Discuss my 'Feelings'? OK:
I am currently revising for my final GCSE exams and it absolute Hell. Not only that, but the place I have to go to school for is like Purgatory. Drugs, some bottles of Alcohol, cigarettes, you name it all the illegal stuff are sold/deals set up on site and it is crazy. I am into a certain someone and I know I want her, she knows I want her and I know she knows I want her. I don't know what's going on but I think something's there. Even though she has a boyfriend and I am too much of a 'Deranged Psychopath' to date, she keeps on trying to talk to me a lot and stuff. Whenever we're both in the room and no matter who else is in the room, she tries to annoy me and she laughes at it but she also sees that I enjoy it too. We've been good friends for four years and I've noticed how great of a person she has been to me all that time. I mean I was interested in smoking hot girls back then but now (I'm not saying she's ugly, she is amazing) I'm only into her. I've tried distracting myself from her onto other people and other stuff, but I can't stop thinking about her. Also whenever I do get to talk to her, she does most of the talking as she is the only person I am ever nervous about talking to-WTF is this?
Then there are the boys at school, and they call me deranged. One of them is this really scrawny little annoyance. He tries to act hard all the time but everyone secretly hates him and three years ago he and several of his mates jumped me for no reason IN the school. Held my own but there were about eight of them and he brags about it ever since. Now he's talking to me about how my dad and his dad knew each other at school, which I know is true because I asked mine. Now he really annoys me and I was planning to get my revenge on him at the end of the schoolyear which everyone knew and wanted to happen, but the newboy ruined everything and told him. Now he knows I hate him and he's making my life even more hell. I want revenge on him so badly but this annoys the girl I like and is what makes me look bad.
So if this is relevant to the whole 'Share your feelings' to this thread, WTF do I actually do about them? Do I go on a suicide mission and try to kill the boy who has been annoying me for years and has pretty much ruined me? Or do I dare chance it with this girl who everyone says is not interested in my and is seeing someone, but...we're drawn to each other for some reason yet she's playing hard to get
After reading the previous posts, I lol'd and can see this will be different to the rest but this is the first thing I thought of when I saw this thread and so posted it.