closer to the big black humantrail, puffing up your tails behind you in a show of defiance. Before you reach it, a much larger pokemon cuts you off. He’s quadrupedal, red and black colored and you can feel radiated heat enter your personal blizzard. Fire-type. Big fire-type.

He notes your reaction and adjusts quickly, holding his tail still and lowering himself to the ground before rolling on to his side.

“Didn’t mean to scare you. Just want to play.”

It’s a feline dialect. Close enough to your native vulpine to understand, even if you aren’t sure you got all the possible subtext.

You tilt your head. “Play?”

“Yes. Chase each other around or—” He stops short and rises to his paws before slowly walking towards you, head down. You allow him to brush his face against yours. “You’re sick?” He asks. “Hurt. You should get that fixed.”

You slowly lay down and show him your stomach. “How do you heal this?”

His eyes narrow. “Do you have a ball? Or have they tried potions? Those look old and improperly healed, but…” He shakes his head. “You’ll need to get those looked at before we can play. And eat. You look underfed. Are they providing food or…?”

You tuck your tails between your legs, turn around and head back inside. You don’t want to talk about it. What happened. What happened after. Why you don’t care. He seems well-meaning, and he shouts after you that he’ll be back to play later, but there are things that a healthy fire cat with a gentle (if poorly groomed) human mother won’t understand.

Still. The human seems to like you, and she at least takes care of her cat. She’s not like… like they were. You wonder why she came back, why she cares about you, and you realize that maybe she wants to put you on her team. You’d leave the room. She’d stuff you in a ball, sometimes.

But it’s something to hope for. And you’ll take it.


You eat that night. The food is dry and bland, but you get some down your throat before your stomach gets upset. Then you let them spray things on you (which sting and hurt) and put you into another capsule. They keep you in it until it’s bright out again.

You stretch out with your front paws and feel your belly react. It hurts less than it did when you went into the ball. You roll onto your side and move to scout out the area with your tongue, but you’re met with a spray of water when you do so. On reflex you uncurl, climb to your paws and hiss blindly in the water’s direction, kicking up a frozen mist around you in the process.

A human forepaw reaches down to your arched back and you bite the air around it before bothering to take in more information. It’s the young female human. Firemane. She seems a bit startled, but not angry. You calm down a bit and let her stroke your back, but you won’t warm up the air for her while she does it.

After a few strokes she reaches down to pick you up, doing so by wrapping her arms around your side and hugging you to her chest. Won’t touch your underside. But she’s less gentle when she drops you down on the table (you still land perfectly, of course) and you feel the bump less.

“She’s doing much better,” one of the humans says. “We’re very thankful for your help in this.”

The female laughs. You know that sound well enough, but it doesn’t seem to be threatening. The last times you heard it were followed by violence. This one is only followed by a chunk of delicious smelling food the size of your head being dumped in front of you.

“Not all at once,” the female says. You can guess the meaning, and it’s unnecessary. You couldn’t possibly eat this in one go if you wanted to.

You end up getting much closer than you would have thought in the end, but half of it’s still left. That goes to her cat, who devours in three bites a chunk that took you dozens. She talks to the other humans for a bit after while the fire cat tries to make conversation with you. But he’s very large and his voice is always approximating a growl, even when he seems to be happy.

Firemane leaves you a while later with a thorough head scratching.


She isn’t back the next day. Or the next week. Or the next month. You let them spray you with nasty liquids and put you in a capsule and cut you open (while you’re asleep, but still), but Firemane never comes back.

And with every day you sit on a table doing nothing, watching the humans care for sicker creatures until they leave and their sunlight stops, you start to feel a little bit more like you did before you were healed.

Eventually your stomach is fine. They let you lick it again and you can only feel the scar if you really press your tongue down, doing your best to weave it between all the tufts of fur. And you still don’t know what comes next. But that’s fine.

You don’t care.


You wake up to the sound of your kennel being unlocked. Odd. You’re usually awake by walk time. Without opening your eyes you stretch out and fluff up your six (and almost one-half) tails. When you look up you reflexively freeze the air around you. The woman staring at you is the matriarch of the facility, the one that all of the other humans submit to. She almost never comes down here. Why is she here? Why is she here for you?

Matriarch steps back and waves her paw. “Come on, Pixie. We have things to discuss.”

You gracefully leap from the kennel to the ground and trail after her as she walks. She opens the door to the visiting room and you follow, leaping onto the table as she sits down.

You immediately puff your fur up and hiss. There’s another fox here. A short-furred, hideous pink fox with one good tail and a pathetic growth of a second. Eevee. You don’t know what gimmick this one has, but they’re all eevee to you.

“Pixie, play nice,” Matriarch scolds. Even though that disgraceful asshole is on your table.

You generously let it go with a single scathing huff and look back at Matriarch.

“Good, now that you’re paying attention, let me be brief. I’m giving you your sixth and final second chance with a trainer. Are we clear?”

You blink. She’s threatening you. Can you growl at her? Or should you submit? You don’t want to submit in front of the imposter fox. Or to someone threatening you.

“I’ll take that as a no. What I’m saying is, your **** stops now. No more peeing on pillows, hiding pokéballs in the woods, freezing the ground your trainer is about to step on, letting all hell break loose when you see another eevee, or trying to hurt teammates. Again, are we clear?”

That is a very unfair assessment. You only did the first three things because your trainer was already going to abandon you and your window for revenge was very time limited. And every eevee deserves it, with their tangled manes and their insufferable pleading eyes and their “look at me, I can cosplay as a guardian of the peaks or a firetails or a fish or anything I want” nonsense like that makes them better than you. And you obviously weren’t trying to hurt that rabbit; you were trying to kill it.

Matriarch sighs and cradles her head in her forepaws. “Pixie. I like this one. I think you can help her, and she can help you. She’s probably the best trainer you’re going to get. If you’re just incompatible, fine. I’ll just sell you off to a zoo on the mainland. But if you hurt her, I will personally haul you back to Mt. Lanakila and see how long it takes until the vanilluxe get you.” With that she stands up and walks towards the exit, her eevee trailing behind her. “I’ll be back in a few minutes. You had best prepare yourself to make a good impression.”

Then she shuts the door and leaves you alone. The gall she has. You never even did anything to her and she’s acting like you already killed her kit. Fine. If this goes downhill, she’s given you no incentive to show restraint. She wants a fight, you’ll give her one.

When Matriarch reenters, her foreleg is gently wrapped around the other human’s, and Matriarch is slowly walking towards the table with her. Other human has a strange white stick. A weapon? It wouldn’t be very effective against you. Foolish to even try. Matriarch walks the smaller human to a seat and gently helps her down before shooting you a wicked glare and turning to leave. Then you’re alone with your last chance trainer.

She’s very small. Even by adolescent human standards. Her whole frame is delicate. Skin is… a little too in the middle. Humans are least hideous when they are very pale or very dark. She’s on the darker end, but not quite far enough to be visually pleasant. Her mane is green, which is a strange and somewhat disturbing color, but it is very shiny and well cared for. Her falsefur is white, which is the best color. Then her eyes… they’re only half moving. And something is off in them. Shimmers over the surface like a barely frozen pond.

The care that Matriarch took, the eye shimmers: she’s blind. What a cruel joke. Sticking you with a tiny, frail human who cannot even appreciate your majesty.

“Hello, Pixie,” she says. It’s soft and kind of high pitched and it flows well. Like the sound that wind makes when it hits the little metal sticks humans hang in front of windows. Except more human and voice-y. Still not enough to make you like her. She extends a paw out for you to smell or rub or whatever but you don’t stand up to go to it and she eventually sticks it down flat on the table. “My name is Cuicatl Ichtaca. I’m from Anachuac. I hope you will be friends with me.”

Nope. You will not give Matriarch the satisfaction. Human does not get the obvious hint and keeps talking.

“I’ve never met an ice-type before. My home town was very warm. There were mountains nearby with snow on top, but they were very dangerous so my dad never let me go. One of my friends could fly up but never did because ellas didn’t like the cold.”

She keeps bad friends. And if she is too weak to climb mountains, you do not want to associate with her.

“I read about vulpix once. It was a long time ago, so I forget some things. You’re nocturnal, right?”

Obviously. What masochistic creature would ever want to go outside in the Alolan sunlight?

“If you are, then you probably won’t want to be outside in the day when I go places. I am okay with that. I can get around well enough with my cane. We can play and train around dusk and dawn. But I usually try to sleep at night, so not then.”

It is a better offer than most trainers make. But no. Not for the blind kit of an eevee trainer.

“I don’t know what your other trainers taught you. But I have ideas for battle. You could be a really good arena controller and zoner. Using hail and frozen patches to make it harder to get to you, and then hit them with from far away. Or just put them to sleep or trap them and then set up. You’re probably fast enough to be a sweeper. Or will be fast enough when you evolve.”

You are fast enough now to ‘sweep’ anything, whatever that means.

“Do you know roar?” she asks.

You do, just to show her how good your roaring is and maybe make her run away. She smiles, which is not the proper reaction. The proper reaction is terror and reverence. Worse, she giggles.

“Sorry. I’m not laughing at you. You’re just really cute.”

You bark to scold her. It’s very annoying that she can’t just understand your glares and know when to shut up and fall in line. And the bark does silence her and she stops baring her teeth for just a second. Good.

“Oh. I’m sorry if I hurt your feelings.” You fluff up your tails. Her? Hurt you? Impossible. The most she could do is annoy you. “I think that I went at this wrong. Can we start over?”


“Hello, Pixie. My name is Cuicatl Ichtaca. I want you to be my friend. If you don’t want to, that’s fine. You can stay here. But if there’s anything I can help you with…”

You harrumph. What could she possibly help you with?

“I don’t know, Pixie. I was hoping you could tell me.” What? “I want friends. And money. And I thought you could help. But if there’s nothing I can do for you, then you should stay here. Maybe someone else will be able to help you later.”

You growl softly and menacingly and the human’s half-smile is just her baring her teeth because she is very afraid of your wrath. You aren’t actually sure what the zoo Matriarch threatened you with is beyond the name being utterly ridiculous, but it was still clearly a threat. So now this human is also threatening you.

“Oh. A zoo is a place where you’d have a big outdoor cage and humans would come to look at you.”

Your tails flex out reflexively in shock. Err, a temporary blip in your impeccable composure. You bark-hiss, “you understand me?”

“Yes, but it’s much easier if you vocalize somehow.” As you ponder that, she continues, “Why did she threaten to send you to one?”

You flick a tail down and growl, “No reason at all. I am a very good fox. She is a very bad human with a worse fox.”

She bares a little more of her teeth at the injustice. “The horror.”

“Exactly!” This one may be much smarter than the average human.

“I can take you, if you want. And then either keep you, give you to another trainer, or release you to the wild. Whatever you want. Or I can leave you to the zoo.”

You flick a tail down on the table. This was not a set of options you were expecting. You weren’t really expecting options at all.

“What do you want, Pixie? What kinds of things make you happy?”

“Cold. Prey. Grooming. Toys. Proper respect.”

“Hmm. The wild would probably have cold and prey. No one else would groom you and there wouldn’t be toys. Don’t know about respect. The zoo would have grooming and toys. Maybe cold. No prey, definitely not respect. I could give you grooming and toys. I’d try to give you respect, and you can tell me if I’m not. No cold, though, sorry. Other trainers couldn’t talk to you, but if you don’t like me, they could give you the toys and grooming.”

Many words. Good breakdown of options. You were going to just pick the one that sounded best, and probably will, but she is good at thinking. Rare in her species.

“What do you mean by respect, anyway?”

This is not an easy concept to express. It’s just respect. Every vulpix understands it. You aren’t even sure how much she understands of your language, but you try to express it.

“I am prettier and stronger and smarter than everyone else and they should recognize it and submit to me.”

“I’m sure you’re very pretty, strong, and smart,” she correctly says. “I would try to help you. Give you food and love and try to make you even stronger. But I can’t promise I’ll do everything you say. You would have to help me sometimes. And sometimes that help would be taking ‘no’ for an answer.”

“I do not need help,” you say.

“Then you’re best off alone.”


A shiver wracks your body.

You are not afraid of alone.

The human sighs. “Do you want love?”

You bark, yes, of course, you deserve love.

“Love is help,” she responds. “Do you want help?”

You stare into her awful, foggy eyes. There’s brown somewhere in them. The dullest, worst color.

“Do you want me to hold you?”

Your legs rise up and move towards her and you hate your limbs for it. She extends her forelegs, slowly at first, and then she flips you over and moves you towards her chest all at once. It’s not unpleasant, just unexpected. You yip in surprise and she whispers an apology. Then you’re cradled in her forelegs, pressed against her body. She’s warm. Not too warm, though. And it’s nice to feel a heartbeat.

She is a trickster with clever words and whatever she says, someday, maybe even today, she will hate you and leave you like Firemane and all the others.

But right now, Skysong is yours.
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Normal 1.3: Almost Normal


You glance at the cheap cell phone that VStar gave you. It’s got their app, texting, calls, a clock, notepad, and calculator… most of what you need. No space for anything else.

Now you just need the clock. 9:58. Your meeting was scheduled for 10:00 A.M. and you don’t want to walk in that door early or late. Former makes you look like you’ve got nowhere else to be (which is true), latter makes it look like you don’t care. Besides, 10:00 means 10:00.

9:59. The phone’s black screen sort of works as a mirror, and your face looks fine for what you had to work with. There’s a wall of glass separating the hall from a dark, empty conference room nearby. You look in that and find some wrinkles in your blouse that need smoothed out. Pokémon Center didn’t have an iron and, honestly, you probably would’ve burned yourself on it. There’s nothing you can do to keep things smooth for long because at the end of the day everything just gets shoved back into your bag.

10:00. You take a deep breath, release it slowly, slip the phone into your purse, and enter.

The room is nice enough. A whiteboard with markers, a few odd but comfortable looking seats (including a beanbag chair), a table in the middle. There’s a phone charging station in the corner.

Only one seat is occupied. Even though you were supposed to meet two people… Anyway. She’s the blind girl from orientation. What are you supposed to do here? Shake her hand? Shake her body? Make eye contact? Would it even

“Hi,” she says.

“Hi,” you respond.

Smooth as ever, Gen. You plop down in the beanbag before things can get more awkward.

“My name is Cuicatl Ichtaca,” Cuicatl Ichtaca says.

“Genesis. Just Genesis.”

You shift in the beanbag and look at her. Something’s… off from how you remember her. Haircut. She got a haircut. Went from chest length to just below her chin.

“You got a haircut,” you sagely proffer.

“Yes. I loved my hair. But it wasn’t practical for this. And Alola is more humid than I’m used to.”

It’s a shame. She had really pretty hair. A bit of curl but straight enough that it fell down in a lot of loose, shiny spirals. Green but not the bright, ugly, obviously dyed green. Almost natural. Maybe it was? You know that some people have that shade, but it’s like a one in a million sort of thing. Is that a common thing in wherever she’s from?

“Where are you from?” Crap that was probably not the right question. She’s going to think you’re some kind of a racist, which you’re not—


“Oh. I know about it. A lot of your people come here. Not here specifically, I actually haven’t met many, but on the mainland. Um.” You stop before you can dig deeper.

She puffs up a little. Which is bad. She’s angry. But it’s also kind of cute.

“My mom was Unovan,” Cuicatl interjects.

Oh. Definitely here legally. That’s good.

“Then you’re a citizen?”.

“…no. Here on challenge visa.”

Maybe not legally. You’ll have to do the talking if any cops show up. Which they shouldn’t, because you aren’t going to do any crimes. Except for the crime she already did.

The door opens again and your other traveling partner enters. He lets the door slam shut behind him with a loud noise somewhere between a click and a clack.

“’sup,” he ‘sups. Then he plops down into one of the firmer chairs, letting his back sink in and his legs sprawl out.

You squirm in your seat. What was his name? He was a few rows over, pretty close to Cuicatl. But you didn’t remember her name either until she told you. Do you offer to share yours? That seems like a good idea. And he’s been quiet long enough that it’s awkward.

“I’m Genesis.”

“And my name is Cuicatl Ichtaca.”

He glances between you two before rolling his shoulders back and somehow sinking even deeper into his chair. “Kekoa. Nice to meet you, Jennifer and Kiwi.”

“It’s actually Cuicatl—”

“Yeah, I heard. Kiwi. Got it.”

Cuicatl scowls.

“That’s not even close.”

Kekoa sighs and gives her the look of an adult answering the same question from a toddler for the fiftieth time that night. “And why should I give a ****?”

“Because she’s your teammate and could be your friend,” you offer.

Your help just seems to make Cuicatl’s frown even deeper. “I don’t need your help against her. But thank you for the offer.”

“Him, thank you very much. I get that you’re blind but that’s no excuse to be a dumbass.”

A small, sadistic smile crawls onto Cuicatl’s face. “Sorry, Kekoa. You just have such a girly voice, you know?”

He doesn’t actually. It’s maybe just on the masculine side of androgynous. Normal enough for a guy your age.

“Heh. Well played.”

There’s a high pitch growl and a yap followed by the sound of something shaking itself off. Then an absolutely stunningly adorable holy vulpix walks around Cuicatl’s chair with a tiny little frown on its cute face.

Cuicatl’s anger seems to freeze, and then abruptly thaw into a feeling that you can’t quite place. Positive and warm but there are a thousand little variations on that and who knows which one it is.

“Pixie,” she calls. The ice pupper flicks its head between Kekoa and Cuicatl, before spitting a cool breeze in Kekoa’s direction and jumping into Cuicatl’s lap. She holds her hand out for the fox to rub its face against.

You’re jealous. Your starter is fine but he’s no vulpix.

“Where’d you get her?” Kekoa asks.


“From whom?”

Cuicatl shrugs. “Why do you want to know?”

Okay, time to put a stop to this before another fight breaks out… whenever you figure out how to do that. Um.

“You guys want to get lunch?” you ask.

“Pokémon Center’s closed for another half hour. I definitely don’t have ‘eat out’ money right now,” Kekoa says.

“Same,” Cuicatl agrees.

Well at least they’re agreeing with each other. Probably also agreeing that you’re hopelessly out of touch.

You belatedly realize that you also don’t have ‘eat out’ money right now. Sure, the Pokémon Center has food for now but soon you’ll be on the trail out in the middle of nowhere. How will that work? That was probably covered in orientation but you were maybe kind of doodling at the time. You read somewhere that humans can take three days before they dehydrate, a month before they starve, so you might be fine if you just bring water bottles. Maybe trail mix. Is that why it’s called trail mix?

Well. You’ve got about a week to figure that out before you’d really need to know it.

No one else tries to revive the conversation. New friends. What do you talk about with new friends?

“Where are you from, Kekoa?”

“Alola,” he answers.

“So am, I mean, I live here. From Galar, I guess.”

He narrows his eyes and draws himself up a little in the seat. “Cool.”

You glance at Cuicatl. She’s off in her own world petting her best boy. White fur is probably getting all over her black tunic in the process. Oh gods she probably doesn’t even know since she can’t see it. She might not even know what color her clothing is, or even what colors are at all and

“Do you know what colors are?”

Oh. No. Bad Genesis. That was an inside the head thought.

Cuicatl freezes up. “What?”

“Colors, like, the… um. Nevermind.”

She frowns and promptly looks away from you. “Kekoa, what are colors?” she says with a sense of urgency, almost panic, in her voice,.

He glances at you with his face kinda scrunched up in the middle (what feeling is that?) before he replies to her. “Like texture or flavor, but for sight.”

Huh. That’s a really good answer.

“What color is salty-rough, then?” Cuicatl asks.

“Orange,” he responds without missing a beat.

“Bitter-fluffy?” The vulpix perks up a little at the last word. Yes. Like her. She is fluffy.

What a good fox.


Cuicatl nods. “Makes sense.”

It really doesn’t.

“Do you need help picking out matching clothes or…”


Cuicatl stares at you for several seconds. Well, not stares but she’s looking in your direction with her cloudy, deep-set, unfocused, wrong eyes. Shouldn’t she have sunglasses or something?

She laughs. It’s a tiny giggle at first but it grows into a high-pitched, flowing laugh before long. And then Kekoa joins in with his slightly deeper and more resonant chuckle. What? What did you do?

“Sorry, Pix,” Cuicatl says before gently pushing the vulpix off of her lap. Then she stands up, turns around and reaches down the back of her shirt before pulling out a homemade tag. “Braille description of the item and color. I try to keep good outfits bundled together, but most of the time I just wear… I guess you’d call them dresses. Sometimes shorts and t-shirts when I need to get dirty.”

Oh. The whole color thing had been a joke. At your expense. That’s… At least Cuicatl and Kekoa bonded. Even though he’s being mean to her.

“What do you do for fun?” Cuicatl asks as she sits down.

“Running and reading. Sometimes swimming. And I’m in, well, was in, my school’s band,” you answer.

Kekoa snorts. “You would be a band kid.” What’s that supposed to mean?

You stare at him, even if you don’t hold eye contact for long, and hope it’s close enough to a glare. He’s dressed way more casually than you, just wearing cargo shorts with some barely removed grass stains, sneakers a mile jog away from falling apart, and an alola shirt that’s lost half of its color. He doesn’t look at all intimidated by your stern expression, either. “Well, what do you like?”

He shrugs. “Video games, tv, sports. Normal stuff.”

“What games?” you ask.

He shrugs. “Racing, mostly. I like fighting games but my parents won’t let me play many.”

“Ooh. I play Mario Kart.” And you do play it for an hour a day before bed. You’ve gotten pretty good. But you know that it’s not really “cool” so oh crap that might have been a mistake.

Kekoa smiles. “What version?”

Not a mistake!

“Switch, now.”

He rolls his eyes. “Lucky. Still only have a Gamecube at my place.”

“I started on Double Dash, so I should still be able to kick your butt on that.”


You don’t think he’s looking at you with respect, and he still might be making fun of you, but you think that went well enough. Good job. Unless it wasn’t a good job. In which case, bad job.

Kekoa looks back towards Cuicatl who you’ve totally been leaving out of this conversation. “Back at you: what are you into?”

Cuicatl doesn’t respond. Instead, she keeps scratching the side of her vulpix’s head. The pupper is lying on its side, back arced out and head pushing into its trainers hand as it gets pet. You can’t blame her for ignoring the question. That fox is definitely better than Kekoa.

“Earth to Kiwi?” Kekoa says.

That does get her attention. “Sorry. Don’t see body language.” She, um, she really doesn’t have to apologize for that. “Mostly school, homework, and chores. I took care of the family’s pokémon, cooked most nights, had some weaving to do… that took up a lot of time. Listened to pro battles. Tried to get my brother to read me Battler issues when the library got them. Watched a fair bit of TV, but I doubt we watched the same shows.”

Kekoa groans. “Telenovelas?”

She flashes her sly half-smile again and nods. “Yeah. Learned most of my Spanish from them… they’re, well I won’t actually defend them. He’d kill me for saying it, but my brother liked them more than I did. Used me for cover.”

You laugh. Wait were you supposed to laugh? Kekoa does too, a little, but maybe you went too long even if it was appropriate. Now you’ve not only insulted the blind girl but probably made her think you’re. Well, what would she think? It’s probably fine.

“So, favorite trainer?” Kekoa asks.

“Chirlov. Also Iris, but Chirlov came to Tenochtitlan once and I got my dad to take me so Chirlov wins.”

“Hmph. Didn’t take you for a dragon fangirl.”

Cuicatl tilts her head and then brushes the hair out of her face. Even though she shouldn’t need to. “And why is that?”

“Because your starter is an ice-type mammal.”

“Oh.” She kicks one leg into her other ankle. Looked kind of hard, too. “Yeah, that’s a good reason.”

Kekoa glances at you for a second. Is that an invitation to talk? No. He turns back to Cuicatl. What was that about?

“What brings you to Alola, then?”

“My mom did her challenge in Unova. I applied to do one there. They were full so I got assigned to Alola instead. Thought I could make more money here than at home, so I came.”

She is legal, then? Or she’s embarrassed and lying about it.

Kekoa just laughs. Longer and louder than his last few, and a little more mean spirited. “Sis, you wanted to make money so you came to Alola? You know how much things cost on islands, right?”

Cuicatl frowns and looks (well, not looks) into her lap. “I didn’t. Now I do.”

Your eyes flick back and forth between Kekoa and Cuicatl. She’s sad, he’s a butt, and for some reason it falls on you to fix this situation.

“What do you all want to do for the rest of the day?” you ask.

“Just got back from some battles,” Kekoa says. “My pikipek’s at the center now, but once she’s healed up I’ll probably battle some more. Rest of the week is supposed to be hot as ****, so might as well get it done now.”

Cuicatl’s vulpix starts whining at that until its trainer starts petting it.

“It’s okay. We can just train at dusk and dawn and stay inside the rest of the day.”

“Dusk and dawn are also gonna be hot as ****,” Kekoa says.

The vulpix starts whining again as Cuicatl’s face scrunches up.

Okay. Another crisis. You can handle this.

“You want to study together, then?”

“Going for my Class III this week. Pretty damn confident I’ll get it,” Kekoa says.

You look towards Cuicatl. “You want to? Study?”

“I, um, Miss Bell assigned me a tutor since I don’t need to learn much, just local pokémon and laws. I know the general care things. And she doesn’t have braille books and audiobooks are slow.”

“Who the **** is Miss Bell?” Kekoa asks.

Cuicatl turns to him and… ugh hard to read her face. Eyes are the windows to the soul and hers are frosted over. “Miss Bell runs this building. She gave me Pixie.”

He whistles. “Already brownnosing the bigwigs, huh?”

She shifts and folds in on herself. “We had shared interests.”

“Like?” Kekoa asks.

Cuicatl opens her mouth as if to speak, but then clamps it shut and resumes petting her vulpix. “Like foxes,” she says.

“Uh huh.”

“SO, you wanna battle now?” Ugh. Too loud at the start. Probably sounded desperate. Which you are. There shouldn’t be this many almost fights this early on.

Kekoa looks at you with. Can’t read his expression either. Darn it, not just an eye thing. “Again, my pokémon’s healing at the center. I’d ref you two, though.”

“Do you know if there’s a battlefield nearby?” Cuicatl says. So that’s probably a yes.

“Best to do it at the center, in case anything happens,” Kekoa responds.

Which makes sense. You clap your hands. “Alright! Let’s do this.”


Kekoa clears his throat. “The battle between Kiwi of Anahuac and Jennifer of Galar is about to begin. Both parties will release their pokémon simultaneously upon the count of three. One, three. Go.”

“Pixie, take the field,” Cuicatl says. Her vulpix leaps from her side onto the sand, kicking up a cloud of dust in the process. The pupper’s eyes go wide and she immediately starts trying to shake some of the dust out of her coat.

“Sir Bubbles, let’s go!” you shout before releasing your adorable poliwag into the arena. He bounces up a few times before turning around to beg with his big, wet eyes. “No food now. Battle time.”

The froggo makes sure you see a few tears fall before he turns back around.

“Let the record show that neither trainer should never be allowed to name a pokémon again,” Kekoa says. It gets a few snickers from the handful of trainers on the bleachers. “Okay, go whenever.”

“Ice Shard.” Cuicatl wastes no time getting her order in, and her doggo wastes even less firing the attack. There’s a cloud of white around her and then crystals are flying out and hit Sir Bubbles bang bang bang. Or, well, plop plop plop. Your amphibian boi doesn’t seem too torn up, literally or metaphorically.

Oh. Orders. You should give orders. Well, he only knows two moves so um

“Hypnosis!” you exclaim.

“Ice Shard, down.”

Sir Bubbles stands as tall as he can on his stubby little legs and does some things that you can’t see because you’re standing behind him. But basically his belly starts to spiral and—the ice pupper just fired a bunch of ice at the ground and there’s a big dust cloud in front of it. You can hear its exaggerated coughs, but you can’t see it anymore.

Huh. Good play.

“More ice shards towards poliwag. Low angle.”

There’s a brief pause before another volley shoots through the dust cloud, some striking poliwag and bouncing off but just as many kicking up dirt when they miss. One even comes, like, six inches from your leg and you don’t even realize it happens until it’s happened.

“Try to keep things in the arena, Kiwi,” Kekoa reprimands.


Crap you almost got hit by a pokémon attack. That would’ve hurt. Probably. It doesn’t seem to hurt Sir Bubbles very much. But he’s a pokémon and they can take that kind of thing. Unless you overfeed them, which you didn’t do to your brother’s goldeen, whatever he says.

“Another volley,” Cuicatl orders. Reminding you that you should—more ice blasts out of the steadily settling dust cloud and one shard hits right in front of your shoe before breaking into little bits and making your leg cold

—order. You should order again.

“Water gun!”

Sir Bubbles inhales and puffs up. For a moment he stays that way, before he abruptly recompresses and a jet of water hits vulpix right in the face. The iceboi blinks a few times and then growls before charging in, ice shards flying off of it as it moves.

“Pix! Last orders hold.”

Wait. Oh man. This is an opening!

“Hypnosis,” you practically sing.

Your froggo perks up on his hind legs again, but this time the fox is staring right at his belly. The ice shards stop coming as the doggo slows to a walk, and then a crawl. And then she finally falls down on her face right at Sir Bubble’s feet.

“Now water gun!”

The holy vulpix gets absolutely drenched for thirty seconds straight but never seems to stir.

“Pixie, please get up,” Cuicatl pleads. But her pokémon doesn’t and eventually Kekoa whistles and holds up a hand.

“I’m going to call it here. Jennifer wins.”

“Yessssssssssss!” you yell, rushing the battlefield to. Wait, no. Can’t hug amphibian friends. Have to settle for kneeling down and telling Sir Bubbles what a good Sir Bubbles he is before withdrawing him, promising food towards bedtime. Your bedtime. He’s nocturnal so you leave him in the Center’s freshwater pool at night so he can play with other frog and fish friends.

Kekoa walks past shortly after both pokémon are withdrawn. “Lunch time now. Then I’m going boot shopping. You can come with if you want.”


Lunch is quiet. Cuicatl seems lost in her own world, and you aren’t sure you want to start a conversation if it’s just going to be you and Kekoa in it. The center is serving stir fry and you think it’s pretty good. Cuicatl got the spam stir fry and barely ate half of hers, though. Which is weird. You liked spam back when you ate meat. But maybe it’s an acquired taste.


Princess Square Mall is easily the best place to shop in the entire commonwealth. It’s got everything from a Gracidea outlet to the usual big box stores, plus actual miles of halls lined with their own quirky shops. You make… made a point of coming here most weekends to try and look through at least three new ones, knowing that by the time you visited them all some would’ve closed and others opened in their place and you’d have to do it again. You got some good stuff out of it, though, like a stuffed altitlama made with real altitlama wool and a blue snow globe with a faintly glowing horseshoe on the side. No idea why the latter cost as much as it did.

Kekoa powerwalks ahead and ordinarily you’d match him but you have to stay back and help Cuicatl along. He sometimes glances back and slows down a little bit, which clashes with his aloof meanie vibe. Eventually you get to Shaft’s Outdoor Supplies and Kekoa finally stops to turn towards you.

“I’m just going to go ahead and get this done on my own. Leave you girls to do your shoe shopping.”

“Then why are you going alone?” Cuicatl asks.

“Don’t you people all have super hearing? Letting you two have your estrogen party in peace.”

“So why aren’t you coming with us? If it’s a girls thing…”

Kekoa shoots her an absolutely murderous glare. “I’m flipping you off,” he says before turning around and storming off. Cuicatl just has a cute, dumb smile plastered on her face.

“Asshole,” she says.

You shouldn’t giggle but you do.

“So, um, what are you looking for? In boots?”

She doesn’t even take a full second to think it over. “Waterproof, well-fitting, don’t make me look too stupid.”

Okay. You can work with that.

You piece together her style in your head. She said she mostly wears dresses, sometimes more athletic clothing. And she said that she liked her hair long before she cut it. Hasn’t worn makeup, but that might just be because she can’t apply it. In any case, definitely not a tomboy. Some outdoorsy-but-still-femme look. Hiking boots and whatever she’ll be wearing on the trail probably satisfies the outdoorsy bit, so you’re mostly concerned with the femme half. Ideally you’d get something dark green or very dark blue to go with her hair, but a quick talk with an employee (a talk that Cuicatl seems oddly despondent during) reveals that you’re really color and style limited at her size. You settle on a pink pair without laces so that she doesn’t have to fumble around to tie them.

“They sound nice,” she says when you tell her the description. Her face is guarded so it’s hard to tell if it really does sound nice. Or if she cares about style at all. She rises up on the balls of her feet and then settles down and tilts her shoes to the sides. “Fit well enough. Should be fine after a little breaking in.”

And that’s that. Even before the two-thirds discount new trainers get on supplies, hers are just barely over the fifty dollars VStar gave out as the first half of the signing bonus. Yours are about twice as much, but after the discount they still fit within budget with some money left over. Black, kind of shiny, waterproof because Cuicatl thought that was a big deal. You’d be comfortable wearing yours in a city, which is kind of a must because you’re going to have to break them in before going out on the trail. Orientation made a very, very big deal about that, up to showing some blister photos that look like they came right out of a sex ed presentation on some disease that requires genital amputation.


Kekoa fiddles with the screen for a second before putting it on the pile of stuff he haphazardly threw together. Then the movie starts to play on the small screen. Not really big enough for three people to crowd around, but Cuicatl’s sitting a little farther away with her vulpix curled up on her lap. She doesn’t really need to watch.

“You have your own account?” you ask to kill time as the company logos roll.

He snorts. “Yeah, no. I’m sure someone pays for this, but I don’t know them and no one I know knows them.”

Oh. That’s kind of theft, isn’t it? At least, not using it as intended.

The logos stop and the screen shifts to a cage being moved in the rain by a bunch of men with guns. Then something goes wrong and the thing in the cage kills some of the men with guns before getting shot itself.

“What kind of movie is this?” you ask.

“A damn good one,” he answers.

“Seconding,” she adds.

You frown. “Your parents let you watch this kind of thing?”

He looks at you like you’d just asked whether water was wet. “No. My brother let me watch it once while my parents were out since I was going through a dinosaur phase. Now, I, uh, kind of watch what I want now.”

“People don’t really care about sex and violence in movies in Anahuac? They’re a part of life. No reason to keep kids from knowing real things exist. And do you want to talk about the dinosaur phase?” She’s absolutely beaming now. “Because I had a dinosaur phase. Never really left it either.”

The fox hisses and she immediately reaches down to pet her. “I am also in a fox phase. You can have two phases at once.”

Kekoa snorts. “You would, dragon girl.”

“It’s not my fault that we used to have birds that were six meters tall, then we didn’t, then we brought them back, and now no one seems to care that we have six meter tall birds again! Oh, Genesis, the dinosaurs in this movie shouldn’t have as many scales as they do. Except the aurorus, which should have spines and frills. But the dilatosaur shouldn’t have frills. Or venom. They were grass-types. And the pyroclaptors should be half the size. And none of them are actually from the Jurassic. Other than that, perfect film.”

Kekoa leans forward and makes a show of turning the volume up, even though it’s already as high as it goes.

“****ing nerd.”

She folds her arms and leans back into the wall. “I don’t see what the problem is with liking things. Especially cool things.”

“Well, you missed the flaw that actually matters: tyrantrum were scavengers.”

“You shut up!” Cuicatl practically screams. “That is one scientist’s theory based on snorlax of all things. Sure, tyrantrum could have scared off smaller predators, but then why would they need the neck muscles if they weren’t going to hunt? And what was killing all the prey they ate? Raptors weren’t big enough in most of their home range and the crocodiles would’ve just dragged the food into the water. Maybe other tyrannosaurs, but if smaller tyrannosaurs were killing giant armored herbivores then why couldn’t tyrantrum do it?” She huffs and crosses her legs before glaring in Kekoa’s general direction. “Such bullshit.”

They continue like that for hour, with Kekoa asking short dumb questions and setting Cuicatl off on adorably angry tirades about tyrantrum’s typing (maybe a dragon-type, but definitely not a dragon), tyrantrum-pyroclaptor nest arrangements (the raptors didn’t eat the tyrantrum eggs, they ate the mammals that came for the eggs, duh), and whether blaziken would beat a pyroclaptor in a fight (blaziken one-on-one, but a pyroclaptor would never fight alone so that doesn’t matter). He immediately changes the subject whenever she gives a substantive answer, so he’s always winning the conversation with very little effort. Like Mom. Except Cuicatl doesn’t seem to hate it?

You fall asleep before the movie actually ends. You don’t know if they ever stopped their bickering.
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Hello! I've been aware of your content before, as I knew this back when it was called Guidance, and also read some of the Alola Dex entries, which I liked, and was curious to see how much the worldbuilding of that carried into your story. To give my truncated thoughts on it, I'm really liking it so far, not only being a very unique beast of a Pokemon fic, but also showcasing a lot of talent for worldbuilding.

The thing that grabbed my attention right away was the use of 2nd person prose. Admittedly, I was a bit wary going into it because of the nature of the format, but that changed when I started reading it. While it is a little weird from the standpoint of reading about characters with defined personalities and pasts (when this type of narration is usually reserved for reader proxies), and can make it a bit harder to keep track of names of the POVs we're reading about, it does a very good job at getting into the heads of the characters through how it uses stream of consciousness to tell its story. It's very immersive because of how the senses are engaged throughout and how you get a feel for how all of the characters work through their thoughts and processes. It also works well for the psychic segments, as it also gives a good idea of how much of a headfuck wielding those powers are. It's very fascinating to read about, with all the talk about connections and pings and whatnot.

If the prose grabbed my attention at first, the characters kept me invested. While it is a little slow paced at the moment, with chapter 1 in particular having quite a bit of exposition about the world telegraphed through an interview (although it didn't bother me that much), I felt for the characters (particularly Rachel at the beginning, poor girl) and the relationships they end up forging throughout the story. Her scene with Espy was nice and humorous (while also giving insight into how typical Pokemon-human interactions work), and it was nice of her to reach out to Cuicatl given her general prickliness.

The obvious showstealer here is Pixie the Vulpix. Good god, what a great and interesting character (and I'm not just saying that because she's threatening to scream at me through Discord if I say otherwise). She's very lovable as a small, but egocentric and territorial Vulpix, but also has a lot of baggage dealing with implied abuse which adds some good drama to the mix. She does have a reason to be sceptical towards most humans (even though we've only been given a few details about her past to glean from), so having Cuicatl reach out to her with her psychic powers was rewarding while also being really dang cute. The fact that she's intelligent to some extent and is able to reason, but still acts on instinct and can't get past the language barrier feels like a much more nuanced take on the Pokemon protagonist in Pokecentric works, since a lot of them tend to feature Pokemon that have intelligence on par with humans, so this one feels a bit more believable. I am a hypocrite for saying that, of course, but on the whole, I love how your world tends to be more varied in terms of Pokemon intelligence depending on type, upbringing and evolution. At least, that's the impression I got from the Alola Dex companion as well, since different Pokemon can range from very low to very high intelligence.

While the character interactions are generally great and the dialogue is snappy all throughout, I felt chapter 3 was a bit less solid in that regard. I think you said it did verge on filler, and unfortunately, that was the impression I got from it. It was nice learning more about the characters and seeing them bounce off of each other (also giving us our first proper Pokemon fight, as well as introducing another cutie in the form of Sir Bubbles), but it felt like it was stalling the potential for story growth, especially this early on when we're just getting to know the characters as well as the grand scheme of how the plot will play out. This could be a 'calm before the storm' type of deal, which I'm fine with, but I think this would've felt a bit more earned later on since the pacing is already quite steady.

In any case, I'm really enjoying this fic and look forward to seeing how it progresses.


Middle of nowhere
Gender dysphoria. Menstruation.

Normal 1.4: Period


“Go, Whiskers!”

You don’t say anything as you send Hekili onto the field. What’s the point? She knows her name and what’s about to happen.

“Now, Fake Out!” Just as you see what “Whiskers” is a shockwave ripples across the field and smacks Hekili head-on. “Great! Get in close and bite the wing!”

“Retreating peck,” you calmly answer.

The meowth rushes across the field, but its too slow. By the time that he reaches your pikipek, she’s already in the air and gives the cat a nasty peck on the head for its trouble. Then a few wingbeats later, she’s up in the air circling the field.


“Echoed voice.”

The air around you ripples, first towards Hekili and then away. It’s barely noticeable, but you know that’ll change soon enough.

“Hey! No fair, that’s cheating!”

You glare at the kid. Some young haole brat. He ever heard “no” before? What does “fair” mean to him? The deck stacked in his favor, but subtly enough that he can deny it? Even odds must feel so unbearably unfair.

And to top it all off, it definitely isn’t cheating. It’s a perfectly valid, very common strategy that if he’d ever watched a damn match he would know he needed a counter for. But, nope, he’s entitled to win, however little work he puts in.

“Louder, if you will,” you respond. And Hekili answers with a cacophony of sound and a blast of wind. You definitely felt that one, and from the meowth’s disheveled fur you’re guessing it felt it as well. “And keep it up.”

“UGH!” The kid actually stomps his foot like it’ll get you to roll over and give you what he wants. “Jump up and use scratch!”

The cat’s legs bend down and it pounces is one fluid motion. Before you can even order a spiking peck, Hekeli lifts up and the claws only hit feathers. She knows what “up” means, even when other people say it. Clever girl.

