Okay, so it's that time every several months when Kairne comes back for a small bit. Hopefully, the small bit of time this go around is significantly longer than the last few times.
For those who do not know me, I do not blame you. I've been with the club for a few years, but have a tendency to go on long hiatuses with no warning. It's been months since I've posted here. If you remember seeing someone saying the word "bear" as a noun, it was probably me. Last time I posted, I was probably living in Arkansas. Well, now, I'm living in Sacramento. As much as I hate the specific ghetto neighbourhood I am in, I can't complain because the only gay bear/leather bar in the city is a couple blocks walk away.
I'm getting involved with the local bear group, attending fun events like pizza parties, beer busts, and bear brunches, and I've been playing with a fun and hot daddy bear since Christmas, which was like three days after I met him at a brunch. Some of the other bears seem to have interest in me, as well (likely because, at 21, I'm still quite the novelty in a group where the average age is probably old enough to have kids my age, or older. In fact, I think some might actually have kids older than me), and I'm looking forward to a Game/Movie Night this weekend, because the guy hosting it has a hot tub (Maximum Occupancy: 8-9 Bears). I think half or more of the couples in the group are open, too, which is fun.
It's not all good, though. My depression's been really bad lately, and I've had some worse auditory hallucinations than ever before. Voices are becoming more frequent, if still a rare occurrence. I'm off my meds because I haven't gotten back into therapy here in Sacramento. I also have a really bad sore throat right now, and it's flu season. Not that I believe I have the flu, but it still sucks. And I'm out of tissue. Also, I have been having some bad insomnia issues, as well.
On a last note, I just finished watching Bear City on Netflix for like the millionth (read: third) time, and I have to say it is one of the most realistic portrayals of gay culture (specifically, bear culture is the main focus) I have seen. The dialogue is quite good, and quite accurate for what you'd hear with bear groups, leather bars, etc.
Hi, everyone.
EDIT: Oh, and in addition to Friday being Valentine's Day, this weekend is leather pride weekend in Sacramento, which would be fun, but I'm not sure I can really enjoy all the... offerings... the festivities have with a sore throat.
My Valentine's Day plans are pizza (because Friday night is pizza night), and maybe some beer.