umbreunatic
Well-Known Member
Oh my...I haven't posted here in aaaaaages!
And I do seem to remember you xD
I haven't posted for like 1-2 years. So I will introduce myself again xD (this being the first post made by me in 2010).
I am a dutch guy, 22 years old, my name is Merijn, which probably none of you can pronounce correctly.
I figured out that I liked boys three years ago. Back then I was in love with a hetero guy (got that information when I said I liked him on a intimid way).
I was active on sppf back then, but then I started dating guys irl, I think that was when I became inactive here. I met a lot of dutch gay guys, and some are false *****es to say so. They are like pretending to like you, just to have a ****/ kissing with touching, etc. Even so, I had a gay "friend" (not boyfriend) who talked me into his bed, screwed me, took back everything, and started saying I was a **** who wanted to have sex all the time. really funny I even had a gay stalker. a guy that couldn't stop following me, treathening me, gossiping about me (If all that he say is right, then I would be a pedofile, having autism, and I am lying about my study to impress people.. etc. etc.). The only way he had influence on me, was via friends. And he is one of the big names in the small dutch gay world.
Anyway that was the bad stuff . The netherlands are really pro gay, so coming out to my friends was kinda easy, my parents where also okay with it, though my mother wants me to confirm things all the time (Do I still like girls, did I have sex and how many times, and how did I do it xD).
Anyway . currently I have found a boy I liked, and he liked me too, we are now into a relationship (today being day 11) he is my first boyfriend, and it is in a way very new to me, but! it is even more new to him, I am the first guy with whom he kissed (although he already knew he was gay). But I am his first close gay friend (to say so xD).
Anyway I am still into the clouds. although there is a little thing bothering me, our ages, we differ 6 years, he is 6 years younger. I have nothing to fear from his family, since I already met them, and they are all very cool with me (even his dad and mum).
Today is also his birthday, he became 16 (I am 22!), and for the netherlands it means that we are now legal to have a relation.
Anyway . you probably would like to ask me "what do you see in such a young person?" When I started at the gay world, I thought if a boy and I differ less then 4 ages, then it is okay to me, otherwise not. It soon became 5 years. And the upper boundary (dating an older guy) also changed, that became like 8-9 years.
Right now, because of things said before (the stalker) I have a negative reputation among the homosexuals from 18-21. Not all know me, but my name became famous along the gay people in the netherlands, of course this only goes for the people out of the core of the dutch gay world (some gay person who only has heterosexual friends has nothing to do with me of course )
Anyway because of that all, I understood I wanted to find a reliable person, someone that doesn't swap sides just because of one false rumor about me. That is why I looked more to older people.
Anyway . my current boyfriend crossed my path, he is still young, he is intelligent, cute, already fully grown (he is 6"5 or in dutch 197 cm), making him as tall as me xD. He is very grown up for his age, you would say he acts like a person of 19 years old, maybe even 20.
But yeah, I am crazy about him and he is crazy about me
and I am so lucky to have found him. Anyway I am back, but don't expect to much from me.
I have learned a lot in the past years, and I can give advice.
One big thing I wanted to say. Earlier I was very proud that I was dutch, and that our country supports gay people. But currently I think that even so, the hatred under gays in the netherlands, is really big, and a lot of gay teens commit suicuide for that reason. That is what makes me sad.