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Name: Joshua Hoffman
Gender: Male
Age: 18
Theme Songs: Don't Give Up // Toby Fox,
Abraham // Sufjan Stevens
Appearance: First and foremost, Joshua is soft. His appearance is just... soft and demure, his skin is soft, his hair is soft, his gaze is soft. There is almost nothing rough about him. Secondly, Joshua is RIDICULOUSLY tall. He has the nickname "Joshua the Great" because he's so tall. He stands at 6'8", and he's on the thin side. He's not so thin that he's awkward and gangling, but graceful and serene, almost elfish in feature. His skin is a soft pale, and dotted with light freckles across the bridge of his nose and his shoulders and honestly? Everywhere. His hair is very soft and platinum blonde, styled in a simple coiffed undercut. His eyes are large and expressive, and a dazzling gunmetal blue. His eyebrows are clean and thin, and darker than his hair. Again, his features are nigh elfish -- smooth lines and curves, defined cheeks, jaw, and collarbones. His nose is sharp and smooth, his lips thin. He doesn't have much body hair to begin with, and it's very light so it doesn't show up. He keeps himself clean-shaven anyway. The veins in his hands and forearms protrude some, and faint veins/arteries show up nicely against his skin. His voice is very open, with a sound like liquid silver, and as deep as the Marina Trench. Joshua is missing his left leg from about the mid-thigh down, and has a simple prosthetic to, y'know, walk. The prosthetic is quite light, and made of black carbon fiber.
As for clothing, he's pretty simple. He mostly wears dark colors, primarily in blues, reds, and greens, though the occasional light blue will be thrown in there. He prefers simple t-shirts and jeans, with gray converse. Occasionally he might spice it up and wear a crop top, or a flannel button up with the sleeves rolled up to his elbows. That's... pretty much it. He doesn't wear shorts often, as he prefers to keep his leg hidden, but he'll wear them on occasion. When he isn't wearing his leg, he uses crutches to stay balanced (unless it's a short walk, in which case hopping is acceptable). He wears a woven leather band on his right wrist, and a cross necklace that's tucked underneath his shirt. He also has his ears pierced.
Personality: Joshua is a very calm person. "Angry" is not a word you could ever use to describe Joshua. Ever. He is very laid-back, and quite often, a content person. He does go through periods of sadness, and while he's never angry, he can be quite fearful. He isn't the type of person to throw himself into the action, he has to be nicely nudged. He wants the best for others, though. He wants people to be happy and joyful. He is incredibly sweet and charming, and very loving as well as being very lovable. He loves to be loved. He loves to be dragged along to things, and he loves being with people. When he loves someone, whether platonically or romantically, he gives them his all. He wants them to be better, he longs for a better life. He hates anger, and will often leave if things start heating up. However. If pushed hard enough, Joshua
will lash out. And you don't want to be there if that happens. (See: "demons run when a gentle man goes to war.")
Joshua is VERY sensitive, to everything. This is both a good and a bad thing -- he will adore the little kind things, but he's upset easily. He hates it when people call him out on this. He knows he's sensitive, you don't need to comment. Joshua is a loyal, trusting, and warm kind of person, as well as being very trustworthy. He's a natural confidant. His internal drive is to help people. He has no problems with blood or needles, and combined these two aspects into a love of nursing. He wants to be a nurse so he can help heal. Despite being very calm, Joshua is low-key passionate about
everything. It can be hard to tell, because of how laid-back he is, but he does put a lot of work into the things he loves and cares about. He's very smart, and does well in school no matter the topic. (Except PE, he gets too scared and self-conscious to function properly in those classes.)
Joshua is a very artistic person. He loves reading and writing poetry, he loves playing with ink, and he loves photography. His poetry and photography are very important to him, and he clings to these hobbies as Major Personality Traits. He adores flowers, they're likely the key to his heart. He has a book full of pressed flowers. His room has a vase of dried ones. He loves beauty, and can easily find it anywhere he looks. Joshua is also very talented at learning languages, and is fluent in Dutch, English, ASL, German, French, and Swedish. He's currently learning Arabic for the hell of it. He wants to be loved. Joshua could be considered bi, but he's 90/10 and more attracted to guys, so often just pegs himself as gay. He loves music, and has been primarily captivated with stringed instruments. He plays the guitar, the piano, and the cello, though he's been learning how to play the violin recently. He has a lovely singing voice, and can be caught singing when he doesn't think anyone else is around. Joshua is a non-denominational Christian, and reads the bible pretty often for someone who's not religious. He's also a morning person, and loves the sunrise.