Unless the kid’s pulling a spectacular con on you, that’s about as much thought as you’re going to have to put into this. Meowth are frail and devastating up close, but if it can’t get a hit in and doesn’t have any projectiles (and you really doubt it has projectiles) then it'll go down sooner rather than later. Battle’s over, even if he doesn’t want to admit it yet. And you hope he doesn’t concede until the bitter end. You want to see him crushed until he cries for his mommy. Keep people off the trails who don’t need to be there.

“Fake Out!”


Meowth sends off another shockwave, but by now the echoed voices are hitting it five times harder than anything it could send off. The blast wasn’t even powerful enough to disrupt Hekili. You look up in admiration. Your starter’s getting pretty big now. Almost the meowth’s size. And her echoed voice has more sounds in it, more little ripples that draw a little more power in and send a little more out. Maybe she isn’t close to evolving yet, but she’s made progress in the last few weeks.

“Work up! We can do this!”

Hmm. The meowth is gathering a little double helix of rising energy around itself. Give it a minute or two and it’ll probably be strong and fast enough to get hits in on Hekili. But that gives you a minute or two to think. The cat’s battered and it flinches a little bit more with every burst of sound and air. By the time it can land a hit, the match might be almost over. Persian are glass cannons, so you imagine meowth are too. You could rush in with a rock smash, disrupt the charging and maybe score a knockout at the same time. But if you fail, well, then you’re in close quarters. Exactly where you shouldn’t be.

You’ll give it a little bit. Then go in for the kill.

In the meantime, you take a quick glance at the adjacent battlefield to see how Kiwi’s doing. Her vulpix against a pyukumu. The fox is firing off volleys of ice shards at the water-type, but it barely even seems to notice. Weak, resisted ice attacks against a bulky water ‘mon? It won’t be nearly enough.

“Rock smash,” you call without even bothering to look back at the field.

“Now’s our chance! Whiskers, use—”

There’s a crack sound as Hekeli’s beak collides right with the meowth’s face and the cat is flung back onto its ass. You almost feel bad for it. Not its fault that its trainer gives pep talks in a do or die situation. A flash of light washes over the field. You add another to it. Hekeli can be thanked later, for now you have an image to project.

“You owe me six bucks.”

“Yeah, yeah, I know,” the kid huffs as he crosses the field. You hold out your hand and he slaps the bills into it. “Someday, I’m going to fight you again and I’m going to win.” He looks at you with an intense gleaming in his eyes, like he not only believes his words are true but knows they are.

You turn away from him and walk towards Kiwi’s battlefield. “I’ll take more of your money any time you want.”

Your match was a one-sided slugfest decided in a nonstop barrage of sound and one good peck to the noggin. Kiwi’s is decidedly more stallish. Her keokeo has the faint purple aura of toxic poisoning around it, which means that Kiwi’s opponent bought or borrowed the TM at some point. The fox is panting from poison and heat and maybe exhaustion. The pyukumuku has some shallow cuts in its mucus from the ice shards, but nothing managed to get past the outer layers. Not surprising. Those things are damn hard to hurt. You get your first glance at the pyukumuku’s trainer. She’s female. Asian. Her dress looks expensive, she’s wearing shades that obviously aren’t the cheap kind, and you think she’s got a designer purse. Not that you’d be able to tell the brand or anything, but it looks like something you’d see on TV. Add in the TM and, well, honestly you’re just shocked that a rich ***** uses a pyukumuku of all things. Good taste in pokémon in spite of everything. Rather have her along than Jennifer.

“Ice shard,” Kiwi calls just a little too loudly. Don’t think she’s deaf, and her fox has damn good hearing. Not that you’re going to just offer that advice up freely. If she’s smart she’ll figure it out on her own.

A barrage of ice rises up around the keokeo and flies towards its opponent. The pyukumuku takes it like a champ, and its trainer’s self-satisfied smirk deepens. **** her. She’s an asshole like you, but she’s not actually justified in her assholery.

“Spite,” she says. In the same calm “I already know I’m going to win” voice you’d been using three minutes ago.

“Now,” Kiwi commands with the exact same tone.

Once the ice shard volley lands, pyukumuku’s mouth opens and its tongue comes out to flip the fox off. Just when its innards are out, a dozen sharp ice crystals come out of nowhere to impale themselves in its tongue. The water-type bloats up for a second, seemingly its entire body growing a little bit bigger before it hastily pulls everything back inside. That had to have done more damage than it had taken in the entire rest of the battle and it took some skill and deception to pull off.

It was a good play. But it doesn’t matter. So long as the pyukumuku never inverts itself again, there’s nothing Kiwi can do. Eventually her pokémon will go down to poison or spite, which you didn’t even know pyukumuku could learn. And it was a ‘mon you were hoping to pick up later on, so you’d think you’d know what it can and can’t do.

“Kiwi, you might want to spare your fox some pain,” you tell her. She recoils, either from hearing your voice unexpectedly or the weight of your words. But she slowly nods her head in agreement.

“Good job, Pixie.” Two flashes of red cross the battlefield. The pyukumuku’s trainer crosses the field, smirking the whole time.

“And that’ll be six dollars, if you’d be so kind,” she says with the kind of over-affected false innocence you’d never been able to get away with. Kiwi doesn’t react, just pulling the money out (how does she know which bills are which?) and handing it over. “Thank you kindly, miss,” the girl says before sauntering off.

You’re about to call after her to ask for a battle of your own when you feel something shift, bringing your mood plummeting down with it.

“Let’s go,” you say through gritted teeth.


“How’d it go?” Jennifer asks as the door opens and Kiwi shuffles in. She’s still in her pajamas and rubbing sleep out of her eyes, which is probably a good thing because otherwise she’d probably be goddamn chipper.

“Fine,” you grunt. Kiwi just slides into her bed before spreading out on top of the sheets.

“Okay, well, um, if you don’t need it I’m going to get ready in the bathroom?”

Neither of you answers so she rummages through her bag and picks out some things before stopping by the closet to take a top out. Then she closes the door and leaves you almost alone.

It’s not too bad yet. Soon you’ll need to lie down for at least a day but for now you can awkwardly stand in the middle of the room. You glance at Kiwi. Worth talking? Nah. You can wait a few minutes and call someone you actually like. Not that she’s bad, necessarily. Maybe someday you’ll like her. But that day wasn’t yesterday and it sure as **** isn’t today.

By the grace of the tapus Jennifer doesn’t take a shower. Instead she shuffles out after a time that feels both too long and too short, makeup and hair immaculate and sleep either gone or hidden and wearing a t-shirt and jeans that somehow look like they cost more than everything in your bag combined.

“Alright. You ready to go?”

Kiwi rises and picks up her cane without a word.

“I’m staying,” you say.

“Tutor’s free,” Kiwi says.

“And I don’t need it.”

Jennifer looks at you funny before you dismissively wave her away. Less than a minute later you’re blissfully, finally, totally alone.

You go into the bathroom and let your pants drop before looking down. No stains. Pad’s still holding for now. You’d wondered if it wasn’t coming even though deep down you knew damn well it was gearing up. So you hoped for the best, planned for the worst. And the worst came. You don’t know how long you stand there staring down at your too-flat boxers before your gaze lifts to the mirror.

Turn around. You don’t. You should, but **** it you’re a hormonal ***** and you keep looking. There’s a curve under your shirt. You love your binder more than any single thing you own, but you’re big and there’s only so much a piece of fabric can do. Below that, well, your torso curves in before your hips flare out and none of it makes you any less of a man but dammit some part of you feels ridiculous even asserting that you could ever be male with your body as it is. And you know your voice is still higher than Mina on 4/20. Kiwi said as much. Her world is sound and people are voices and your voice is female so you are too. And. She. Just. Can. Not. Stop. Rubbing. It. In. Your. Cute. Rounded. Face.

You turn around without thinking and leave the bathroom. Then you slide into bed and fold half of a messed up sheet over your body. But you can still see your ****ing tiny toes so you have to actually push yourself up a little to get everything covered up by a blanket. Except for the little bulge on your chest that still perks the fabric up, reminding you that it’s there and will be until you’re eighteen and have real money in your wallet. There’s a phantom pain in your arms and legs, like something under your skin trying to press out but it can’t and you can massage it or hit it or scream or cry or try to ignore it but it will never come out.

It gets better. It’s getting better. Three days there’s another shot and then another a week after that and on and on forever. This could be your last period. And your voice is going to change and you’ll have hair and smell different and have almost everything you need to be you. But there’s nothing you can do about that right now. Just lie here and pray that your body turns out okay. And it feels like you should be doing something even if you know there’s nothing to be done.

You reach for your phone and unlock it without looking. Best to not stare into the black screen for a second because that second seldom stays as just a second. You raise up the phone and move it to your contacts; your finger hovers over the button before you will it to press down.

It rings twice. You take the time to put it on speaker and let it fall back down beside you.

“Mohn Ciel Memorial Home. How may I assist you today?”

“Alola,” you say. “It’s…”

“Allana! Didn’t expect to hear from you so soon!”

You swallow. Do you have the energy to spare today?

No. No you don’t.

“Had a moment. Thought I’d drop in on Manollo.”

“Of course, of course. He’s probably still asleep. I’ll have to go wake him up. Oh! And before I go, can I let people call you at this number?”

“Yeah, sure.”

“Okay, one sec.”

You half-smile in spite of everything. There’s no way in hell Manollo is up at this time on a Saturday morning and it feels a little good to force him up. You bet no one does that to him anymore. It would be a shame if he forgot what it felt like.

A few minutes later, there’s a shuffling sound on the other end.

“**** you, asshole.”

You smirk. Hard to say that was unexpected. “Isn’t Elizabeth right there?”

“Yeah. It’s why…” He yawns. Loudly. “It’s why I toned that down from what I wanted to say.” He yawns again. “Two weeks and you’re already giving up, huh?”

“You wish.”

“Yeah, guess I do. It’s boring without you around.”

“Take it my replacement is no match for the real deal?”

He scoffs. “Dude, she’s some ten-year-old girl. Barely spoken to anyone since she came here. Just sits in the library and reads.”

“Oh, you poor soul. Fifteen whole days with no one kicking your ass at Double Dash. Bet your ego’s flying with the minior.”

He laughs. “Yeah, well, think I’ll live. Enough about me; you’re the one on a journey. Details, now.”

“Fine, sure, whatever. I caught a pikipek. She’s pretty strong, starting to talk more. Maybe a month or two from evolution. Don’t know what the first trial is yet. I’ll let you know when I know. Have two teammates. Both girls, about my age.”

“That a gender thing?” Manollo asks. “Sticking you with other ‘girls’?”

You pause. That hadn’t actually occurred to you. Neither knew your dead name so VStar isn’t too incompetent. But is that why Kiwi thinks you’re a girl? She knows exactly what she’s doing and ****ing revels in it? Maybe. Maybe not. Probably not.

**** you hope not.

“Hey, my man, you still there?”

You cough. A high pitched cough. **** time to plow on.

“There weren’t that many people my age in the group, most of them female. Probably just luck of the draw. Neither’s Kanaka maoli. One’s Aztec. Name’s ‘Kwikit’ or something. She’s smart enough, into battling, probably not a total *****. But she keeps misgendering me every chance she gets.”

“Kick her ass,” he says, dead serious. “That’ll shut her up.”

“Manollo, she’s blind and only comes up to my chin. I’d feel bad about it.”

“You shouldn’t. She hurts you, you hurt her harder and she’ll stop. Law of the jungle.”

You don’t answer. For a few seconds you only hear your heart beating. Then the cramps flare up and you need to get distraction words out.

“I’ll think about it. Other girl is haole. Probably rich as ****. Guess? She’s some free spirit out to pursue her passions but her mean daddy thinks she should do something practical so he cut her the **** off. And now she’s convinced she’s suffering every injustice in the world. I’m trying not to piss her off too badly because we’re going to be stuck together but. Ugh. At some point she’s going to say the wrong thing and I’m going to snap at her and she’ll snap at me and that’ll be it. Good riddance.”

Manollo snickers. “Sounds like you’ve got your whole plan worked out. Still set on your final team?”

“Hmm. Reconsidering. The Aztec ***** has a keokeo and I don’t want to double up.”

“Holy ****.” There’s the sound of movement on the other side as the phone shifts. “How’d she get that?”

“Rich haole running the place gave it to her. Probably a pity thing since, y’know, blind. Still doesn’t feel right.”

“Yeah,” he says. “It doesn’t.”

Alola has four tapus that watch the islands. But Tapu Bulu isn’t a fan of humans, so flygon, minior, and ninetales took on the ‘protectors of man’ role in Ula’Ula myths. Ninetales were worshipped as gods for a long time. Still are by some people. Keokeo are the watchful guardians of Lanakila and the guides of the dead and dying. But they’re probably just another dog breed to her.

“Toucannon and hariyama are givens. Then pyukumuku, vikavolt, and marowak for an elec-fire-water core. Last slot should be a dark-type for maximum bat slaying. Still not sure which one I’ll go with.”

Two forces pull throughout the call. The first is positive: the conversation flows on its own accord through a thousand topics, each less on topic than the last. Because the only real topic to be discussed is in the subtext. For a moment you feel like you’re back at the closest thing to home you’ve had since elementary school. And the other, well, that builds every time your voices echoes on the other end and you hear just what you sound like to everyone else. And that brings the phantom pain to your throat and head until eventually everything is throbbing and you want to cry but you know that would just make you sound like a little girl. Eventually, the second half wins when a phone alarm tells you that your pad needs to be changed.

You hang up with a mixture of relief and sadness, one thought rising above both: this had better be the last time you have to deal with this ****.


“You may begin.”

The sound of rustling papers fills the room before abruptly dying out.

Class III. Let’s see if this is more of a challenge than Class II or Class I.

Rank the following ten pokéballs based on the quality of life they would give a misdreavus. Awkward wording aside, that’s dusk at the top and dive at the bottom. Wonder if some poor kid believes that luxury balls are always the answer. Or gets caught up in wondering if misdreavus are made of water (they aren’t… right… no, not second guessing yourself).

Briefly describe the laws around vikavolt capture and sale. That’s easy enough. Buggers are nearly extinct in the wild due to overcapture, so they let trainers capture one but only sell it if they actually complete the entire challenge.

Which of the following are True Psychics? Hypno and mr. mime. Alakazam is the trick answer.

On and on. How do you treat hyperthermia in ice-types? What islands do these pokémon live on? What happens if a z-move hits a mega evolved pokémon? Briefly explain how oricorio form changes work. Which of the following are invasive? How do you get a pokémon registered as a ride pokémon? Some of it's practical, most of it isn’t. Just meant to make sure you know a few things about a lot of pokémon. That you actually care about this ****.

You’re the first to finish. Out of the 100 questions there are maybe six you’re uncertain on. You can miss twenty and still pass.

All in all? Good day.

You step outside and consider what to do next. Kiwi’s going to take an eternity in her special needs room. Jennifer’s going to take an eternity and a half because she’s an idiot. But if you go straight back to the center you’ll make it right as lunch opens. That sounds way more appealing than waiting around here.


“We should celebrate,” Jennifer says.

“No money,” you answer.

She honest to gods puts her hands on her hips and pouts. “Don’t need money to go to the beach.”

“No swimsuit,” Kiwi answers.


You do have one. But other people seeing your body is bleck. Even if you weren’t trying (and sort of failing) to go stealth.

“Well, what else are you going to do?”

“Movies. Inside. Where it’s not hot as ****.”

“Chirlov’s battling. There will be a radio broadcast. In Galaran.”

“Oh, come on!” Jennifer huffs. “It’s been a week and it doesn’t feel like we’ve even done anything fun together. Can’t we just do one thing?”

Ugh. Fine. Maybe this will get her off your back.

“I’ll go, but I’m not getting in the water.”

“Great! Cuicatl?”

She groans. “ Whatever. But I’m staying on land with Kekoa.”

Jennifer claps her hands and you see Kiwi flinch in your peripheral vision.


“You sure you don’t want to come in with me?” Kiwi shakes her head. You don’t respond at all. “Come on, Kekoa, you’re just wearing shorts and a t-shirt. Nothing that can’t get wet.”

Also wearing a binder. And you’d really prefer not to have your clothing vacuum-sealed and showing all your curves to the world.

“I’ll pass.”

“Hmph. Whatever.” Jennifer turns around and slips her shorts and shirt off, leaving her much more revealing swimsuit behind. She turns around and kicks the shorts towards the bench you’re sharing with Kiwi.

For a moment you’re facing her head on and, ah **** she’s hot. Like you kind of always knew that from the legs and general face but seeing her exposed makes all the things click. She’s not as big as you but uh. She throws the t-shirt at you, although it flies a little bit to the side. “Don’t be gross.” With that she pivots and walks towards the surf.

Kiwi leans back into the bench and crosses her legs. “What’s she like, scale of one to ten?”


She snorts. “Can’t tell if she’d be more insulted that you answered or that you ranked her so low.”

“I have very high standards,” you respond. As deadpan as possible.

That just earns a wicked smirk. “Really, then? So what am I on your scale?”

Well. Uh. She’s not ugly. Her hair is nice. The rest is uh. Too short to pull off anything other than cute, and some of her features aren’t really cute enough for cute-cute or ugly enough for ugly-cute. A couple lighter lines on her skin from old scars, eyebrows that are a little too heavy, a gauntness over everything that brings her muscles into contrast but makes her face look really sharp.


She very lightly punches you. Probably aiming for the shoulder, hits near your elbow instead.

“Well, my voice is a ten and that’s all that matters.”

“Really? Well, what’s my voice?”

“Hmm. Four. Too manly for a girl.”

That sends a stone straight into the center of your feelings. The emotions ripple to the edge of your heart and rebound in and pretty soon there are ripples clashing with ripples as the whole thing threatens to spill over. Into… into what you don’t know. But a lot of something.

She moves on before you can find out. “Very windy today.”

You grunt to test the waters. No emotion bleeds through. It’s safe to speak.

“That’s just the sea breeze.”


You sigh. Is this a cultural thing or no? And should you tell her if it is? Ah, **** it. She could figure it out online in a minute.

“Wind rushes onshore in the day, offshore at night.”


There’s silence, aside from the wind. Jennifer is out there somewhere but you can’t really pick her out in the offshore crowd. As your eyes scan they settle on something else down the beach. A metal framework with the first semblances of a proper building being grafted on. Another resort. Bringing more tourists. And taking the kingdom just a little bit further away.

“Didn’t grow up near the sea, I take it.”

“No. Foothills of the mountains. Never been to the ocean until last week.”

Oh. That’s depressing. Being cut off from the water. Although her people are more desert and lake dwellers so maybe it didn’t even matter to her.

She doesn’t talk for long enough that you suspect that she’s probably drifted off. Not a bad place to do it, on the beach with the tropical sun beating down. You’re thinking about dozing off yourself.

And then out of the blue: “We’ve never battled.”

You glance over at her. She’s sort of half-lying on her side, facing you.

“Because you have type advantage. Wouldn’t be fair.”

“Yeah, well, you don’t suck at this. So maybe it would be.”

You think about correcting her. It’s not really that she sucks so much as she’s been unlucky. But on your tenth time coming up unlucky maybe it’s no longer luck. Besides, it’s not like she deserved to win any of those matches. By nature, the winner deserved it. And she’s never been a winner as far as you’re aware.

You take it back. She sucks ass.

“Okay. You’re on. There’s a battlefield near the surf, looks like that match is about to finish up.”

She stands up and looks back down on you with a confident half-smile. Looks back down a little, anyway. Kiwi’s got maybe a few inches on you sitting.

“The one-on-one battle between Kekoa of Ak/ala,” the kid you roped into announcing has an awful voice break and stands looking stunned for a sec before he decides to power through, “and Kiwi of Anahuac is about to begin. You can, um, I don’t really… send out now?”

Someone’s going to need to teach this kid confidence but it’s not going to be you.

Kiwi actually has to release from a pokéball. Guess the beach is too hot for an ice-type. Her loss.

“Pixie, battle time!”

The fox growls as soon as she materializes, ears slicked back and tails pressed down. Does she do that every time she comes out? You’ve seen her actually use the ball so little that you honestly can’t say.

You toss your ball into the air and catch it. When you release this is all going to go to hell and you need a moment to think.

Toss. Catch. No time to set up hyper voice. You’d just get knocked out of the sky by ice shards eventually.

Toss. Catch. She doesn’t seem to have anything to hit up close. Just roar for zoning.

Toss. Catch. Hekeli’s fast enough that roar doesn’t matter. No reason not to get in close and never let up.

Toss. Catc—****. The ball slips right off the edge of your finger and crashes into the sand. Kiwi smiles, evidently having heard that. “You going to keep me waiting?”

No. You reach down, flick the ball into the air and catch it before releasing. Need to practice that more. Hekeli materializes and seems to get what’s going on pretty quickly. You glance at the referee and glare to wipe the smile off his face.

“And, uh, begin.”

“Up,” you command. Hekili rises higher as a blast of ice crystals flies right beneath her.

Kiwi’s face is inscrutable. Maybe she doesn’t even know if that hit or missed. “Baby-doll eyes.”

Weird choice but

Holy **** that is the cutest ****ing fox you’ve ever seen. Were her eyes always that big? Like, does she physically make her eyes bigger or is

**** closing window of attack.

“HEKILI, ROCK SMASH!” you shout. The pikipek quickly snaps out of the trance she was in before cawing and diving straight down. Kiwi starts to speak and a small flurry of ice rises around vulpix in the fraction of a second Hekili needs to descend. It doesn’t matter. There’s a crack in the air for a moment before a very cute fox with very big eyes is flung up herself. You whistle and Hekili moves. When the vulpix finally comes to earth and stops rolling through the sand, there’s another nasty peck on its side. Sometimes there are shouted orders and little glimmers of ice form and sometimes they dig into Hekeli’s side. It doesn’t matter. Too much damage too quickly for the vulpix to cope with.

Kiwi had a week and she hasn’t even figured out how to counter your pikipek? What a ****ing loser.

A red flash shines on your smirk. After it fades Kiwi just stands still as a wave crashes into the beach. And another. And another. Then she starts walking across the field towards you, a hand absently slipping into her purse. She drops two bills as she walks by you, but she doesn’t stop. You watch her walk up the beach, away from you, without any words spoken.

For a moment you want to follow, tell her that it’s alright and she’s a special snowflake just like everyone else. Then there’s anger. She’s just doing this for pity points, to make you feel bad that you won. **** her. Manipulative *****. Using her size and disability to take away your win from you and make you give her what she wants. Well, she’s going to learn right here and now that emotionally abusive bullshit will get her nowhere. She wants a win, she can take it from you over Hekili’s unconscious body.

You reach down to pick up the money before it blows away.
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Middle of nowhere
The chapter below deals with contemplation of suicide from a stream of consciousness perspective, with a second person narrator acting as the kind of thoughts that spur it on. I understand very, very much if you don’t want to read it.

I will post a summary of this chapter at the start of the next one. I promise that after the relative brutality of 1.4 and 1.5, 1.6 is fairly happy. It contains a scene where a snow fox eats ice cream. Promise.

Additional content notices for discussion of an eating disorder and internalized ableism. And strong language, but that feels like an afterthought given everything else.

Normal 1.5: Until The World Moves On

Cuicatl Ichtaca

Achcauhtli dismisses his friends and walks up to you.


He sits down and you lean against him, letting your mind fully intertwine with his.


There’s more kept in his personal sphere than usual. Typically he lets you see about 70% of it, and you let him see almody 90% of yours (pretty much everything except for the feminine and romantic stuff that grosses him out a little). Now you can see maybe 40%.

{Something wrong?}

He groans, physically and mentally.

{Headache. Like yours.}

{Share?} you reply.


You get to your feet and give him telepathic and physical kicks.

{You always take mine.}

{I always take one-third of yours. This is my first, so I will keep all of it. Owe you that much. And more.}

You roll your eyes. It took you forever to get that one just right and he can’t even see it now, but he probably knows that you’re doing it. Either via telepathy or normal brotherly intuition. You shoot out a quick, compressed guide to migraine survival. He already knows all of it, of course. He’s had one-third of a lot of migraines. It’s more of a passive aggressive thing. You pain share, so can he.

He stands up and takes your elbow to guide you. You immediately recoil.

{You’re really hot.}

{Am I?}

{Yes. Let me share.}


You could force it. You’re the stronger sibling by far because all that brain mass he wasted on vision went straight to your third eye. But you don’t. It makes him really upset whenever you do and then the connection makes you really upset and then it takes months for everything to get back to normal.

Also it’s wrong and stuff. For reasons.

{I’ll tell Dad you’re sick.}

He actually, physically snorts.

{I just have a fever and a headache. What’s he going to do?}

Nothing. Nothing is what he’ll do. So you shut up for a little bit, making sure that some of your displeasure bleeds into his mind for the rest of the walk.

You know you’re almost at the house long before he tells you. But you let him chivalrously say that it’s approaching and then let you in the door. Partially his annoying drive to masculinity, partially keeping appearances, partially his lingering anxiety from that one time that you took his sight away for two weeks to teach him a lesson. Gods, he was so adorably helpless.

“We’re home,” you call to the house so that he doesn’t have to. Neck and jaw movements can sometimes be a pain and you don’t know if this is one of those headaches because he won’t show you.

{It is one of those headaches.}

{You’re welcome.}

There’s a fairly long pause.

“Cuicatl Ichtaca, are you still going out tonight?”

You turn towards your stubborn brother.

{Am I?}

{I’m fine. You can go.}

{Do you want me to stay?}

{I’m not going to pain share and I won’t be good company.}

{We can talk. I can distract you.}

{You know I won’t be in a talking mood.}

{But I will be.}

He gives you a mental shove. “She is.”

“Okay. I have a box for heatmor by the door. Can you bring it out to her?”

“Of course,” you say.

A few seconds later it’s clear that’s all you’re going to get from Dad, so you generously let your brother guide you to your shared room. He leaves you standing in the doorway, then stumbles forward and loudly crashes into his bed. Which probably doesn’t help the headache.

He grumbles something incoherent aloud and you smile in spite of everything. On your way out the door you slip your mind out of his, with one final gesture. You point towards your love for him and he belatedly points you towards his for you.

Then you shut the door and walk back towards the front door. You find Searah’s box easily enough by shuffling around near the doorway. You bend down and—ugh **** this is heavy—immediately set it back down. You take a few steps and open the door. Then you bend down again, properly brace yourself, and haul it up, ignoring the burning in your arms. Next it’s a few awkward waddling steps out the door where the arm pain starts to nestle into your back. You’re strong but you’re small and even Dad might struggle with this one. At long last you can feel the sunlight upon all of your body. You bend down and let the box go. Going by the crash, maybe ten centimeters higher than you should’ve. Oops.

“Alice! Dorothy! Ilsa!” you call. There’s a familiar wingbeat and then warm, dry air rustles your smiling face. Ilsa cries out her greetings and you take a few steps forward for a hug. Ellas dutifully complies. Ellas’ warm, which reminds you of your stupid annoying overly macho twin brother. You grimace but quickly correct it into a smile. Alice is here. This is happy time. “I know girls, it’s been too long.”

Ten days, actually, which really isn’t bad. Alice’s territory is almost two hundred square kilometers so she can be gone for a while if food is scarce or she has a boundary dispute to attend to.

Alice grunts her agreement nonetheless. You slowly step back, making sure to stroke each head in the process. You point in the general direction of the package. “Mind carrying that for—”

There’s a giant rush of wind that almost knocks you off your feet. A moment later you feel Alice’s breathing beside you where the package should be. Ellas barks out a “yes.”

“Good girls,” you whisper as you extend a hand. One of the minor heads reaches out to nuzzle it. As you scratch the cheek you run your fingers across a ridge where the scales don’t quite mesh right. Dorothy. “Now let’s go out back to see your friends.”

You gently wrap your hand around the base of Dorothy’s head and start walking towards the gate to the back lot. Alice glides along, subtly pulling you away from a rock (that you knew was there) at one point. Then you get to the rusty old gate, open it up with an awful screech, and slip inside. Alice just slides out of your grip and floats over the fence. Her wings beat and stir the wind, but less often and with less power than you’d expect. However ellas stays airborne, mechanical flight is only a small part of it. You’ve never been able to find out how that works in all of your reading, and you’ve read pretty much everything that’s been written on hydreigon in three languages, so you’re pretty sure that no one knows.

You close the gate and walk deeper into the lot. “Anyone here?”

Searah squeals and you hear her rapid, light footsteps as she races over. You brace yourself before she arrives and practically flings herself on you, standing on her hindlegs as her long clawed hands rest on your shoulders and her snout presses against your neck. “Hey girl,” you say, before returning the hug. If Alice is warm, Searah is almost uncomfortably so. Comes with the typing. She also has a wonderful layer of thick fur just long enough to submerge your fingers in. “Brought you a toy.”

She squeaks again, much closer this time, and the intent flashes into your head. “Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!” Searah lowers herself to the ground and shuffles towards the box, a steadily quieter string of Thank you!s echoing in your head. Then you hear her shred the cardboard followed by the faint sound of her tongue licking her food. Probably a durant carcass given the weight. There aren’t any down here and heatmor are literally built to eat them. No shock that they’re her favorite treat.

{Hello, child.}

This voice appears directly and exclusively in your mind. It’s distinctly male, but very deep and almost echoey. Not threatening just… comforting. Like he’s a warm blanket of words on a cold desert night. You could easily fall asleep listening to him (and have several times).

{Hello, Renfield.}

He doesn’t physically embrace you. His body is weird. Squishy, but he doesn’t like being squished. Not that it hurts him. You’re pretty sure that even Searah would struggle to burst him open. Alice, well, all bets are off there.

{Is your brother not here today?} he asks, even though he could easily just get that information from your mind. He taught you all of your tricks and he’s way stronger than you are.

“Achcauhtli’s sick,” you respond. Aloud. So that Searah can hear as well. Not that she reacts. Her tongue is probably three feet deep in a giant ant right now.


Alice growls. Quiet and high, descending in volume and pitch at the end. Jealousy. She’s the only one who doesn’t instantly understand what you say, language barrier be damned. It takes you a second to come up with the words, though. Words that she’d understand. Sickness isn’t really a thing that hydreigon deal with. Their only concept of it is in reference to prey. The same growl can mean very old, very young, sick, reckless, or disabled. Anything easy to kill. You replicate the growl (a little bit too high pitch but you can’t really rumble like ellas can), followed up with your brother’s name in human tongue.

She growls again. This time with a whine at the end from both minor heads.

“No, not like Danielle.”

Alice snorts. Skepticism. Or a request for clarification. Or both.

“Not…” you gesture towards your tummy as you perform the hiss for egg. Not pregnant, you mean. Not about to die and be replaced by two helpless infants.

She chuffs understanding.

{Did I do that right?} you ask Renfield.

{You would know better than I.}


“Anyone else here?” you ask. There’s a faint shifting in the dirt a few meters away followed by a metallic clang. The closest thing to a greeting that he ever does. And even that’s unusually social for a ferrothorn. “Good to see you too, Spike.” No answer. You weren’t really expecting one.

{Charles and ‘chovsky here?}


Also not surprising. They stayed on the property after Mom died out of loyalty or convenience, but they don’t make a habit of being out back when you get home from school. You’re a curiosity because you can talk to them like Mom did, but you aren’t their trainer and never will be.

{Well, greet them for me.}

{I will do so.}

You take a step towards Alice and ellas swoops up to meet you. When you stand up on your tiptoes ellas presses right up against you and you can feel her low, constant growl of affection through the wall of her belly.

“Ready to go?” you ask.

She responds by yanking you up into the air and soaring off.


The nurse is quiet for way longer than they usually are. ****.

“Fought a pikipek, did you?” she finally asks.


“Did you catch the trainer’s name? Or did you exchange bets electronically?”

“I… yeah. He’s my traveling partner. How bad is it?”

She sighs. “She’ll make a full recovery within twenty-four hours. Could’ve been much worse. Pikipek have a hard time controlling their attacks and I want to talk to the trainer before he gets an excessive force ticket.”

You half-smile in spite of everything. Full recovery. You’re a shitty trainer, but you didn’t break anyone forever. Not this time.

“Can I have his name, please? Again, he’s not going to get punished. Just talked to.”

Heh. No need to worry. He wants people to rise and fall by their own hand, fine. He can take his own falls.

“Kekoa. I don’t know his last name. He’s about sixteen.”

“Has he gone by this center?”

You nod. “He’s staying here. Same room as me.”

The nurse makes a few clicks and keystrokes.

“Okay. I’ll talk with him tomorrow.”

You lower your head and feel one foot pressing hard enough into the back of your leg that there will be a print for a few hours. Weird. Didn’t even notice that you’d started. You press the shoe in a little harder and sigh.

“Take good care of her, please.”

“I will,” she says in a way that sounds like a smile. “I’ll see you tomorrow.”

You can’t bring yourself to answer that. Only nod and turn around.

Hau’oli is a really friendly city for the blind. Much better than Tenochtitlan was. Every curve has the bumpy pavement to tell you to stop and all the crossing buttons have a voice telling you to wait or go.

You ignore it all. There’s a wind on your face and you’re going to walk towards it until you hit the ocean. If someone hits you, well, **** it. At least your Dad gets some more money to piss away. And you do get honked at a few times, or feel a rush of wind uncomfortably close to your body. At the busiest intersections you even stop until the nice robovoice tells you to go. If you get hit by chance, then that’s fate. You’re fine leaving yourself to fate, to the gods. But you can’t just walk into a car and let the gawkers see your limp body flung across the ****ing street and run. That’s not fate, that’s a choice. And there’s no dignity in it.

Everything’s numb. No, not numb. The opposite. You’re feeling everything at once and your feelings haven’t quite decided what to tell your brain. But there’s definitely shame. Maybe anger. Fear? No, not fear. Not much anyway. Hunger, of course, because there’s almost always hunger clawing at your insides and tempting you to give in, to break and stuff yourself and become even fatter and less loveable. But it’s a numb pain right now, the kind that settles in after a couple hours.

By the time you can hear the waves over the cars, you’ve settled on a single thought.

This wasn’t how things were supposed to go.

Your mom was a professional battler. You spent hundreds of hours listening to battles on the radio and hundreds more ignoring lectures and daydreaming about teams and routes and strategies. Hundreds more practicing knots and fire and first aid with your brother. You were never popular, sure, but you cuddled with a ****ing dragon. Someday you’d leave town and be someone. Everything was looking up until it wasn’t.

Your dad never blamed you in words, but you’re a telepath and you hear when people think about you like you hear people saying your name from the other end of the room. You should’ve known, should’ve pressed, should’ve stayed, should’ve told him.

You should’ve been enough.

Or at least, it should’ve been you that went instead. He had eyes, a future. He never put his hands on his hips and pouted in a way that reminded him far too much of a long-buried woman, never had stupid unobtainable dreams, never got held back because he couldn’t read the damn books.

You should’ve been enough. But you weren’t when he needed it, which shouldn’t have been a surprise because you’d never been enough before.

There’s another feeling now. Concern, apprehension. A quiet, trembling voice asking, Where’s this going? even though it already knows the answer. Because it’s your voice. The one you use when someone’s yelling at you. Which, **** it, yeah, you’re ****ing yelling at yourself now.

You don’t know when the tears started. **** it. Crying in public again. Other people, the ones with eyes, can see you.

…not that you care about the eyes…

You take a deep, steady breath to beat down the ugly sobs. Keep some dignity, at least.

The ocean’s below you. Three to five meters, probably. What would happen if you fell? Probably nothing. Unless there were rocks. It’d just be one of those tall diving boards you’ve heard about on television. If there were rocks, if you fell the right way, maybe there’d be nothing at all. Just the feel of the wind and then silence forever. Or maybe you’d **** it up like everything else and wind up a damn cripple too. Then you’d deal with three times the pity. One for the jump, one for the eyes, one for the wheelchair. Like you’re not even human. Just some poor sick animal everyone else is supposed to accommodate. And maybe you ****ing are.

Twelve battles and you’ve lost them all… The one thing you were supposed to be good at and you blew it. Emotional support? You shared a damn mind with someone and then left them alone to die. What are you even good for?

Please don’t do this.

What if you did?

You don’t want to die. You just want things to get better.

Well, when’s that going to happen?

How long will it be until someone thinks about you for the last time? Your dad's probably already written you off as an idiot child who decided to throw herself to the dogs. Kekoa won't give a ****. Might even be glad. Genesis will be sad for like three days until she realizes that she's much better off with whoever replaces you. Pixie will be upset until she finds some new trainer to disappoint her. Rachel might show up to the funeral (if anyone even bothers to hold one), but she's a busy woman and you give her two weeks before she realizes how much of a waste of time you were.

Alice, Renfield, and Searah would care.

No. They’ve already found new homes and trainers who won't fail them when it matters most. Maybe they'll think about you in pity or scorn a little bit in the upcoming years, but less and less until not at all.

Three years. You give it three years until the world moves on entirely like you were never here at all.

The narrative demands to continue, to be finished. But everything around it is screaming in fear and concern and… and… the narrative isn’t you. Not all of you. You sit down and the anger breaks and the narrative isn’t the loudest voice anymore.

You sob and choke up and make a scene and don’t ****ing care.

People would miss you. The whole town came to… to his service. People you don’t think your brother ever thought much of. And their minds were ****ing broken by it, scarred in a way that you’d never seen before. If you could see your mind…

Well, you weren’t like this before.

You miss before. You miss Achcauhtli. You miss sitting next to him on the hill behind the house as the sun went down, and watching his shitty telenovelas while teasing him in your minds. You miss having someone in your head who loved you more than you ever loved yourself. Someone who could take the narrative, shred it, and banish it away.

Minds are fragile and you’ve seen scars that cut right down to the ****ing core and turn normal, happy people into people like you. If you sat down next to someone and held their hand and knew that you’d be happy, if you gave them the scar you still… No. You wouldn’t. That’s not who you are. Not who Mom would’ve wanted you to be.

But gods it hurts. It hurts and you want it to stop and you don’t know how to make it go away and maybe it never will.

Footsteps approach and you don’t care because there are two voids inside you tearing everything into them that they can and still never being satisfied.

Someone bends down beside you. “Hey,” she says. It’s quiet and soft and resolute. Like Mom in the memories that Renfield showed you. “I’m Rachel, if you don’t remember,” the voice says.

And then it doesn’t say anything else. But you can still feel her presence. The vague touch of her mind on yours, shying away from the turmoil just inside the surface but still there. It’s… it’s a lot. After what you did to her.

You stick out a hand and she holds it and you keep sobbing but it doesn’t even matter.


She keeps reading through the menu like you care. A dish name, a description, no price. It’s drowned out by the dozens of conversations and the sounds of the wind and waves and the wingull fighting on the shore and the little whispers of thoughts all around you.

Eventually she stops talking and gently but audibly sets the menu down.

“Anything sound good?”

You should respond. Make small talk. Or just give a one word answer. But it feels like you’re lying down half asleep at the bottom of a pit and the answer is so high above you and you can’t make yourself get up and reach it.

“Okay. Mind if I pick?”

Do you?

“Allergies? Dietary restrictions? Things you just don’t like?”

That’s very considerate of her to ask. It’s very inconsiderate of you to wallow in your ****ing despair like no one else is hurting. Just give her an answer.


You worthless piece of ****.

“I’ll take that as a ‘no.’ You eat much for breakfast?”

You ate half an English muffin before it became a ball of mush in your mouth that just got bigger with every bite so you spit it out into a napkin and threw it all away like a ****ing toddler.

“Hmm. Fried magikarp sandwich fine? It comes with stuff on the side that you can put on if you want it, but otherwise it’s just fish.”

“Yeah, sounds good.”

Wait what did you just talk. Good job. Doing the bare minimum again.

Rachel shifts her arms. “Perfect. Congratulations on your Class III, by the way.” She sounds like she actually cares.


You pick up on more of the whispers and sounds as you slowly pull yourself out of the pit. It takes you a few seconds of conscious effort to banish them again.

“How’s Pixie?”

“Unconscious. In the Pokémon Center. For the twelfth time this week.”

Well. It’s out there now and you’re only crying a little bit.

The waitress comes back and sets down a bowl and says some kind but meaningless words and takes Rachel’s orders before walking away. It doesn’t reach her voice, but her mind has words of confusion and concern and pity bubbling up near the surface.

Rachel pushes the bowl closer to you and then slides some small objects across the table.

“Plastic knife. Rawst butter. Little balls of fried dough in the basket. Best if you cut them in half and put the butter in.”

Your arms are heavy. Your mouth is free from the pit but your body hasn’t quite been dragged out yet. Takes a few seconds just to convince your body that, no really we’re being alive again. You have to very deliberately take control of your arm and take it off autopilot. Then lift it up even though it just wants to stop and rest. Next step: pick up a ball. It’s rough, none of the crumbs really come off, even if you rub a finger along it. Set the ball down. Steel yourself and lift the arm, fingertips reaching down almost to the tablecloth. Find the butter packet and cut some bread in half. By the time you’ve buttered it you feel like you’ve just done twenty pull ups.

Look at you. Eating food. ****, time to get a podium and a medal and is there a speech you’d like to give?

It is good though. The butter has the taste of preserved fruit. Deeper and richer and almost bitter. Not the vaguely sweet water of fresh fruit. Or the fruit snacks she gave you that tasted like soft plastic feels. The bread is probably too dry in the way that fried dough usually is if it’s not fluffy. Still fried. You can just feel the little ball of fat sticking right out of your stomach. And the hint of food turns the hunger from a quiet ache in the background to a ravenous beast that shant be ignored.

Whatever. You reach for another one.

