I try to calm the bedrock down, it's had a stressful day after all, with all the lawsuits, the triggering and the purposely bad Swedish.
I try to build back up the foundation of trust that I ,ashamedly, have torn down again and again. I Tell the bedrock that I am truly and utterly sorry, and that from this point forward I'll be here beside it, through war and peace, through pain and struggle. I tell the bedrock that it would make sense for it to hate me, I did throw it into the sun twice after all, I tell it that it shouldn't feel like it needs to trust me ,I understand that it might not be there yet, and maybe it never will be, and that is fair, I absolutely get it, I understand.
I tell it that perhaps I don't deserve it's trust, I did all those terrible things after all and that cannot change, the past isn't malleable ,only the lenses through which we see it. But ,I say, but I know that unlike the past the future is malleable, it is not yet set. The future only sets when it goes through the present and becomes the past, that, that is the passage of time. Bedrock , I continue, bedrock please, allow the future to be better than the past by making the right choices in the present, is it the right choice to trust me now bedrock?, that I cannot say because I do not know. I am a strong believer in redemption , the idea that people can become better, is it not a noble sentiment bedrock my friend?, I hope you will allow me to at least attempt to redeem myself, to become a better man. Is that not to the meaning of life? To become better?
I understand ,bedrock, that this isn't easy ,most things worth doing aren't easy, but we need to start a process that will help us to begin to heal. I won't ask you to forgive me because I don't think I deserve that, but bedrock I will ask you something, what in your existence do you treasure most? I ask you this not to simply pry, no, but to better myself so I can become more like that which you most treasure, as a dependable bedrock like you would surely value most the best things in life.
I sit down next to the bedrock and I wait, sorrowfully, guilt filling my eyes with a contorted look of pain. I look up at the bedrock as I await it's response.
Once the bedrock has responded I will spit at it and mockingly laugh at it, I then speak once again to the bedrock, telling it that I only asked what it treasured most so I could take that from it first, and I make good on my word and take away what the bedrock treasures most. I think to myself, what a fool the bedrock is, but then I wonder if I am the fool for teaching the bedrock such a miserable lesson, I do not want the bedrock to become a pessimist as they are never disappointed and I want to disappoint the bedrock. I then wonder where I am, if this is hell for bedrocks or something like that, I then decide that this post has run it's course.