While Joshua spends much of his life seemingly calm and content, there is a storm constantly brewing in his mind. Joshua suffers from depression, anxiety, and PTSD. His anxiety has a way of ruling his life, and he often lets his worries get the best of him. He has little to no faith in himself. He's easily flustered and wears his heart on his sleeve, and has a very hard time saying no to people. Joshua is incredibly insecure, and is terrified of failure. He's afraid that if he fails, his world will shatter and he will fall apart. He has kept a delicate balance in his world, and fights to keep it. He is easily startled, and loud, sudden noises will often put him into a panic. Fireworks are his worst nemesis. He wants to get better, but he can't imagine a future, so it's difficult for him to do so. He can be very pessimistic, and will usually listen to the negative voice. He cries, and he hates that too.
In all, Joshua is a good kid. His primary drive is to make others feel safe and happy, he wants to heal people. Despite his disbelief in a future, he wants to believe that he too will be healed. He so desperately wants a future. He's very determined, and will fight for others' futures, believing that he will find a future of his own. He is tenacious, and if he truly wants something, he will go after it. He mostly wants other's happiness. He's strong, and even though much has been thrown his way, he wants to keep going. He's been through hell and back. He has no faith in himself, but he wants that faith. He refuses to give up.
History: Joshua was an accident. Ten years younger than his older brother Caleb, Joshua caught his parents by surprise. His father left before he was born, leaving Rachel Hoffman to care for the two boys on her own in Sandgem Town, Sinnoh. Both Caleb and Joshua are biblical names -- they were named for the two Israelites who returned from the land of Canaan with a good report. Rachel taught her sons the bible, though none of them were religious. Unfortunately, despite being a decent caregiver and breadwinner, there wasn't much good in Rachel. She was very rough, and with her husband gone, there wasn't much to tell her what to do.
Caleb had been dealing with his mother far longer than Joshua ever could, and was used to it. He had a strong personality, the kind everyone loved. But, he had put up walls to protect himself, and those walls would never, could never come down. He immediately took to his younger brother, offering love, protection, and support. Rachel was physically and verbally abusive, to both boys. Caleb knew how to handle it, -ish. Joshua was sensitive, and broke down crying quite a bit. Whenever something happened, Caleb would be right by Joshua's side, and would tell his own pokemon, Staravia, to watch after his little brother while he was at school. Caleb showed Joshua the world, and Joshua felt almost as much joy as Caleb did when Staravia evolved into Staraptor.
Caleb was handsome, strong, well liked by the ladies, and carried the Hoffman traits of being ridiculously tall and quite blonde. He went to a specialized culinary school in Jubilife City, and was well liked by almost everyone. For his whole life, he had put up with the abuses of his mother, and he hid it so well that no one noticed a thing. Unfortunately, in return for less focus on his little brother, his mother began to sexually abuse him. Caleb took it like he had taken everything else -- just let it happen, it will be over soon. The years of stress, the added weight, everything started to wear down on Caleb. One summer day, when he was 17 years old, he felt as though his world was coming crashing down, and he couldn't hold himself up any longer. He tearfully waved Staraptor off, not wanting his precious bird around to stop him. He spent the day locked up in his room, away from everyone, away from Joshua. Joshua wandered the house alone, confused as to where everyone went. He was fine with his mother being gone, but usually
someone was home. The house was cold and dark. Caleb had to be home, it was late. Where was he? The door to his room is ajar. Maybe he's...
The first thing Joshua saw was a gun to Caleb's head. The last thing Caleb saw was a horrified Joshua. Time seemed to slow down as Caleb fell, then crashed into Joshua's face as his body hit the floor. Joshua was overcome. Tears started pouring down his face, and the only thing he could do was run away, as fast as his little seven-year-old body could handle. He ran out of the house and into the woods, not knowing what to look for, but knowing that he wanted to be anywhere but here. The forest and the shoreline became a temporary solace. Maybe when he came back, Caleb would still be there. Maybe he actually saw his long-lost dad, or his mom or something. Maybe it was all a dream.