You can just skip dinner. Fake being sick. But then Genesis would bring you food, because she’s like that. Nevermind. Go on a walk alone at dinner time. Sit on a bench for a few hours. Come back, say that you got food on your way up.

Rachel doesn’t say anything for a while. You don’t think she’s eating, either. Just watching you. Weird.

“Do you want to talk about it?” she asks.

It takes you an awkwardly long time to finish chewing and swallow and speak. “No.”

“Okay.” You reach for a third before she can follow up. She does anyway. “You know where you’re starting your journey at?”

You shake your head.

“Oh. Akala. You’ll get the full details at the briefing tomorrow. While you’re there, there’s someone I think you should meet.”

You reach your hand in the basket but there’s nothing left. ****, did you really eat all of that? How many? At least three. Three centimeters across, that’s maybe a full centimeter squished across your stomach. Your skin swelling in size as the blubber grows, becomes obvious and hideous and unable to just hide beneath your shirt like it should. They’ll laugh. Leave you. They should.

“I can ask for more if you—”


“Probably a good idea. Your sandwich should be here soon. Anyway, Akala. There’s a woman there. She’s sort of the boss of people like us on the islands, even if she likes to say that she’s less of a boss and more of a preschool teacher trying to get the entire class through the day without anyone sticking their finger in a socket.”

You give a “heh” because it sounds like a joke and you don’t have a laugh in you right now. Your mind is still whizzing away in the background, revising your earlier plan from a walk and sitting on a bench to a run. And then figuring out the logistics of going for a run without Pixie in unfamiliar territory. Maybe go to another center and use a treadmill?

“It’s sort of a formality. Meeting her. But we don’t have a {psychic} school on the island and she’s in the best position to talk about options and…” She sighs. “I don’t know everything that you’re going through, but I think it might be good for you to wait a few months and get some training before you start out.”

You frown. Response. Response that needs thought. “Can’t. Time limit.”

“Visa time limit? Because she could get you transferred to the mainland with an educational visa in hand within a day.”

“It’s not the visa.”

“Mission from god? World to save?”

You don’t like the tone. It’s closer to mocking than anything she’s ever taken. Like she saw what you just did with the bread. And you don’t want to explain why there’s a time limit. Not now. Not here. Not when both the hunger and the narrative are feeding off of each other. Not when you feel like this.

The waitress comes back and sets down your food. Words are said. You don’t really pay attention.

“I’m sorry. That was rude. I know the last thing you want right now is probably more school, but trust me: it helps. I wasn’t doing too well before I went. Life sucked, {didn’t understand my powers}. A few years at the academy turned me around. I like to imagine I’m doing pretty well right now.”

“I’m glad it helped you.”

You reach for the sandwich before your finger brushes against the vegetables on the plate. You run a hand along them. Just a tomato slice and some greens. There’s a brief mental struggle and then, fine, it would be awkward to explain why you’re not eating this and she was very, very nice to buy it for you. The vegetables go on and you take a bite. It’s actually pretty damn good. Perks of being on the sea. The magikarp was probably swimming this morning. Still fried on the edges and the vague taste of oil and the knowledge of what you’re eating and the background modeling of the fish spread out on your torso isn’t looking good. Doesn’t sound like Rachel’s moved to touch her food, though.

“Look. I know that you don’t want to talk about it but—”

{If we’re going to do this, and I’d really rather not, let’s not do it where people can hear.}

She sighs, aloud. “I’m not as good at that as you are, but I’ll try.” {You’re not doing well. Second time this week. At least. Can get help before leave. Therapy. Training. Battle practice. Friends. Scared to send you into wild now.}

You take another bite to hide your scowl.

{You going to stop me?}

“Cuicatl, I am worried. Am I wrong to be?”

That is patently unfair. What are you supposed to say to that? Yes and you’re saying she’s crazy. No and you’re admitting she’s right.

“Worried about what?”

You hear her eat a little of her sandwich. Probably buying some time.

“It’s lonely out there. I know. I lasted for all of three weeks in the woods before I decided it wasn’t for me. If you don’t have a support network and aren’t in a good place going in, you’re not going to be able to handle bad feelings well when they come. And they will come.”

‘Will come.’ Like they’re not here. Like they haven’t been here. Like they aren’t the core of who you are.

“I have Pixie.”

She groans. “So your entire emotional support system is a narcissistic fox? That’s your argument?”

And her. And kind of Kekoa when he isn’t being a dick. Not that you can blame him. Pixie started panicking about a male human bleeding from the genitals and now you understand that the dick was you all along. No wonder he hates you.

Rachel has a point. In a better, fairer world you’d even agree with her. But in this one you can’t.

“Compromise: I meet with her at the end of the first island. When I know what I’m in for.”

Your phone buzzes in your pocket.

“Deal. Just sent you my number. Feel free to message me when you have signal if you need to talk.”

You start to pick at your fries. They’re decent. Not as good as the bread or fish. And you aren’t obligated to eat them. But your traitorous fingers start wandering and looking for something to do. You’re quiet for long enough that your phone buzzes again, a reminder that you’ve ignored the message for two minutes.

“Why are you doing this?”

“Doing what?”

That takes a second. What is she doing, in normal people words?

“Food. Talking. You’re busy, you don’t have to—”

“Of course I don’t.” If she was condescending before, now she’s biting. Like she wants you to shut up and go away even if her words say the opposite. “If I didn’t want to do this I could just put it at the bottom of my long, long to-do list. But this is important to me. You’re important to me.”

You only really hear ‘long, long to-do list’ as a spear of guilt impales you right through your overstuffed guts. Right. You’re not only wasting someone’s time, you’re wasting the time of someone important.

You stand up and pull out your cane. Rachel rises and you hear the faint sound bills landing on the table. “Thank you, then. I’ll be on my way.”

You start to walk and she keeps pace. “Where are you going?”

“Pokémon Center.” Probably not a lie. Unless you decide to go somewhere else.

“Good, it’s on my way. Let me come with you.”

How do you say no? How do you say no so that she’ll let you just walk away and give fate a few more chances to take you away? You don’t think you can. She’s perceptive and oddly committed. So you let her guide you and obey all the traffic laws in silence. Because there’s nothing you can say that will get you what you want. That will get her to leave you alone.

You take the time to put your Face back on. Physical things. Rolling your shoulders back. Smiling as much as you can manage. Trying to take lighter steps even though your legs still feel like lead. Singing a nursery rhyme in your head and even quietly humming it, even though Rachel might notice. Trying not just to smile but to feel it throughout your body. Breathing different. You’ve had practice. Years of it.

The Face likes things. Dreams about things. Laughs spontaneously. Thinks she’ll survive the New Fire. Hopes she’ll survive the New Fire. She has friends. Used to have family, but she honestly doesn’t dwell on that. Crushes a little too hard on people she shouldn’t. Likes her showers as cold as she can stand them. Cuddles dragons. Sometimes she even thinks people like her.

She isn’t a fat, useless moron one day away from killing herself.

You don’t know if the Face is real. You read once that “we are what we pretend to be.” You’d like to think that’s true. Because you like the Face. She’s what you should have been. Someday you might even be her. But, no, you think the quote was wrong. There’s what we pretend to be and what we are.

The doors open in front of The Face and she walks in. Rachel’s footsteps don’t follow. The girl turns her head just enough that the woman will know she’s being acknowledged.

“You going to be alright?”

“Yes,” your mouth says. And The Face means it.
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Middle of nowhere
The chapter opens with an extended scene of Cuicatl Ichtaca interacting with her brother, Achcauhtli, after school one day. He complains about a headache similar to the migraines his sister used to get. After offering to stay and taking care of some chores, she flies away on Alice the hydreigon for a weekend trip in the mountains.

The story skips to the present, where Cuicatl Ichtaca drops off Pixie after her bout with Kekoa. The nurse says that Pixie will be fine within 24 hours, but Kekoa will need a talk about excessive force before he slips up and gets into real trouble.

Cuicatl Ichtaca wanders the streets of Hau’oli alone and in a depressive haze until she comes to the waterfront. There she breaks down over her chronic depression, her guilt over her brother’s death, her repeated losses in battle, and her loneliness. She ultimately decides that she does not want to die but has no idea how to proceed.

Rachel finds her shortly after. They go to lunch, where Cuicatl Ichtaca struggles with her eating disorder before ultimately managing to get a full meal down. Rachel expresses concerns about the journey and suggests meeting with a politically well-connected psychic to discuss options. Cuicatl Ichtaca tepidly agrees and then spends the walk back to the Pokémon Center pulling herself together.

Normal 1.6: A Prison of Fire


What is this?

Is this place a place or not?

How would you know?

Who is you?

You are thoughts.

What are thoughts?


There was something before.

What is ‘befor


Reality reappears. You shake yourself off and breathe before pulling yourself in.

This is.

You are.

Skysong moves to pick you up and you let her. Her grip misses the mark just a little bit before you correct it.

“Hey, Pix,” she says. The words come from her chest beside you and her mouth above you at about the same time. One deep and rumbling and the other soft and flowing. Earthquakes and breezes.

She doesn’t sound angry. She smells like almost all of the feelings at once, but anger is not the main one.

Maybe she’s not upset that she lost. Again.

“They feed you yet today?”

Did they? You aren’t sure. That depends on how long you weren’t.

“Not hungry,” you answer.

Skysong hums and the noise reverberates through her and into you. “Alright. I’m going to eat some toast or something. Then I’ve got a meeting at the VStar building. We’re getting our first assignment today. Should be on the trail before too long.” She resumes humming, this time at a lower pitch. You aren’t sure if you’re supposed to speak over it or not. “I was thinking, maybe instead of battling we could take a few days to teach you to be a better guide fox? So you can help me get around places? You don’t have to if you don’t want to, of course.”

“Want to,” you yip. Even though you aren’t entirely sure what she means. You want to help so that she loves you.

“Good,” she says. Then she bends down slowly before relaxing her grip. You take the hint and jump down. “We’ll start later today.”


Toast, Skysong explains between bites, is the result of humans grinding up strange berries that are always dry, adding small sickness-causing animals, throwing it all in a fire, taking it out and letting it cool, and then throwing it all in a fire again. It seems like far too much effort for something that doesn’t look or smell good. But then she puts on a paste that comes out of milk. It is odd that even adult humans keep drinking milk, but then again they are very weak and probably need all of the help they can get. And the paste smells good, too. Even if you are too strong and adult to want any.


Reality resumes in the blessed cold of inside. You could have walked with Skysong through the metal forest with burning air and hard black rivers, but she wants help later and you can’t do any good if you are literally melted.

The other two humans in her pack are present, the still-wounded Bloodrage and the annoying frog owner Growlsleeper. There is also a new and as-yet-nameless adult male human. Before you can crawl up on the big flat climbing structure to get a good look at Nameless, Skysong pulls you back towards her and starts petting you. Her heart doesn’t sound like Nameless is a threat, so you can put off your reconnaissance mission until after the petting stops.

“Looks like you’ve had a busy week. Kekoa and Cuicatl, congrats on your Class III. Most trainers stop there, but if you want to go higher we’ll gladly help you,” Nameless says in a way that makes it sound like teeth are bared. Not in the “threat” or “happy” sense, but in the “I want to make you think I am not a threat” one humans sometimes use. The scent is always the giveaway. It is strange that humans express so much through their glands but then are not able to smell it. Like they were designed to not understand each other.

Humans must be very lonely.

“Genesis, good job on the Class II. Enjoy your time off from studying, but I would try to get the Class III when you’re back. Lets you take better paying missions later on.”

“I, um, okay,” Growlsleeper stammers out. “Thank you?”

Sometimes you think Growlsleeper is almost smart enough to not understand human communications. Like Skysong! She told you that humans make no sense and she can’t explain them to you, because she just cheats and uses her mind. But she’s nice so she did try to answer a few questions before she finally had to give up.

“No problemo,” Nameless responds before clapping his hands together to create a weak shockwave attack. Your ears flick back and Skysong flinches under you. She should work on that. It makes her very easy to take out at the start of a fight. You will help her fix this problem at a later date. Maybe roar in her ear at random times until she stops reacting. “Now! The moment you’ve all been waiting for! You’re going to start your journey in, drumroll please,” he starts banging his forepaws on the board really quickly. You glance up to Skysong and inquiry growl. Is the climbing structure a threat? You know some wood that smells dead is actually alive and moves and should be killed so that it is dead for real.

{Not a threat.}

Oh. Just another inexplicable human thing.

“Akala!” No one really reacts to that; Nameless pauses for a dozen heartbeats of silence and then sounds a little disappointed when he starts speaking again. “I’m going to give you the rest of today and all of tomorrow to plan and pack things up. Then break of dawn Wednesday we’ll pick you up and take you to a secret journey starting—”

“Mantine ride.” Bloodrage yawns and makes no effort to slow or quiet it. “It’s a mantine ride. All over the interwebs”

“Well. We’ll see on Wednesday—”

“That’s actually the problem,” Bloodrage interjects. “Because one of us won’t be seeing anything and I want to make sure that you’ve at least thought about that before dawn Wednesday.”

Skysong’s forepaw pauses and she moves to cross her legs under you, forcing you to move to the edge of the seat before she abruptly stops. {Sorry.} Then she moves her legs back to how they were. You take a second to make sure that everything has settled again before you quietly yawn an apology and curl back up. She resumes petting you. As she should.

“…I will look into it. If there is a problem with our secret journey starter we’ll find something else for her to do.”

Your trainer’s lifts just a bit, one claw curled back and pointed down like a snake about to strike down. “Thank you,” she says, and her claw falls back in line with the rest and ruffles your headfur.

“No problem. Now, we’re going to drop you off in Heahea around noon. Pick you up thirty-five days later at North Shore Resort. We’ll text you more info on that when the date comes closer.”

Bloodrage leans forward and you can hear his hands pressing down on the table, causing the whole thing to creak and shift. “And what’s the mission?”

“Missions! Plural,” Nameless not-answers. He seems very energetic for a human. Like a juvenile. Even though he is big and smells fully grown. Is his heart too powerful? The beat sounds normal enough. And it doesn’t feel cold enough that he would have to compensate to get warmer. Must investigate further. “First off, paras! We’ll take twenty-five dollars a ‘mon up to five of them.”

“That’s less than orientation suggested we’d be getting paid,” Bloodrage says, low and monotonous.

Nameless laughs. Aggression? You puff up and ready ice in case you need to fight him. “Well, you’ve got to start somewhere. Once you’ve proven yourself with paras and a trial or two we can move you on to bigger and better things. Now,” he claps. Skysong flinches as usual. “The second mission might be more to your taste. Castform, 500 each. One per trainer but we really don’t expect you to find more than one between you.”

There are a few other questions and answers. You quickly lose interest and your mind drifts to an earlier question.

“What’s a mantine?”.

“Pixie,” Skysong hisses. Her heart is beating faster. Threat? Is the mantine a threat?

“There a problem, miss?” Nameless asks.

“No, sir. Pixie just got a little excited. Can I go into the hall to calm her down?”

“A-OK with me. I’m sure Kekoa or Genesis can fill you in later.”

“ I will!” Growlsleeper chimes in.

Skysong bares her teeth and nods. “Thank you.” She starts to stand so you jump up and follow her out.

“What’s a mantine?” you bark again as soon as the door is closed.

Skysong sighs. “After we finish guide training, we’re going to work harder on telepathy.”

You hop up into her lap as she sits down on a long climbing structure that’s only a little bit taller than you are.


“Because people don’t like it when pokémon are loud when people—when humans are talking. And if you’re wearing a guide harness it’s really important that you’re quiet when humans are talking.”

You swat your tails at her. “Humans are boring.”

“I know.” She ruffles your headfur before really scratching your cheek and you lean into the wonderful petting. “Humans also have good things that we both want. So we have to be nice to them.”

“I can hunt,” you offer.

Skysong laughs in her high pitch windy way. “Great. Now, can you make blankets?”

“I’m better than blankets.”


You stretch out before curling into a ball on her lap. She’s clearly trying to drag this out, so you can afford to get comfortable.

“Falsefur is unnecessary. Sea level would be too hot even without any.”

She stops petting you, leaving her forepaw awkwardly hovering above your neck, a finger in striking position again.

“I’m thinking that… well, you might be getting some teammates on Akala. But only for maybe two weeks! Then I’ll let them go and you can be my only pokémon again.”

You lift your head and make eye contact. Challenging her. Even if she can’t see it. “Why?”

She leans back onto her forelegs and her head droops until her chin brushes against the base of her neck.

“I have to catch the paras anyway. I could immediately hand them over to VStar, but I think they might be useful in the trial. Assuming we go straight north. I can’t see why we wouldn’t. If we go the long way then, uh, how do you feel about getting lit on fire?”

You huff, “I’d like to see someone try.”

She bares her teeth in either absolute fear or joyous recognition of your power. “Right. I, um, it would make me feel better if we got a water-type friend for that one.”

“No,” you whine. “Fire turns ice into water and then water hurts fire. I win.”

Why is she already trying to replace you? You’ve been a good fox! She’s not going to leave you. She can’t. You’re being nice and everything! Ice foxes are better than fish (they can’t even breathe on land, much less fight there!) and she’s smart for a human so she has to know that, right? So why is she acting like she doesn’t get it. Like she doesn’t love you.

“Just think about it, okay? I will pick up pokémon for two, three weeks at a time if I need them. If you treat them well, I’ll let you veto any permanent teammates you want.” She starts to get up before you can figure out a response. “And you know what bats are, right?”

Yes. You used to sit at the edge of a hole in the mountain and wait for thinwings to fly out in a giant swarm and then you would fire up sharp icicles and sometimes you’d knock one down and eat it.

“Well, mantine are like giant bats that live in the water. Since you wanted to know.”


You still aren’t entirely sure if Skysong is going to abandon you for a fish, but she has started treating you properly. First she took you to a store that smelled like many, many other pokémon and got you a harness. You didn’t think you wanted falsefur, but the harness is sky blue with white curvy lettering and it matches your eyes and fur and it is perfect. You will wear it until it breaks and then scream until you are given one that is just as good.

Then there was practice inside of a giant building with lots of humans that was thankfully kept cool. And then more practice on a road that was not cool. It took you some time to catch on, but now you are an almost perfect guide fox almost all of the time. Even if Skysong did reprimand you when there was this big black moon ring eevee and you had to protect your trainer. Apparently you are not supposed to protect her when you are wearing the harness. Even from eevee. And you are not supposed to roar at the giant metal boxes humans send down the hard black rivers, even if they are going very fast and being very loud near your very vulnerable trainer. (A quiet bark is supposedly good enough to scare them away.) And one time people were walking very close to your trainer and you almost got stepped on so you jumped in front of Skysong and then she kicked you. She apologized. And it takes a lot to actually hurt you. It was fine.

Now you are being rewarded for the excellent job that you did!

Rewarded outside. Which is bad. But there is at least something to hide from the sun under, even if for some utterly unknowable reason Skysong is only keeping her legs in the shade.

Growlsleeper walks back up to you and sets some things down on the structure you’re resting under. “That’s your chocolate, my leppa and,” she bends down under the table and places a small cup down beside you. “Pixie’s vanilla.”

Growsleeper sits down, also only putting her legs in the shade. You approach the cup and sniff it. It feels cold. Smells strange. A little like the paste on Skysong’s toast. Food?

{Yes, food.} Skysong messages. You hadn’t even meant to ask her.

Okay. Food. You stick your tongue out and let the very tip of it sink into the paste. It doesn’t taste like snow. Thicker. A little more solid. It’s familiar, like—oh like those strange floating icicles that showed up on the mountain right before

They tasted very good. Mother killed her first out of self-defense and then killed the rest because they were big enough to feed all the kits, good to eat, and relatively easy to kill. Very mean, but they went down easily enough. You start taking very big licks out of the icicle corpse before it starts melting in the unbearable heat. Pretty soon there is nothing left to lick up but the wood pulp container and you sit down, your mouth and throat and belly suitably cold. Skysong loves you! Probably.

“Leppa?” Skysong asks. It takes you a second to realize that she isn’t talking to you.

“Oh, yeah, they’re these really sweet berries. Kind of small—”

“I know what leppa berries are. Never heard of them on ice cream.”

There’s a moment of silence above you. Growsleeper crosses her legs and you have to duck to avoid getting hit by her paw.

“Right. It’s actually super common? Like, leppa, chocolate, and vanilla. Except no one actually gets leppa…”

“Hmm.” Skysong scrapes her hollowed-out-claw against the edge of the wood pulp. “Only one place in the village that had ice cream. Owner made it from scratch. Don’t think she sold leppa, but I could’ve just missed it. Never liked the berries’ taste, anyway.”

It is very hot. Even in the shade. The cold in your belly is still satisfying.

“Chocolate?” Growlsleeper asks.


“Sorry. Just. You led by stating my flavor as a question and uh. Yeah. Kinda thought that. Nevermind.”

Skysong laughs. Was there something funny? A threat? Humans are very strange.

“It’s fine. Honestly just wanted to see how American chocolate holds up.” Growlsleeper’s legs uncross and again you have to dodge a paw. “How does it?”

Skysong laughs again. Shorter this time. “It doesn’t. As for the vanilla, I read online that vulpix like white foods and I also wasn’t sure what flavors she can and can’t eat. Dog stomach, you know?”

You are not a dog. You do not have a “dog stomach.” You have a fox stomach. But you are wearing the collar so you should not point this out now. No. You will wait and then make your grievances known. Probably by hiding her white stick while she’s asleep. She hates it when you do that.

“How did you know that vanilla ice cream is white?” Growlsleeper asks. Accuses? Both?

“You know most blind people weren’t born blind, right?”

Another swinging kick from Growlsleeper! How dare she?

“I didn’t know that.”

There are a few more desperate scrapings of a claw on wood pulp above you before something gets pushed across the structure.

“I was, though. It’s not the cataracts. I just leave those because my brother said they make me look like a wizard.”

Growlsleeper giggles. Skysong joins in. It’s short but you’re not sure if they’re arguing or not anymore.

“Anyway. Colors. I don’t see them, but other people think they’re important. That means that they’re important to me. I read about what people think when they see colors. Like, blue is calm, purple is power, yellow is hunger, and red is lust and anger and all that stuff. Fascinating. And most of you sighted people don’t even seem to realize it’s happening to you.”

That is weird. You have feelings about colors, sure, but they’re simple and correct and you are very aware of them. White is the best color. Snow and vulpixes. Red is blood, which is either very good or very bad. Blue is the color of your eyes and also the sky on bad days where there aren’t storms to hide in. Black is the color of prey. Green means that you have gone too far down the mountain and need to retreat back to the cold. There. All of the colors.

“Okay. But how do you figure out what color things are?”

“I ask people. Or read it in books.”

“Oh.” You think about asking what books are. But then you remember earlier and how Skysong doesn’t like you interrupting so you don’t. Like a very good fox she should love. “I can tell you what color clothes are, if you need help now.”

Skysong’s legs start to shift and you stand up to get out of the way. She abruptly pauses. {Crossing legs.} And then she finishes, legs crossed just above the paws. Nice gesture but it would be better if it came earlier. {It’s reflex. Sorry. Don’t think about it in advance.}

“Thank you. I don’t think I will be buying clothes for a while, though.”

It is very, very warm in the shade. You puff out air and shake yourself off, sending shards of ice clattering to the ground. You get down and roll in them, relieved to feel cold outside of your body.

“Oh. Yeah. I, uh, I meant when clothes break.”


Growlsleeper’s heartrate is noticeably elevated now. You look around, making sure that there is not an eevee or other menace that Skysong cannot see.

“Y’know? Tears and stains and stuff.”

“I can sew small ones back together.”

Your gorgeous fur is a prison of fire. But you are a good fox. Wearing a beautiful harness. You will not misbehave until the harness comes off.

“You can sew?”

“You can’t?”

This is boring. What even is sewing? And your ice shards are almost all melted. Now you’re hot and wet and this is maybe the worst thing to ever happen to you.

“You really can’t sew? No one ever taught you?”

“No. That’s not … okay I guess there are a lot of girls who know how, but it’s not really expected or anything?”

“Huh.” There’s a long-bodied mammal at the edge of the clearing. Yungoos! That’s what Grasseyes called it. Should you tell Skysong about it? You will if it gets closer. They’re known to steal food from the bowls of very good foxes. “It’s one of the first things girls are taught in Anahuac. I just assumed…”

Growlsleeper’s voice gets quiet. “Bad for girls over there?”

“Sort of. Girls have options.” You see Skysong’s leg twitch at the edge of your vision, but she stops herself before it moves. “But boys have better ones.”

Interesting. Humans are patriarchal. That makes Bloodrage the leader of the pack. Does that mean you have to take orders from him? You hope not.

“That’s sort of how it works here. Well, same opportunities. But boys get the best ones because xerneas made them stronger and smarter than us.”

The heat has almost fully evaporated the water on you. Now you are only very, very hot. You accidentally flick a tail against Skysong. She ignores it.

“Kekoa’s smarter than me?”

You flick another tail on accident.


You whimper in heat-related pain and Skysong seems to get your meaning. She fiddles with her belt and takes your pokéball out.

“I didn’t say—”

“Yeah. You did. If boys are all smarter than girls.”

Growlsleeper doesn’t respond as Skysong leans down and reaches out to you. She runs her hands through your fur more than is probably needed to take the harness off. Not that you’re complaining.

“I don’t want to brag, but I speak four languages and know a little calculus. I like to think I’m smart. Smarter than him.” She finishes unhooking the last strap and pulls the harness off in one motion. Maybe a little too roughly. Then she reaches for the sweet nothingness of your pokéball. “But everyone keeps telling me I’m not. So maybe I’m wrong.”

{You can tell me aloud if you’re hot. Even in your harness.}

You bristle and start to growl right before you un-become.

Now she tells you.


You reform on Skysong’s bed. A quick sniff and glance confirms that both of the other pack members are present, but neither of their pokémon are. Interesting scent though. You turn towards it and take a few small steps forward, nose to the ground. There it is! On Skysong’s pillow. It’s… salt? Like the ocean? Why did she throw her pillow into the sea? Even by human standards that is very strange.

Bloodrage makes harsh throat air. “Well, now that you girls are done with your shopping spree, can we get back to business?”

“Just bought a harness…” Growlsleeper mumbles.

Bloodrage ignores her and Skysong doesn’t say anything at all. “Any objections to just heading up Routes 4 and 5 to North Point? We could go the long way, but I think Kiwi should win at least one match against someone before she waltzes up Mauna Wela to get her ass roasted.”

“I’m fine going straight north,” Skysong says before baring her teeth and tilting her head. Uh oh. “How was your excessive force lecture, by the way?”

Bloodrage glares. “Next time you want to be a sore loser, please don’t drag me into it.”

“Or what? You’ll beat me up. And get another talk? Almost worth it.”

“You’re right.” Bloodrage puts his paws together and there’s a sharp breaking sound. “It almost would be.”

There’s a fit of coughing from right above you. Growlsleeper.

“I’m also fine going north. We want to talk about tents and stuff tonight?”

Bloodrage lifts his glare a little bit and crosses his arms. Skysong frowns. Did she want to challenge him? Even though she is female and would lose? The stalemate breaks. Bloodrage kicks his hindlegs up into his bed and lies down in it, staring at the platform above him.

“No. Still more road **** to discuss. One night in Heahea. Anyone insist on staying longer?”

“I’m fine,” Growlsleeper says quickly enough that the words blend into each other.

Skysong shrugs. You flick a tail at her to remind her that she is within petting distance of you and is not petting you. She reacts incorrectly by reaching into the harness bag.

“Okay. With that settled, two nights on Route 4.”

“Why,” Skysong asks as she rummages around the bag. “We could do it in one day. Not sleep on the trail at all.”

She finally finds what she’s looking for and pulls out—a brush! Not a human one but one for very beautiful fur. Like yours! You hop up on her lap and she takes a second to feel where you are before she starts brushing.

“Says the—” Bloodrage sighs and says nothing as Skysong brushes your mane. “I want to know if the gear works. It’s also a chance to train and maybe capture some pokémon before the trial gets too close. I’ve thought this through. Trust me.”

You press your cheek into the bristles and feel them slide past you and down your neck and side. You immediately turn around and press your other cheek against the brush before she has a chance to take it away.

“Is there still enough time if we do that?”

Bloodrage shifts onto his side to look at your trainer. “Yeah. Thirty-five nights. One in Heahea. Three on Route 4. Five in Paniola for catching stuff. Two on the lower part of Route 5. Three at Brooklet Hill. Six on the upper part of Route 5. Up to fourteen for training, trial, and castform catching. Whatever’s left at North Shores.”

Skysong sets the brush down and you reflexively rush towards her hand and snap your teeth down a hair away from her skin. The betrayal! She looks at you like she’s annoyed and. Oh no. Maybe thinks you’re going to bite and kill her and now she hates you and is going to get rid of you as soon as she can.

Your trainer sighs and stands up. “More brushing later, Pix. And Kekoa? Your plan’s good enough for now. We can talk more after my shower.”
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A Dense Irritating Miniature Beast of Burden
Chapters 4-6

Alright, it was nice to catch up with what's been written so far, even though there's more on the way, and I really enjoyed what I read. Well, maybe enjoyed isn't the right word for certain parts of the story, since it can be very harrowing at times, but it's definitely a good thing. I do have some gripes, but I'll get to that once I've talked more about some of these characters.

My favourite characters are still Cuicatl and Pixie, especially Pixie, and this part in particular not only developed their relationship, but also delved deeper into Cuicatl's psychology and what she's going through. At this point, I might as well address some of her characteristics, with her suicidal thoughts, self loathing and possible eating disorder. This was pretty hard to read, in a good way. From what we saw of Cuicatl before, she was generally cold towards other people, but to see her that vulnerable, especially with the immersive nature of the narration, hit close to home for me. Admittedly, it did feel like a bit too much this early on in the story (because ****, if we haven't hit the emotional nadir yet, how far is BT going to fall down the slippery slope when the journey starts for real?), but this also brings a lot of depth to her character. Many lesser stories would've glossed this over, but in just the opening chapters, you've already given more complexity to your characters than most fics do in their runtime.

Thank Arceus for Pixie since she adds some much needed relief for Cuicatl's episodes, both in the proper narrative and the metanarrative sense. Being able to see the world through her eyes adds a lot of humour to the situation, and also a nice change of pace from everything else. I can see why you put more emphasis on the other trainers though, as much as I like Pokecentric works. With Pixie's current intelligence (there could be potential for her to gain a human-level understanding later on), she doesn't have a lot of agency, which would make for a really passive and unengaging character anywhere else, but works perfectly here. There were so many little details and interactions I loved, such as her calling Kekoa 'Bloodrage' and Cuicatl informing her on what Mantine are. This is only just a small portion of it, but this sort of thing is why the Pixie chapters are my favourites so far.

Speaking of Bloodrage, Kekoa is also really interesting, even if he isn't the most immediately likeable character of the bunch. The first thing we see him do in his spotlight chapter is wipe the floor with a youngster, almost like how a cat would play with their prey, which is also repeated in his fight with Cuicatl at the end. But again, you have a way of giving your characters a lot of depth, and 1.4 puts into perspective just how vulnerable they are as well beneath the surface. While I haven't struggled with gender dysphoria personally, this really put me into the shoes of someone that does, and all the pain and humiliation that comes with it (the phantom limb stuff, for instance) without other people like Cuicatl realising it. It also serves as an interesting and unique character motivation, especially for the trainer, since the narration sort of implies that they're going on their journey to be able to fund their transition. Again, that doesn't make them immediately likeable, and I could see this causing a lot of friction further down the line when the three are essentially stuck together as journey buddies. It'll be interesting to see how he develops further down the line.

The 2nd person narration continues to add a lot of depth to the fic that wouldn't be possible in any other narration mode. As I said before, Cuicatl's inner monologue wouldn't have as much impact if it wasn't for the fact the voices inside her are tied into the narrator's presence. However, while this comes with a lot of benefits, it also sacrifices the clarity of a few scenes and makes certain interactions really hard to follow, especially where Cuicatl's different Pokemon are concerned in the flashback. This makes sense from a narration standpoint, since exposition like that in this stream of consciousness format would feel out of place, and they were given reminders before, but more reminders/epithets of what their species are, and more reminders of the characters traits in general would give the scenes a bit more flow. I think you should aim for a balance of clarity and immersion.

But anyway, really enjoyed this as usual, and I hope I can catch up with more of the upcoming chapters.


Middle of nowhere
Normal 1.7: The Taste of a Muk


You aren’t sure what you were expecting to feel. But calm? That never occurred to you.

There’s wind in your hair and you know that your locks are only held in place by the weight of the water in them. You closed your eyes a long time ago because water droplets kept flying into them. And you’re standing up on the back of a pokémon on the high seas with giant waves beside you and you feel nothing at all. You almost want to laugh but that would break the moment. So you’re just grinning like a madwoman as water rushes by beneath you and wind beside you. Hours in the temple every week of your life and somehow? Somehow this is the closest you’ve ever been to Xerneas.


The peace shatters. You turn around and the mantine beneath you groans. “Oh. No! Not a command. Stay forward.” The mantine purrs again and you keep moving at a noticeably slower pace. You glance back over your shoulder without shifting your weight and accidentally giving an order. Kekoa’s in the water, a receding splotch of orange with his mantine and the guide beside him. The guide looks at you and whistles; your mantine swerves away from the biggest waves and comes to a stop.

Kekoa struggles to get back on his pokémon and then slips off again while trying to get into the harness. It’s mean but you giggle. He can’t hear you anyway. A thought comes to you, a meaner one, and your smile starts to strain your muscles. You practice the line in your head, refining it and thinking of all the variations for when he finally gets on his mantine and comes over towards you with the guide.

He stops right beside you, the guide drifting in somewhere behind. Kekoa frowns. “What are you so happy about?”

“I just love this time of year, y’know?”

He glances up at you. While he’s really hooked up to the harness and you’re standing you absolutely tower above him. More than usual, anyway. “Really?”

“Yeah. I like watching the fall.”

Kekoa just stares at you. For long enough that your mantine gets a little restless and raises a flipper up before splashing it down. The impact sends water straight into his face. He blinks and reaches up to wipe the seaspray off.

“At least I’m trying to do tricks. You’re just gliding along like an idiot.”

Something wells up in you. Something so foreign you don’t quite have a word for it. “Oh yeah?” You get down and start pulling the straps onto your legs until you match his position. “I was just warming up.” This is dangerous. You know it’s dangerous. And yet you’re too calm, too… something to care.

Kekoa taps twice on the harness and his mantine takes off. You follow suit and then go back to gripping the harness’s handlebars for dear life as you quickly reach your comfortable speed. Kekoa’s going much faster ahead of you and starting to head up the slopes. Two more knocks; your hand flies back to the grips right before you go faster than you’ve gone before. Kekoa does a short jump off the slope in front of you and starts rushing back down. Can you do better? Another two knocks says yes. There’s a lurch forward and a slap of water in your face makes you realize that you totally forgot to close your eyes. Your hand rises and you almost knock once—slow down—but it quickly flies back to the grip. No. No slowing down. You don’t want to accelerate like that again. You blink rapidly, holding your head down and letting your hair fall in front of it in like a solid wet curtain in a vain attempt to keep more water from coming in. It works okay. You’re probably good to go.

The speed is really something. Every time there’s a crease on the surface your body lifts up and then comes crashing down. Your hands are already getting tired and you haven’t even tried to jump yet. You smile. If you’re going to do this, you’d better do it soon. A hard lean to the side sends you sailing right onto the face of the wave. It takes you most of the way there to realize that you’re screaming out some sort of primal war cry. Right as you start to process that there’s a moment of stillness and you realize that you’re entirely out of the water.

You come crashing back down a second later, another jolt coursing through your body. But you hold on even though you can barely feel your hands anymore, just some generalized pain at the end of your arms. You lean left, back down the wave, and mantine follows. A tilt right sends you back up the slope—and you tilt left. No. time to push your limits. You take a deep breath. And then another one. Then you lean right for a fraction of a second, long enough for the mantine to react. Then you shut your eyes and start yelling, yelling to scare the sea or Kekoa or your fears. You feel weightless for a little longer this time before gravity reasserts itself.

Your reaction is faster. One down. One up. One down. One up. One down. One up, roaring again to make sure the wave knows who conquers it. This time you keep your eyes open. It seems you went higher this time. Whether that’s real or it just looks higher because you saw it, who knows? Does it matter?

You can feel the bones in your hand and their lock on the grip. You think your feet are slipping in the harness’s boots. Your knees have taken more impacts than they’re used to. It doesn’t matter. You lean left and ride on.


Everything is sore, your hands most of all. Yet for some utterly baffling reason you’re still smiling like a kid at a candy store by the time you get to land. It almost feels bad to take the ugly and awkward-fitting life jacket off, and not just because your fingers struggle with the buckles way more than they did a few hours ago.

Kekoa takes his off rather quickly and gets his phone and sandals from the waterproof bag. Without talking to you. Probably still mad that he fell five times and you only fell once (and honestly it was kind of fun once the shock wore off). You stagger back towards the guide’s mantine to return the life jacket and pick up your stuff. He hasn’t actually taken his jacket off yet. And he’s watching you as you approach. Which. Attention. Why? Why attention? Can he not?

“Hey, um, just dropping this off.” Which he knows. Of course.

He takes it as a cue to start talking. “You were pretty great out there.”

“I. What? I just did a flip and fell off.”

The guide laughs. “Okay, maybe not great. But it looked like you were having fun. Sounded like it too.”

You glance aside. Kekoa’s face is buried in his phone. No help. Or hurt. What do?

Your choice is made for you: “We could give you a job if you wanted it.” What. “Twenty bucks an hour. On the surf almost every day. Could be way worse.”

You have to consciously close your mouth. Your toes shift in the sand and you don’t bother to stop that. “But I’m not good at it.” Wait should you be arguing against it? Would it be lying if you didn’t point it out or.

“Oh, we can teach you how to do it. Can’t teach you how to love it. We can give you a stipend as you learn if money’s a problem right now.”

You almost keep arguing. But you don’t. If it takes Mom time to come around a job could be good. And it’s fun. But maybe you shouldn’t drop out of your journey without thinking about it?

“Hey, it’s fine if you can’t take it now. Just give us a call if you want it. Tell them Eric rec’d you.”

“Thanks,” you tell Eric. Because you don’t know what else to say. You pick up your phone and flip flops and drop the jacket before heading to Kekoa.

He glances up at you and then goes back to his phone. “Kiwi’s already at the Pokémon Center. Let’s get lunch there and then split up for the afternoon."

Under the tight shirt his pecs are way bigger than you were expecting. He’s not that buff anywhere else; his arms are actually kind of skinny. Kekoa looks up and glares at you. Oh. Yeah. You kind of are being gross. “Yeah, sure, sounds good.”

There’s a bit of silence. Right up until the concrete stairs rising out of the sand. “You taking the job?” Kekoa asks.

The streets are pretty enough. Cobblestone roads with clean concrete sidewalks. A mix of upscale boutiques and smaller touristy stores with surfboards and leis and inflatable sharpedo in the windows. You know he asked you a question but you still take a moment to look at the world before you answer.

“I don’t know. Maybe?”

You come to a stop at a crosswalk. The red hand is up but there’s not traffic. Kekoa looks at you with an unreadable face and then keeps walking into the street.

You peed an hour ago but you’re still staring at the ceiling. The phone clock says it’s only 2:47. You got barely four hours of sleep and you should get more because tomorrow is going to be a long, long day and you’re tired now.

Not that the tiredness is helping you actually get rest. You’ve snuggled up under the covers, counted 120 wooloo rolling down the hill, closed your eyes and focused on the darkness, said the Resurrection Plea fifty times… nothing’s worked. And now you’re getting worked up because nothing’s worked.

Maybe you need fresh air? Is it safe, though? You know you’re near the beach, near Tidesong, but this isn’t your side of town. You really only came over this far to visit Diana and you never walked here. Or never went too far outside at night. Was that because it was unsafe? Or because you just didn’t want to?

Well. You also didn’t have a pokémon then. Maybe you should take Sir Bubbles out on a walk. He is nocturnal after all. Yeah. Yeah, you’ll do that. Just for a little bit. Then it’s right back to sleep for you and right back to the pool for Sir Bubbles. You slowly roll out, wincing at the creaking noises the bed makes. Right above Cuicatl. And she’s probably really sensitive to that. Your feet hit the ground with a thud after you leave the ladder a step early you glance at her in a panic. She’s somehow still asleep. But her pupper is very much awake and looking at you like you just killed her entire family. “Sorry,” you whisper.

Thankfully you’re already in a t-shirt and shorts so you really just have to grab your purse on the way out the door. And of course you manage to make the door shutting into a whole loud ‘boom’ thing. Of course.


The streets are as dead as the halls and pool were. There’s one restaurant—a bar maybe—two blocks down with lights shining from it and a few people milling outside. Nobody between you and the water. You pull Sir Bubbles a little tighter to your chest and start walking to the coast. There’s a faint breeze, enough to make you a little bit cold. You glance up: the skies are cloudy and you can’t see any stars. Oh. Not great weather for a night walk. At least it’s not rain—you aren’t going to finish that thought. No wood to knock on.

Alright. Quick walk. Just the couple blocks to the edge of the beach. The same shops look almost ominous when the light only reaches in to the display shelves with rope necklaces and tombstones and shark silhouettes in the place of leis and surfboards and pool toys. You find yourself picking up the pace reflexively. It’s still fine. One car rolls past and turns on to a side street in front of you. It keeps moving so you relax. It’s too quiet. There should be birdsong or people or something beyond the rolling of the waves.

