I was...or rather still am in love with one particular celebrity. She was supposed to be my fairy tale ending, and I believed so much she was my soul-mate, because I didn't intentionally fall in love with, but I did, and the love I felt for her was so strong, I was willing to sacrifice my life just so she could be with someone she was meant to be with, even if that person wasn't me.
Then I found out in June she was pregnant and getting married. And despite the thought of being with her, is now never going to happen (as if it was going to ever happen period) I still want to be with her.
The pain I feel knowing that I will never be with her, makes me believe I will never find anyone special. Because if I loved her as I did, unintentionally, and it hurt more than any other girl that I've ever loved due to what happened. I don't even want to imagine the pain I will suffer for the next girl/woman I fall in love with that's going to end up not going the way I hoped.
Oh well, right? It's not like I have anything to offer women anyway. I'll just sit in my room, go on the forums for hours on end, maybe have a minimum wage job, and that'll be life.