Joshua came home to police lights and investigators. The notes written by Caleb revealed the hells he had gone through, and Joshua's living witness confirmed it. Rachel was taken to court, and was found guilty. She was taken away, leaving young Joshua alone. His mother was jailed, his father had nearly fallen off the map, Rachel had no siblings -- but his father did. Coming out of the woodwork at this time was Aaron Hoffman, Joshua's uncle. He had just returned to his home in Ecruteak City after a study abroad session. He was contacted if he would take care of the boy, and Aaron quickly accepted. Joshua was taken into his beautiful large house in Ecruteak, and quickly made it his home. He was enthralled by all the art and love and life. Aaron was an art history professor at Ecruteak University, and Joshua was shown the wide world of the fine arts. Joshua slowly learned to love. Not long after he arrived in Ecruteak, Aaron gave Joshua a white egg with odd red and blue markings on it. He had gotten it from a friend in the University, and after hearing what Aaron's nephew had gone through, gave it to Aaron for Joshua. It soon hatched into a togepi. Joshua couldn't help but crying when he met the little pokemon. He named the togepi Isaac, after the son of Abraham. He had always felt close to that story, of a father almost sacrificing a son, only to be stopped by the hand of God.
As he grew up, he found a love for music, especially stringed instruments. He was started young on the cello before branching out into piano, and eventually guitar. He loved to paint, especially with all of Aaron's india ink just lying around. Joshua's whole life had changed suddenly, and little Joshua had no problem with it. He grew stronger, taller, and by the age of twelve, he was the tallest in his class, and would stay that way for the rest of his schooling years. However, tragedy struck when he was thirteen -- or rather, a car struck.
Joshua was waiting in the car for Aaron. It had been a long day at the University, and the parking lot was nigh empty. Joshua sat in the driver's seat, waiting for Aaron. It was easier to lock and unlock the car from there. He was leaning back, stretching one ridiculously long leg and keeping the other tucked underneath him. He had his eyes closed, listening to music, and opened his eyes only to see the headlights of an oncoming car. Two drunk college students were playing around in the parking lot, and crashed into Aaron's car head on. Joshua found his left leg crushed and pinned underneath the twisted metal of the car. He could barely cry out in pain, let alone move. When he was finally removed from the car, his left leg was mangled, the bones shattered. The rest of Joshua's body was still beaten up, a broken rib, a fractured arm, bruises and cuts, but he healed eventually. ...Mostly. His left leg, unfortunately, was so twisted and shattered and mangled that it had severely compromised bloodflow and began to die. By the time he got to the hospital, it was already too late. The surgeons put him under to correct his right leg, but when he woke up in the hospital bed, Joshua was missing his left leg from the mid-thigh down. It was devastating to the boy. His emotional state was already compromised, with the onset of depression, anxiety, and PTSD from the years before, but the loss of his leg plunged him in a deep depression. He felt alone, hopeless, future-less.
It was poetry, photography, and a prosthetic that pulled Joshua out of his depression. The fight left in Joshua refused to give in, and he found solace and comfort in reading poetry. He collected poems and hung them about his room. He used the camera on his phone to take pictures of things mentioned in the poems he loved, or merely things he found beautiful. It was only a month after the surgery that Joshua received his prosthetic limb and started physical therapy. With Isaac's support, he threw himself into therapy, he began to write poems, he was given a camera for his 14th birthday. He continued musicking, and overcame his months long trials of being lopsided. Eventually, he even came to love it that way. He missed feeling in his left leg, sure, but it
was amusing to take his leg off in front of people.
Joshua had always been an amazing student, and despite some setbacks due to therapy and a leg, he quickly caught up. He graduated at the top of his class, and with Aaron working at Ecruteak University, he knew he could get in easily. But, with permission from Aaron, he applied to become a pokemon trainer and adventure with Isaac by his side. He was accepted, and set off to Newbark Town, where he is now.
Other: Remarkably amazing at solitaire and other various card games. Also facebook games.
Nickname: Isaac
Species: Togepi
Gender: Male
Personality: MY SON. Isaac is happy-go-lucky, nothing can bring him down. He loves life and people and joy! He wants to see people happy! Especially Joshua. Isaac is a kind pokemon, and will do everything in his power to make people feel better. He aids in Joshua's mental hiccups, and is right by his side during a depressive episode, an anxiety attack, panic attack, even just when Joshua's afraid. He is very protective of those he loves.
History: Included in Joshua's history: "Not long after he arrived in Ecruteak, Aaron gave Joshua a white egg with odd red and blue markings on it. He had gotten it from a friend in the University, and after hearing what Aaron's nephew had gone through, gave it to Aaron for Joshua. It soon hatched into a togepi. Joshua couldn't help but crying when he met the little pokemon. He named the togepi Isaac, after the son of Abraham. He had always felt close to that story, of a father almost sacrificing a son, only to be stopped by the hand of God."
Other: Bigger than your standard Togepi. If the pokedex height is 1', then Isaac is 1.5'.
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