By the time you’ve worked yourself up enough that you don’t feel even a little bit tired you’ve made it to the plaza-type area before the steps down to the beach. There’s a short concrete wall to lean on and it’s wide enough to set Sir Bubbles down on. Let him look at the water. Not fresh water but he might not know that. And you can always withdraw him if he does make a run for it.

He doesn’t. He does look at you with his wide, expressive eyes for a fraction of a second before turning back to the ocean. After a second he wiggles and deflates a little bit as he lowers himself down to the railing. You giggle to yourself. He’s so cute. Wouldn’t have thought a frog could be but here you are.

Here. You. Are.

The thought isn’t depressing. Calming, maybe. Takes the anxiety and giddiness away in an instant.

Here. You. Are. Halfway across town and a world away from where you were a month ago. For now. Mom is moody but she loves you. She’ll realize it was all a misunderstanding and come around. If she can find it in herself to visit Exodus once a month she can find it in herself to forgive you. Still. Being with Sir Bubbles. The mantine riding. The job offer. You giggle again. It’s hard to imagine telling Mom that you’re going to be a surfer girl from now on. Would she even know what to say?

No. You couldn’t accept it. They’d spend all that time training you and then you’d just go back to the other side of town. But it was fun. Might be worth trying to get lessons once everything goes back to normal. It is exercise. At least your body feels like it was exercise. And it’s not manly like basketball or evil like cheerleading so Mom shouldn’t have a problem with it.

The wind picks up enough that you can hear it. Nope nope nope. Time to go back to your warm bed. After dropping Sir Bubbles off in the–is it a heated pool? Should it be? You didn’t catch him in a heated pond. Huh. You should do some more reading. Probably need to know it for your Class III anyway.

Oh. Right. Your Class III. That test that Cuicatl spent almost a week studying for. You should probably research for that on the trail but. You didn’t bring a guide book. Were you supposed to? Can Cuicatl and Kekoa just fill you in on the important stuff? Is that cheating?

No. Not now. These are tomorrow thoughts. Or at least bed thoughts. You scoop Sir Bubbles back into your arms and turn around. You immediately realize that you aren’t as alone as you were when you arrived. There are two people in the street. Approaching you. It would be innocent but they’ve got the exaggerated thug walk and. Oh no. This is.

Right on cue one of the thugs drops a boombox and hits a button. Yeaaaaaaah. Team Skull. They step over the boombox and keep walking towards you, their arms joining the exaggerated swinging of their hips. All in time with the beat. Did they practice?

“Did you practice that?”

No. No no no no no no no. Bad Genesis. Get a filter. At least around Skull.

One of the gangsters just laughs. “No practice. We’re just born with the beat in our bones.”

The other looks at him. “****, homie, of course we practiced. Drills for days. Making sure we’re bone hard enough to roll with the hardest crew in this whole joint.”

“It’s more intimidating if you don’t mention that,” Skull 1 hisses. Under his breath. So you don’t hear it. You pretend not to, partially out of politeness, partially out of confusion, partially out of fear.

“I ain’t busting my tailbone for a week and not taking credit for it. ****’s impressive.” He turns towards you. “It is impressive, right?”

“I. Um. Yes?”

“Heh. See? Girl knows we’re professionals to the bone. She’s shaking from her skull to her metatarsals.”

“Metatarsals?” you ask. Your hands immediately fly to your mouth and you kind of accidentally drop Sir Bubbles. He squeaks when he hits the ground. A downward glance shows that he’s very annoyed at you but otherwise unharmed.

The Skulls are nice enough to ignore your mishap. “Toe bones? You been to school right?”

“Yes.” Although you are a high school dropout. Huh. Hadn’t seen that one coming. “And, uh, you?”

“’course I’ve been to school. Dropped out to be a straight up gangsta, no bones about it, but I still got knowledge in my cranium, yo. Now.” Both skulls hold out their elbows and angle their hands in. “Now we’re gonna get bone—”

Light. There’s light in your eyes until it fades into white spots. There’s a crack like a whip and then screaming in front of you. Rapid blinks do no good. What’s going on? What—there’s a pitter patter of feet on the sand behind you. Sir Bubbles. Running to the water. To the salt water. You reach down and fumble with your purse until you feel a plastic orb. Some color has filtered back into the bright white spots. You run your finger along the pokéball—is this how Cuicatl sees everything?—and find the button. You turn around, hold it out, and with no idea whatsoever if you’re pointed in the right direction you click the button. Red light joins the white in the parts of your vision that are more or less back. You think that worked? Would there be a red flash if it didn’t?

There’s another crack and a flash of light behind you that illuminates the beach. You clench yourself together and stand dead still for one second. Ten seconds. Twenty seconds. Most of your vision is back, but when you blink you can still see the white and when you open your eyes you can see the same pattern in faint green.

You slowly turn around. Both of the Skull thugs are on the ground, sprawled out. It smells like burned food. No, burned hair. Like the litten Emily’s sister—uh, what’s her name?—had. There’s a man and a pokemon standing over them. The man’s tall, a little wide, his hair’s a little too long. No uniform or anything. Just a t-shirt and shorts. Like you. The pokémon’s just a little bit shorter. Glowing yellow stripes mixed in with black strips of darkness. Electa-something. Vire? No, they’re bulkier, right? Electa… buzz then?

You step back reflexively. Even though it’s fine and they just saved you and. Deep breath. Smile. People etiquette. “Thank you.”

“No need, miss. Just doing my civic duty.” He keeps looking at you with a sort of wicked smile. Like he’s laughing inside, but it might be at your expense. “They hurt you?”

You shake your head and mouth “no.” You meant to say it but it just kind of didn’t happen and it’s best to make it look like you meant to do that.

Your rescuer snorts. “Good. Now, you want a walk home?”

You glance between the man and the ‘mon. It’s just a short walk back. And he’s perfectly trustworthy but your heart rate’s still up and everything still feels like danger. “No thank you.”

He shrugs and steps aside. “Suit yourself, then.”

You mouth and whisper something else, honestly you’re not sure what, and step past him. You get two blocks away in silence. You’d have thought that everyone would be in the streets after two lightning bolts went off but apparently not. Maybe that’s just normal in this part of the city. Or they thought it was just really late fireworks or something.

Yeaaaaaaah. Team Skull.

You whip around and. There’s no one there. No, you can sort of see the two Skulls lying down by the beach. But no one else. The music picks up—the music. By. The. Tree. No one turned the boombox off. No one turned the boombox off.

It starts as a giggle. Then it becomes a laugh. Then it gets louder as it reaches your throat and then your chest. At some point you’re laughing so loud that you’re coughing and crying but laughing nonetheless. No one turned the boombox off. It’s probably not funny but it’s three in the morning and your brain is still locked up and seeing white and no one turned the boombox off.

At some point the wind picks up and the euphoria fades into a faint warmth beneath your skin. There was Skull. And you bantered with them. Then walked away. You got a job offer and survived Skull and the music is still playing and your journey hasn’t even really begun yet.

Yeah. It’s not how you thought it would go. But you’ll take it.

Time to get whatever sleep you can.


“You been in it?”

You do your best to blink the sleep out of your eyes before turning to Kekoa. Why did you agree to leave before dawn? “Hmm?”

“The hotel? You been in it?”

Oh. Right. The Tidesong. Big white building made of limestone or marble or whatever. Even the pavement’s made of something similar. Right in front of you, can’t miss it. Unless you’re asleep.


“And is it just as pretty on the inside?”

It is. The lobby is six or seven stories high and has a series of beautiful waterfall-type fountains curving around it with canals and bridges on the floor. Always some beautiful music echoing through it too. Grand Hano’s bigger but yeah Tidesong’s probably prettier. Even if you’d never say that to Dad’s face.

Cuicatl yawns. Probably a real yawn. WIth some extra emphasis added on top for drama. “You two going to do this for every building you see?”

Kekoa half-turns and you can tell that he’s going to start something. But he doesn’t. Just looks at her vulpix. About five feet in front of her trainer facing the big white building with her tails drooping.

It probably reminds her of home.

“Let’s just go,” Kekoa says.

It’s not that much farther to the gate of Route 4. And it is a very literal gate, ten feet tall and made of sticks and rope with a wooden sign dangling from the top. Is this how all routes start?

Kekoa just keeps walking through with no fanfare. You say a silent prayer to xerneas as you pass through. For luck. You might need it.

The start of the route is classic Alola with palm trees and broad-leaf rainforest plants. Then once you’re… five minutes? Ten minutes? A half hour? Honestly you’re too tired to think about much more than putting one foot in front of the other. Anyway. Once you’re some ways in the plants just die. There’s grass on the forest floor, a few shrubs, even a small fern tree or two. But the tall trees bigger around than you are dead, their bark coated in black, charred ruin.

It’s quieter than you thought a forest would be. Or a route. And in the first however long it is until Kekoa steps off the path to take a break you only see a couple hoot-hoot flying home for the day and a few rattata scurrying along the path. It’s light now so maybe that will wake more stuff up?


Daylight does not wake much more stuff up. A few pikipek, especially around dawn. But as the day wears on and your eyelids get heavier there just isn’t that much stuff going on around you. Cuicatl’s going kind of slow but she’s blind and you don’t really want to go fast so it’s all fine with you.

“What’s it like around us?” she asks from up front.

“Burnt as ****.”

“Controlled burn? Forest fire?”

“Blacepholon attack six weeks ago,” he answers.

You hear Cuicatl almost trip over something—again—before she steadies herself and moves on. “What’s a blacepholon?”

Kekoa sighs. In the dramatic way. “Oh, where to start… so three years back this billionaire chick broke a hole in reality and a bunch of monsters came through. And kept coming through. The ***** is safe in Japan, if you’re wondering. Never going to get at trial. Thousands of deaths and she gets off with less punishment than I’d get for walking past her house.”

You’re pretty sure it hasn’t been thousands. High hundreds maybe. But that’s a bad fight to pick. “Lusamine was sick,” you say instead. “Maybe even possessed.”

Kekoa whirls around to face you. Cuicatl keeps walking for a few seconds before she realizes that the footsteps have stopped. “Who says that? The psychologists she hired? The politicians she bribed? Grow up. She was no more ****ed in the head than any other asshole with a billion dollars and no real work to do.”

You never met Lusamine. Or her kids (although they’re supposedly nice). His tone still stirs something inside of you. Like you’re the one beign attacked. “I choose to see the best in people.”

He actually laughs. Not real laughter. A quick, mocking “hah!”

“Oh man, must be nice being a millionaire, huh?”

“You don’t know me.” Your voice is flat. And… colder than you knew you could make it. You should stop. Draw in someone else to tell Kekoa he’s being rude again. “Cuicatl, you have anything to add?”

“I don’t know the details but I will side with Kekoa here.”

“Eyy, high five—uh, I mean… can I just touch your hand?” Cuicatl holds her hand out and Kekoa slaps it. You’re still registering that she’s on his side? Why? You thought she disliked him?

“I’ve never understood why you let your merchants get away with so much,” Cuicatl answers your unspoken question. “We have businessmen in Anahuac. No billionaires. If someone did that well they’d give the money to the community or the priests or the treasury. The rich serve the people. Not the other way around.” She sounds very proud. Like she built the system herself.

“Yeah, well, that’s why you didn’t have food.”

Oh. Oh no. Oh Xerneas no. You didn’t say that aloud. Couldn’t have. You. You wouldn’t. You’re a good person. And you’re not a racist!

Kekoa stares at you, mouth hanging open a little. Crap. You were mean enough that he’s shocked. Eventually Cuicatl kicks one foot behind the other and spins around in one fluid motion before she starts walking down the trail in silence.


“You’ve got to be kidding me.”

Kekoa grins. “Hey, don’t worry. Kiwi won’t peek.”

“What’s going on?” Kiw—Cuicatl asks.

“Oh, the only toilet in camp is just a seat on the hillside. No outhouse or anything. Hell, not even a back.”

You make eye contact with him for a second before glancing away. “You sound way too happy about this.”

He sticks out his hand. “Hey, you don’t look at mine, I don’t look at yours. Deal?”

“Deal—” he pulls his hand away right before you can shake it.


“Girls,” Cuicatl says, “I know you love each other but if you can keep your hands to yourselves while I’m around—”

Kekoa crosses his arms and takes a step back so he can properly glare at. Glare at the blind girl. He turns on you. “What are you giggling about?”

“Nothing,” you answer. Right before an idea hits you! You start walking up the hill to the toilet, letting Sir Bubbles out as you walk. “Sir Bubbles! Use hypnosis on anyone who looks this way!” He croaks, which honestly could mean anything, and you keep on moving, basking in your brilliance.


There’s a row of stumps arranged around a weird metal ring half-buried in the ground. Cuicatl and Kekoa are sitting on two of them when you arrive so you sit on a third that forms a roughly equidistant triangle for optimal socialization. That is how you’re supposed to sit, right? Or were you supposed to sit between them?

Kekoa tosses you a white bag. And you aren’t good at catching things so it sails right past you. You stand up, pick up the bag, and sit back down. Thankfully he doesn’t throw anything else at you.

“Freeze-dried potato salad. Just pour in some water, shake and, voila, instant haole food.”

You follow his lead. Pour in about a third—whoops—about half of your water bottle then maybe thirty seconds of shaking. Then you pull out the spoon in your mess kit and. The smell hits you before you even see it. It’s not rotten. Just… it’s hard to describe. And the looks. A few clumps of white powder in a soupy liquid. You take another thirty seconds to shake that out and at the end it’s better, but not good. And the smell only got worse. You take a moment to look at the other two. Kekoa has a look on his face that you’ve never seen before. Cuicatl is negotiating with her vulpix; the fox has her fur fluffed up in alarm and her eyes are wide open in shock.

“It’s okay,” Cuicatl whispers. “You don’t have to do it.” She stands up and starts walking to you before dropping her sealed white bag in your lap. “Here. Wouldn’t want you to starve or anything.”

“You know,” Kekoa follows up a bit too loudly, “we have to pack out what we don’t eat. So if you don’t want that to explode all over the inside of your backpack…”

You look down at the bag. The bags. This is fine. You can do this. You put a spoon in and take it out with your eyes closed. It goes into your mouth and. The taste is bad. Like chugging a white muk. Not that you’ve done that. You can still guess how it would taste since smell and taste are linked. It is those two, right? Might be touch and taste. And if the taste is bad the texture is somehow worse. Grains of sand in a watery goop.

You swallow it down and vow to never do a racism again.
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A Dense Irritating Miniature Beast of Burden
Chapter 7

So, this was a pretty funny chapter, and I think it was well earned, even after the Pixie chapter last time. Although it was a bit lighter on story/action and character progression, for the most part it worked well. The scenes we got with the Mantine, the banter between the three main leads, and especially Team Skull were really entertaining in particular, while also contributing a bit more to the worldbuilding. Although admittedly, I haven't played USUM, it's interesting to see how this fic sort of continues on from that plotline while still being its own thing.

So, Genesis, huh. We've had a chapter with her before, and here, we get to see a bit more of her past, such as the implications about her family, however slight. And while these are good, and it's obvious that Genesis is going to have more development later on, to be honest, she's the character I relate to the least out of the bunch. She does have character, being somewhat cheerful on the surface but still having her bitchy moments (I mean, ouch, she went hard towards the other two with that food line), and is given a slice of humble pie every once in a while. That Muk thing kind of had me cringing, in a good way. At the moment, though, I get the feeling we're not being given the same amount of depth as her other characters have gotten already. Either that, or stuff hasn't really gone south for her yet, considering her lucky streak throughout the chapter. Since the details are pretty vague at the moment, I'm just waiting for the other shoe to drop from her POV.

Anyway, it's exciting to see the journey's about to begin, and I guess we've got another Cuicatl chapter coming soon, so I'm hyped for that.


Middle of nowhere
Normal 1.8: The Rules

Cuicatl Ichtaca

Achcauhtli is staying after for some sports game, your dad’s out of town, and your godmother will want help making tortillas or doing laundry or whatever so you walk over to her house alone. Not that it bothers you as much as your brother and everyone else seem to think it does. It’s just a certain number of steps. A number you don’t even count anymore. Your feet just know the path. Honestly, the everpresent heat and humidity and the rough stone roads and all of the hills bother you more.

You’re interrupted halfway through by a gust of wind behind you. “Hello?” Adult? Pokémon? Car? What are you dealing with here?

There’s a low hiss and a deep grumble in response. You wait for the translation to pop into your mind but it never does. Dark-type. Like mandibuzz. Except far, far bigger. You can feel hot breath hitting your face from above. And also feel the breath coming on the left side of your abdomen and on your right elbow. Their breath smells like meat. Carnivore. Big carnivore. Big carnivore that approached a small disabled target while she was alone. Does this count as a combat death? Would it count if you hit it? Somehow the thought brings you out of paralysis and you ram your small fist into the belly of the giant beast.

You manage to bust open your knuckles. The carnivore doesn’t make any noise at all. Oh well. You tried. It was a battle. Now you get to meet mom. It could be worse. Even if part of your gut is still clenched up and you’re crying for reasons you don’t quite understand.

Two rough, scaly limbs rap themselves around you and you can feel two streams of breath on your back. Then the chest pushes in. The warm, rough chest that you tried to punch. Probably has your blood on it mixed in with the creature’s other prey.

Then you fly. Your stomach drops and you almost vomit. You reflexively hug the giant monster. Maybe you scream. For a moment you don’t exist; there’s just panic and awe where a girl’s mind used to be. Eventually you get pulled back together. She’s bringing you somewhere else. Why? Where? Is she afraid someone would see? Are there even any pokémon in the village that could fight something like this? You’ve heard rumors that a really good battler lived here once. But you’ve never met them. Some of the kids in school don’t even believe he was real.

The dragon lowers and your stomach lurches up. This time you do puke. And then dry heave when you hit the ground. It’s fine. You’re probably in the nest of a giant murder beast but it’s fine. It’ll all be over soon. Just keep it together and you’ll be fine-ish.

{Little rough, don’t you think?}

The voice is in your head. Only in your head. Your brother can do that if he’s fine with a psychic headache where you kind of blur together for a bit. You can do it with a slightly smaller headache. You’ve never met anyone else who could do it.

There’s a low groan and a whine that sounds like metal rubbing on metal. You cover your ears on reflex.

{Why is she bleeding?}

Another horrible whine followed by a short pouting sound. You don’t have a mental translation, but you can guess it’s, “that’s not my fault, she punched me.” Were you supposed to be intact for this? Whatever this is? Why?

{You can stop shaking. You aren’t being hunted. We just wanted to talk.}

“A-about what?” you stammer out. Your voice is shaking. You realize a moment later that your body is too.

{How much have you been told about your mother?}


You never sleep well your first night in a new place. Your godmother’s home, hotel rooms, impromptu shelters in the mountains—doesn’t matter. Achca—he was always better at that than you.

This night isn’t helped by the rain. Ordinarily it’s soothing; you love it when you can time naps to rain showers. You remember that when you were a young girl your father disciplined you with a cactus spike for being lazy. Even though it wasn’t your fault you lived in a rainforest! Okay, technically not a rainforest. But only by five centimeters of rainfall or something. He only had to do that once. You got the point: you should only take rain naps when he’s really busy or out of town.

No, rain is good for sleeping. But someone (Kekoa) laid the tarp wrong and now you’re lying down in a centimeter or two of water on the edge of the tent. Maybe Genesis is dry, snoring away on her inflatable map. Kekoa said you’d only need two for the tent. Like he was damn certain of it. And you’d let him have his way because he was condescending as hell when you tried to dispute it. Anyway. Genesis is lying down, arms spread out a little to the sides on a mat. He probably has one. You got pushed to the edge of the crowded tent, lying on your side pressed against the wet fabric but still sometimes touching Genesis’s arm. Your only consolations are that Pix doesn’t seem to mind as she purrs away on top of you and Kekoa isn’t sleeping either. You can tell. Enough years sharing a room with. With someone taught you the signs.

You take stock. This sucks. Nothing to be done. How do you minimize the suck that future Cuicatl Ichtaca has to endure? Start with clothes. Kekoa whined about “I’m the one carrying this, y’know” when you were packing and maybe you got a bit too prideful. You have three sets of clothes: sleepwear for sleep; a quechquemitl, tank top, and shorts for hiking; and a tunic and leggings for formal occasions. The sleepwear is going to be wet and unless the rain stops and you can talk Kekoa into staying in camp for a while you won’t have a good chance to dry it. That probably means mildew if you stuff it into a plastic bag and leave it in a dark pack all day. You don’t want to sleep in mildew. You aren’t tracking in the trail scents of the hiking clothes into your tent because that’s how you end up sharing a bed with a rattata and there is not any more room to share. So. You could just sleep in your more formal stuff. It’s still reasonably comfy. Could sleep in it. But the tunic was a gift from your godmother; you don’t want to ruin it if it rains again. Or get vulpix fur on it. You don’t deserve Pix but there are some things you don’t want taken from you, even by her.

A yawn escapes your lips. Tired. Solutions later. Try to sleep.

You relax and try to meditate.

At some point it works.


“Get out.”

You yawn and stretch your body out, reveling in both acts. “Won’t look. Promise,” you grumble.

“Out. Not big enough to change in here with you,” Genesis says.

“Yeah, fine.” Another, slightly less satisfying yawn that still leaves you with a grin. “Whatever.”

The tent isn’t familiar yet. Your fingers still struggle to find the zipper out to the rain fly, your boots, the first zipper again so you can close it, the zipper out of the rain fly, and then the rain fly zipper again. Maybe it would be easier if you were fully awake.

Pixie follows at some point, noticeable as a wave of cold air sometimes sliding by your ankle. “Good morning, friend.” She huffs in response. You smile when you get the translation. “Oh, come on, it’s not even that hot out.” You get one good vertical stretch in and then settle, pressing your weight down as far into the earth as it can go. She doesn’t answer in that time. “You want to take me to the latrine?”

Again, no verbal answer. But the air currents start moving a little. She’s difficult to follow without the leash because her footsteps are nearly silent. Your only saving grace is that she doesn’t try particularly hard to avoid stepping on fallen leaves and twigs. Honestly she might even be making a game out of dominating as many as she can. It wouldn’t be unexpected from her. Got to show the icky leaves who’s boss.

Eventually Pix stops moving and your boots fall on concrete. “Thanks, girl.” She barks, acknowledging the (barely) sufficient praise. You hold out your arms and feel for the door. Is there more than one door? Like, girl / boy doors? There’s only one toilet inside with a metallic sink outside. And you feel a lock, so it doesn’t matter much.

What does matter is that this latrine smells awful. And it feels so cramped. It’s hard to explain how to sighted people but you can tell when you’re in a very tight spice. And you hate it. Always have. Especially if all the textures are cold metal or wood rough enough that you’re worried about splinters. And the smell is. Bleck.

You finish your business as quickly as possible, thoroughly wash your hands, and walk a comfortable distance in the general direction of camp. Then you stop and crouch down, holding a hand out. “I think a very good guide fox has earned some scratches.”

Said fox practically teleports to your hand and starts rubbing her scent glands against it while you dig your fingers into her chin. Eventually she lifts her head up and you get a really good scratch there before she pushes down and you move on to cupping her cheek with one hand and scratching her ears with the other. Then she starts moving in circles and you just hold a hand unmoving, letting her continuously scratch her back, head, and tail in an endless loop. You’d think she’d get dizzy pretty quickly but she goes for a full minute or two, chasing her tail ever faster, before she slows down and collapses in a heap.

You gently scoop her up into your arms and hug her to your chest. She’s rather relaxed, occasionally twitching a tail or pressing one of her legs against you and squirming for a better view. Otherwise calm. Close enough you can feel her heartbeat. And feel so much of her glorious fur pressed against your arms. She’s a lot like Searah, but cold.

A pause and a flood of panic.

No. It’s fine. You’ll see her soon. Even a trained heatmor is 250,000 Quatchli, or $10,000, tops. Today is a decent day. Don’t ruin it.

You squeeze Pix tight enough that she whines a little before relaxing. Right. Is not a stress ball. Is a fox.


Dried pink apricorns aren’t terrible. You get the whole pack down before Pixie finishes her bowl.

“You like those things?” Kekoa asks.

“Yeah. Used to love them as a kid. Haven’t had them in years, though. Not quite as good as I remember.”

He walks over to you and shoves something into your hand. Genesis belatedly follows. Your muscles tighten and your breathing picks up a little. It’s fine. It’s fine. It’s fine. Just apricorns. Fills your belly. Almost no fat at all. Keeps you from overeating later. Wins all around. It’s fine. It’s fine. You can relax. Slowly. Breathe. Slowly. Eat. The. Apricorns. You. Sad. Excuse. For. A. Human. Being.

You reach into Kekoa’s bag and pull a few out while the narrative starts stirring into gear in the background. It’s fine. You’re in nature. It’s fine. Seven years from now when the world ends you’ll barely remember this at all.


“Okay, so if neither of you two wants to capture a mudbray then—”

Kekoa clears his throat. He then continues to speak with what you’re pretty sure is an exaggerated British accent. Hell, even your mental translation adds the bad accent. “I hereby establish The Rules Of The Trail. Rule #1: Shut up, Jennifer.”

There’s a period of silence. The footsteps continue. You really hate it when they just stop without telling you. They’re much faster than you are since they can just look down and see if there are rocks or tree roots and you have to use a hiking stick (not the cane, don’t want to get it dirty) to feel that out) but the social exclusion bothers you.

“Rule #2,” Genesis says in an accent that again makes it into your power. And accent’s never filter in. You’re pretty sure they’ve never even heard yours because then Kekoa definitely would’ve given you ****. “Shut up, Kekoa.” The accent drops. From the real-time English and the slightly delayed Nahuatl translation. “See, I can do that too.”

“Rule #3: Shut up Kiwi.” Kekoa proclaims.

You make a show of groaning. “What did I do?”

“Not personal, just needed to complete the set.” You open your mouth and he cuts you off. “Unless, I’m invoking Rule #3, in which case, yeah, it is personal.”

You sigh, bite your tongue, and count down. Not worth pressing this. It’ll just make you upset. “Okay. Fine. Whatever. And Genesis? I’d rather we not get a mudsdale. You ever walked on a horse trail?”

She’s quiet for long enough that you accept that she isn’t one of the “horse girls” that upper class American girls were often stereotyped as being. Fascinating to discover what is and isn’t true about this country after years of hearing the Anahuac view on it (i.e. degenerate misogynist racist genocidal madmen who crush their lower classes) and the American film version (pretty much the same thing).

“No, never been on a horse trail. Why?”

“Well,” you start. “If it’s rained recently they turn the entire trail into mud. And they are big enough that I mean the entire trail.” Your foot catches on a rock and you hold in a curse. It’s fine. Get over it. Barely even hurts. Kekoa snickers behind you so it must have been a visible stumble. Asshole. “Now, that wouldn’t be so bad. Everyone steps in mud eventually—”

“That what your mommy told you?” Kekoa asks.

Your blood goes cold. No. Don’t dignify him with a physical reaction. “No. But I heard your mom shoved you in mud to make you cleaner.” Does that joke even make sense? He doesn’t respond so it either does or really, really doesn’t. Time to plow on regardless. “Horses ****. A lot. All of them. Rapidash, zebstrika, mudsdale—doesn’t matter. They ****. Everywhere. In large amounts. Then they mix that **** in with the mud that, again, is the entire trail.”

“Oh,” Genesis responds. “That’s, uh.”

“Yeah. So let’s not. Not everyone here grew up bathing in that ****, right?”

“Rule #3, Kiwi,” Kekoa finally responds.

“Aw, is someone mommy’s little girl?” It’s a low blow and he’ll hate you for it. But he already hates you and if he wants to drag your mother dead mother into this, he can deal with the consequences.

“Rule #4: Get new jokes.”

“Because ‘Kiwi’ is still a riot every time, right?”

He doesn’t answer that.


Lunch is decent. Small trail mix bags. Nuts and dried fruit. A lot of dried fruit. No chocolate, either. Not that you need chocolate but it does give more of an incentive to eat it. But those pinap berries, right? Those are good. Sort of. Texture’s weird when dry. Admittedly you’ve only had the canned ones and now dry ones. Wait, this is Alola. Shouldn’t you have fresh ones or. Ugh. It’s decent. That’s what you mean. The nuts have quite a bit of fat but even if you stuck the whole bag right on your stomach it’s not too much of an addition.

“Hey, Cuicatl?” Genesis asks.


“Could I borrow, I mean, could I take some kibble at meals? Just a few pieces. I can, um, I can help pay for it once you need some more.”

You take the bag back out from your pack. Pixie’s feet pitter over and you pour her a few more pieces out of guilt. “Yeah, come get it.”

She does and walks away. Is it for Sir Bubbles? Is she going to eat it?

Doesn’t really matter. Just add it to the list of weird American ****.


Your voice dances and you want to move your body with it. How long has it been since you were in the cuicacalli? Would’ve been right before. GOOD. DAY. How many times is he going to come up on your good day? You correct your pitch back up and move back through the wordless song. Does that translate?

“Rule #5: No Pirates of the Caribbean,” Kekoa says.

You keep on singing. It is good music. And it’s upbeat enough that it can almost silence your feelings.

“Going to throw in a Rule #3 for good measure now.”

You break off the song. “Well, you brought it up.”

He’d asked whether Aztec gold could make you immortal. You’d started humming, and then singing, He’s a Pirate by way of answer. You’re pretty sure the answer is no, though. Undead skeleton warriors are a thing and theoretically a female pirate could give birth at sea and later come back as one at the end of the world, but the Black Pearl crew was way too male for that. Or maybe they were all like Kekoa. You won’t judge.

“Yes, I started it. And I’m ending it. Keep singing and I will trip you.”

Well, screw him. You have a very pretty voice. And nice hair. And maybe you’re a fat disgusting waste of humanity but you’re very proud of those two things.

“Fighting like a pirate, I see? Dun-dun dun-dun-dun-dun-dun. Dun. Dun. Dun-dun-dun—****!”

You catch yourself on the way down and your pack isn’t heavy enough to cause serious problems. You can still feel a cut on your thigh and your hands aren’t feeling too good either. Can’t tell if that’s just the aftershocks of hitting the rocks on the trail or something worse. More than that, it had rained last night. The whole trail is coated in mud. Pixie won’t want to cuddle you and damn him you need her.

But you deserved it. For the mama’s girl dig. And just in general you deserve a few trips here and there. Remind you of your place. Hell, might make you prettier. You almost just drop down and collapse into the mud, let your face hit the earth and then wallow there forever. They could just hike faster and

“Kekoa, what the hell?”

Did she just… swear? You hear her move towards you and throw her pack off before bending down. At least, you hear her knees crack and feel the moving wind so you assume she bent down.he should probably get her knees checked out. She’s, what, fifteen?

“Well, she’ll always remember that this is the day we established Rule ****ing Four.”

You feel a hand brush against your elbow. “Need help?

Yeah. More than she can give. You swallow it down. The cuicacalli taught you acting alongside song and dance and legends. Time to act. Not happy. Indignant? Flippant? Scowl a little. Show no real pain.

“Nah, I’m fine.” You push yourself up and make a show of brushing your hands off on your equally muddy shorts. You glance over your shoulder and deepen your scowl. “And ‘this is the day we almost established Rule ****ing Four.’ Which is still a terrible joke. Two out of ten.” That’s the end of that. Now you can go in silence. Manage your steps. Maybe hum a little bit; you doubt he tries that again if Genesis is explicitly on your side. He has to have some shame, right? Eventually you let the humming rise up in pitch. You’re happy. Still a little annoyed, but happy. That’s what a normal person would feel in this situation, right?

Keep The Face on. Don’t cry. You’ll spiral downward if you cry. And no one wants to see that.


Dinner is allegedly eggs and potatoes. You don’t remember either having sand in them, though. Definitely more tolerable than the “potato salad” or “spaghetti marinara” from yesterday. But getting food into your mouth is usually an uphill battle and when not even your stomach wants it but your muscles really need it and the hunger is far worse than it usually is, then you’ve got a problem.

Fine. Whatever. You let Kekoa pick this **** because the man had a plan and you’re some blind kid but now you’re putting your foot down. And since the self-loathing rose back to anger when Pix wouldn’t cuddle you until a very awkward shower under a sixty centimeter tall, low pressure water spicket, well, he’s in for it.

“We aren’t doing this again.”

“Agreed,” Genesis adds. Lovely. Starts with Kekoa cornered.

“In Paniola we pick up rice, noodles, whatever. Find seasoning if we can. Keep dried fruit if you two want it. Mince and cook vegetables ahead of time. Toss in nuts or beans or canned meat or whatever for protein.”

Kekoa doesn’t challenge it. Instead he takes another bite of food and carefully chews it for far too long before swallowing. Power move. Ugh. Men. Him. “First, this is why I insisted on spending two nights on the trail. So we could detect problems like this in advance.” Is he really taking credit for this? Why is he being such an asshole, anyway? Do you care? “Second, I can probably win a battle or two and get cheap lunches in town. Take way more condiment and seasoning packets than I’m probably entitled to. Helps if Jennifer gives me cover here. There, spice problem solved.”

“I’m glad you agree—”

Third,” he interrupts. “How do you plan on keeping your vegetables cold? Ice packs are heavy as **** and melt in a day.”

{Pix, shoot an ice shard at him. Keep it a little weak.}

You can hear the attack and Kekoa’s surprisingly muted swearing. “Point taken. Still heavier than I want to lug around.”

“Then I can keep it in my pack,” you say.

He laughs. “Oh, like hell you will. You’re, what, ninety pounds sopping wet?” You don’t actually know how heavy a pound is but the telepathic translation puts it in kilograms. You could argue that, but ‘actually that’s my dry weight’ doesn’t seem like a winning case. “No, you’ll carry it for half a day, complain about your back breaking, and then put it in my pack.”

“I’ll take it,” Genesis says. “I’m bigger than you and I’m not carrying much so it shouldn’t be too hard.”

Kekoa doesn’t answer. He just gets up and walks away. Eventually the water turns on. He’s washing his dishes. Which reminds you that you still have way, way too much left to eat.


There’s another ‘thunk’ sound behind you followed by a short roll. Fourth this morning.

“Rule #5: Keep your water bottle in your pack when you aren’t drinking. Sorry, Gen.”

She sighs. “That annoying?”

“Kind of. Sorry. You’re tossing it up and trying to catch it, right?”

“Yeah,” she responds. Kekoa is being mercifully quiet.

“Maybe you could use a rock or twig or something less loud?”

“Oh. Yeah! That would work. Thanks.”

Why is she thanking you? You told her off.

“What’s it like out there, anyway?”

“Uh. Still kind of burnt? A little more greenery, though. I think there’s a highway nearby.”

You’d heard the road. Not busy enough you’d call it a highway. There’s also a river somewhere near the trail. “Getting close to Paniola, then?”

“Should be another or hour or two,” Kekoa answers. You decide to kill the conversation now that he’s joined. You’re in a decent mood today.


Your lunch is interrupted by a long, howling whine going up and down in pitch like a passing ambulance.


There are loud, rushed footsteps and a “Crap!” said like a curse beside you.

“Jennifer, what the hell!” Kekoa yells.

Pixie keeps screaming.

“Pix!” you yell louder just to be heard. That seems to shut her up, although she grumbles afterward.

Was helping!

{I’m sure you were.} “Kekoa, what just happened?”

He stands up and starts pacing. “An eevee showed up to eat the kibble Jennifer put out, your vulpix started screaming bloody murder, the eevee ran away, Jennifer picked up her poliwag and ran into the forest after it.”

Oh. Yeah. It’s generally not a good idea to run off into unfamiliar woods. Even if there aren’t predators worth worrying about. Although momma espeon might give her a psychic headache if she’s unlucky.

“I’m going after her. If I call to you, call back.” And then he’s gone. Into the woods. Without asking permission.


“Hey, Pix. Want some food?”

She dutifully trots over, her surface thoughts full of rage words and eevee. You scoop out some of the spam. The flavor’s okay. Interesting, even. Texture isn’t the best. Maybe it’d be better if you had a chance to cook it. In any case, Pixie seems to like it.

“I wasn’t going to catch the eevee, you know?”

She hisses between bites. No eevee allowed.

“Why, though? Even if I don’t own it?”

Her surface thoughts are a jumble of unrelated words. Not useful. Guess? Jealousy playing into attachment issues. She’s worried that if you spend time around an eevee you’ll like it better than her. time to test that theory.

“I agree. They aren’t the best. One of the teachers at my school had one and…” How much self-awareness does she have? You think it’s safe to bet on ‘none at all.’ “She was very pretty, but incredibly stuck-up. Only wanted to talk about herself and make everyone appreciate how cute she was. Thought she owned the world. But she wasn’t even that pretty so she was just insufferable. I’d never want to train one.” That seems to calm her. She even purrs a little. “Besides, vulpix are the best foxes and I am very smart for a human so I know not to leave one for an eevee.” You try to pour as much disgust as possible into that word. She seems to buy it. And having a clear job to do as a trained guide fox and portable ice-maker down the line should calm her anxieties a bit. Hopefully even make her amenable to teammates.

It’s taking your partners a while to come back. Was there any predator you forgot about? Too far south for bewear, right? Stoutland are more fond of cuddles than hunting. Even the feral ones. Sylveon, maybe? Do they hunt people? Genesis would know better than to tug on pretty ribbons, right?


No. No she wouldn’t. Kekoa probably would, though.

You’re pretty sure that Pix fell asleep on your lap at some point. You keep gently stroking her fur. She’s so soft. And even if she’s sometimes a literal and figurative ***** at least she has a personality. Besides, you’re mom’s starter was also kind of a pain in her later years. At least to you. And Renfield. Maybe swanna are only kind to the people they imprint on?

Possible steps to a second pokémon: Find a bird egg, when it hatches make sure it imprints on you. Emphasize to Pixie how unkind it would be to take a child away from its mother. ??? Profit.

It’s definitely not your worst idea. Way better than the “coat a grimer in flour, put it in a refrigerator for a few hours, and tell Pix it’s another vulpix” plan you toyed with back in Hau’oli.

There’s a distant “marco.” You nudge Pix awake. And move to put your pack on.

“Hey, can you go to the tree line and use roar for as long as you can?”
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A Dense Irritating Miniature Beast of Burden
So, our journey finally begins! Not with a bang, but with, well, something a bit more low key. Compared to a lot of other trainer fics, at least from what I've read, this one puts a lot more emphasis on the actual hiking and camping elements of it, with all its discomforts. Way to make the most clamorous part of being a trainer, er, not so glamorous. I mean that in a good way, of course. It adds to the general conflict of getting from point A to point B (Especially through the wild) as well as the tension between our trio of dunderheads. Speaking of which...

Jeez Louise, they were pretty vicious to one another in this chapter. It hasn't gotten to the point where they've outright exploded, and to be fair, we see a lot of funny banter on the way, but man, these three really aren't equipped to be together at all. It just makes me wonder how long it's gonna be until someone eventually flips out. I do hope this leads to some character development/bonding between them, because if it is just gonna be them sniping at each other all the time, I might get a bit burnt out.

Still, looking forward to seeing what the city is like as well as the 'oh crap' moment from Cuicatl at the end. The flashback at the beginning was also a nice touch and goes more into Cuicatl's past with the dragons, so I hope to see more elaboration on that later on.


Middle of nowhere
Normal 1.9: Did It Hurt?



It’s kinda boring outside the window. Going into Minamo you either wind up on the land side (like your kunane is two rows up and across the aisle) or just staring at water and the occasional island until the very, very end. None of the fun of watching big things go from tiny back to big. It’s probably why Hine’s ignoring it entirely and reading something on her phone.

Eventually there are ships, then rainforest, and then buildings. That’s the other kinda boring thing about Minamo: it’s a lot like Heahea or Konikoni. Just bigger. Maybe even bigger than Hau’oli. Your makua kane says that Hoenn is maybe the closest thing in the world to Alola so it must be really boring being stationed there. Nothing new to explore.

The plane touches down with a slight jolt and slows to a stop. Then it spends forever waiting to go to the airport. Then you have to stay in your seat for forever as everyone in front of you (which is pretty much the entire plane) steadily gets out. And then you can finally walk down the aisle and through the weird tunnel and then go to the bathroom and then go through the rest of the airport to the exit. To your Kane.

You beat Jabari to him. By a lot. Like he isn’t even trying. Kane wraps you into a hug and picks you up. You were wondering if he could still do that since you’re pretty big now.

“There’s my darling little girl.”

“Kane…” you whine. He knows you hate being called that. Too old.

“Right,” he says while setting you down. He walks over to Jabari. “I suppose now that you’re an adult you just want a handshake, right?”

He smiles weakly. “I’ll, uh, take a hug.”

He gets one.


Less than two days after you arrived, Kane got called away. He said it was an emergency but he didn’t know much more. Hopefully it’ll be over before you have to go home on Sunday. You barely got to see him at all.

“There’s enough money on the shelf for lunch and dinner. I should be back by nine if the ferries are on time. You shouldn’t be out then—that’s pushing Allana’s bedtime. If there’s an emergency—”

“Call you. I know,” Jabari says while rolling his eyes.

Hine steps towards him and reaches up to put a hand on his shoulder. “I’ll just be in Tokusane. I can take the first ferry back if anything comes up. Promise you’ll call?”

Jabari nods. “Promise.”

Hine gives some final pointers, hugs you, and finally steps outside.

