ArcanineOod said:
~When I first started writing fanfiction, I wrote SUCH a bad fanfic I'm cringing just thinking about it. It was a story that shipped Brock with a Mary Sue OC character who was a blatant self insert. Some of it was even told from her point of view! It was just terrible >_<
Aaah, me too. I didn't even have the cover of being a Mary Sue, though; mine was a straight-up self-insert, no pretense. Same name, same description, down to the very same outfit I was wearing at the time. Oh youth. But I still think the story was kind of awesome, haha. If could get past the shame of ever writing it, I might actually polish it up and publish. XP
And as for my other my other confessions:
- I realized recently that I'm not much of a shipper anymore. All the characteristics are still in place, and I look at and interpret books/shows the way I did as a shipper, but I honestly only 'support' about three or four, maybe five ships, and only one of those (the OTP) seriously. And it feels weird, because I used to have so many favorite ships, did all the shipping stuff, made a big deal about the shipping in all the movies and shows I watched, books I read, but I just stopped for some reason. I miss it a lot.
- I still ship Rocketshipping like it's my job. At this point, I honestly cannot see myself ever NOT shipping it. Not falling out of interest, not moving on to anything else, not find a ship I'd like better. (God forbid.) But the bigger sin? Probably that I still consider any opposing ships a personal affront to me. I don't like any ship ever that goes against Rocketshipping; most of them I actively dislike, and I can't stand hearing any of them discussed. Not one little bit. And even better- I'm not remorseful at all. I'm sure that I really should be... I mean, it's rude, for one thing, but I think my ship is worth it. :3
- I've tried writing for Blackjack Gabbiani's kink meme, but I stopped before posting anything. It was partly because I didn't want to be known for writing porn that wasn't my ship, but mostly because I'm a terrible smut author and didn't think any stories were good enough. (Also it's kind of creepy that I can tell who almost all of the requesters are.)
- I have several hundred first sentences, plot outlines, almost-finished vignettes, character sketches, and slice-of-life romantic scenes written, and exactly one fic to show after over five years of attempting to put out some good shipping fan-fiction. I have some epic stuff planned, and it kills me that I'm, apparently, wholly unable to actually *write* anything.
- I get angry when I can't find any new songs that remind me of my ship.
- I squeed a little bit when I looked through this thread and saw that I wasn't alone in my thoughts on wanting to be able to ship Harley het pairings. (And yet my Harley OTP is slash. With Brock, no less. Go figure.)
- I collect action figures of the characters in one of my ships, and do it in pairs. Out of every individual collection available, I want one of both characters. And then I take pictures. Somehow, this makes me feel kinda dirty. But definitely a little more stupid than dirty. xP
(Also there are waaay more collections out there than I care to consider, lol. It might end up very expensive to keep this habit up. ha.)