Jabari closes the door and slowly turns back to you. “Want to watch something you probably shouldn’t?” You nod. Of course you do! “Good. Don’t tell mom.” He digs through his bag, pulls out a VCR, and puts it into the player beneath the hotel room’s TV.

The movie starts with a bunch of men with guns watching a cage. With something alive in it. Something with big claws that pulls one of the men in. Then there’s awful screaming (human and pokémon) and yelling and gunfire.

The screen pauses. Jabari turns to you. “Sure you can handle this?”

“Of course.” Wait, when did the blanket get pulled up to your neck?


The rest of the movie isn’t as scary. Until the end. And some of the fossil pokémon look really, really cool! You’d read about them in books and some books even had pictures but it’s really great to actually see all of your favorites moving. And hunting. Tyrantrum is incredible! And the aurorus are super, super pretty. Tyrantrum’s still your favorite, though. Always has been. Always will be.

No feathers though. That’s kinda weird. And weren’t tyrantrum scavengers?

At some point it starts raining really hard but Jabari just turns the volume up and everything’s fine again. Except when the tyrantrum kills the pyroclaptors and roars at the end, an alarm goes off. At first you think it’s just in the movie but then Jabari turns the screen off and it’s still going.

You turn to your kunane. He stands up and starts walking to the door. “Stay here. I’ll figure out what’s happening.”

Jabari comes back a few very long minutes later. He rushes to the counter, stuffs the cash in his pocket and then moves to his bag. “Something’s up. They’re moving everyone to a shelter. Put your shoes on. We’re going.”

“You called Hine?” This sounds like an emergency.

He shakes his head. “Tried. Phones are down. Probably best that she doesn’t come here if they’re sending everyone to a bomb shelter.”


“Not a bomb. Something else. They wouldn’t say.” Jabari stuffs some more money from his bag into his pocket and speedwalks to the door. “Put your shoes on. Follow me.”

The entire hotel is in the halls. Many people, especially the old ones, are waiting in a massive clump of bodies by the elevator. Jabari presses through them and you follow close behind to avoid getting cut off as the parted crowd smushes back together. The staircase is also busy, but less so. Not so crowded that you’re being crushed. Bug definitely enough that the echoes through the cold, plain shaft are almost as loud as your heart.

Darkness. You almost fall stopping yourself on the steps and trying to figure out where to go. Then some light comes back. Just not as bright. Jabari keeps going without so much as a glance back and you struggle to keep up as he goes two or even three steps at a time on his stupid long adult legs.

The emergency exit leads outside. There are cars on the streets but they’re all stuck in place. Some have angry drivers adding their honks to the blaring alarms and shouts and sound of footsteps and nervous people. Others just sit abandoned, the owners deciding that it was worth trying to walk through the mass of hundreds—thousands?— millions?—billions?—of people. More people than you’ve ever seen.

None of that’s what really catches your attention, though. That’s the heat and the light. It’s blinding from above and you have to bring a hand over your eyes just to see anything. But the heat still pierces through. It’s the feeling of burning sun on your skin like at the beach, except everywhere and it pierces past the skin. Like your hair is on fire and your blood us boiling. Jabari presses on and you have to almost run to catch up. At first you can do it, but soon you’re doused in sweat like you’ve just had a shower and you’re panting like you just ran for an entire recess in the heat.

In front of you a cool glass bridge between buildings starts to groan before the metal twists and the glass breaks and it all falls to the ground. Jabari stops and looks around frantically. A small tremor comes through the ground like the mining company set off dynamite down in the valley. Over the roar of the metal and Earth and alarms and pokémon and people and cars you see Jabari mouth a word with an expression that you’ve never seen before on his face. “What?” you shout.

That catches his attention. He looks at you, shakes his head, and grabs your arm. Then he ducks into a sidestreet and starts running. Except that there are too many people on the streets. Some are still in shock as the second, bigger shockwave passes by. But some are moving. With you, against you, perpendicular, everything. It slows you down until Jabari’s not running so much as slipping through people at varying speeds and jerking you along.

It’s not just sweat and heat anymore. You feel… less. Like there should be more you in you. And you want to sit down and drink water and nap. But he keeps pulling with a slightly weaker grip. Eventually the pavement beneath your feet starts to actually burn your soles through your shoes and Jabari rushes to the strips of green at the edge of the street. But so does everyone else.

You finally see the shelter. Or what you think is the shelter. Big and gray. What you can’t see are the gates behind the crowd of people pressing in. All in the same situation as you. Or worse. An old woman collapses a few meters away and you move to help before Jabari pulls you in.

She isn’t the last person to collapse in the heat as you slowly get closer to the shade and cold. One woman’s scarf catches on fire. So do a few buildings. Maybe. It could’ve been a dream. Sometimes you shut your eyes and open them again when Jabari pulls you or the earth moves a little bit stronger than the last time. At some point you stop sweating. That’s probably good, right?

There’s another quake. Far, far stronger than anything that came before it. Some of the taller towers tremble and there are crashing sounds and fire hydrants and pipes spewing water across the entire road. It hisses like oil in a frying pain. Another rumble matches the last, this time above you right before the sky bursts open and quenches the heat. It isn’t welcome. The raindrops feel like bullets as they hit your skin and it only barely wakes you up. You idly note that the rain leaves actual ripples in the pavement because the asphalt is that soft and the impact that hard.

A loud voice comes from the shelter. Looping over and over again. Your Japanese is only good enough to catch the word “rain” and “closed.” Jabari pulls you tighter and he’s shaking or you’re shaking or the ground is. Maybe all three.

He strokes his hand through your hair and you almost tell him off. But it’s just so hard to care. “It’s going to be okay,” he whispers over and over again like he believes it. You know he’s lying; you’re eight and you’re smarter than you were when you were seven. You close your eyes and breathe, aware of the trembling and the roars and the burns and the bullets but not really feeling any of them.

This is the end.

It’s time to go to sleep.

“Good night, Jabari.”

Gods the aurorus were pretty.

There was a dream. You know there was a dream but you just miss it as your eyes open. White. The world is white. The room is white, at least. Almost blindingly so. You try to sit up but can’t quite find the energy. Because as everything in your body starts responding to you again you realize that everything in your body, inside and out, hurts.

You don’t know how long you spend alone. Thoughtless. Existing. Staring at the white ceiling. Eventually you must fall back asleep because you wake up again with a nurse over you. She shines a light over your eyes, feels your heartbeat, asks you in heavily accented Galarian if you can speak. You try and a dry croak comes out. You shake your head instead.

There are more questions. You fall asleep. There are more nurses. You fall asleep. Eventually you wake up and there’s not a nurse there present. But Jabari is. Badly sunburnt. An arm in a sling. Alive.

You push yourself up to the very limited extent that you can and he rapidly stands and waves an arm. “Hey, don’t push yourself.”

Jabari’s here. Alive. Alone. A thought crashes into your heart. Two thoughts. “Hine? Kane?” you whisper, ignoring the pain in your throat.

He freezes. And breaks eye contact. Arms crossed. “Tokusane was hit pretty bad. Island’s built on an old reef. Parts of it collapsed in the tremors and the waves and rain didn’t help. But they haven’t published a full list of survivors yet. And from the news reports coming in I doubt she would have found a way to contact us yet. So we don’t know yet. But she’s smart so I’m sure she found a way through..” He sounds like he believes it. He looks like he doesn’t. “Dad’s ship went down. He still could’ve survived. There are stories about milotic, gorebyss, wailord, and walrein bringing people to shore.”

You hear it. You understand it. You don’t quite feel it. Not yet.

He seems to notice and moves to reassure you, voice low and comforting. “Phone lines aren’t working in most places. The rest are emergency only. And there are still a lot of emergencies popping up. Even after…”

You would later learn what happened. Volcanic eruptions. Rogue waves. Sunstroke. Hail and lightning. Fires. Entire islands sinking into the sea. Jabari didn’t tell you that then. You didn’t need to know. He just sat down on the edge of your bed and stroked your hair when the feelings settled in and you finally started to cry.


The house feels so much emptier with only two people in it. Quieter too. Jabari cooks. Cleans. Does the adult stuff. Sometimes he’s at work. It’s still the summer. No school. Sometimes the neighbors come over but you never want to play.

He’s here now. You aren’t alone. Might as well be as he reads the paper and drinks his coffee and you finish up your toast and eggs in silence. They’re not as good as Hine made them. And she usually talked to you about your day. Or fussed with your hair. Even when you’d rather she didn’t.

Now you’d rather she did and she won’t.

Two weeks since you got home. Five since the burning light and piercing rain. The longest and shortest weeks of your life.

Jabari puts the paper down and looks at you. For a moment you weigh whether or not you want him to break the silence before you finally put your toast down and clasp your hands. Meeting his gaze. Waiting. Waiting for something. You aren’t sure what.

“I’m joining the army,” he says. And the silence shatters. You hear the words. You repeat them to yourself over and over again, figuring out what they mean. What they mean for you. “What happened in Hoenn? Bad people did that. Aqua-dan and Magma-dan. Woke up some gods. Killed hundreds of thousands. Killed Mom. Killed Dad. And there are other bad people like them all over the place. Remember that blizzard in Unova? Or that cruise ship that got lost near California? All bad people. Bad people trying to control gods. And they’ll just keep doing it unless someone stops them.”

You don’t know if any of that’s true. You vaguely remember Hine watching a video of some snowstorm on the TV. He says it like it’s true. It’s not what you care about.

“What about me?” you ask so quietly you’re not sure you said it at all.

He breaks eye contact and looks at the refrigerator magnets behind you. “I’m sorry, but this was never going to work. I’m eighteen! I don’t know how to raise a kid. I’d just screw it up and leave you worse off for it.”

“Then what happens now?”

He stops looking at the refrigerator and pushes his seat back to stand. “The government will find an adult who can take care of you. It’ll be better that way. Trust me.”

You want to hug him. You want to hit him. Say goodbye before he leaves. Make sure he never does.

In the end you just sit in silence until he goes upstairs.


It’s not the same Paniola you knew, but it’s pretty close. The grocery store Miss Smith ran and probably still does if she hasn’t died or retired. The arts store Mr. Palakiko owned. You tried to learn the ukulele there one summer until you both admitted that it wasn’t to be. You’re almost tempted to step into that one. But you don’t want to talk about who you’ve become or find out if he still runs it and, if not, what that means.

No. Best to keep your memories intact.

The butcher shop on the corner of Puna and Ekolu is still there but it has a new name. The playground down Ekolu Avenue is similar enough that if you close your eyes and think with your arms and legs you can almost remember how to get from one end of the playset to the other as quickly as possible if you’re being chased. Or chasing. Sometimes both within minutes. You’d always thought of it as its own island and ocean. Now it’s some cramped little boat on a tiny puddle of wood chips.

The Pokémon Center finally updated to a more modern design from its old wooden exterior, the unofficial theme of the town. You learned in school that it was to preserve the paniola heritage of this part of Akala. Now you’re pretty certain it’s a tourist thing. An effective one, too, judging by the people on the streets.

The neighborhood has some differences. The yards and spaces between houses used to be much bigger. Probably. Maybe that’s just a consequence of growing up. Or maybe there are more houses.

You reach the end of the road and see it. Is it the same? The same as it was when your parents brought a baby home? The same as it was when the same child walked out of the door with a strange haole man in a suit? You don’t know. Can’t tell. There’s a fence out back. That’s new. The walls are the general color of what you remembered and the driveway’s on the right side. But if you were shown ten random houses in Paniola you’re not entirely sure you’d have been able to pick this one out as your own.

What does it mean if you can’t?

The silence is shattered. “Thought I’d find you here.”

You grimace and turn. There he is. Like he was, but different. Crew cut. Muscles. A sleeveless jacket like a ****ing prick.

“Jabari.” You try to keep your tone neutral. For your own benefit. You don’t want your homecoming ruined.

“Allana,” he replies. Smiling. Like he’s a ****ing genius. ‘Oh, look at me, I can mirror someone’s conversational style.’ Grow up. “You cut your hair.”

“So did you.”

You half expect an actual tumbleweed to blow by. It is Paniola Town, after all. And you slept in long enough it might very well be high noon.

“Heard you were on a journey,” he says. The smile’s still there. Gods he can’t read the room.


The smile falters. “And, I, uh, I heard it from a coworker. Wish you would’ve called me. I could’ve helped.”

“You definitely could’ve helped,” you agree in as deadpan a voice as you can manage.

“So, uh,” he’s finally caught the nervousness. It’s almost humorous, seeing some ripped vet looking like a schoolboy asking if his crush likes him. “Why not?”

“Forgot about it.” Not entirely a lie. He had slipped your mind until you were in VStar orientation and almost **** yourself when you remembered he worked there.

The smile sort of returns and he uncrosses his arms for the first time and sticks his hands into his pockets. “Oh. Well, I got you a gift. Sort of. It’s an egg right now and I thought it would be easier to give it to you once you reach the trial site’s center. Probably won’t be ready for a few trials but I think you’ll like it.”

“Already have a team planned out.”

He shakes his head and chuckles. “Oh, I think this will convince you to change your plans.” You step to the side and walk past him. He falls in step. “So, want to get lunch or something? Heroes Café is still open. My treat.”

You honestly don’t remember Jabari being this dense. You do remember him being ****ing giant but you’d hoped that he would’ve shrunk like everything else in this town. But he didn’t. Even when you’re halfway to powerwalking he’s just going a little bit faster than normal. Damn him. “My name is Kekoa. Not Allana.”

He stumbles. You plow on without so much as looking at him. “Wait, why?”

“Because Allana is a girl’s name.”

Your head is angled down towards your feet but you can guess what his face looks like. Mouth slightly open and eyes a little wide at first before the mouth closes and the eyes go much, much wider. “Oh.” Mouth tilts back and the tongue tests out a dozen words before it finally settles. “You could’ve told me I had a brother, y’know?” You ignore him. “Hey, can we stop walking and talk? This seems—”

You stop. But you don’t turn around. He doesn’t deserve that. “Did it hurt?”


“Did it hurt? To give the egg? Was their sacrifice?”

“Kekoa, trust me I—”

“No, then.” You take a deep breath and turn around to look him in the eye. “I’m going to be blunt because you can’t catch a hint. You had a chance to give me the best gift I’d ever been given. You blew it. Went off an ocean away to kill anyone and everyone if it would make you feel better. Maybe it did. Hell if I know. I didn’t get that luxury. No one gave a **** how I was feeling.”

You keep looking up to his eyes. Ignoring the horrible blurs at the periphery of yours. And the height difference. Is that what you would’ve been like? Would that be your height, your face, your body if the universe hadn’t **** on you?

He breaks your gaze and looks at his feet. Is that shame on his face? It should be. “An—Kekoa. I know. I was… young. Reckless. Immature. I did the wrong thing. But I’m back now. You’re on the trail and I was hoping… that…”

Now you’ve seen it. A man drown on dry land.

You won’t throw him a line.

“No,” you cut him off “Maybe someday when you’ve given enough that you feel a fraction of what you’ve put me through, then we can talk. But right now…” you try to swallow and realize that he’s not the only one drowning. “Right now you don’t have a brother.”

At least, that’s what you meant to say. The knife you meant to stab right into his heart. But it missed. The words were whispered under sobs and the blade slipped and stabbed you instead.

You start running. He doesn’t follow.

Damn him.

Damn you.

Damn it all.

Eventually you stop. Not at the Center but at the playground. It’s a school day and there’s no one there but you.

You find your way to a tire swing you remember curling up inside of, your back curved along the bottom and your legs were pressed out so that your shoes dug into the top. Jabari once ran into the swing going as fast as he could. It knocked you into the air but you pressed your back into the tread and braced your legs and you didn’t fall out. Didn’t even get sick. Your parents—plural, Kane was home—chewed him out.

Both of you snuck out that night so he could do it again. And again. And again. Until you finally did get knocked out and ripped your skin open on the woodchips. He didn’t take you back, just stayed there and pulled out a first aid kit—when and why did he have that?—and pulled out the chips that remained, swabbed down the wound, and covered as much as he could before he ran out of bandages. Then he sat down and told you stories about past wars and heroes and kingdoms and he listened to your stories about dinosaurs and princesses. At some point you fell asleep or he took you back or something. You can’t remember how it ended. Or even how your parents reacted. It’s just an island of memory in a sea of moments lost to time.

How many moments? For every hour you remember how many have you lost? How many slip away every day? Every month? Every year? There was a moment back in August when you realized that you didn’t remember your preschool teachers name. And you couldn’t ask your parents because they were dead and you didn’t have the number of anyone who still lived here and Jabari.

Jabari was gone. Not dead, but gone. You had his number, sure. But you could never call it. Still can’t. Because you relied on him and he broke your trust. Broke you. He doesn’t deserve another chance.

And you lied to him back there. It doesn’t matter what he gives. How much he hurts. He could blast his ****ing brains out in front of you for all you care. It wouldn’t undo what he did. He’s not your brother anymore. He never will be again.

But you hope he tries. You hope he suffers. You hope he’s filled with shame for every waking hour of every day until his soul ascends Lanakila. Because he deserves it.

Damn. Him.


You drag yourself into the Pokémon Center cafeteria hunched down and walking with short, heavy steps.

“Hey,” Jennifer calls and waves. “Where have you been?”

You ignore her. Get your chili and sit down at the table in silence. Near silence. You don’t bother putting the bowl down gently and a little sloshes out.

“Who pissed in your punch today?” Kiwi asks.

You take a deep breath. Is she trying to help?. Or is she mocking you while you’re down and can’t retaliate because you’re in public and she’s a sympathetic blind girl?

You go neutral. “You have any older siblings?”

Jennifer shakes her head even though the question wasn’t even aimed at her. “Two younger. One brother, one sister. Why?”

You ignore that question.

Kiwi feels around for her napkin and wipes her lips. “One brother. A few minutes older than me. Does that count?”

Something clicks. You smile and start to speak, even though some desperate part of your mind knows you shouldn’t. “Can he see?”

Kiwi fidgets. “He’s sighted, yeah.”

You pause and take a breath, emotional pain swelling and subsiding all at once. Sometimes you need to push your head above the surface and breathe. Sometimes you need to push someone else down to do that. Everyone else does it when they need to. Hell, she does it to you non-stop with her girl jokes. Can't say she doesn't deserve it.

“Well, that explains a lot. Let me guess: your brother was the darling child your mom mentored in her trade while you just had to learn **** from the radio. Eventually you got fed up and fled to Alola to show that, hey, you could make it too. Except you get here and you suck ass just like everyone thought and now you’re too embarrassed to go home and tell everyone they were right.”

“Kekoa,” Genesis hisses.

Kiwi just looks down and folds her hands in her lap. When she speaks her voice is low and even. “You should stop talking now.”

A threat? You raise an eyebrow. “Or what? You’ll cry because you can’t handle the truth?”

She closes her eyes. And taps a finger on her thigh. One. Two. Three. Four. Five. Six. Seven. Eight. Nine. Ten. Deep breath. Her mouth opens partway and closes.

“Hey, uh, let’s maybe calm down?” Genesis pleads. “I saw that the fast food place down the street has $1.50 ice cream. Surely the wallet can take that, right?”

“I’m not hungry, Genesis.” Kiwi opens her eyes and looks just past your shoulder. Damn. For being blind her glare game is good. “No, Kekoa. Let me clarify: You need to stop talking before I shove my foot all the way up your vagina.”

The wound in your heart explodes and you lose your breath. How did she know? Was it just that obvious? Does she know? Is this another ‘you’re a girl’ ‘joke?’ Do you care? No. No, she doesn’t get to hit you in a weak point like that when she knows you’re upset.

“I bet no one even cares that you’re gone. Probably glad that someone else is burdened with you.”

Kiwi scowls. “Have I told you about Alice?”

Genesis finally snaps out of her stupor and stands up. She wraps a hand around Kiwi’s shoulder and gently pulls. “Let’s not keep doing this. Cuicatl, let’s go upstairs. Kekoa? You started this. Don’t be back before midnight.”

You don’t bother pressing. You already told the damn tourist off. With any luck she’ll go back to her own country and only literally rip hearts open. Damn her. Damn him. Damn you. Damn it all.

You finish your chili. All things considered, it’s not that bad.


Middle of nowhere
Normal 1.10: Negotiations

Cuicatl Ichtaca

You hate it when Mom fusses with your hair. Sure it’s green just like hers (if a little bit darker) but the texture is from Dad and she has no idea what to do but awkwardly and painfully try to comb it into some semblance of order. You’ve asked to just cut it short and avoid the problem but both of your parents are very adamant that you keep your hair long. But someday you’ll be on the trail and can do whatever you want with your hair so it’s okay.

Mom steps back and circles the table to look you in the eye. “Before we go, I need you to promise me not to use your powers when there are people around.” You roll your eyes. This is only the thousandth time you’ve heard the lecture today. Yeah, it’s sunk in. “Promise me,” she repeats.

“Promise.” Bleh. Whatever makes her happy. And it does make her smile.

“Then let’s go.”


On the road out of Nimbasa there’s this one place where a road just lifts up into the air and curves over another road. There are three trucks and a dozen cars on this thing, on top of the weight of the cement, and it still never breaks. How did they even make it? With pokémon? Which ones? Your mom barely seems to notice as she drives. And she doesn’t really acknowledge you in the back seat so you just stare out the window and watch the world go by as buildings fade to trees fade to long rows of crops. Then the car slows, the turn signals flash, and you pull up to a big, beautiful red barn.

You jump out as soon as the car is stopped and the doors are unlocked. Then you immediately realize that you don’t really know where you’re going. And Mom takes her sweet time adjusting her makeup before stepping out to join you.

She takes your hand and leads you through the back trails between tall rows of corn. At the gate of the barn there’s a ticket booth or something. Mom talks to the lady there for longer than is really necessary before guiding you deeper into the barn. It almost looks bigger than it did on the outside, and it looked really big on the outside. Smells terrible though. Probably the emboar or mudsdale or tauros. Not what you’re interested in. No, what you’re looking for is waaaaaaaaaay in the very back in a room all of its own.

There’s a shallow pool and a few tiny barns behind a short fence. In the pool there are seven beautiful duckletts with another one nestled inside of one of the little barns. You notice that Mom is hanging back and letting you take care of yourself. You turn around and ask, “So can I use…” she nods. You turn back around and grin. Perfect! You never really get to use your powers because Mom’s always scared you’ll find out and something will happen and it’s sad because sometimes you’re walking in the woods with Liz and you can’t tell her what the forest is saying.

“Hello~” you sing. Most of the ducklett briefly stop to look at you before going back to quacking with each other.

{Oh boy another one.}

{Why does she have grass hair?}

{Who’s leaving today? I nominate Paisley.}

{Well, uh, I nominate you!}

{Not it.}

{Not it.}

{Not it.}

{Oh, she doesn’t look that bad.}

The lone dissenter quickly gets drowned out in quacks. Well. This isn’t how you expected it to go.

You feel Mom reach out to you and you open up the connection. {Tough crowd, huh?}

You don’t respond so much as you radiate disappointment.

{Just keep trying, okay? Sometimes you don’t make friends on the first try. Doesn’t mean you can’t win them over.}

You take a deep breath, puff out your chest, and nod. You are walking away from here with a starter. You can do it. “Hello, friends. I can understand what you say. And I, um, I know you don’t like me.

It turns out that ducklett can be rather vulgar. One, the nicest one, just paddles over to the edge of the pool and quacks once. {Say ‘seaweed?’}


There is an uproar in the pool, loud and constant enough that at some point your power gives up for a bit. Nice-ducklett pulls himself out of the water and waddles over to the fence. And then doesn’t say anything. At all. Are you supposed to make the next move?

{Yes.} Mom reassures(?) you.

“Hi,” you say. “I’m Nari. Can I be your trainer?”

The ducklett stares at you. {Why?}

Why? What does that mean? “Well, my Mom named me Nari because my Dad’s last name was being used so it balanced things out.”

{No. Why should you be my trainer?}

This isn’t how things are supposed to go. He’s supposed to be your starter because you asked and power of bonding or something, right? At least, no one ever told you to plan for this.

“Because I can feed you and make you stronger and take you to a lot of different places?”

The ducklett sits down, pressing out his body in the process. {You’ll have to do better than that.}


Yes, your Mom was taught how to negotiate by a four-month-old ducklett. Renfield was always quick to bring that up on the many, many occasions where you failed.

It never seemed to help.

You were only on Route 5 for three days but after a mix of freeze dried, dehydrated, and canned foods you’re perfectly happy to wolf down whatever the Brooklet Hill Pokémon Center’s serving. Even if it’s stir fry that you could probably do better. Doesn’t matter. You aren’t cooking it. You’ll take it. Hiking brings more hunger than usual and tomorrow you have work to do.

“Has Kiwi’s vulpix smelled a paras?” Kekoa asks.

This was labeled as ‘spicy’ and its barely enough to count as flavorful. Might be a little habanero, definitely no ghost peppers. To say nothing of the pokémon-derived spices your dad sometimes brought home on special occasions. And you know you aren’t too abnormal on this because Jabari had a way higher tolerance than you.

“Has your vulpix smelled a paras?” Genesis asks.

It takes you a few seconds to drink some water, swirl food around and swallow. “Sort of. Took her to an herbal medicine shop in Heahea. They had paras mushrooms.” The shopkeeper had said they’d buy one for fifty. Not twenty. VStar’s ripping you off. It’s infuriating but at least it explains why Rachel pretended to care about you. And you do owe her for the meal. And for Pixie. So you’ll suck it up and turn in your paras for twenty apiece at the end of Akala.

“She says yes.”

“Good,” Kekoa responds. “She going to lead us out into the great unknown tomorrow?”

Genesis sighs. “Are we really doing this?”

Neither of you answer.

“Okay, fine. You going to help find paras?”

You shake your head. And chew. And swallow. “I’ll see if Pixie is fine helping you on Wednesday. Tomorrow I have things I need to do alone.”


You wake up before your alarm. That doesn’t tell you what time it is. Midnight, 7:29, could be anything. You grab your phone and roll out of bed. Pixie’s footsteps dutifully pitter patter after you. Once you’re in the bathroom you shut the door, get on the toilet, and press the home button on the phone. “What time is it?” you whisper.

“3:43 A.M.” it responds in not a whisper. Great. Just great. You thought you’d figured out how to turn the volume down but apparently not. Cursed computer, atrocious appliance, wretched work assistant, may you never find the path through Mictlan. You almost giggle. Which means it’s time to keep going. Malicious machine, scandalous smartphone, damned device, pitiful personal assistant, woe upon those who sleep and those who wake. Wait, is that grammar correct? You’ve kind of got English down from broadcasts and hearing people say the words while the meaning flashes into your mind, but there’s still some esoteric stuff you need your power to cover up. Like woe. And wake.

Focus. Matter at hand. Tomorrow is Cuauthli Acatl. A very good day for what you need to do. Cuauthli is governed by Xipe Totec, a fertility and Spring god. Acatl is ruled by Chalchihuitlicue, goddess of lakes and streams and shaper of your soul. There’s hardly a better day to hunt for a plant in a basin of flowing water. Well, hunt for a fungus in a basin of water. Hopefully Xipe Totec isn’t too picky about that.

Should you give either of them an offering? You don’t think Chalchihuitlicue takes blood blood; at least, her live sacrifices are drowned. Also usually younger than you which is kind of ****ed up. You want the sun to rise and the rains to come as much as anyone else but that can be done with volunteers and war captives, right? And Chalchihuitlicue is maybe the best goddess; she can’t actually require that. Someone got it wrong somewhere along the line. Probably explains the drought.

Enough. Doesn’t help. Offerings.

No blood.

You could get in the water and hold your breath for a very long time. Problem is that you’re not a particularly good swimmer. You can tread water for a bit but you’ve never spent much time in pools or ponds. And if you die you wouldn’t catch any paras; at most you’d get a single ghost-type out of it. Not worth it.

Cloth? You haven’t sewed anything since you got here. No money for fabric, no time to do it. Well, you’d thought there wouldn’t be time. Turns out that when you get to a campsite in the afternoon there’s usually a block of time that Pixie won’t fill. Late-day sun is hard on her. Poor girl. As if on cue you hear a soft thump on the counter beside you and a chirrup as she settles down. Probably into the sink. In a few minutes she’ll inevitably pretend not to understand you when you ask her to get out so that you can wash your hands. So you’ll just turn the water on a tiny bit and wait for her to hiss and scamper away. You’ll hate doing it but she knew what she was getting into.

Sacrifice, right?

You yawn and stretch until your soul reenters your body. Meh. You’ll figure that out in the morning. Now you need to wash your hands. You stand up and idly hope that Pix has caught on to what you’re about to do.

She hasn’t.


There’s the sound of splashing beneath you as you walk out of the shallows. You rub your feet in the grass until they’re dry enough they probably won’t blister before putting your shoes back. No blood this morning. Just prayer and fasting, in the Western, self-starvation sense. Maybe some of the food at breakfast was unseasoned enough to count as fasting to the gods. You’ve heard the jokes about American cuisine and they aren’t really wrong. But the fasting isn’t for the gods, is it?

Shut up. Today is a lucky day. Don’t waste it.

“Come on, Pix. Let’s find us a paras.” She’s been quiet. No complaints or questions at all. It’s not like her.

The weather’s pretty nice. The morning sun warms without burning and there are fewer insects than you’d thought there would be. Hopefully that doesn’t apply to the one insect you want to find. More than anything the sound of waterfalls in every direction reminds you of Alice’s home when the snowbanks started to melt and the water all ran down the slopes into the valley below. There’s so little you miss about home and yet it always seems to reach out and snag you back.

It takes Pixie a long time to smell anything. Over an hour for sure. Long enough that combined with the silence it could make a girl start to wonder. “I really hope we find all five,” you say to no one in particular. “Because otherwise I’ll have to find another bug. And if I can’t sell that one I’ll probably just keep it on the team. Wouldn’t be so bad having more friends, no?”

Pixie’s tracking skills immediately improve.


“Harrumph.” {Stop.} You stop in your tracks.

“Sure this is the one?”

A sneeze. {Of course.}

“Thank you, Pixie. Baby doll eyes for a second, if you will.”

The attack doesn’t make a sound. You can’t be sure if she is doing it or not, but it’s not too important to the capture. You crouch down.

“Hello there, little guy.”. You push the thought into the whisper and try to bring some of the tone with it. There’s no response. “Yes, I can let you understand me. And I can understand you.”

There’s a high pitched chitter and a hiss. {We will fight!} rings in your head in a feminine voice.

Your smile fades for a moment before you bring it back into place, behind your spore-blocking facemask. Where she can’t see it. But the cuicalli taught you to act how you want to sound and you’ll take any possible advantage you can get. “Why?”

{You’re going to eat us!}

You sigh. “No, I’m not. And I can prove it.” You switch to telepathic messaging to Pixie. {Ice shard. Be very gentle.} The attack doesn’t sound gentle and there’s a screech of pain from the bushes. Wouldn’t put it past Pix to go for the kill here. Whenever you get a second permanent team member capture is going to get so much easier. Focus. Clear thoughts. Clear feelings. Acting time. Stern with a hint of compassion. “Now that we’ve established that I could kill you, I am going to refrain from doing so. I have medicine for your wounds here if you want to come out.”

Nothing. Nothing for long enough that you start to think the bug died. Then there’s an audible rustling and the clattering of spindly legs on the ground as the paras comes right up to you. Very carefully, making sure to keep your eyes locked shut in case the paras tries to shoot out spores in your face, you pull out a potion and spray it at the paras.

{What is that?} the paras asks. Her voice is much more upbeat than before despite being hurt.

“Healing potion. We have better medicine back in our nests. Actually part of why I’m here,” you say.

{Go on.}

“I don’t want to eat you. But I do want one of your mushrooms. Just one. In return, I will spend several nights protecting you, feeding you, healing you, and making sure that you know how to fight. I will also give you the chance to battle a much stronger opponent than you’re used to, one that won’t ever kill or eat you and just wants a friendly spar. Then I’ll drop you back off here or in a forest up north or, if you want, with another human. That way you come back stronger, closer to evolution, and with some great stories to tell the other paras.”

{Are you human?} the bug asks.

“Yes,” you respond. “Why?”

{We did not think humans could talk with their minds.}

“Some of us can. Also, I’m sorry if this is rude, but why do you call yourself ‘we?’” Alice never really went that route.

{Because here is an insect and two mushrooms in us!} the paras explains.

You process that. “And you’re still willing to part with a mushroom?”

{Yes! Especially if we grow stronger! There can only be one mushroom and one insect when we grow.}

“That makes sense.” Sort of like Alice. Although ellas kept ellas’s other self, albeit in a diminished role. “Is there anything else you would like to know?”

{What is your cold mammal? We’ve never seen one!}

“She’s a vulpix.” You reach down to scratch her and she accepts. Would’ve been awkward if she shut you down. It does show that however upset she is she’s still not mad enough to reject scritches. “They live high up on mountains where all of the water is frozen into snow. She is my other pokémon. I am going to keep her forever.”

The last part is more for Pix’s benefit than the paras’s.

{Are you going to put me in one of those strange circles?}

You nod. “Sometimes. When I’m walking long distances and I don’t think you could keep up. I do have very long legs, after all.” Heh. Never thought that you’d say that. “And I’ll let you sleep in the circle at night so predators can’t get you. The rest of the time I will let you out to eat, explore, train, and learn.”

She pauses to consider that. {And will you give us a name?}

You take the mask off and smile. You aren’t entirely sure why she’s so on board with this but you don’t think she’s smart enough to pull a long con to kill you. And if you do die to a mouthful of stun spores, well, at least you’ll have some idea how Achcauhtli felt. Except getting betrayed by a ****ing paras has to hurt less than being abandoned by your sister and mental roommate when you needed her the most. So, no, you still won’t have any ****ing clue what you put him through you despicable piece of ****.

You press the feelings aside and smile. “Of course. Let’s go with…” you swallow and try really, really hard to make sure that the Nahuatl word comes through and not its meaning. “…Ce.”

The paras screeches. In your head. Outside of your head it’s more of a weird bubbling sound. You feel her move up onto your shoe and wrap her pincers around your ankle in an insect hug. {So cool! Pokémon-human with ice mammal and healing potions gave us a name!}

Wasn’t she worried about you eating her a second ago? Gods above and below, pokémon are weird. Exploitably weird. “Do you have any friends who might want to come with us? I’m looking for up to four more… insects.” Insects. Not ‘of you’ because who knows what that means to her.

{..four… more…} There’s a long silence. {Yes! There’s one down the river in a sharp bush and one in a big-tooth mammal burrow and one in some tall grass up the river and one behind a vertical river!}

Even your power isn’t quite sure what to make of that.


Kekoa and Genesis are downstairs eating dinner. It was surprisingly easy to convince them to leave you up here; Genesis backed off immediately when you said you were fasting. She didn’t even “translate” Kekoa’s mocking question-answers. An utterly irrational part of your brain, the one that made you fat, is disappointed that she didn’t put up more of a fight.

While you may not be eating today, you still have pokémon to feed. Moss mix and lettuce leaves were much cheaper than Pixie’s kibble had led you to expect. Judging by the intermittent bubbling noises below your bed the paras seem very pleased with your purchase. A cheap mat and some slightly damp newspaper make up your impromptu paras shelter, which also seems to be oddly beloved.

At least, beloved by most. The fox in your lap definitely isn’t pleased with it, even after a very thorough brushing. You even offered to give her a bath with your shampoo but she hasn’t yet decided if she’s okay with that. Since you could talk Seerah into taking baths and since heatmor are less vain and more averse to water than vulpix you’d figured it would be an easy sell. Honestly, you’re half convinced that she really does want it but she’s just denying everything to spite you.

Foolish girl. Mimicking her trainer in all the worst ways.

Dry shampoo. Once you have the money and need to buy a new bottle you’ll take that approach. She might agree more readily. Assuming you ever have the money. VStar’s paying you peanuts, you aren’t sure if shampoo is covered by the league subsidy and oh, yeah, you’ve never won a single goddamn battle against another trainer.

Focus. There’s a task at hand and you really don’t want to spiral out on the trail. Not now, at least. It might make Kekoa think you care about his petty bullshit. Fine, sure, whatever, you should’ve told him that you were going to kick his nuts so hard they popped out his asshole. And you probably shouldn’t have confirmed it to Genesis but in fairness she put it together herself well enough. Honestly weren’t sure if she would but Kekoa sort of overreacted for a “voice joke” and sealed his fate. Moreover you just can’t find it in yourself to feel sorry for him. Maybe he’s been through some ****. Maybe he wakes up everyday and hates his own body. Tough. You’ve been through the same and don’t have a habit of beating on anyone who tries to help. Not when it’s so much easier to just shake your head and run away and leave the pain on the girl who deserves it.

Plan. You had a plan not to spiral. Heh. Dumb enough that you can’t even stick to your own plan to convince yourself that you aren’t stupid. So, yeah, grand idea. Psychic linkage. Let your pokémon understand each other. Might help Pixie actually grow to like her companions. Or at least humble her a little. Maybe. A girl can hope. And you might as well do it when you can tank a couple days of headaches.

You start to sing. The words don’t matter so long as they’re words. For some reason your subconscious went with country. Not usually your style but they were playing it downstairs yesterday and it got stuck in your head. Doesn’t matter. It’ll do. Even if it confuses your pokémon as they try to figure out why you’re telling them about the time you destroyed some boy’s car. Even if? Forget it, you’re sticking with it just for that.

You lie down and close your eyes, which isn’t necessary but it’s how Mom meditated so it’s how Renfield taught you, and reach out. Every word establishes momentary links between you and anything reasonably intelligent that can hear it. Six pings. Five below, one right on top of you. With a little bit of effort you reach out to the one on top and hold a link. Then you scan the ones below. One connection is easier than the others. More open, more experience in using that link. You reach out and feel a triangular flow of energy through and around you. One verse and a chorus left to do. As the song winds down you try and relax, loosening up physically and mentally. It’s what you’re supposed to do to make shots hurt less and maybe that applies here.

You drag out the final word, take a quick breath, and snap the triangle into place. It immediately feels like something massive struck you right on the forehead and the pain reverberates in steady waves, front to back. Back to front. Front to back. Back to front. You try to focus on the rhythm and not the substance. Because holy **** why did you do this to yourself? Even with his help you were still bedridden for a week when you did your last team connection.

Front to back. Back to front. Front to back. Back to front. You’re aware of Pixie and Ce talking. To you. to each other. You ignore it. You’re a tiny boat on the waves. Front to back. Back to front. Front to back. ****ity ****ing ****. It’s not getting better. Maybe even worse with every wave.

At some point the pain becomes too much and you fall into the depths of rest and silence.

In your dreams you drown as your sister watches on.


By morning the rocking has broken into a thousand tiny waves whizzing around your skull. It’s not at all better. When you tell Genesis, that no, you can’t eat because you’re pretty sure that you’re going to vomit if you try to do anything but, yes, she’s welcome to have Pixie she does leave for a bit. Or you stop noticing her. Could be either in your state. What is the world? What is time? Why did you do this?

You could really use someone taking half of your dumb psychic headaches now but you went and let half your brain die so that’s on you. As usual.

Genesis comes back and sets down something with a small but unbearably large clattering sound. “I got you water and a banana and some crackers,” she whispers. Like it ****ing matters after what she just did. “Kekoa’s heading out today but I’m going to stay back and watch over you. Make sure that everything’s alright.”

You don’t dare talk and you really don’t want to chance a psychic connection because 1) that’s a secret and 2) your powers are going to be on the fritz for a while to come but you really want to tell her to go straight to hell. Delaying a pokémon adventure to look after a sick friend? Does she think she’s better than you? Because she’s right. She’s normal, even. Most people would do this. Almost everyone. You’re the tiny, hideous exception to the rule.

Eventually she coaxes you into eating a banana. You immediately stumble into the bathroom and throw it up. Between this and yesterday she’d be justified in thinking you were bulimic. Which you aren’t. You want to be pretty. Or at least less ugly. But even you can tell that there’s absolutely nothing beautiful about the act of upchucking partially digested food and stomach acid into a porcelain bowl.

She tries again in the afternoon. Or what’s probably in the afternoon. Impossible to tell with how much you’ve been in and out of consciousness. You get a few sips of water and a cracker down. That just tells your stomach that it’s eating time again and suddenly you have raging hunger complimenting the shootout in your head.

Kekoa slams the door open because of course he does. Has it been that long already? Wait, how long would it even take Pixie to find some paras if she knew that success meant getting out of the heat faster and not getting any more teammates because of it. You had been very clear that Kekoa and Genesis were ditching their bugs and that reassured her immensely.

The fox jumps up onto the bed and curls up on your chest. Ugh. She’s heavy enough that it’s noticeable. And her tails are in your face and make breathing a little harder. But it would be altogether wrong to kick her off. You’re lucky to have her and you’re not going to hate her for being annoying while she’s here because then maybe you’ll be a ***** and she’ll die and, bam, congrats, that’s how you’ll remember her forever.

At least she’s cold. That’s… nice. And with the food and soda that Genesis eventually got you to choke down you’re less miserable than you were this morning. Still pain and stuffiness and you want to cry but better.

You’ve shut out other minds to spare you even more pain. You don’t bother telling Pixie as she yaps on, no doubt about the many indignities she’s suffered since you last saw each other. You smile and whisper “Poor, poor girl.” From her subsequent huff of satisfaction and readjustment on your chest so that her nose presses against yours you assume that you showed a sufficient amount of empathy for her suffering.


When you wake up there are long, spindly legs wrapped around your head.

Something primal takes over. You don’t scream. You don’t even breathe. Or move. You just stand silent like the spider might think you’re a rock. What do? Slap it? Another part of your brain wakes up. Wait, don’t you have Pix for this? Where is—

A third awakens. You open up the psychic link and feel the pain of ripped-off duct tape. (A feeling you got second hand from your brother. Still aren’t entirely sure of the context there.) A quick location ping tells you that both Ce and Pixie are very, very close to you. You reach up and gently move Ce from your face to your chest.

“Hello, friends,” you whisper.

{Hello! Did that help?!} Ce very loudly answers through the link. Second order of business once you get better is teaching that girl (those girls?) how to use her (their? ellas’s?) inside-the-head voice.

“A little,” you lie. “But it messes with my breathing a little.”

{Eep! We’re so sorry—}

“It’s fine. How’d you get the idea anyway?”

Apology words flash through the surface of Pix’s mind. Dammit. Should’ve known. Now she’s going to get all the wrong ideas and assume you hate her now so she either needs to screw you over before she leaves or try harder to screw Ce over. Delicate balance here. And delicate balancing is not particularly easy in the middle of the night with a subsiding migraine.

You run a finger along Ce’s head. Hard enough to be an effective scratch, not so hard that she’s likely to be hurt by it. Screw this, you’ll figure things out tomorrow. She might move your cane in the morning but you doubt Pix comes up with anything more sophisticated over the course of a few hours.


Someone jostles you awake. Pix hisses at them and Ce starts clicking her mandibles together. “Stand down. It’s fine,” you groan. Probably fine, anyway.

“Hey,” Genesis says. “How are you feeling?”

You take stock. “Okay-ish. Probably won’t leave the room this morning. Might later.”

“Good!” She pauses. You hear her feet shift. What’s the bad news? “So, um, the nurse does want to talk to you—.”

“No,” you reply. You know damn well why you have a headache. No need to bring in some doctor to tell you that, shocker, you’re blind and fat. And you really don’t want the authorities to know that you’ve got powers. Your grandmother thought that would be very bad. You smile to change topics and deflect. “Thank you for yesterday, by the way.”

“Oh, no problem. But I will need Pixie today?” She states like it’s a question.

You shift into telepathic messages even though you know it’s going to aggravate things.

{Pixie, you up for it?}

She barks. Yes, she is. Probably desperate to redeem herself. You’ll tell her that you’ll always love her no matter what once she comes back. For now the guilt and fear might increase her performance. And she deserves some of it anyway.

“Yes, she’s ready to help.”

Genesis must’ve already been dressed and ready to go because she rolls out just a few minutes later.

You steadily get to your feet so you can at least brush your teeth. Once you take the first step the vertigo hits. Both arms fly out and you steadily crouch down. The world is rocking around you and if you just balance a little bit better you might hand on. The sloshing steadily slows. You sit back in bed. Your mouth feels gross but you’ll have to wait to fix that.


At some point you must have fallen asleep because you’re very rudely woken up by gunshots. For a moment you freeze up and pull yourself into the fetal position to make it harder to hit you. Then you realize that there’s music between the shots. Very loud music.

Just an action movie. Being played very loudly. In your room. While you have a headache.

“Kekoa,” you growl. “Turn that down.”

“Hmm? Sorry can’t hear you,” he answers.

{Hey, Ce, mind chasing him around?}

{Of course!}

You can’t actually hear her move but you can hear Kekoa’s footsteps and swearing before the television turns back off and you’re left alone with a worsened headache.

“Come back, Ce.” You hear her dutifully scuttle over. You lay an arm down so she can crawl up it and lie on your chest because she was a very brave and good girl(s(?)). Kekoa crashes down onto the bed across from you a second later. Now to deal with the thing that needs dealt with, even though you’d rather not until your headache is just a little bit calmer. “Kekoa, what the ****?”

He huffs. “If I’m stuck inside watching your ass I at least want to have some fun.”

“Not what I’m talking about.” You gently move Ce from your chest to your lap and sit up. Bottom bunk is low enough that your feet can touch the ground while you sit. “I meant, ‘Kekoa, why the **** have you been an asshole to me the entire time we’ve known each other?’”

“Because you’ve been outing me and poking at my dysphoria, apparently knowingly, the whole damn time.”

It’s very difficult to keep your voice level as your mind and soul ride waves of turbulence. “Kekoa, I only did that because you were already being an asshole.” You can hear him open his mouth so you move right on to cut him off. “Détente.” You take a deep breath and miraculously he doesn’t but in. “If we’re trapped in a loop of escalation, we should just stop antagonizing each other.”

You hear him shift around. “Explain.”

You release part of the deep breath you took. Then you take another. “You—” No, start with what he gains. “I stop misgendering you and don’t out you to anyone else. I don’t sic my pokémon on you. In exchange, you don’t physically hurt me—and that includes **** like what you just did—and you don’t bring up my family.” Ideally you’d take care of the Kiwi thing but it’s honestly rather hard to be hurt by it when it’s just so juvenile. Besides, you doubt he’d agree to everything and you’d rather have the physical **** stop.

He doesn’t answer. You stroke Ce between the mushrooms because you get the most bubbling when you scratch there. One paras reaches out from under the bed and pokes your ankle. You aren’t about to ask aloud if he wants anything so you’ll just wait for him to speak.

“Okay,” he finally says. “I’ll take the deal.”


Thank the gods for sunlight. Both because it keeps the world going and because after two days without it feels wonderful to have heat soaking into your skin. How long had it been since you spent a whole day inside? Months, probably. You did most of your grieving outside so you avoided the ‘moping in bed all day’ thing. You kick your sandals off and rest your soles on the warm pavement just to soak in more of it. Really is a shame that you got an ice-type starter. Makes it harder to justify basking in the midday sun.

Kekoa clears his throat. Right. You’re hear for a reason.

You turn around and send out a telepathic signal to Ce and Pix. {Ready?}

A bark and a shriek ring out in response. You’ll take it. “Ready whenever you are.”

“Go, Sir Bubbles!” Genesis shouts.

“Hekeli.” Kekoa does his best to sound bored but doesn’t quite succeed. Excitement. Hopefully you can crush that.

Double battle with cross-matchups. Pixie beats Hekeli. Ce beats Sir Bubbles. Sir Bubbles beats Pixie. Hekeli beats Ce. Win condition: Knock out both opponents while preserving one of yours. Sub-condition: End up with 2 v. 1 or 1 v. 1 where you have the advantage. Sub-condition: Do not wind up in the converse situation.

Conditions for knocking out Sir Bubbles: Poison powder and stall. Absorb can work, but you’re unlikely to get close enough for long enough. Pixie has no solid win condition.

Conditions for knocking out Hekeli: 1) Have Ce stand still and dispense stun spore when Hekeli attacks. Pixie avenges Ce. Takes Ce out of battle making Sir Bubbles’ defeat all but impossible. 2) Pixie attacks with relentless ice shards.

Plans for defending against Sir Bubbles: Do not charge head on. Slow advances only, with eyes averted or closed. Avoid water guns when possible.

Combined win condition: Sir Bubbles is knocked out before Hekeli can knock Ce out.

Tactics: Ce advances towards Sir Bubbles with eyes closed. Pixie uses baby doll eyes, roar, and ice shards to keep Hekeli away from Ce. Neither looks directly at Sir Bubbles. Both tank the needed water guns. When the poliwag is poisoned a stun spore trap is set. Pixie can out-damage echoed voices easily. Alternative: Hekeli goes after Pixie instead of Ce. Pix takes the rock smash and both get coated in stun spore. This leaves the pikipek unable to fly and slower to move, while Pix can still walk and fire off projectiles. Also leaves the pikipek with more time under the influence of baby-doll eyes before she can fire off a shot. Pix probably wins. Then Ce takes the poliwag one on one. Pix uses ice shards to hurt Hekeli if she insists on going after Ce

Now it’s time to see how you screw this one up.

“Begin on three,” the kid Kekoa strong-armed into reffing this announces. “One, two, three.”

Your pokémon know their initial orders. You don’t need to remind them.

“Use bubble, Sir Bubbles!” Genesis proclaims. Huh. Didn’t know he’d learned that. Not that it really changes your strategy at all.

“Get in there and rock smash the vulpix!” Kekoa shouts.

Okay. The alternative plan. You whistle and send in a telepathic message. That way they think that you’ve just taught your pokémon to understand whistles or something.

It’s very difficult to track what’s going on by sound alone. But with your opponents’ orders and occasional reports from your pokémon you can mostly keep up. At least, you’re pretty sure that the battles goes something like this:

Hekeli dives for Pix and lands a solid blow. Both take a stun spore. Ce intercepts the water gun and doesn’t care at all because she’s a paras. Some parasect can take powerful water attacks and use it to heal themselves. Even if she’s not on that level yet, she’s still quite capable of taking a poliwag water gun. Ce slowly moves towards Sir Bubbles with her eyes shut. The opponents try to switch targets. Pixie takes at least one water gun but a verbal warning and competition with Ce keep her from freaking out and breaking from the plan. Hekeli struggles to move very quickly while unable to fly and the ice shards start wearing her down. Ce fires a poison powder at the pikipek as a warning and then goes back to advancing. Hekeli goes down shortly after and you whistle to have Pix use baby doll eyes on Sir Bubbles. She does so and is promptly put to sleep. You withdraw her. That was fine. There was nothing else of use she could’ve done since you don’t want that poliwag running. Genesis gives a series of increasingly desperate orders, culminating in a long slapfest where Sir Bubble’s slap attacks barely even keep up with Ce’s absorb restoration. Kekoa convinces Genesis that she’s just embarrassing herself. She withdraws her paras. The referee announces that the winner is Cuicatl Ichtaca and

Holy ****.

Did you

You won?

You won!


Middle of nowhere
Normal 1.11: Local, I Hope


“Should’ve brought a jacket,” you mutter.

Manollo scoffs. “****ing told you. Colder here than anywhere else in the islands.”

Certainly colder than anywhere on Akala. And you would know. You went to six different middle schools there, from North Point to Konikoni. You thought it was tolerable here on the day, but it’s very different on the coast during the day than at the base of Mauna Lanakila at night.

“What are you even taking me to?” You leave unsaid: ‘And why is it worth sneaking out and maybe getting kicked out of yet another home?’

“Almost there. You’ll see.”

True to his word, you do see once you get to the top of the net hill. A gathering of maybe a hundred people holding flickering lights in front of the mountain’s lift system. As you get closer you realize something else: a lot of those people are wearing black and red clothing. Most are covering part of their face, even the ones who aren’t wearing skull colors. ****. You glare at Manollo. It’s not that you oppose the skulls on principle, but at every new school you had to learn which kids had siblings in Skull. Being kanaka wouldn’t necessarily save you from a rowdy teenager who’d heard one side of a story and wanted to kick someone’s ass.

Manollo waves you off and comes to a halt at the edge of the group. You reluctantly stop and stand beside him. Just look like you belong here. Someone in a full, old-school skull uniform comes up to you and hands you a candle. You reach out your hand and take it so that you don’t look too unsure of what you’re doing. The man lights it and moves onto Manollo.

Before you can whisper-ask what you just walked into, the few hushed voices in the crowd are silenced. You can see someone climb up the steps towards the lift at the front of the crowd. Black crop top, short shorts, and long multicolor hair. Yeah, you recognize her. Hard not to.

Plumeria turns to face the crowd. Then she just sits down on the top step. When she speaks, her voice carries very well. “Once Pele and Nāmaka had shaped the world, the sun and moon looked down and found it empty and themselves lonely. Together in their divine knowledge and power they created man. But the sun grew fearful as his creation multiplied and innovated and cast them down the slope of Mauna Lanakila until they arrived on the earth. That was still too close for the sun, and he refused to shine on the islands so that the humans would die in the darkness.

“Nu’u, ancestor of our people, appealed to the people and calmed their fears. With what little they had, they built altars and provided sacrifices to the gods that might still take pity on them. Five answered. Tapu Bulu provided the wood for a fleet of canoes. Tapu Lele provided knowledge of how to build them. Tapu Fini provided knowledge of the seas. Tapu Koko provided the courage and resolve to make the long voyage ahead of them. As for the moon, she provided a map to guide mankind across the waters.

“In time, the moon could not allow her children to live in exile for any longer. She provided the descendants of Nu’u with a path back across the sea to the seat of the heavens. When the sun saw mankind return he was outraged and the moon grew distraught. But clever Tapu Lele had a plan. As the sun descended the slopes of the Mauna to smite his children, they offered him a gift, not of gold or fruit or blood, but of song and dance. They told the sun of their lives in exile. They told the sun of their journeys across the waters. They told the sun of their love for him, the moon, the tapus, and the earth itself. They told of sorrow and joy, war and peace, love and hate and the sun was moved. Without a word he turned around and rose back up the Mauna.”

“The sun entrusted the earth into our care. The moon gave us a future in the heavens. Her oracle birds guide our souls to this point. The children of Poli’ahu take us the rest of the way so that the moon may take us into her wings and usher us into our next adventure.”

Plumeria pauses and rises to her feet. You blink in surprise. You’ve heard the story enough but her charisma and the mauna behind her added new meaning and sucked you into the story until the cold and skulls ceased to exist. “So it was.” The words hang over the assembly until the faint echoes stop and silence reigns. No one dares break it until she does. You don’t even breathe.

“The rest of mankind came to our garden. They poisoned the roots of our plants and our spirits. They conquered our kingdom. They subjugated our proud people and made us strangers in our own lands. That did not satisfy them. They built telescopes on Pele’s mountain to study our stars. That did not satisfy them. They built a throne above our ancient altar, at the point where the heavens meet the earth. Where our father banished us and our mother welcomes us. They installed an ali’i of their own. That did not satisfy them. No, they could not merely have our mother’s home. They had to subjugate our mother as well. This will not satisfy them. They will take and take and take to fill the void in their hearts where alola should be.” She pauses again and inhales. “WILL WE LET THEM TAKE MORE?”

A cry of cheers, “NO!”s, swears, and seemingly pointless screaming rises from the crowd. You’re pretty sure that you get caught up in it but you can’t even hear what you’re saying.

Plumeria raises her hand and the noise abruptly stops. “Damn right we won’t.”

The Route 5 Trainer’s Stop doesn’t have the uniformity of a Pokémon Center. It’s just a long, wooden building with a wooden porch running the distance. There’s a normal-looking house across from it made of brick and wood and a few tiny cabins are down the hill out back. So much better than a doctor’s office with some bedrooms.

You walk into the main building. Looks like it’s split into three parts. Something like a dining room to the left and a small shop through the right. There’s only one attendant, female, haole, probably early 20s, staffing the desk.

“Welcome to the Trainer’s Stop. You looking to spend the night?”

You step up because Kiwi can’t read paperwork and Jennifer will just idle forever and shift nervously and pretend like she’s got no social power at all. Plus sometimes you feel like you’re the only one with a clue what’s going on. “Yeah. Looking to stay two nights.”

The receptionist starts typing. “Just the three of you?”


“Alright.” She stops typing and gives you a smile that looks more fake than not. “May I see your trainer cards?” You hand them over and more typing is done. Then she opens up a drawer and pulls some items out before setting them on the desk. “You’ll be in Cabins 3 and 4. Shower tokens are good for about seven minutes. Cleaning supplies are in the closet, make sure to clean up your cabins before you leave. Are any of you willing to help cook?”

Kiwi raises her hand like a preschooler. “I am.”

The receptionist looks at her for a long time. “Are you sure?”

“I’ve done all of my family’s cooking for years. Yes, I’m sure.” Huh. She has a decent glare game. Cataracts probably help a little since it’s damn hard to keep eye contact with her. Not that you’d give her the satisfaction of knowing that.

“Alright. Uh, report here at 4 P.M., 6 A.M. and 11 A.M.” Her cheeriness returns as she speaks. “Anyone willing to clean up before or after meals?”

“I’ll take after. Genesis can take before.” Not interested in getting up early.

“Alright. Genesis, please come up a half hour before meals. Breakfast is at eight, lunch at one, dinner at 6. There’s usually something around the fire pit at 9 P.M if you’re interested. I’ll let Uffe and Eleanor explain more at dinner.”

The cabin’s small, just a five by five entry area with a desk and a sink and then a tight bedroom with two small beds. Perks of being a boy: you get the place to yourself for two days while Jenny and Kiwi have to share a bedroom not much bigger than the tent.

You set your stuff down and pull a towel off the rack. Now that you’re in civilization, your first priorities are getting a shower and washing your clothes. Yeah, you’re a guy now but you aren’t in a rush to give up basic hygiene.

There are trumbeak singing nearby. Should you let Hekeli out while you shower? There are talonflame here and she never had to deal with those on Ula’Ula. Would she know what to do? No, you’ll let her out later when you can watch her uninterrupted. You aren’t going to lose your only pokémon.

Shower time. Now, the eternal question: which shower to use? Are your clothes too tight? Would anyone notice if you went in the men’s side? Are you willing to risk getting caught alone and feminine in a room full of stronger guys? Girl’s side isn’t much better. You hate it but if you raised your voice up a little you could 100% pass as a butch lesbian. No, the problem there is the aftermath. The little validation to dysphoria that you know that even on your best day you still look like a girl. Plus you have no idea how you’d start explaining the choice to Jennifer. Honestly you probably wouldn’t. Might punch her. And you’ve agreed to stop doing that sort of thing.

You step into the men’s room and dart back towards the showers. No one here. No need to panic. You still close the curtain, strip, turn the shower on, get in as fast as you possibly can. You take a quicker shower than you want. Partially out of fear, partially because it’s really not the best idea to dwell under water as it runs over your many curves.


An older kanaka couple come around to the table. You stop eating and Genesis follows. Kiwi very belatedly does as well. “New faces in camp, I see,” the man says.

“Yeah,” you answer before Jenny can **** it up. “Just got here this afternoon. My name’s Kekoa, that’s Genesis, and that’s Cuicatl.”

The woman smiles. “Yes, I’ve already met Miss Ichtaca. She has some wonderful recipes she’s offered to show me tomorrow.”

Kiwi awkwardly shifts. “Right. Thank you again for letting me cook. Sorry if I slowed it down…”

“Hush dear. The pleasure was all mine. Oh, I forgot my manners! My name is Eleanor and this is my husband Uffe. We’re the hosts of the camp.”

“Hi, nice to meet you,” Jennifer says. “Is the dining room usually this, um, empty or…?”

Uffe sighs. “No. Usually this is peak season. But there was the blacepholon back in August when a lot of the kids who started after the school year in Hau’oli finished up Melemele and would’ve come to Akala. Scared ‘em off to Ula’Ula. Couple of trainers at the end of their challenge, a handful of VStar folks, and a few late starters but it’s been a quiet month.

You move on before Jennifer can **** up and dig into the VStar point. “That’s a shame. Always liked Akala.”

He smiles. “Well, you’ve got good taste then. So, what’cha planning to do tomorrow? We like to make sure that everyone’s doing something productive while they’re here. Your friend’s gonna be in the kitchen but I don’t reckon’ you two are going to join her.”

Jennifer shakes her head. “No. Um. I can, um. I don’t know. What needs done?”

“Oh, bathhouse always needs cleaned. Or dishes. Or laundry. Or any number of things. Work just keeps piling up around here,” Eleanor answers.

You interrupt before that conversation can spiral into a million rounds of ‘oh, no, I couldn’t possibly, please, you pick.’

“I heard that there were grubbin nearby. I would like to look for one, if you would let me.”

Uffe smiles. “Of course. Darn bugs keep eating the roots in the garden. Now, you have a way to find a grubbin or are we going to have to do this the old way?”

You inhale. Moment of faith. How closely is Kiwi going to hew to the spirit of the agreement. “Pixie fought a grubbin back in Hau’oli, right?” You remember. You watched it. She got her ass kicked and continued a long, inglorious tradition.

“Yes,” Kiwi responds.

“Can I borrow her tomorrow?”

She shakes her head. “No.” Wait. What? Is she going to ****ing fight you on this?

“Why not?”

She grins. Her dumb sly grin that says she’s about to do something. In front of adults? Really?

“Because Kiwi doesn’t own a vulpix. Cuicatl Ichtaca does and she might if you ask real nicely.”

Why? Why does she have to bring that up, context free, in front of ****ing authority figures? They’ll get the wrong idea and she knows it. So much for the goddamn truce. But you need the grubbin. You’ll figure out how to get revenge later.

“Cuicatl Ichtaca, can I borrow your vulpix tomorrow?”

Her unbearable smile gets even wider and she rapidly shakes her head. “See, that wasn’t too hard, was it?”

You almost flip her off, adults be damned.


“How’d your friend get a keokeo?” Uffe asks.

“Starter. Gift from some rich breeder.”

Pixie—and isn’t that a shitty name—knows she’s being talked about and occasionally pulls her nose up from the ground to make sure that only nice things are being said about her. Uffe always shoots a smile her way and she purrs and looks back down.

“Local, I’d hope?”

You shake your head. “No. She’s some tourist from Anahuac here because her Mom was some bigshot back in the day and she has dreams of glory or whatever.”

He gives you a strange look. Not quite sympathy. “I meant ‘did she get it from a local breeder.’ As a joke.”

“Oh.” Pixie paused for a moment and you almost trip over her by accident. She looks at you like apologies are demanded and you offer them profusely because you’re not a monster. “Wait. Do they even breed keokeo here?”

Uffe shrugs and starts walking again when Pixie does. “One breeder down the road has a male ninetales paired with a glaceon. Don’t think anyone’s got a female on Akala.” Pixie lowers her tails sniffs the ground and for a second you think that maybe she’s found something. Then she props a leg up, pees, and moves on.

“Mr. Radcliffe, right? He’s the ice-type trainer?”

You get a smile in response. “Yes. You live around here?”

“Sort of. Grew up in Paniola Town. He came down sometimes around the solstice. Seemed nice enough.”

His smile grows wider. “He absolutely is. Gentlest soul in these here parts.” Uffe stops walking and turns to you. “Sorry if this is too personal, but it doesn’t sound like you like your partner much.” You shake your head. “Then why travel with her? It’s a big commitment to spend months in close quarters with somebody.”

You don’t want to tell him you work for VStar. He seems cool and you don’t regret your path—you did what you had to do to break another system—but maybe he wouldn’t get it. “Weird coincidences. Might ditch her at the end of the island. We’ll see.”

“Alright, then.” You meet his gaze and find that he’s looking you over. For a second you wonder if he read you but then he looks away. Not angry. Or disgusted. But intrigued. “Tell me more about your partner then. You said she’s got a famous mom?”

“Sort of.” She had mentioned that her mom was a trainer. Maybe. Pretty sure you wouldn’t have just made that up. And it explains why Miss Bell gives a solitary **** about her.

“You catch her last name?”

“Ichtaca. I think. They don’t really have last names in Anahuac. Her mom’s Unovan though so it could be anything.”

He nods. “Makes sense. Rare starter and all. I take it she has all the other advantages her mom could give. TMs, a pokédex, top-tier camping gear, personal training in battle strategy?”

You laugh. And then catch yourself. He seems to like this tourist ***** for some reason. And you want him to like you. “No. None of that. She’s poor as—she’s very poor. Apparently. Didn’t have any gear. Sucks at battling.”

Pixie barks and wags her tails. She points her snout down before glancing up at you and then pointing her snout down again.

“Well, that’s your cue. Send out your pokémon and dig.”

It’s hard to tell if you’re shoveling too fast or not fast enough. You don’t want to let the grubbin get away but you also don’t want to accidentally push a shovel through its shell and kill it. “Slow down a bit,” Uffe eventually says. “You’re at the depth they usually hang out. Just scrape a little off.”

You see yellow. That’s good enough for you. in one motion you jump backwards and cast the shovel aside. “Hekeli, echoed voice!”

Your pikipek stirs to life and fires a shockwave into the hole. Rather than dig deeper, the grubbin slowly unburies itself and lifts its head to the sky just in time to take the second hit right to the face. It doesn’t seem to care and a cloud of dirt rockets into the sky a moment later. Hekeli dodges the earth and throws out another shockwave. This time the grubbin really seems to feel it and you think you can see it retreating a little bit into the ground. That won’t do.

You reach into your pocket, prime the pokéball, and throw it. There’s a flash of red light as it connects and the grubbin is sucked in. A small ‘thud’ as it falls deeper into the hard earth. Then shaking. And a click. You caught your second pokémon!

Uffe claps. Too fast to be ironic. “Congratulations.” And that feels good. Being praised for something by an adult. A kānaka maoli adult. How long has it been? Two years? Three? Probably Mr. Perkins. Seventh grade at whatever middle school you were in that semester.

“Just a grubbin.” You say. Can’t let your ego get too big over a bug. However much you want it.

“Yeah. But someday it’ll be a vikavolt. And I’ve never heard anyone say ‘just a vikavolt.’ Congrats on the first step to an awesome insect.”

“Yeah.” You’re beaming. You shouldn’t be but it feels nice. Hekeli warbles and lands on your shoulder. You give her headpats. She did a good job. She can stay out on the walk back to the shop. And you’ll see if you can find her some worms at a decent price. Although maybe you shouldn’t be rewarding her with bugs right now. That could end badly.

Uffe starts walking back to his home. You follow. “Now, not to rain on your parade or anything, because that was great and you should be proud, but there’s something else we should talk about.”

You frown but keep pace. “Go on.”

“Your partner. Now, I might be off base, but,” he waves his hands in front of him, “just hear me out. Teenage girl comes from Anahuac. War-torn, impoverished, theocratic country that people are streaming out of. She comes alone with no money. Or experience. Or resources. Says that her mom is someone famous from The States. Won’t specify who her mom is and the story doesn’t check out. Now, she could be telling the truth. Or.” He looks at you and gauges your expression for a moment. “Or she’s a refugee who just got out of hell, knows no one here, and is telling stories to impress the only people she’s met.”

You grimace. Yeah. Maybe. It wouldn’t change anything. “She still came to our country when she has her own.”

He hums for a moment. Not quite answering but still conveying disapproval. “What causes a person to get up and move across an ocean to a strange place with strange people and no guarantee of food, shelter, or safety? How bad does your life have to be when that’s your best option?” Uffe sighs. “I get it. I was a radical when I was your age. Still am. But she doesn’t sound like a monster. Just sounds like she needs Alola. Lower and uppercase.”

“Not obligated to give that to tourists,” you mutter. Radical? He claims to be a radical? While coddling settlers he’s never even met?

“Of course you’re not obligated to,” he responds, somewhat exasperated. “But I think you’re looking at a potential friend and automatically thinking the worst of her.” You’ve finally reach Uffe’s home. He extends a hand to you and you shake it. Reflexively. Not sure if you would’ve still done it if you’d had time to think about it. “Just some advice from a man who’s been there. You don’t need to take it. Congratulations again on the grubbin.”

He’s holding the shovel. You forgot about the shovel. Why’d you let him carry it when you were the one using it? “Thank you for your help.”

Uffe laughs. “Oh, I don’t think I did much of anything but go on a walk through the garden. But thank you for the thanks.”


You pass by the girls’ cabin on the way back to yours. Kiwi’s out front in a patch of sunlight with Pixie curled up in the shade, four paras around her, and one sitting on her head like a hat. You have to stop and make sure that, yes, she really does have a ****ing paras on her head. Isn’t she worried about spores and ****?

“What are you doing?” you finally ask.

“Meditating,” she answers.

“No, I meant what are you doing with the paras on your head.”

“Meditating. With a paras on my head.”


She frowns. “It’s good for focusing. Don’t you do it?”

Of course you do. Sometimes. When you remember. And someone makes you. “But why is the paras on your head?”

“Because she wanted to be closer to the sun.”

The head-paras chirps in response.

Well. There’s your answer. How did she know the paras wanted to be closer to the sun? Why did she agree? Who knows? Certainly not you. And at this point you’d rather not ask.


You settle down in a secluded area near the cabins. After taking a deep breath, you hold out your arm and whistle. Hekeli flies in from gods know where and perches on you a moment later. Alright. Taming time. You prime, aim, and release the pokéball.

The grubbin forms a second later. You deliberately puff yourself up to make yourself larger and throw your voice down in pitch. “Hello, I’m your new—” A string shot hits you right in the face. Hekeli moves and you can hear a fight break out. You half-consciously withdraw the bug and bring a hand to your mouth to assess the damage. Goddamn it. Webbing everywhere. Is it water soluble? It had better ****ing be.

It isn’t. You still get most of it scrubbed off before the water stops flowing.


“You have something on your mouth,” Jenny says as soon as you sit down. You ignore her bar a simple “mmm-hmm” and look down at your plate. Tamales, rice, and beans. Definitely Kiwi’s thing. You take a testing bite. It’s actually pretty good—holy **** your ****ing mouth is on fire. You quickly grab your glass and pour down as much water as you can.

“I labeled the ones without chili sauce.”

Before your mouth cools enough that you can retort that, no, you labeled them as “hot” and “mild” not “atomic” and “mild,” Jennifer butts in. “It’s still there, Kekoa. Just little white strands around your mouth.”

Kiwi snorts and almost chokes on her water. You consider flipping her the bird before catching a glimpse of Uffe in your peripheral vision. Blind or not it would’ve been satisfying.

Jenny blinks. “Wait. What did I say?”

Kiwi finishes coughing and waves her hand to dismiss the subject. “I’ll tell you when you’re older.”


Something licks you on the forehead.

You press yourself up and whirl around to find yourself face to face with a very cute white fox. She barks at you in response. Rather loudly.

“Pix, quiet down!” you hear whispered through the trees. A moment later you watch Kiwi’s cane absolutely brutalize the plants on either side of the path. See, you don’t think that people like her should never go on the trail. But if they’re going to do **** like that to nature then, yeah, they should stay home.

Kiwi stops a few feet away from you, crouches, and holes out her arms. The ice fox huffs, turns around (hitting you in the face with her tails), and dutifully allows herself to be held. Then Kiwi just stands there. Right by you. For an uncomfortable amount of time. You hold your breath because you really don’t want to deal with her right now.

“I know you’re there, Kekoa,” she says. ****. How? “You know that blind people have super hearing, right?” The internet disagreed, but ugh, the internet is wrong sometimes. She sits down cross-legged when you don’t answer. Her keokeo curls up in her legs and glares at you. In the moonlight her harshest features are softened a bit. Brings her up from a four to a five. “What are you doing awake?”

“What are you?”

She shakes her head and glares two feet to your right. “I asked first. But I was just going to the bathroom when Pix found you.”

You’re tempted to tell her to **** off because she has no right to know what you’re doing, but you get the sense that it could get loud and wake up other people and maybe get you banned from these places in the future. “Watching the stars.”

She blinks. Surprise? Normal blinking? Do her blinks even mean anything? “Looking for omens?”

“What? No. Just looking at them.” You hold up a hand and trace the sky even if she can’t see it. “The constellations form a curve and lines. A map. They led my ancestors here.” You press yourself up a little bit so you’re back isn’t on the ground. “You use them to tell the future and ****?”

It’s hard to tell with the light and the cataracts but you think she rolls her eyes. “I don’t use them. But the priests do.”

“No.” You keep your voice hard. “Your priests use the stars in Anahuac. These are my stars. There’s a difference.”

And it smalls like a tiny difference but it matters. There are so many settlers now that you can barely see your stars on parts of the island. And even if Kiwi doesn’t plan to stay she’ll still go home and tell her friends who will ****ing swarm your home and poison your waters, burn your forests, build on your mountains, and banish your stars. Because they aren’t their waters, their forests, their mountains, or their stars. And when your home is destroyed they’ll just go back to theirs.

Kiwi is silent for a second as she maybe finally gets it. But the moment passes and she shakes her head. “Kekoa, I’m not going to steal your stars.”

You snort. “You already have.” You don’t bother waiting for her to answer. “When Alolans die the murkrow guide them to the base of Mauna Lanakila. And then the ninetales meet with the soul and guide it to the top. To the stars. And then they navigate the stars to their next home. You took a vulpix. You’ve making it harder for me to reach my stars.”

For another moment you think that she finally understands. But then she just looks down and ruffles her keokeo’s ears. “I didn’t take her. She was taken, abandoned, and then I adopted her.” She frowns and scrunches up her face. “Would you rather your psychopomps be alone, miserable, and off the mountain or loved and cared for off the mountain?”

That’s a half-decent point. But it ignores the big picture. “Yeah, but you don’t understand this place. You’re just going to keep doing it over and over again and then go back home with a half dozen sacred pokémon.”

She sighs. Like you’re a child who needs appeased. “I understand where you’re coming from. Really. If you walked into Anahuac and walked out with a hawlucha, axlawful, and pantherma I’d be, well, first off you’d probably be dead.” She laughs nervously. “Treason to take any of them without the tlatoani’s say-so and treason’s the fastest way to wind up staring down your still-beating heart.”

“Holy ****. TMI.”

Kiwi frowns and slouches a little bit. “Sorry. Gallows humor is a big thing in Anahuac. We don’t really hide from death like ignoring it makes it go away.” There’s something there at the end. Real emotion. Sadness? Anger? Both? She moves on before you can fully process it. “Anyway. Yes, I understand what you want. I think that we can make a deal here as well.”

“I’m not compromising on that,” you say as sternly as you can so that she gets the point.

“I said deal. Not a compromise. Deal both people are happy. Compromise neither is.”

You narrow your eyes and try to look into hers, but she’s looking down and away from you. “Go on.”

She sighs again and moves her arms behind her so she can lean back on them. “You can tell what nature’s saying by the winds and stars, right?”

“Among other things.”

{I can listen in a little more directly.}

Holy. ****ing. ****. Was that—

{In your head? Yeah.}

You glance at her. “Do that again.”


Her lips don’t move. Whatever she’s doing it’s not ventriloquism.

“What is that?”

“I’m psychic,” she says (mercifully aloud). “Language based. I can understand what other people are saying and make myself understood.”

“And you can read my mind?” you ask.

She shakes her head. “Not really. I can tell what words are on the tip of your tongue but nothing deeper. Well. I guess I know what languages people speak. Or at least what language my words are getting translated into.”

“And how do I know that part is real?”

Kiwi turns to look directly at you. “Can you describe my accent, please?”

Her accent? It’s… perfectly neutral. Utterly unremarkable. Nothing you’d ever thought about at all. That’s weird, right? If she grew up in another country.

“I actoly sond like tis.”

You blink. And blink again. “The ****?”

She laughs. It’s a very good laugh. Is that also an illusion?

“I know, night and day right?” she says with a perfectly neutral accent again. “I can speak a little better if I concentrate but I seldom have to, so why bother? As for your unspoken question, yes, my voice is naturally like that. Years of music education and singing to myself.”

The bigger picture pieces itself together as the shock wears off. That’s not just a parlor trick. “And you can talk to pokémon?”

Her lips press together for a moment. “Most pokémon. Dark-types give me trouble. Had to learn draconic to properly talk to my mom’s hydreigon.”

Somehow ‘Hold up you can speak to ****ing dragons?” isn’t the question you want to ask the most. “That’s how you get along so well with your pokémon. You’re not a savant or anything, you can just talk to them.”

“Pretty much. Doesn’t always help. Some pokémon are jerks. But it does give me an advantage.”

Next follow-up: “What does Hekeli say about me?”

Kiwi shrugs. “You’re okay. She’s very interested in my voice, though, and your battle practice is starting to bore her. Mix training up and play some music around her. Then you should be good. Otherwise she might defect.” She says that so naturally that you aren’t even sure if it’s a threat. “It isn’t. Just an observation. Oh, I can talk to your grubbin if you want. Worked well enough for the paras.”

“Is that the deal? You get to walk out with whatever so long as I benefit?”

“No, it wasn’t. The deal was that if I plan to put a pokémon on my team for longer than it takes to hand them off to VStar, I have to get the pokémon’s consent before doing so. That way I won’t just take anything from your home. Is that enough respect or…?”

Part of you doesn’t think that it is. She’s an outsider. A tourist. She doesn’t get to take your sacred pokémon. But if you really care about the pokémon you should also respect their choices. And she got a keokeo to trust her. And it’s selfish but she could really, really help you with your own goals. If it breaks the entire damn colonial system you can tolerate one girl taking a few stars.

You stand up. “You said you had to go to the bathroom, right?”

She smiles sheepishly and moves some hair off her forehead. Probably reflex. It was really long at orientation. “Yeah. I was going to have to end this soon if you didn’t.”

You nod, even if she can’t see it, and start walking back to your cabin.

“Good night, Pixie. Good night, Cuicatl Ichtaca.”


A Dense Irritating Miniature Beast of Burden
Chapter 10

I don’t have much to say about Chapter 9 in retrospect to be honest. It did give a bit more insight into Kekoa’s backstory and why he acts the way he does now, so that made for a very intense chapter. Now onto chapter 10, at last.

So, Negotiations is a very apt title, in more ways than one. There was not only the scene at the beginning where Cuicatl tries to get a group of Ducklett on board with her (they were adorable, btw), but also Cuicatl convincing Ce to come along with her and calling a truce between her and Kekoa. That was all nice. I mean, it was nice to see Kekoa eat **** for once (way to go, Ce!), but in general, this was a nice reprieve from the emotional trauma that was the previous chapter. Well, slightly less than average emotional trauma.

The things that stood out to me the most that I liked were Ce’s introduction and Cuicatl’s attempts to psychically link her and Pixie up. Pixie had a less pronounced role this time around, but Ce made up for that. She’s also adorable, by the way. She’s a bit more friendly towards Cuicatl while still having her reservations at the beginning (I mean cheezus crust, Cuicatl, that’s one way to get a Pokemon to come with you). She’s a bit more mild mannered than Pixie while still having her moments. So she adds a nice balance to the roster so far.

Also, that psychic link part was very interesting. We knew the risks before with the headaches, but I think this is the first time we’ve seen the consequences of going too far, considering it takes Cuicatl that long to get up to speed again.

The only blip was the ending fight, and to be honest, I found it quite rushed. Of course, it was nice seeing Cuicatl win for once, but the battle was so brief and the strategic descriptions took me out of the story so much that the emotional stakes didn’t make much of an impact in the end.

But again, good on you for your victory, Cuicatl. Let’s see how long it lasts.


Middle of nowhere
Normal 1.12: Egg


Before . . .

Cuicatl pulls the kibble out of her bag and starts to pour it into her tiny collapsible fox food bowl. You walk up and she pours you a handful without missing a beat. “Thank you,” you say. Then you take it to the edge of the clearing and leave it in a small pile.

Wait. Do eevee even eat kibble? Mom never let you have one. You’d assume they’d eat the same thing as vulpix. But eevee also have weird DNA and look kind of like rabbits so maybe they’d prefer carrots?

“Do eevee actually like kibble?” you ask.

“How the **** would I know,” Kekoa answers as he strolls back into the clearing.

You glare at him. He didn’t need to be mean about that. It’s lunch time, not fight time. You take your pack off (its light enough you’d honestly forgotten you were even wearing it) and take out your apricot sausage. It’s basically just slices of apricots with little flakes of nuts and vegetables in it. You remember really liking apricots as a kid but now the taste is… weird. Or maybe they’re just over-processed. Still getting used to eating food that doesn’t really taste like food. The Pokémon Centers are usually good about that and fake is better than inedible but sometimes it catches you and it just feels weird to put junk into your body.

Kekoa tosses you a packet of crackers. He and Cuicatl have small remoraid cans. You’ll definitely pass on that. Even when you ate meat remoraid always just smelled wrong. And that texture. And color. It’s more like grey sludge than food. Apparently your companions disagree and Pixie isn’t above slyly begging for some, even if he—she, even if she hasn’t quite figured out how to slyly beg to a blind girl.

Pixie. Vulpixes. Foxes. You glance back to the kibble pile and—Deer. Of Life. There’s a cute, furry, perfect little bunny fox. Right near you. Easy. Calm. Excitement later. You reach down to your belt and slowly unclip Sir Bubble’s ball. You almost shout “Let’s go make a friend!” but wisely decide not to. Sir Bubbles appears in a flash of red light. And immediately starts yipping at you while thumping his tail on the ground. A finger flies to your lips and you point past him. Sir. Bubbles’ eyes just open a little wider and he sinks a little closer to the ground in response, a faint ribbit accompanying the movement.

Something roars. Well, not a roar exactly. More of a high pitch incessant screech that moves up and down like the world’s worst fire alarm. You recoil and look at the—the vulpix causing it. No! Bad! You glance back and the eevee’s running but not quite out of sight in the burned forest. You reach down and grab Sir Bubbles before taking off in pursuit. Eevee are pokémon, sure, but you’ve got much longer legs. You can do this.

“Water gun, Sir Bubbles!” The froggo tries to comply but the shot goes very wide and the eevee runs a little bit faster in response. “No! Stop! I’m trying to catch you.”

You keep pace pretty well, even coming close enough to think about tackling. But there’s always a root you have to dodge or the eevee gets a fifteenth second wind or something. You almost prefer it that way. With the wind in your hair, Sir Bubbles in your arms, and an eevee in front of you this is the most fun you’ve had in weeks.

Something catches your eye and you come screeching to a halt. Right into a tree root. Which turns the halt into a fall. You move to catch yourself and narrowly do but. Oh crap. You hastily stand back up and look down at your starter as he awkwardly pulls himself up and tries to recover from 120 pounds of girl falling directly onto him. Eventually he looks back up at you, tears in his wide eyes and—this is just a food ploy, isn’t it? Evil bastard.

There’s another movement at the edge of your vision. You freeze up and reach down for Sir Bubble’s ball. It’s still there. Somehow didn’t get knocked out of your belt. You withdraw him as soon as possible and take ten steps back, doing your best to avoid the roots while looking up.

A giant spider floats between the trees, staring down at you with its almost-human eyes. It—no, she, too big for a male—starts to sink ever lower on her thread. You slowly crouch down, keeping eye contact the whole time, and hold a hand out.

“There you are!” Kekoa shouts somewhere behind you. You almost break eye contact with the spider. “Knew you were stupid, didn’t know you were stupid enough to run right off the ****ing trail. Now—holy ****.” His voice drops to a whisper at the end.

“Shh!” He’s being too loud. Might scare her. And she’s almost made it to the ground.

“You’re—you can’t be serious. We need to go. Now.”

You want to break eye contact. Glare back at him and tell him to shut up or leave. For once you know what you’re doing.

The ariados approaches with small, tepid steps. You move your arm just a little bit towards her to make sure she sees it.

“I’m calling Hekeli,” Kekoa hisses.

“Hi, there,” you whisper. “You want scratches?”

The ariados chitters and walks right up to you, stinger close to your heart when you’re crouched down at her level. You bend your arm and guide your hand to a small little chink in the spider’s exoskeleton where the head meets the body. You press a fingernail in and scratch, running it up and down the groove. The spider clicks her mandibles together in contentment and you put a little bit more force into the petting.

“What the actual ****,” Kekoa says at an appropriately low volume. The ariados stakes a step to the side to look at him. He immediately hops back and keeps walking away, putting as much distance as possible between him and the man-sized spider. You suppress a sigh and pat the ariados on the back before rising to your feet.

“Had one as a pet. They’re harmless to humans.”

But not to. You glance out into the forest. It takes you a second to find it but there’s a thin, almost invisible thread running from the web out into the burned woods. The eevee’s on the other end. At night the ariados will follow the line and eat the fox and maybe its entire family. You need to save it.

The ariados has already retreated back to her web and is steadily climbing up it, ignoring you as she rises. “Follow me!” you whisper.

You turn to follow the wire and save your furry future friend. A hand grabs your arm and pulls back. Hard. “No,” Kekoa hisses back. “The eevee’s long gone and we are not going so far off the trail that we can’t hear Kiwi shouting.”

You pout. “The ariados is going to eat it.”

“I thought you liked the damn things? What do you want to starve it for?”

He’s looking at you like you’re an idiot and it’s your fault and he really wants to be somewhere else right now. “Yeah but…” The image of it. You’re fine if the spider’s eating kibble or even yungoos, but when it’s something cute that feels different. Especially if you could have stopped the death and didn’t. That’s almost like you personally poisoned the pupper and slowly tore it apart.

“Yeah, but…” Kekoa smirks and tilts his head. “Brilliant argument there.”

Screw him. Smug, heartless jerk.

“Shut up.” You start walking back the way he came, sparing the ariados one last glance. She’s already retreated into the chamber at the center of her web.

Once you’re far enough away that Kekoa stops glancing back every few seconds he turns to you with a particularly smug smile on his face. “So. Pet ariados?”

You lock up and almost trip. He snickers. Crap. You revealed something you shouldn’t have. Now, um, play it cool. “Yeah. I had one.”

“Any reason?”

You shrug and do your best to keep your voice level. “Not really.”

For a moment you’re absolutely certain that he knows and is going to hate you forever, but he never follows up. It’s almost worse that way. He could still know and just be lording it over you until he has a better time to strike.

No. Screw him. He doesn’t get to ruin your journey. If only because the ever-present dirt and burned trees and over-processed food and dead eevee beat him to it.


Now . . .

Of course it had to rain. Because if Kekoa and Cuicatl are going to play nice something else has to spoil the fun. Not that the hills weren’t already doing that. You stare up at the last switchback. Or what Kekoa tells you is the last switchback. He could definitely be lying about that, in which case you’re going to need another rule. You pull the straps on your pack tighter and take off as fast as you can. The surface of the path is slick, more mud than dirt in some places and once or twice you almost feel like you’re going to trip and tumble all the way back down. The thought is sobering enough that you take the last two bends at just a brisk walk. You glance down. Cuicatl’s slowly making her way up with the help of a long branch she found somewhere (she said she didn’t want to get her cane dirty and it wasn’t good for putting weight on anyway). Kekoa’s trailing behind her. You hear wings beat nearby and you turn just in time to see Kekoa’s pikipek land on your shoulder. Cheating little miss. Must be nice to skip the switchbacks and fly straight up.

By the time Cuicatl and Kekoa catch up you’re ready to move on. Cuicatl isn’t. The moment you set off she tells you to stop. She’s panting a little bit. Weird. Her arm and leg muscles are actually kind of distinct. Wouldn’t pet her as an athlete but you’d expected her to be in shape. “You okay?” you ask.

“Asthma,” she huffs out. “Only bad. On climbs. Legs. Are fine.”

“Okay,” you answer. Because what else were you going to say? ‘No, we move right now young lady. You can breathe on your own time.’ Mom actually might. You fight the urge to scrunch up your face and put your hands on your hips and lecture the wind in character. ‘Disgusting. Real women don’t pant like mere animals.’ Yeah you did whisper that but neither Kekoa nor Cuicatl seems to notice.

So you wait in silence as your friend’s breaths slow and deepen. Cuicatl didn’t bother to tie back her hair and its plastered over her face with individual strands reaching down almost all the way to her mouth. You can’t see her eyes at all. Her hair looks longer than usual with the weight of the water straightening out her curls. Kekoa just scowls at you when you look towards her. Right. Water. Clothing. Chest. It’s embarrassing that you thought those were pecs. From what Reverend Patterson said you’d kind of just expected that you’d instantly know when you met someone like her.

Cuicatl finally sticks up a finger. “I’m fine.”

You pivot and start walking. The pivot isn’t anywhere near as fluid as hers are. She can turn 180 degrees in a single fluid motion and then start walking. You can sort of turn most of that distance in a spin and a step. You still aren’t entirely sure what your back foot should be doing or how fast you’re supposed to spin or when you put both feet down. Can you ask? Would she think it was weird? How did she even learn to do that? Boot camp? It would make sense. Her pivots seem kind of military-ey.

“How early do they start military training in Anahuac?” you ask her. That’s not inappropriate, right?

“Depends. Some stuff in early education when you’re six or so. That’s mostly just exercise and some basic pokémon stuff. Progressively more as the years go on. Proper training is at sixteen. Unless you go into the calmecac. Or you’re a girl. Or disabled.”

Oh. Right. Blind girls probably aren’t on the front lines.

“Doesn’t even make sense,” Kekoa mutters. Well, the type of muttering that’s meant for other people to hear. “If pokémon and guns do all the work then why can’t girls fight?”

Cuicatl hums for a moment. “You’re right. It doesn’t make sense. But it does get me out of the draft.”

The right answer is that women were tainted more by yveltal at the start. If they were to fight on the battlefield they would overflow with sin and corruption. Even if they survived the war they would only cause tragedy if they went home. Dead children, ruined families, burned homes. Sometimes they even start all new wars. But you can’t really say that. Cuicatl believes in the evil spirits of her homeland and eventually you’ll need to have a talk with her so that she isn’t engulfed in the cocoon at the end of the universe. And Kekoa will need to get the whole crossdressing thing sorted out eventually. But you should probably wait until they like you more before you save their souls. Neither are likely to die in the next week.

…right? Did you just jinx it?

You enter into a forest and the rain dies down a little. Downside is that now there are tree roots in the trail. For you it’s just kind of annoying. But it’ll slow Cuicatl down a lot which also slows you down a lot. And she can’t even use Pixie because it’s raining and with her fur matted down the fox looks very small and extremely upset.

“You have a brother, right?” Kekoa asks.

“Yes,” Cuicatl says.

“Yes,” you say. Near simultaneously.

“Meant Cuicatl Ichtaca there. How old is he?”

“Fifteen. How far do we have to go?”

“Probably ten minutes,” Kekoa answers.

Wait. She’s fifteen. Holy crap. “So you’re twins?”


Wow. Brother-sister twins. Which one’s older? Do they care? You kind of wish you were a twin so that you always had a sibling to play with and talk about things that you’re interested in. You love Levi but he’s way younger than you and Exodus—

Exodus is Exodus and this line of thought is over.

“You’re vegetarian, right?” Kekoa asks between mouthfuls of chili. Why ask? He knows you are. It’s come up at every trail meal planning session. You ignore the pointless question in favor of eating your own vegetable soup. “And you want to get an… a rainbowfish?”

Pixie doesn’t bark. She hasn’t caught on to the code yet.


“But you know they eat meat, right?”

“I do,” you respond.

“Then you know that stuff is going to be killed for your pokémon to eat, right?”

It had occurred to you.

“So every time you’d give your precious rainbowfish some kibble you’d get flashes of a poor little fox on a string.”


“Kekoa,” Cuicatl admonishes. She sets down her spoon and glares in his general direction. “I don’t know what’s going on between you but we are not talking **** about foxes.” She glances down. “Isn’t that right, Pix?”

She dutifully grunts at an acceptable indoor volume. Such a good girl.

Kekoa takes a long drink of water and smiles at you in a way that is not at all pleasant. “If you’re going to train a carnivore you should at least be honest about what you’re doing. Just saying.”

She winks at you.

You’re starting to understand why Cuicatl hated her.


Kekoa sets her package down on the desk at the back of the room and starts to unzip it.

“What is it?” you ask.

“An egg.”

It’s a darn big egg, then. A little bit bigger than Pixie is. Heavy, too, judging from the way Kekoa carried it.

“How big?” Cuicatl asks.

“Big,” he answers.

“Yeah, but how big?”

Kekoa sighs and walks over to grab her hand. “You want to grope it?”

“You know it.” Once she reaches the egg Cuicatl slowly runs her fingers over it from middle to top to bottom. “It is big.” She steadily presses down her palm and holds it still on the middle. “Feels sturdy. Not too hot. Pretty smooth. Rules out the rocks.”

“It’s heavy but it didn’t feel rock heavy,” Kekoa answers.

Cuicatl nods. “Fish, insects, and amphibians are out. Bird? Lizard? Maybe a dragon given the size. Maybe. Most don’t lay eggs.”

“A mammal?” Both Kekoa and Cuicatl turn to look at you. Was that too stupid? “Some lay eggs, right?” Right.

“Some do.” Cuicatl goes back to facing the egg. “It would be very big for a monotreme. Blissey eggs are about half the size.” Wait are those actual eggs. Fertilized eggs? How? They’re all girls. So when people eat them is that murder? Cuicatl holds her hand back out. “Take me back?”

Kekoa helps her get back to her seat. “What’s the judgment, doc?” he asks. Taunts? Praises? Hard to say. You’d thought they’d made up.

“No idea.” Cuicatl sighs. “Druddigon, maybe? I’ve never felt a druddigon egg before but the adults are big enough. Egg’s not warm enough for charizard. I think goodra eggs are sticky but don’t quote me on that. Don’t know if flygon lay eggs. Braviary or mandibuzz maybe. Don’t actually know what krookodile eggs feel like. Grew up too far south of the desert to know. If it’s not from Alola it could be anything. Bunch of weird birds and giant lizards out there.”

Wait hang on did she imply that if she was born farther north she would’ve tried to walk right up to a momma krookodile? She isn’t serious, right?



Darn it she probably is. How are you supposed to keep everyone alive with stuff like this?


A tall teenage girl in overalls and a worn leather jacket walks into the lobby.

“Which ones of all y’all are looking to challenge my trial?”

You look around. Two preteen kids in the corner raise your hands. You put yours up and your teammates follow. The girl nods her head and walks over to the younger trainers. Oh boy. First trial. It feels real all of a sudden. You’re going to be fighting a—well, you know it’s a normal trial but you’ve honestly never bothered to look up what the totem is. That’s a job for future Genesis. In any case you’re going to fight a giant version of a pokémon with a poliwag.

…maybe you should’ve thought this through earlier. Even if he is a very brave poliwag. Gallantly chickens out like the best. Not at all afraid to be killed in nasty ways. Brave, brave Sir Bubbles.

The captain walks over. “Alright, how many official trails have y’all cleared?”

“None,” Cuicatl answers.

Is that a problem? The captain smiles. Probably not a problem, then.

“Alright. Any days work best for you?”

You glance at your teammates. Do they have any they prefer? You really should’ve talked this over in advance as a group.

“Can I have a few days? I think I need to prepare a little more.” It’s an honest answer. Hopefully she doesn’t hate you.

“Very self-aware.” Compliments? Fake compliments? Did you screw up? “I’ll schedule you for Friday. You two?” She moves on without answering your question.

“Can I do Wednesday?” Cuicatl asks.

“Certainly. And you, sir?”

Well at least you aren’t the only person Kekoa can fool. Or does the captain already know in advance?

“Tomorrow,” Kekoa answers. “And it’s good to see you again, Kanoa.”

The captain, Kanoa, blinks. “I’m sorry, I don’t think I remember you. Meet a lot of people as captain.”

Kekoa tenses and raises up his shoulders before letting out a breath. “I used to go by Allana.”

“Holy ****, Al—wait, what do you go by now?”


“Thanks. Holy ****, Kekoa. How have you been?” She’s still smiling but there’s a trace of something else—sadness or concern, maybe—in her eyes. “You just dropped right off the earth and I never found out what happened to you.” Her eyes narrow. “What did happen to you?”

“Foster care.” Kekoa—Allana—looks up and makes eye contact with Kanoa. “Can we talk about this later? Alone?”

The captain nods. “Lunch? There’s a great Korean place a couple miles down the road. I can give you a ride.”

“Can you pay? I’m broke right now.”

Kanoa’s smile returns.

“I can. You want to head out now?”

Allana stands up. “Don’t see a reason not to.”

As soon as they’re out the door you turn to Cuicatl.

“I think I need a second pokémon.”

She nods. “Do you know what you want?”

“No.” Because of course you haven’t planned anything. You’d kind of expected that Dad would’ve told Mom off by now and invited you back. But here you are. Haven’t received so much as a phone call. Not that they know your phone number. Wait, what if they can’t contact you? Admittedly you haven’t checked your old emails. Or social media. You don’t really want to know what’s being said about you.

“Maybe we should start at a shelter then. Can you look and see if there’s one nearby?”

There is one two miles away. Not a terrible walk all things considered.

You immediately want to take it back. A walk along a road in the afternoon Alola sun with no shade to be found is absolutely miserable. By the time you reach the shelter you’ve probably sweated out all the water in your body. Cuicatl seems a little better, doesn’t look like she’s had an asthma attack or anything, but she’s also drenched.

Shelter looks like a nice enough place. Big fence around it that probably has some outside habitats. You can look into two: one is an aviary with two dartrix and the other is just a normal pen with a midday lycanroc. It looks at you with a regal gaze as you pass before sticking its tongue out and rolling over, apparently wanting you to come over and scratch it through the fence. You wish you could. Maybe you could adopt it? Seems like a good pupper. But the meat thing. Or do they eat rocks?

You walk in the door and a bell rings. The inside has sterile white walls with small cages lining them. You see a litten stand up and press his paws against the cage wall. What a cutie.

“Can I help you?”

You turn to the desk. There’s a twenty-something man there. Looking at you. Right.

“I want to adopt a pokémon.”

“Certainly.” He smiles and looks at Cuicatl. “And you?”

There’s no response. She’s facing the far wall away from the receptionist. He can’t see her closed or cloudy eyes.

“She’s just tagging along,” you answer for her.

“Alright. Anything in particular you want?”

You start to shake your head but then catch yourself. “Is the lycanroc out there up for adoption?” Wait. It’s at a shelter. Of course it is. So dumb of you.

If he notices he doesn’t seem to care. “She is.” Yes! “Now, what license do you have?” Oh…”

“Class II.”

The receptionist sighs and leans into the desk. “Sorry. Need a III. Edelgard’s a big softy but most lycanroc don’t take well to new trainers.” …crap.

You turn to Cuicatl. “Hey, you want a lycanroc?”

“No,” she says as she turns around and walks over. “I already have six pokémon. And Pixie doesn’t do well with other dogs.” Well that rules out—“You can get one if you want. She just gets jealous when her trainer has them.”

“You sure?” you ask.

Cuicatl nods. “Yes. If she has a problem I will deal with it.”

That’s not entirely reassuring. You don’t want to cause her problems that she has to deal with. But she says it with enough confidence that you have to suppose its fine with her. “Okay.” You turn back to the receptionist. One more question. Even if the… unfortunate meat problem remains you think it’s okay to save one pupper to make up for the one you killed. “Any chance you’ve got an eevee?”

He shakes his head. “Sorry. No eevee. We do have a leafeon, though.”

Plant eevee. You would’ve preferred water, fire, or fairy eevee. Wait? Do plant eevee eat meat? Or do they eat plants? Is that kind of cannibalism? Questions for later.

“Can I see it?”

The receptionist smiles. “Certainly. I’ll just need some of your information…”


The leafeon is curled up on the table. It glances at you as you walk in and then quickly resumes licking its paw. Oh. You aren’t too interesting, huh?

“What’s its story?” you ask.

“His name’s Inferno,” the receptionist—his nametag says Alan—says. “Trainer wanted a flareon. His eevee evolved in the forest. He left him here with us. The forests here are full of grass energy so lots of eevee evolve. This kind of thing happens a lot.”

A beloved pet until he didn’t turn out exactly how his parents wanted. You can almost hear Exodus spit the words out, taunting you from the sick comfort of her twisted worldview. You should call her eventually. Not today, though. Probably not this week. Or this month. Might get around to it on her birthday. If you remember when that is. You’re pretty sure it’s in May. The fifth? Sounds about right.

You gently extend your hand towards Inferno. He stares at it for a moment before getting up and rubbing his cheek against it. When he moves you catch the scent of freshly cut grass. And he is a little plant doggo with a leaf tail and ears and little blades of grass sticking out everywhere. Kind of cute in his own way. You scratch him under the chin and you think you can hear her purr.

“How hard are leafeon to care for?” you ask.

“They need time in the sun and occasional insect mix.” Insect mix! You can deal with feeding your pokémon bugs that would have died in like a week anyway. “Affectionate. But that means that their smell gets all over everything. Trainer included.” Was that a joke? Should you laugh. You do just in case you were supposed to. Wait, does that mean that he thinks you’re laughing at him? “They’re easily housebroken. Reasonably intelligent. Great air filters. My personal favorite eeveelution. But,” he sighs and holds his hands up in (mock) surrender, “I’ve got two at home so I suppose I’m biased.” You stop petting Inferno and he fixes his big red eyes on you. Aww. She’s almost as cute as Pixie. “Can say that they don’t like to fight much. They’ll participate in the big battles but they won’t really train.”

Well, you don’t really train either. Honestly you’re just looking for enough power to beat the trial and move on to the next one. You’ll figure that one out when you get to it. “Is he strong enough to take on the first trial?” you ask.

Alan rolls his eyes. Did you mess up? Insult him? “Oh, they’re plenty powerful when they put their mind to it. Good enough to clear the early trials without much work. If you can get him to train then he’ll be good for the later ones, too.”

That’s good enough for you. And he’s very cute. And seems to like you. And you do feel bad for him. Not his fault that he’s a plant instead of a fire fox. Although you could probably make him a fire fox with a few matches. You doubt he’d like it very much and you definitely won’t but you could.

“And they don’t eat meat?”

“Insects, if they count?”

Well. He’s close enough to perfect.


Pixie’s buried in the blankets on Cuicatl’s bed when you walk in. Her ears instantly perk up and she rises to her feet. Then she freezes (figuratively and sort of literally) in place, ears back down and tails tensed up. A sort-of-low and sort-of-intimidating growl rings out as she stares down Inferno. The leafeon just sits down and swishes her tail. Cuicatl steps forwards towards her bed, cane swishing in front of her. You think that all Pokémon Center rooms are pretty much the same so some day she’ll get pretty good at this.

“Pix.” It’s not quite a reprimand. Maybe a warning? “That’s Inferno. She’s going to be on Genesis’s team. Not ours.” She sits down on the bed and Pixie stops growling to turn to pout at her trainer. Cuicatl extends a hand but Pixie doesn’t accept the petting. Cuicatl just leans back against the wall, apparently unphased. “You won’t have to work with him or battle alongside him. I will not be caring for him or getting an eevee myself.”

Pixie keeps staring Cuicatl down. She closes her eyes and almost seems to nod off while sitting down. “Hey, Genesis?”

“Um, yeah?”

She opens her eyes and tilts her head. “Any chance that you’d let Pixie have a battle with your leafeon? No orders from either trainer?”

Ice pupper has the type advantage over grass pupper. But Adam said that leafeon are really strong and Pixie… isn’t. Maybe its fair? “Why?” you ask.

“To give a demonstration.”

Cryptic. She probably knows what she’s doing though. Cuicatl’s good with pokémon. Really good.


Inferno shakes himself off and the few ice crystals that hit him go flying away. The field is bathed in red light as Pixie is withdrawn. There are thin lines of blood on the field where the razor leaf attack hit. Cuicatl turns around and starts walking in the direction of the Center.

“Don’t think Pix’ll be much of a problem anymore. Congrats on the new pokémon.”

Allana opens up the door and walks in with enough spring in her step that you can already tell what she has to say. “Guess what I just got?” She flashes you her new Normalium-Z in case you had any doubt.

“Congratulations,” Cuicatl replies. She sits up and smirks. “Now be a good lab rattata and tell me what to expect.” What. No. That’s really, really rude. Why?

Allana just rolls her eyes and sits down on her bed. “What, you’re Professor Slowking now?”

“Oh please,” Cuicatl turns up her nose and shuts her eyes. “A dragon doesn’t need a clam to lord over the rabble.”

“Rabble?” Allana asks, eyebrow raised. “Really?”

Cuicatl solemnly nods. “Rabble.”

“Aren’t you a little small for a dragon?”

“For now.”

Allana rolls her eyes. “And someday you’re going to force me to get off my ass and go on a great quest?”

“You may try to rescue the noble Princess Genesis.” Why are you getting dragged into this? What’s even happening? Is this an argument? Friendship? Flirting? You hope not the last one. You’d like to think at least one of them is straight. “The effort is valiant, fair knight, but it is for naught: you will fall like all the rest.” She drops her arms and leans back against the wall. “Seriously, how’d it go?”

“Tell you when you win.”

“Fine.” Cuicatl crashes back down onto her bed and Pixie jumps up in surprise at her feet. “See if I care.”

“You’re seriously going alone?” Cuicatl asks.

“Not alone,” Allana answers. “I’ll have my pokémon.”

“Can’t you just wait two days until I can join you?”

“No. it’s going to rain tonight and castform are rare enough that we need every chance to catch one we can get.”

Cuicatl glares at her. “You’re going into unfamiliar woods alone, at night, in the rain.”

“Yes.” Allana meets her glare. “I am.”


“Because I’d like to know that we’ll be able to eat on the next mission.”

“Already taken care of.” Cuicatl folds her arms and leans back. “You both made $100 from your paras. Soon that will be $180 or $200.”

“Jenny just blew fifty bucks on an eevee.”

“Came from my personal funds.” If she’s going to bash you, you’re free to jump in. “Still over $100 ahead after it.”

Allana walks over to face you. “There are no personal funds until food is secure.”

“In any case,” Cuicatl interjects, “that covers rice, vegetables, pads, and purification tablets. And there will be more chances to make money next mission.”

“Yeah, well. What about pokéballs?” Allana starts pacing across the room. “What about potions? What about kibble, insects, moss, birdseed and whatever else the pokémon need? What if the tent rips? What if we want a bigger one?” She stops and crouches down in front of Cuicatl’s bed, hands on her thighs. “I will take some risks if it keeps us from having to ask those questions.”

“I’ll go,” you add.

“No,” Allana and Cuicatl say in unison. Allana continues: “You can’t go until you clear the trial.”

Oh. That’s why Cuicatl isn’t going. Not the blindness thing. Because blindness wouldn’t really matter at night.

Cuicatl sighs. “At least take Inferno.”

“What?” Allana asks.

What? Why? Why take him? Why is Cuicatl dragging you back into this?

“Because Pixie will revolt if I send her into a tropical rainforest during a storm, but a leafeon will be comfortable and capable of guiding you around.”

Oh. That actually does make a lot of sense. You nudge Inferno awake and she glances up at you with a look of absolute betrayal in her eyes. Yes. You should’ve let her sleep. You’re a monster. You stroke her cheek to see if that helps redeem you in his eyes.

It does.

“You want to go help…” Her? Him? You don’t want to offend Allana. You don’t want to offend Xerneas. “…my friend. In the rainforest. Tonight.” Inferno keeps staring at you with dull, sleepy eyes before he finally stands up and shakes himself off. His fresh grass scent becomes very powerful before he leaps down and gracefully trots over to Allana. You hear Pixie growl in response and see her ears perk up before her trainer presses them down and begins a thorough petting.

“Just try to stay safe, alright?” Cuicatl asks.

“Heh. Not much point in getting the money if I’m too dead to spend it, right?”


Something in Cuicatl’s expression tells you she’s not entirely convinced.
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(Crossposting!) Allllrighty then! I was just going to read a few chapters and then review, but I accidentally the whole thing! Let's do it!

So this is really, really good, holy crap. The details. The sheer amount of thought put into everything. The worldbuilding is great; this really does feel like a real-world take on the Pokemon regions we already know, as opposed to just plopping Pokemon into the real world and expecting things to make sense. I love the detail that's gone into how a Pokemon journey functions, and the focus on like, how they actually handle the day-to-day minutia (something I wish I could have done with my fic if I hadn't gone and removed the entire journey from it.)

The characters are deliciously complex and flawed, and it's easy to feel for them while simultaneously going "no stop staaaaaahhhp" They've all got their biases, they've all got their prejudices and sometimes they're right, and sometimes they're very, very much not, and sometimes they know it and sometimes they don't. And also I was promised SADS which is why I'm here in the first place, and this fic has delivered. Much sads! V good!

I really like the way you drop random, easily-overlooked details in the narration that can actually wind up being foreshadowing! Like early on, there was a mention that Cuicatl was translating everything in her head, and I was a little confused like "huh... I'm not bilingual but I don't think that's how that goes?" But it was, in fact, A Clue that her English was not nearly as good as it appeared to be, and that psychic shenanigans were in play. Another great one is that, on revisiting chapter 1, you basically came right out and spoiled Kekoa's whole deal right there! And it's so easy to miss, too.

Speaking of Kekoa, I really like how you don't (actually) reveal his deal until his first POV chapter) because ohhh man the impact that gives. I was all like "bwaha, go get him Cuicatl, take the macho jerkass down a few pegs" in ch.3, and then in ch.4 we get THIS line: "Hmm. Four. Too manly for a girl" and I can't be the only one who felt like I just got kicked in the chest.

I think Kekoa's chapters are my favorite to read, just because he's a little more straightforward than the others, and he's very open with himself (for better or for worse.) Cuicatl's chapters are fascinating, but also pretty hard to read, and not just on account of the sensory thing. She just spends so much time lying to herself that I often have to backtrack to work out what actually happened, which makes things very slow. Genesis's chapters are the most humorous, but then sometimes they slip into ultimate cringe and I have to let my eyes glide away from the page because otherwise her perception will color mine and I don't want that and have I mentioned how brilliant the second-person is for this?

I love way you write the Pokemon. They're clever and generally sapient, but still very obviously inhuman in a way that's fun to read. The paras were an unexpected delight. And of course, it's a crime that I've gone this far without mentioning Pixie. She's delightfully obnoxious in all the best ways, which is to say, ways that are very much logic according to her. Best fox.

(random side note: it took me an embarrassingly long time to figure out that ellas was a pronouns lol.)

Chapter 10 intrigues me because, unless I am very much mistaken, the flashback implies that Cuicatl (Nari?) was sighted? But she said she was born blind, and I don't think she's lying because her description of how she learned about various sighted things seems genuine, but like... am confus. Maybe she got visual input through a psychic link? Or maybe something else entirely and I'm just failing to pick up the clues. Cuicatl chapters are hard, haha.

And oh boy Chapter 12! Wow! I spent the entire time going "no no no NO NO NO" every time the deadname came up in-narration! wow! I need a shower now because hoooooooly hell dat second-person can make you feel dirty. Also, man, I knew Genesis was a fundamentalist, but geez I didn't realize we were dealing with like... Westboro levels of it. Ack. Ghh. Really wanna know what's up with Exodus (did she realize how toxic her upbringing was and escape?) Also Rachel's scan said that Genesis has some recent trauma so that should be interesting.

Really glad that Cuicatl and Kekoa were at least able to come to a bit of an understanding recently! It's fun to watch them take jabs at each other, but eesh, it started to get too real there. They've obviously got a long way to go, but hey, it's a long journey, and there's a lot of time to sort a lot of things out, and by god does our cast need to sort a lot of things out, haha.

Anyway, very good yes! Will be sticking around~



Middle of nowhere
Death/Gore in more detail than previously seen. Parental neglect. Vaguely suicidal ideation but to a much lesser extent than 1.5.

Normal 1.13: Someday You Will Learn

Cold air rushes over you as Avalanche stands. When you whine you’re hardly the only one of your siblings to do so. Your mother ignores you and trots closer to Aurora. Father. He steps back and reveals a strange creature with white fur and a black horn half-buried in the snow. It doesn’t move. Asleep?

Avalanche growls as she approaches Aurora. They press their heads against each other and sniff before she breaks off to look at the creature. She bends down and sniffs a few times before purring in contentment. Then she opens her jaws, lunges down, and rips her teeth into it. Red liquid stains both the creature and Avalanche’s white fur. The smell strikes you a moment later. It’s… wonderful. Warmth in scent form.

“Blood,” Aurora hisses. “It is life. Yours. Others. We take it to live.”

“Like milk?” Thirdborn mews.

Aurora comes closer as Avalanche continues to violently rip into the creature’s flank. Red comes to stain more than just her snout as she rips and pulls at the creature.

“Milk for adults. Not given. We take it. Take it from the dead.”

“Dead?” you ask. “What’s dead?”

Aurora stares into your eyes. “Someday you will learn.”

He turns around and leaves you, your six siblings, the creature, and your bloodstained mother behind.


Avalanche roars and whirls around. You see and feel light move as she shoots a pulse into the darkness. Sharp ice comes back in retaliation. You hear it and duck into the snow and the smell of blood follows you. Yours? No. Not hurt. You dig deeper in defense as the sounds and smells of battle rage above. The snow moves around you as ice shards impale themselves in the snow and your other siblings bury deeper.

The sounds die off. Eventually there is quiet and the deep smell of blood. You hesitantly dig closer to the surface and stick your head out. Avalanche is standing still. You sniffle on accident and she turns around to you. Before you can figure out what to do she presses her snout against yours and sniffs. Apparently satisfied she turns to something else.

Someone else. Fourthborn has an ice shard sticking between her ribs. He’s lying on the ground unmoving in a small puddle of red. Prey. Dead. Sixthborn has a trail of blood leading into her trail but her head surfaces soon after. When she joins you and your siblings on the surface you see that her paw is leaking red.

Avalanche pokes Fourthborn with her snout a few times. No movement. Without a word she picks your brother up in her jaws and walks a few of her body lengths away. There she digs into the snow with her forepaws before depositing your brother, covering him up, and walking back to you. She lies down and looks at Sixthborn before pulling her closer and licking your sister’s paw.

Avalanche never mentions Fourthborn again.


Sixthborn’s paw starts to smell. At first it just smells like blood. Later it starts to smell different. More like the dead bodies Avalanche eats. Eventually she can’t walk on it without crying out in pain.

One day she doesn’t wake up. Avalanche buries her near Fourthborn. No one ever mentions Sixthborn again.


Your tail splits! Now you’re more like Avalanche and Aurora than you were before. Soon all of your siblings’ tails have split. On the day when both of your tails are equally long, Avalanche howls and Aurora comes to her territory. He has no food with him. Your parents nuzzle each other and then Avalanche brings Aurora to each of you in turn and shows him your tails. When they’re done they both purr in pride and happiness.

Aurora thumps his tails on the ground. “Two-tails! Now you will hunt!”


Hunting is boring. You just sit beneath a hole in the rock that you really want to explore but Avalanche says no and she would just pick you up in her mouth if you tried so you don’t. Eventually the sky goes dark. You’re still waiting. Then the sky goes even darker and Avalanche barks and starts spraying cold air upwards. Small winged creatures fall down and Aurora dashes out to intercept and shake all of them in his jaws. By the time the cloud passes the ground is littered with bodies the same size as yours.

Avalanche steps up to one and rips into it. As she chews she makes eye contact with you and gestures towards one of the corpses on the ground. You cautiously approach it and take a few sniffs. There’s heat radiating from it. Very cautiously you sink your teeth into it and feel the warm metallic life flow into your mouth. You close your jaws, pull back, shake, and swallow.

If this is what hunting feels for the predator you can understand why the redcrests took your siblings away.

You drown the thought in another bite and the taste of blood.


When your third tail starts to bud Avalanche lets you split up to find prey. The pairs are new every time with Avalanche herself supervising one. Today she’s with you. She keeps one tail wrapped around all of yours. Sometimes she moves a little too fast and you have to run as hard as you can to keep up and sometimes it doesn’t matter because your tails still slip from hers anyway. That gets her attention and she skids to a stop before waiting on you to catch up. When she starts again she goes slow enough that you can match her pace and sometimes accidentally lean into her as you walk. Until she stops and it’s your turn to abruptly break.

Before you can protest she pushes you down into the snow. Redcrests? No. She pushes herself down lower a moment later. She’s either hiding or stalking and the nine-tales don’t hide. Why would they? Her heartbeat’s calm, too. As yours slows in turn you dig a little closer to her and press into her side. She’s projecting more cold than usual. Even inside her fur there’s very little warmth to be had.

She moves. You almost get kicked as she rushes out of the snow and starts blasting light out at something. Her departure kicks up enough snow that you can stand up and sort of watch as she fights a strange floating icicle. The prey blasts out shot after shot of ice but none of it makes a difference to Avalanche; she’s the coldest thing on the entire mountain and nothing can touch her.

Eventually the monster turns to flee. It doesn’t matter. Avalanche takes it out with one well-aimed shot to the back. It slowly collapses piece by piece as gravity comes back to the corpse. When everything’s done there’s a pile of sludge left where the beast’s shadow was. Avalanche sniffs it and then barks to summon you over. When you arrive you realize that there’s no blood. The whole puddle is homogenous: no interesting sights or smells stand out. In your peripheral vision you see Avalanche bend down and lick from the body. You do the same.

It’s not blood. It’s thicker. You can’t taste as many minerals. More like fat than meat. It’s very dense and it tastes very wonderful. You don’t quite have a word for the taste. A little bit like the berries Aurora brought up once from a trip down to the base. Your tongue is too small. You want to lick up more faster. Avalanche’s pace is almost casual compared to your tongue’s rapid strokes. Why? Does she not—

Your head lights up in pain. Attack? No. No blood. Avalanche doesn’t seem worried. As you bury your head in your paws she trots over and picks you up in her mouth. You feel a purr shake through her and into you. Why? She should be much more panicked. You’re her best kit by far.

When you return home she gently sets you down and you shake yourself off. At some point in the trip your headwound faded to something trivial. Was that her spit? Avalanche sets herself (and you) down and tucks her tails into the snow beneath her without answering. “Those are new. Aurora thinks humans brought them.”

You flick a tail out. “Why?” You’ve heard her thoughts on humans. They used to be a nuisance but a tolerable one. Then they started coming more and more frequently.

“They are easy to kill, high in fat, and taste very good. The assembly thinks they are an offering in exchange for their den on the peak.”

Would that justify the den? You haven’t seen it but it’s supposedly very large and they’ve had to bring lots of supply through the mountain to build it. Plus Avalanche thinks that humans do not belong in the presence of the nine-tails because they are smelly and hairless and stupid and gross. She is very smart so she is almost certainly right.

“Worth it?” you ask.

She shakes herself off. “We gave them a trail. If they stick to it we will not destroy them.”

That seems generous and very reasonable. Exactly what you would expect from Avalanche and Aurora and the nine-tales.


Firstborn and Seventhborn return before dark. But when Avalanche would usually cover all of you up in her tails and pull you close for the night Secondborn and Thirdborn are nowhere to be seen. Avalanche paces back and forth with increasing fury as the sun sets and the moon rises on the horizon. Eventually she stops, stamps her feet and howls. She resumes pacing until Aurora arrives.

Your parents have a very terse conversation at a low enough volume that it’s difficult to make out much over the typical mountain wind. When it’s over Aurora sets off in a different direction than he came. Avalanche resumes pacing for much of the night. You try to stay awake. There’s a sense of dread over you and your siblings and you need to know what’s going on. But you’re just a two-tails and at some point you dig a little deeper into the snow and sleep.


You wake up to the sound of something very large being dragged through the snow. Once you’re out of your burrow you make out something furry and strange looking (and smelling) staring back at you. There are bloody wounds on its side and one of its arms seems to be entirely gone.

Avalanche is cautiously circling it. “You’re sure?” she asks. Aurora barks with confidence.

With bared teeth Avalanche turns from you and faces the body head on before unleashing the brightest and longest moonblast you’ve ever seen. For a few seconds there’s daylight on the mountain before the light fades and only a charred, bloody, remains. Without a sound Avalanche walks over, lifts a leg, and scent marks it.

Aurora takes the creature away.

“What was that?” Firstborn quietly asks.

“A warning.”

Avalanche walks back to you and your siblings and wraps you up in her tails. Is this it? Are you supposed to sleep now? Where are Secondborn and Thirdborn?

Seventhborn makes your questions known and Avalanche growls before uncurling and going back to pacing in her rut in the snow. “Dead. Avenged.” She stops and glares back at her children before coming forward and sitting down a body length away. After a long, mournful whine to the moon she pauses. When she speaks again it’s in the tone of the ancient stories.

“The Mountain never changes. The Mountain never grows. There will never be more space than there was when I was born. Two nine-tales make a litter. The Mountain never changes. The Mountain never grows. When the nine-tales die they must leave behind one hair each so that there is enough food and space to go around.”

She looks down from the moon and back at you. “There are three of you now. I will allow only one more loss. The Mountain never changes. The Mountain never grows. I may only keep two.”

“What if none of us die?” you ask.

Avalanche shakes her head and sweeps her tails around you before settling down and pressing you into the snow for the remainder of the night.


The next morning’s excursion takes you past a snowy cavern. The day before you and your siblings would have walked as close to the edge as you could before Avalanche growled and pulled you back or fear of the yawning chasm finally won out. Today you all cling to the rock wall a few body lengths away, no one daring to put space between them and the firm surface.

It would be very easy to get pushed down here.

Accidents happen, after all.


You hear the footfalls and grunts of a strange creature long before you can see it through the storm. Avalanche stands tense with her tails over her children as the sounds gradually become louder. First you can see a strange outline between Avalanche’s tails, a little bit like a redcrest but far larger and without any claws. Most of his body covered in black fur but you can sometimes see dark brown skin underneath.

“Holy ****,” it vocalizes once it sees Avalanche. The two stare at each other for a dozen breaths before Avalanche turns around and gently picks you up in her jaws. She whips a tail at the newcomer as she walks past and the creature belatedly staggers after her. What is he? What is this adventure for? Why did Avalanche choose you?

The storm steadily dissipates and the air grows warmer. At first it’s pleasant like being under Avalanche’s tails. Then it starts to become very warm like blood. Eventually it is painfully warm in a way that you’ve never experienced at all before.

At this point Avalanche gently sets you down and watches as the strange bipedal creature staggers after her before crashing his hindquarters down on a rock and breathing deeply. “Thanks,” he mutters.

For a few heartbeats Avalanche stares at him in silence. Then she starts trotting back up the mountain, out of the terrible warm. You dutifully follow before she whirls around and growls at you with her teeth bared. You take a step back. What? What is she doing. When she starts moving again you follow with the same result.

The creature slowly stands. “Oh. You, uh, want me to catch it?”

She barks in affirmation and starts bolting up the hill. You start running as a crashing sound echoes behind you but Avalanche turns and shakes her fur. A colorful barrier materializes in front of her and you crash right into it.

“Makuhita, use arm thrust!”

Loud footfalls ring out behind you and you dart to the side while hugging the barrier. You glance behind you and see a large urine-colored creature lumbering after you. He’s slow which buys you precious seconds. Behind the barrier Avalanche makes no further attempts to climb the mountain.

“Why?!” you scream at her. “Help!”

You break away from the barrier to avoid getting cornered between it and a rock. You’re still outpacing the beast but you’re starting to feel warm in your lungs and your fur and everywhere else. You catch a glance of Avalanche and see the dispassionate eyes of a predator staring back.

Oh no.

This is what happens when three vulpix remain.

For a moment you pause in shock. You barely start walking in time to avoid a powerful punch sending up snow and earth behind you. Then you start running again. “Seventhborn is the youngest! Firstborn is a terrible hunter! Leave one of them!” She doesn’t answer. Her eyes don’t change.

Maybe this is a test. Yes, you have a chance to prove your worth by fighting two strange creatures at once and winning (although one doesn’t seem to be doing much at all). You pivot and unleash as much snow as you can while you’re tired and in burning air. It’s too little. After it’s all done the smaller creature just wipes its face off and resumes charging you.

No. You’ll need to weaken him. You turn around and rush the creature. It lunges, you dive, and as you sail past you slap all of your tails against him fast enough that the air cracks. Your eyes widen under the pain of the impact in your tails but you keep going. You have to. There’s no time. With a furious growl you turn around and unleash a barrage of ice at the creature. This time there’s so much less. He doesn’t even flinch.


You see the impact coming but between pain and despair you don’t do anything to block it. Something cracks in your chest and there’s warmth under the skin. Did he rupture something? Do you care? You glance up to Avalanche and give one last mewl pleading for help. For a moment her expression breaks and you see your mother, not a hunter. Then she turns around and slowly starts walking back up as the barrier falls.


The creature descends again. You feel two, three more blows each followed by cracking and warmth in your body but none of it hurts more than what you just saw.

Eventually the attacks stop and the world disappears in bloodstained light.


The rainforest is far hotter and wetter than anywhere else you’ve been before and it’s terrible and you hate it but Skysong insists on walking straight into an ambush by a very strong pokémon and you will do what you can to keep her from dying so that she owes you her life and can never abandon you.

You still have the harness on when you, Skysong, and Snowhair walk into a clearing with a small set of platforms in it. Snowhair takes your trainer’s hand and leads her to one of the small ones. “Sit,” she says, and sit Skysong awkwardly does. Then she bends over and unclips your harness before bringing herself upright again.

“It’s fine if you want into your ball, Pix. No fights for a bit.”

You sit down and growl. An ambush predator will strike when she least expects it. It is very important for you to remain visible so that her enemies fear for their lives and stay away.

Snowhair claps her hands. “You ready to begin?”

“Yes,” Skysong replies. Like she’s not only ready to get attacked by a monster but looking forward to it.

“Now, for my trial we…” Snowhair’s eyes go wide and you can hear her say a human anger expression quietly enough that maybe Skysong didn’t catch it. “Uh, you heard of chess?”

“Heard of it, never played.”

Her opponent, the so-called-captain, drums her paw on the platform. “Well, then I can’t expect you to play it from memory. Shoot, should’ve thought of this earlier.”

“We can just say that I won and no one will know the difference?” Skysong suggests in a higher pitch than usual, like she’s appealing for special treatment from her mother. Except Snowhair isn’t her mother. They smell very different from each other and this “captain” is far too young.

“Tempting but no. Wait.” The captain bares her teeth. “I might if you tell me what’s up with Kekoa.”

Skysong moves her shoulders in an act of submission. “He was being a dick. He’s slowly being less of a dick. What exactly do you want to know?”

“A lot,” Snowhair answers before breaking into a laugh. “You might want to withdraw your vulpix. This could take a bit.”

You roar. No! She will not use clever tricks to attack Skysong when she least expects it! You refuse to grant the underhanded monster what she—


Where are you?

What is you?


What are memor—


“Confuse Ray!” Skysong yells. You blink and look around. There’s a giant (but very pretty) white human-like thing in the center of the clearing. Looks sick. The dumb mushroom bugs did their job and now you will strike the final blow. Just as soon as you can move your eyes. Why are you this slow? Did the pokéball do this? You can feel your head moving and the energy coming but the fluffman is terribly fast and has leaves spread out by his eyes before you can even fire off the attack. Why is it so, so fast?

{Trick room. Also got in a nasty plot boost. Don’t let hit you.}

Right as you get the message orange orbs appear in front of the fluffman. You desperately run away as fast as your very slow body can take you. Out of the corner of your eye you see the fluffman flinch right before the orbs start to fly. You dive down and put yourself as close to the ground as possible in case they fly high. They don’t. One strikes right behind you and before you can think you’re blasted through the air at normal speed.

“Pixie!” Skysong calls. No. No no no no no no no no no. You can’t fail her and lose without getting a single hit in. With as much willpower as you can muster you pulse a spectral light from your body. Fluffman turns to look at you right as the attack launches. Yes! You remember what Skysong told you and puff up to cool the air. Then with a mighty scream you launch a barrage of icicles straight through fluffman’s stupid leaves. Skysong makes little lightning with her fingers. “Now roar!”

Roar! You can do the roars! The sound takes longer to come but when it does you let as much out as you can to tell the fluffman that you are way scarier than it and honestly it should just run away before it gets eaten. It doesn’t quite work. Fluffman does blink repeatedly and even stumbles over itself and crashes to the ground and you get a wonderful opportunity to pelt it with even more ice shards. You even hit fluffman right in the face as it glares up at you. Then—

Fire. Your head is on fire. No, your mind is on fire. Or broken. Or on fire and broken. It hurts. It hurts. It hurts. It hurts. It hurts so much and you want to die or at least curl up into a ball and stay still until—

Skysong screams. You slowly and shakily stand and find her curled up on the ground with her paws squeezing her head and her body curled up.

You couldn’t save her.

What now?

Should you put her down?

You don’t want her to slowly die from the rot.

Is there even a wound?

Matriarch’s going to kill you.

Do you let her?

The fluffman walks over. For a moment you consider trying to get one last ice shard in its eye to spite it in the end. But your head hurts too much. Just thinking about it breaks you. No. Nothing to do. When your legs give out and you hit the ground your eyes are already closed.

Just get it over with.

No one ever loved you anyway.

And why would they?

You were never good for anything.

The killing blow never comes. At some point Skysong stops screaming but her ragged, harsh breaths and the smell of saltwater tell you that she’s still alive. You open an eye and turn to see the fluffman holding her head in its lap and gently stroking a paw through her hair.

{Who taught you?} he finally asks. You get the message but it’s distorted and echoey. Nothing like absolute clarity of Skysong’s.

Skysong pulls herself up and holds her upper body in the air with her arms. Her breaths are slowing but only barely.

“A.. reuniclus…” she eventually says between breaths. “Sort… of… self… taught.”

The fluffman levitates a berry up to Skysong’s mouth. {Eat it. Good for psychic pain.}

She slowly lifts up a hand and presses the berry into her mouth. It’s a messy process with juice leaking down to the ground and all over her face.

{Inefficient link. Constantly sending signals. Should’ve had a valve.}


Fluffman sighs. {May I access your powers and show you?}

Skysong half-chokes and half-laughs. “Couldn’t stop you.”

{But may I?}

“Go ahead,” she says before closing her eyes and lowering herself to the ground.

{Is there another pokémon in the link.}

“Yeah,” Skysong mumbles. “Give me a second.”

Loudspore materializes beside you. She seems healthy. Why? You are her strongest team member and should have been trusted to finish the match.

Something tugs at your mind. No, that’s what the first attack felt like this. This time it feels like something is pushing into it. Not like an attack. Sort of like an attack? It’s over very quickly. You blink. The mind pain is gone now. You blink again. What?

“Yeah, I did.” Skysong says to no one. To the fluffman? Why did you stop getting those messages. You inquiry growl and she turns her head a few degrees towards you. “Try to push it into the link, Pix.”

Into the link? To Loudspore. You think “Why are you healthy?” and also think about Loudspore and Skysong.

The former starts chittering and you belatedly get the answer. “…fought yet!”

Oh. She was the ace. You didn’t misread the situation.

You see something float through the air in your peripheral vision. A strange glowing stone. Your tails involuntarily tense like you’re in the presence of a ghost.

Fluffman takes the rock and presses it into Skysong’s hand. Your trainer looks up with a startled expression on her face.

“But… I lost. I didn’t earn it.”

The pokémon waves its hand and apparently speaks to Skysong. She stays silent for a long time as she listens with only an occasional nod or grimace to tell you that anything is happening at all.

At last she shakily gets to her feet. You stand up and start to trot over when you see her reach for her pokéballs. “Good work, Pix. We’ll talk more later.”


“Now, which pokémon did you wish to transfer?” the healer asks.

Skysong reaches down to her belt to fulfill her promise. She takes off one, two, three, four pokéballs and hands them to the healer. “These”


You growl in protest and she glances down on you. {Explain later} enters your mind. No! No! She promised to get rid of all the bugs when the trial was done.

“Alright, we’re all set. Anything else you need from me?”

Skysong shakes her head. “No. Thank you.”

“Congrats on winning your first Z-Crystal,” the nurse says with teeth bared.

“Thank you.” For a moment your trainer. flashes her teeth before turning around and letting her face relax. “Lead me outside, Pix?” Skysong asks/commands. You will so that you can properly berate her without any other humans becoming upset. Once you’re outside she sits down on the steps.

You yip, growl, and roar in rapid succession. She only sighs in response.

“You promised!”

Skysong hangs her head low. “I did.”

“You broke the promise!”

She closes her eyes. “Ce asked to stay with me.”

You thump all of your tails on the ground. “Unacceptable!” You thump them again. “How dare you?!”

Her expression hardens. “Pix, I promised you that there would be no more friends if the trial went well. It didn’t.”

You glare at her and keep hissing. No. She’s going to replace you imminently. Fine. You’ll spite her back. See how the oath breaker likes it. Now, what revenge will you take? Obviously you’ll kill Loudspore. Maybe pee in Skysong’s mouth? It worked for Hummy.

Skysong sighs and reaches for her belt. “Don’t kill her,” she mutters right before Loudspore appears.

You turn and roar at her and she reflexively skitters back and protects her head with her pincers. {W-what did I do?}

“I’m sorry,” Skysong says. “I told you that I’d keep you if Pixie approved. She doesn’t.”

Loudspore lowers a claw and chitters nervously. {Please?} She finally asks. {I like her. I like you. I want to stay.}

You growl as deeply as you can before shouting {No!} with the link open. She cannot stay. That brings Skysong to two pokémon. Two is far too close to three. And when Skysong has to leave someone behind she’ll leave you.

Just like everyone else.

“I’m not going to replace you,” Skysong lies. “Ce is very good at capturing things and she’s very upbeat and makes me smile. You are more challenging.” You growl. You are not challenging. You are a very well-behaved fox. She just waves a paw. “In a good way. You keep me on my toes. And you’re very cute and soft and a great guide fox. I can’t replace one of you with the other. That’s not how it works.”

That is exactly how it works. It’s how it’s always worked and how it will always work.

Skysong lowers her gaze. “I’m sorry,” she whispers. As she should be. Breaking promises. “I’m sorry, Ce, but I told Pix this would be temporary. If she doesn’t want to change…”

You bark despite not being sure exactly where this is going. You want the bug gone.

“…then I’ll still do my best to get you a new trainer. But I can’t let you stay.”

Loudspore doesn’t say anything for a long time. At last she shoots you a final wary look and walks over to Skysong’s leg. She wraps her pincers around your trainer’s ankles and receives gentle strokes between her mushrooms in return. Is this it? Did you win?

No one answers you for long enough that outside becomes unbearably warm. At last Skysong stands up and withdraws Ce.

“I hope you’re happy.”

You are.


Skysong swallows for no apparent reason. “And in the meantime she likes moist, dark places. And scratches between the mushrooms. And pop music. She loves her moss mixes but she thinks fallen leaves and cattails are almost as good.”

The man on the screen nods sympathetically but he’s been steadily less sympathetic as the conversation has worn on.

“We know,” he says. “We’ve cared for a lot of paras.”

“You’ll get her a new trainer as soon as you can, right?” Skysong asks even though you’re pretty sure that she’s asked it at least once before.

“Yes,” the man responds. “We will.”

Skysong lowers her head and her icky grass-colored hair falls in her face. “Okay,” she finally whispers-cries. “I’ll send the ball over.”

There’s some awkward fumbling but eventually the ball disappears in a flash of red. Did you do it? Is she finally gone?

Skysong shuts off the monitor while the man is still speaking and walks away. You press against her leg and she gently pushes you away before walking on.


You trail behind Bloodrage and Skysong, periodically stopping to scent mark something so you can help lead them out later. You aren’t talking to Skysong and she isn’t talking to you. The forest is a little bit cooler at night, even if the air feels altogether too much like rain. Ugh. Your fur gets weighed down when it is wet and you look smaller and less intimidating and it is absolutely terrible. Just like the rest of your day.

“Genesis said you have a headache,” Bloodrage says.

“Already gone.”

Several more steps are taken. Bloodrage flicks on a lightbeam to compensate for the darkening sky.

“You want to talk about the trial?” he asks.


The only sounds are those of the forest. Rustling trees, bigbeak songs, and the cries of dozens of pokémon you don’t recognize. You feel a drop of water hit your tails. Clearly a fluke. You feel another. Just a shaking tree. A big droplet hits you right on the nose. You growl in frustration. You are far too lovely and powerful and important to stand in the rain!

Bloodrage abruptly holds out an arm and Skysong walks right into it. Then he takes off running with a sharp whistle. His bigbeak soars down from the trees to join him.

“Kekoa, wait!” Skysong shouts before lifting her white stick and running after him. You take off in response. She moves rather well for being blind, even though there are a lot of tree roots on the—you see it happen but you’re powerless to stop it. Her paw finally hit one of the roots and for a moment she stops entirely. Then her body keeps flying forward while her paw is stuck behind the root.

She hits the ground with a thud and stays down.

Bloodrage is still off ahead. You can hear him give commands and hear something else retaliate with bursts of something. You sit down and try to lick some of the water out of your fur. Skysong can take care of herself.

She doesn’t move but she’s still breathing. Crying even.

Should you help? She did betray you. But if you help her now she might realize how valuable you are and kick out Loudspore for good. Worth the risk. You steadily plod over and gently extend a paw to her back.

She screams with intensity and anger you’ve never heard from her before. She tells a crocodile (?) in the earth (?) exactly what procreative acts he needs to perform. Some involve defecation.

Human reproduction is very disturbing.

Bloodrage arrives around the time that Skysong’s scream breaks into rapid, shallow breaths and occasional gasps and moans. Her eyes are overflowing with saltwater. Did you cause this? You step back. Best not to test your luck now.

“What happened?” Bloodrage asks. He doesn’t receive an answer beyond an explosion of mucus from her nose and a absent-minded paw movement to wipe it off. Ew.

She slowly calms down with progressively deeper and less frequent breaths. Then she’s quiet for several heartbeats. “I tripped,” she finally answers.

“Can you walk?” Bloodrage asks as he crouches down.

“Maybe.” She sniffles. “Foot hurts a lot.”

“Let me help.” Bloodrage locks paws with Skysong and slowly pulls her up. For a moment she keeps one foot held above the ground while leaning into Bloodrage before she slowly lowers it and winces. “Hey, it’s—”

“I can walk on it,” Skysong replies in a dull, low voice.

For a second it looks like Bloodrage is going to argue with your idiot liar trainer before he just sighs and starts moving forward. You take the lead and track the familiar scents back out of the forest.


Middle of nowhere
Normal 1.14: Mother and Sister

You awaken trapped and comfortable.

Something in you knows that you should get out. Escape. Be free. Free from what? The liquid around you is very pleasant. You hear sounds outside. High pitched and soothing. Mother! She is why you must get out.

You raise your head and bash your tooth against the wall. Then you do it again. And again. Mother is there. She will hear you and help. Eventually. She does not help but she does stop encouraging you. Odd. Your tooth strikes the wall again and the shell cracks. Another hit and it crumbles. You press your head out through the hole and into the

You don’t know what this is. A new sense!

You survey your surroundings and find her. Two hers. They smell like hers. One is very big and adult colored. Mother! You rush towards her and squeak so she knows that you are here and hers and that you love her very much. She reaches down one of her absolutely massive arms and holds out a paw and you press your head into it. Her claws feel very soft. Wait what do most claws feel like? You press a claw into your face. Yes, hers are much softer.

“Hello,” Mother says. “Who are you?”

“Your daughter!” Obviously. “I just hatched!”

She extends her other claw down to scratch you because she loves you and will look out for you until you are as big as she is.

“And I’m your Mother?”


She ruffles the feathers on your head. “You’re very soft,” she comments. Your sister huffs beside you. “Just like you, Pixie,” Mother adds.

Your sister’s name is Pixie! “What’s my name?” you ask.

“Hmmmmm.” She hums/roars a little bit. It’s very melodic and pretty and you’re upset when she stops. “Your Dad will be here later. I think he’ll want to name you.”


“Because…” She trails off and doesn’t finish the thought. “He wanted to raise you.”

You thump your tail on the ground. “But you’re my Mother!”

She shakes her head and her beautiful green feathers move with her. “I’ll still be around. But he’ll do most of the work.”

You hiss. “Unfair! You’re raising Pixie!”

Pixie harrumphs in agreement. It’s a very strange sound.

“Yes. Your Father is also caring for other pokémon.”

“But you’re taking care of my sister! Why not me? I’m a girl. You’re a girl. It makes sense.”

Her claws twitch up and nearly out of reach. You can still press your head into them if you stand up as tall as you can. “Why do you think Pixie’s your sister?”

“Because she’s the same color and size as me.”

You notice that Mother’s eyes are very pretty. Not like Pixie’s. There’s some color in them but it’s hidden behind a white pattern. Mother presses her claw against your body and scratches you from your head to the tip of your tail. Then she brings the claw back up and flicks the egg liquid off.

“I should get you a bath and a checkup before your Dad gets here.” She bends down and picks you up before cradling you in her giant arms. It is very warm and safe and you love her and she loves you. “Pix, can you guide me downstairs?”

Your sister shakes herself off with a wave of—cold air?—and starts walking forward with one tail held back against Mother’s leg. Huh. Pixie has multiple tails. Unfair! You only have one.

Mother opens up a clever barrier from her cave into—Another cave?! Then she walks down the tunnel until she reaches—Another another cave??!! And this one feels weird and has strange sounds. You want to explore it but Mother tightens her grip on you. Then the cave stops and the wall slides open into—Another another another cave???!!! How deep underground were you? Or were you near the surface and you’ve just been going deeper? Why does Mother live underground in the first place?

“Don’t live here,” she whispers. “Just staying here for a few days. Also, it’s not a cave. Closer to a hollowed out tree.” Woah. That’s a really, really big tree.

Mother takes you into a big cavern with a female adult leaning on a big wooden ridge. Mother and Sister walk over to the other adult. “Hi,” Mother says. “She just hatched and I think she needs a checkup?”

She gently places you down on the ridge. The other adult looks you over. “No problem. Let me call a nurse.”

Other adult picks up a strange shiny rock and vocalizes into it. Another adult female, a “nurse,” comes over and frowns. Teeth have been shown! Challenge? Mother reaches out and gently runs a claw along your back. No challenge.

“Can I have a name, please?” Nurse asks.

“Cuicatl Ichtaca.”

It would be weird if other adults who she was not the mother of called her Mother. It was very clever of Mother to come up with something else to be called.

“Mmhmm. Do you know what this pokémon is?”

Mother shakes her head. Is she dirty? Has an attacker latched onto her? Is she breaking the spine of prey? What is the head shake for? “She speaks a language similar to Upper Draconic. Otherwise, no clue. Hatched from a mystery egg a friend was given.”

There’s a brief silence.

“Did you say you understand Draconic?”

“Lower and Upper Draconic. They’re different languages.”

Nurse bites her lip. Surrender? An attempt to draw her own blood so that other predators and scavengers come to her under the mistaken impression that she is wounded, thus allowing her to kill them without having to hunt them down? Provides food and reduces competition all at once. Genius. Almost on Mother’s level.

“Can I put that in your file? Dragons are a pain to treat and I’m sure nurses would appreciate it if they could talk to the pokémon and tell it what’s going on.”

“Just because I can speak to dragons doesn’t mean they listen to me,” Mother says. “I can try but I make no promises.”

“I get it. Please wait here while I get a pokédex. I want to figure out what species she is before I do anything else.” Immediately after she starts walking away she turns around to look at Mother. “Are you just guessing she’s female or can you tell?”

“Upper Draconic is very gendered. She uses female pronouns.”

“Okay.” Nurse smells distressed, deferential, confused. Attack? Mother puts a claw under your chin and scratches you really hard and it’s wonderful. Wait, were you going to attack something? Nurse comes back with a strange flat rock. She points it towards you and a voice comes out.

Tyrunt, the Royal Heir Pokémon. Unregistered. Rock-dragon type. Prone to angry outbursts. Approach with caution.

The rock can talk! Should you attack it? Neither Mother nor Sister nor nurse move to fight it. You decide to simply watch for now.

Nurse makes a strange grunting sound. Attack? Mother taps your head. Is strange. Probably means should not attack. “What license do you have?”

“Class III.”

She bites her lip again because no prey have shown up to be eaten.

“Has she imprinted on you?”

“I think so. She says I’m her mother.” She is!

“Do you know what license Mr. Walthers has?”

Mother blankly stares forward and slowly shakes her head. “Who?”


Mother blinks very dramatically because sand or an insect attacked her only weak point like a coward. “Class III. Sorry.”

Nurse drives her claws onto a stone in a strange sequence. Eventually she nods her head and speaks while still looking down. “Could you withdraw your vulpix and come back with me?”

“I didn’t bring my cane…”

That provokes a dramatic and prolonged exhale.. “Can you withdraw it once it guides you back? Vulpix have a reputation for causing trouble.”

Pixie whines on the floor. You don’t know why but there might be a threat so you also start roaring too and your sister almost immediately stops and stares at you with her tails pressed down and ears slicked back. Mother slowly and pointedly exhales like Nurse did. “Do you think you can do that, Pix?”

Your sister very softly barks.


Nurse tries to pick you up and you move to bite her before she pulls back. “Can you carry her?” she asks Mother. “She’s being aggressive.” Wow. She’s scared of your bite and you only have one tooth. Soon you will be unstoppable.

Mother gently cradles you and you go behind the dividing stone into Nurse’s den. With the unneeded assistance of Nurse and Pixie, Mother sets you down on a large slab high in the air. She fumbles with something at her waste and there’s a red flash of light. You stop hearing sister’s heartbeat a moment later.

Did Mother kill her?!

{No.} Mother messages you. In your mind! How?! {She’s just gone for a moment. I will bring her back later.}


Nurse puts a wet and warm leaf over your head. It feels like the egg. You press into it and she brings it down your body. Then she rinses the leaf off and does it again. “I asked about the licenses,” she says during her second rinse, “because if she’s imprinted on you she only requires a Class III. But if she hasn’t she’d require a Class IV.”

“You’re saying Kekoa can’t own her?” Mother asks.

Nurse nods right before she presses the leaf down on you. “Not legally. You could still be her legal owner while letting Kekoa do most of the caregiving.”

“I don’t think she, I mean the pokémon, wants that,” Mother says. “I asked her about that earlier and she got very upset.”

It’s hard to follow the conversation when only Mother makes sense and you can only sort of tell what Nurse means from her tone and actions. You think that Mother is laying out a case for claiming you from Father, though, which is very good. Mother is Mother. Father can help.

Nurse moves the leaf away and takes out a strange shiny object. She flicks a claw against it and a stream of very warm air comes out. You lean into it and watch as it causes the feathers it hits to press down and ripple out. Very warm! Can you nap under this? Does Mother have one? Can she use it maybe every day several times a day?

“You can work that out later,” Nurse says over the hum of the air. “Any questions on caring for her?”

“What does she eat?” Mother asks.

That’s silly! The same thing she eats, of course. Just regurgitated. Nurse turns the heavenly air off and you hiss at her. Mother presses her claws into your back and that shifts your attention because the pressure is really nice. Nurse bares her teeth. “Good question. Can I go get the pokédex?”

“Yes,” Mother says as she moves her claws to ruffle the feathers on your head. Is annoying! And maybe also kind of fun. Will decide after the scritches conclude.

Nurse starts walking away. “Raw or cooked meat is the short answer. Maybe the occasional insect mix or bone tossed in. She’ll move on to full carcasses as she grows up.” She grabs the talking stone and walks back. “Longer answer is that until she grows her first set of teeth you’ll probably need to chew it for her. I think. I’m going to have to call someone off the islands to verify that. Hopefully the egg yolk will keep her full for a few more hours.”

“How often will she need fed?” Mother asks. “I know hydreigon eat once a week but…”

What is a hydreigon and will you get a chance to kill one? They might taste good.

“Again,” Nurse spreads her lips thin with just a little bit of teeth showing. “Let me check with someone who’s cared for a tyrunt before. With any luck I’ll have the information in a few hours.”

The door to Mother’s den slams open. “Cuicatl Ichtaca, I need you to tell Jennifer that we could use a ****ton of money right about now.”

You look up as two angry adults, both larger than Mother, walk in. Both are wet. One is walking in quick, heavy steps while the other stays back and moves delicately. Why are their three adults? There should only be two.

Mother sighs and picks you up into the air. Your resurrected sister immediately rushes in to fill the space on Mother’s lap you were occupying. “Your egg hatched, Kekoa.”

The angry one, Father, moves over and puts his face uncomfortably close to you. “Some kind of a bird?”

“Sort of. The nurse’s pokédex said she was a tyrunt.”

Father closes his eyes and practically hisses before stomping off. “**** me.”

Mother coughs. “She, um. They imprint. Like birds.”

Father stops and looks back at you and Mother. “She imprinted on you?”

“Yeah.” You can feel Mother’s pulse pick up as she lowers you down to the middle of her folded legs, ignoring your sister’s hissing. She begrudgingly makes room but continues to glare at you. “She did.”

“**** me.” Father’s limbs are shaking and his breath is heavy. He turns to face the entry to the den where the third human stands. “Jennifer, can you give us a minute here.”

She slowly turns around. “Yeah, um, I’ll be out with Sir Bubbles if you need me.”

When the portal closes Father slowly and deliberately sits down on a wooden platform with bedding on it. “Keep her,” he says.

“What? That’s… a lot.”

Father sighs. “I owe you for my earlier behavior.”

Mother stops scratching you and places her hands on her legs. “You don’t owe me that much.”

“Cuicatl Ichtaca.” Father leans forward and looks at Mother with a terrifying intensity. “I need you to swear to keep this secret.”

Mother bares her teeth for a moment before leaning down, touching the ground with a claw, and bringing it back to her mouth. “I swear in the name of Huitzilopochtili to never tell another soul without your permission.”

Father slowly relaxes. “I’ve been lying about my parents. They’re dead. I lived in an orphanage.”

“I’m sorry,” Mother instantly replies.

“Don’t be.” Father snickers. “You didn’t kill them.”

Mother exhales and runs a claw through her head feathers. “I meant that I know what it’s like.”

Father tilts his head and looks intensely at Mother. Not out of rage but concern or wariness.

“You want to talk about it?”

“No,” Mother says very quietly.

“Okay.” Father takes a deep breath. “Anyways, my brother and I watched Jurassic Park right before everything went to ****. Then once the storm cleared and the death certificates were signed my brother ****ed off to the mainland to punch a god or something. Left me behind.” Mother is silent. For a few heartbeats so is Father. “I got a letter or a call once a week for a little bit. Then once a month. Then once a year. Then not at all.” His voice cracks. Is he injured? He looks down and shifts his legs. “He came back a few months ago. Tracked me down in Paniola. Thinks everything’s ****ing fine and we can just go back to the way things were before.”

“But you can’t,” Mother adds.

Father nods. “But we can’t.” His face is already very wet but you swear that a little more flows down it. “I can’t take the damn tyrunt. That tells him the debt’s paid and we can go back to the way things were before...” He trails off.

Mother gently lifts herself up and pushes you and Pixie off of her legs. “Hug?”

Father walks across the room and embraces Mother in his very long arms. They stand still for several breaths in the center of the den before Father backs away with a muttered, “Thanks.”

“You want to cuddle? You can see Mother raise up her arms to her chest and tilt her head to the side.

Father walks back to his bedding and sits down. “Not now.”

“Okay.” Mother steps back and slowly lowers herself onto the bedding. Pixie rushes onto her and you settle for leaning against her leg. It will be your turn later and you will move her then. “I suppose she needs a name.”

“Yeah,” Father sighs and leans back onto his bedding. “Just don’t name her Chompy.”

“I was thinking Mitzcocotonaz, actually.”

Father pops his head up a little. “What’s that mean.”

“She will dismember you.”

He flops his head back down. “****ing metal.”

“****ing metal,” Mother solemnly agrees.

It is an excellent name. You will honor it by dismembering many things.

Mother tilts her head and feathers spill onto her face “Now, what were you saying about Genesis?”

You perk up. This is your chance to find out more about the strange third human. The Genesis.

“We caught a castform. She wants to keep it,” Father says in a low and monotonous voice.

Neither says anything for a moment. Father shifts in his nest and Mother starts petting your sister. “That’s a lot of money,” she finally says.

What is money? Can it be killed? If so, why isn’t she excited about an abundance of prey?

“Tell me about it.” Father sits back up and starts speaking louder. “That’s a new tent, a full resupply of potions and pokéballs, a backpack, and as much food as we need.”

Mother’s face scrunches up. “We have $180 in the bank, right?”


She stops petting your sister and starts scratching the side of your head with two of her claws. You lean into it and gently growl with affection. “We definitely won’t starve. Other supplies could stretch things.”

Other supplies? Nest-building stuff? Water? Rocks that shoot out warm air? Those are very important. Something rumbles in your gut. Time to poop. Where? You reach up and gently tug on Mother’s arm. She starts and looks down at you. “Hey. Uh, need anything?”

“Where do I poop?” you ask.

She bares her teeth and stands. Your sister jumps down to the floor as she does. “Kekoa, mind helping me outside? Coco needs to go.” Who is Coco—oh, you are Coco!


Outside is warm and moist and absolutely wonderful and you don’t know why Mother and Father live inside of a tree when they could be out here. And water is coming down from above you! How! You stare up to investigate it but no answers appear. What were you here for? Oh, right. “Where do I poop?” you ask Mother.

“Anywhere on the green plants.”

There are many green plants. So many places to poop! You walk forward and defecate on some green plants just like Mother told you to. Right after you step away Pixie steps up, pops a leg, and pees right where you just went before huffing and walking back to Mother near the tree and out of the water.

Should you follow her? You glance up at the sky again and it lights up and roars in response. You rush back to Mother for protection and she brings you back inside the safety of the tree.


“As it turns out not many places have hatched tyrunt,” Nurse says. “A few hatchlings in Shanghai but they’ve classified the details. The parks in San Diego and Panama are closed at this hour. Finally got ahold of a safari in Dubai.” Mother nods slowly and Nurse continues. “They’re hardier than I’d feared and Alola’s climate is good for them. Until she starts teething you should mainly feed her regurgitated poultry.”

Mother’s mouth twists and she tilts her head to the side. “Teething?”

“Yup.” Nurse starts rummaging through strange white leaves on her desk until she finally settles on one. “Just like human babies. In a few weeks she’ll start biting everything she can wrap her jaws around.”

Neither party speaks for a while. You take the opportunity to look around at the strange cave. It takes you a few sweeps of the room but you finally find the warm air tablet. You tense up and prepare to run over to it when Mother resumes speaking. “I suppose I should have expected that.”

Wait. Her tone is wrong. Are they talking about you? Is she disappointed in you? Why? You love her and she loves you. For a moent you wonder if you want the question answered but then you decide to ask it aloud anyway. Mother starts before calming down and pressing a few claws into your feathers. When she speaks again it’s different somehow. Less clear. More like you talk. Except some of the sounds are wrong. You can’t really explain it. “Not disappointed,” she says. “Just working out some logistics.”

“What are logistics?”

She pauses before answering in the same strange way. “When and where to hunt.”

That makes a lot of sense!

Mother bares her teeth and switches back to her smooth way of talking. “Sorry. She just wanted to know what we were talking about. Any advice on getting through teething?”

Nurse grimaces and pushes her hands together so that the claws interlock. “Thick gloves and a firm hand? I’ve never worked with tyrunt but that’s the answer I give for everything else.”

“Very, very thick gloves,” Mother says with the same solemnity with which she declared your name to be ****ing metal. Whatever metal means.

“Well,” Nurse says. “Maybe.” She ruffles through a few more leaves. “Tyrunt have a strong bite but it’s proportional to their size. A young tyrunt isn’t exactly crushing steel.” She bares her teeth and leans back. “Besides, being able to talk to her in a way she understands is a big deal. If she listens.”

A claw runs through your headfeathers. “She’s been a very good listener so far.” You have been!

Nurse gets up and walks over to a strange blocky object. She opens it and a wave of cool air shoots out. Just like Pixie. You jump down to investigate but Nurse closes it again and the air stops. Then she starts walking back and you jump back up to Mother and almost miss and fall because it’s a big jump but she scoops you up and puts you on her lap because she loves you.

“The kitchen staff had some leftover pidove if you want to use it.”

“So…” Mother lowers her claws to the table and crosses her legs. “I need to chew it and spit it out to her?”

“That’s the idea.”

“But won’t I pass on diseases or something?”

Nurse shakes her head. “The park in Dubai didn’t think so. You’re a modern non-pokémon mammal and she’s a protobird pokémon from sixty-five million years ago. There’s probably not many diseases you could communicate to her.”

“Okay…” Mother sounds reluctant but she does reach out and eventually take a small mass of something vaguely meat-scented. She manipulates the object and pulls out a smaller lump that is definitely meat. Mother slowly brings it to her mouth and chews it. You (successfully!) jump the small distance up onto the big flat surface and hold your mouth up and open so that she can drop the food in. After thoroughly digesting the meat Mother slowly leans forward and you start waving your tail back and forth in anticipation.

“You can spit it at any time,” Nurse says. Mother does. You immediately snap your jaws shut and swallow the food.

It tastes a little strange. You aren’t entirely sure what meat is supposed to taste like but not quite like that. It’s still very good, though.

“Now, there’s one last thing you’ll need to take care of,” Nurse says as Mother stands up. Do you have a pokéball on you?”

“No. We have some upstairs.”

Nurse moves to put the meat container back into the cold rock. “You can do it there. Or you can bring her back down if you want help.”

Mother shakes her head. “I think I can do it.” She pauses. “Will a nest ball work?”

“That’s what I would recommend you use,” Nurse says as she turns back around with bared teeth. “It’s the idea ball for most newborns and hatchlings. Just switch her to a more suitable one when she grows up a bit.”

“Oh.” Mother freezes up. “How quickly do they grow up?”

“Not so fast that we have to discuss it tonight.” Nurse walks over and puts a hand on Mother’s shoulder. “You’ve had a long day. Go up and rest. Long term planning can wait for the morning.”



Is this

This is an egg.

Why are you in an egg again?


You hatch for the second today. Except this time your feathers are dry and Mother’s looking down at you and you’re both in the same places you were in before you were re-egged.

“Why was I in an egg again?” you ask.

“Not egg. More… sleep.” Her face scrunches up and she keeps a single claw extended until she speaks again. “Making you sleep is within my power.”

Red light. Sleep. Returning later. “That’s how you raised Sister from the dead?” you ask.

She negation growls. “Not death. Sleep.”

You think you understood her meaning. The phrases are simple even if she’s pretending that she can’t pronounce the words. They also make absolutely no sense. Not yet. Maybe they should? You’ll think about it.

Mother extends a hand and you rub your head into it. Being hatched is much better than being unhatched. She reaches down and slowly lowers the strange orb in her hands to the ground. Then she sits back up and pulls a giant leaf made of feathers over her. You narrowly manage to avoid being subsumed by it before she finishes pulling it up and lies down. Pixie immediately lunges onto her chest and extends all of her tails over her abdomen. “Let your sister sleep, Pix.”

Oh. It is sleep time! Except not in the egg? You push your sister’s tails aside and rest on Mother’s abdomen. Pixie hisses and glares at you but ultimately just walks around in a tight circle and plops back down so that she’s facing you and her tails are resting on top of her. Interesting. You walk in a tight circle but cannot get your tail on top of your body. Unfair!

Colorful moving images spring up on a rock on the other side of the nesting chamber. If Mother was not giving you and Pixie an abundance of scritches you would go and investigate it up close. For now you can watch from a distance.

Father walks back from the rock and sits down in the middle of the nest. Genesis is on the opposite side with her strange round creature that you are not supposed to attack unless you want to go to sleep and wake up with all of your feathers soaked in water. She also has her Pixie-shaped-plant and a floating white thing that taunts you by staying just out of reach at all times. Someday you will catch it and you will be very satisfied.

Water starts moving on the screen. You stare intently but nothing really changes so you relax a bit and sit down and press into Mother. Then a deep voice starts talking and you have to wildly look around to see where it’s coming from.

“Who’s the narrator?” Mother asks.

“No idea.” Father answers. “Why?”

“He has a very good voice.”

Red dot! There’s a red dot on the stone. You tense to pounce and half-expect Mother to stop you. She doesn’t! You jump off of the nest and charge the stone. Well, charge the tree the stone is on. It’s higher up than you expected. Well, you can still jump—red light everywhere.


This time Mother is staring right at you when you hatch. Same Mother. Same Sister. Same Father. Same extra adult on the nest. Was this—

“Myth,” mother says in her broken, stilted speech. “Story. Red prey is past.”

It takes you a bit to process that. Well, it takes you a bit to figure out what the words even were. Then it takes you another bit to process. Two bits. “Stone is myth-telling?” you finally ask. Mother nods. Okay. Story stone should not be attacked.

The story resumes.

A fish appears and starts chasing the red lights. Unfair! You want to chase them.

There are scenes of prey. Big, proper prey. Adults, mostly. Too big to attack on your own. But then there’s an egg. An egg that rolls all the way down a waterfall and a hill until it comes to rest and—baby prey! You tense up and eye the delicious small baby as adults comes back. You hiss at the adults. They need to stop blocking your hunts.

Finally, thankfully, the baby wanders off on its own. You slowly rise up on your legs and crouch down, tail pressed straight back. Mother says that you can’t attack the story stone but you still want to practice stalking your prey.

“Coco’s about to pounce,” Father says. Mother picks your sleep egg up and holds it at her side, ready to use it. She won’t have to because you’re very good and won’t actually attack the baby in the story. Mother should just be happy that you want to practice so much.

Another baby appears! This one has a wide bony face and is stalking an insect, just like you’re doing. But then it fails and gets peed on by the bug. Ew. Now it will taste gross when you eat it. Well, if you could eat it. Squarefaces are often covered in bug pee. That is the important lesson you will take away from this.

The two babies collide and they don’t seem to like each other much. You do find out the names for the species though: the long-necked ones are called longnecks and the three-horned ones are threehorns. Very intuitive. You approve. Before you can go back to stalking both babies an adult threehorn comes in and starts yelling.

“Come on, Cera. Threehorns never play with longnecks.”

“Bit heavy-handed,” Mother says.

“It’s for kids,” Genesis responds.

Whatever that means, Mother stops questioning the story. The adults come back. Then the kids get lost again. You tense up and shake out your hips a little as you lower down. “Coco’s doing it again,” Kekoa says.

“And I’m holding her ball.”

She is but she won’t need it. Pixie isn’t stalking the prey but is looking at you with interest. Not that you can figure out what you—

An adult appears on screen. One of your adults! Without any feathers. Strange. You plop back down to watch a proper hunt play out. Except it doesn’t. The babies are cowards who cheat and hide behind wood which an adult could totally get through but doesn’t for some reason. It is very confusing. No, wait! It’s working! The adult has the babies cornered and… and the ground starts shaking as giant cracks open up in it. Adults and babies yell on screen but the sharptooth, you’re called a sharptooth!, keeps pressing the attack like a proper predator until—until the longneck mother whips her tail into the sharptooth and knocks it down into the earth.

No! That’s incredibly unrealistic. The sharptooth would have killed the Mother and all the babies and gone home to nap. Why are your parents watching lies? You turn around to voice your extreme displeasure to Mother.

“I know,” she responds in her rough language. “Is warning. Bad hunting.”

Oh. So the real story is that you shouldn’t hunt near places you could fall. And that you shouldn’t attack young threehorns because many of them have insect pee on them. And that longneck adults are cheaters who sometimes win even though they shouldn’t but the babies are tiny and easy prey. And that you should just rip through roots and wood and kill prey as soon as you can. So many useful lessons!

The stone grows darker and the deep-voiced “narrator” starts speaking nonsense again because the sharptooth was killed and stories of its many triumphs in battle must be told. When the narrator stops speaking the baby longneck stands before its mother, who appears gravely injured. This is an excellent time to make a kill. The sharptooth should have just waited for the ground to stop opening up. Another mistake you will never make from now on.

“Mother? Please get up.”

“I’m not sure that I can, Littlefoot.”

Your mother turns to face the other adults. “So this is a kids movie, huh?”

Father stares impassively ahead, curling his claws around his hands. Genesis starts at the question and shrugs. “I guess? I, uh, I didn’t really remember that.”

“Rule #12: Jennifer doesn’t get to pick movie night,” Father commands.


Genesis snorts and looks away. “Well, sorry I guess.”

The adult longneck slumps down and stops breathing.

“Mother? Mother?” The longneck’s voice drops. “Mother? Please get up.”

“Holy ****.” Father whispers. His eyes are wide and his claws are still curled. “What the actual ****?”

The rock turns black. When color returns the baby encounters a giant armored beast with spikes on its back and a tail club. How would you kill that? Is the belly armored? You can’t tell. As long as it is on the rock you will do your best to figure it out.

“Oh, it’s not your fault. It’s not your mother’s fault. Now, you pay attention to old Rooter. It is nobody’s fault. The great circle of life has begun. But see, not all of us arrive at the same time.”

You smell something behind you. A glance shows that there’s strange water near Mother’s eyes. She crosses her arms across her chest and takes long, distorted breaths. Is she under attack? Did more terrible sand strike her eye? Pixie stands up on her hind legs and presses her paws into Mother’s chest. She unfolds an arm and pulls your sister closer. Out of the corner of your eye you see Father look over and immediately look away.

Unsure of what to do, you turn back to look at the story stone. The baby is alone now. It appears to be weak and starving. Almost unconsciously you start to crouch again at the opportunity to—a tail flicks your leg hard and you take off before you can even figure out why you’re running.

Red light engulfs you well before you reach the stone.
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