@Golden: I find it super ironic how you are thinking of your religion in terms of being Gay or Bi, yet you do not think of your religion in regards to being a manwh*re, which last time I checked fornication is still against religion.
Sorry if this makes me sound anal but, it's the truth
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Anyway in regards to your problem..I guess it's good you resolved it. You really should not ignore/avoid the problem embrace it. It is obvious a part you and a part of him like each other.
I was raised a catholic. I was baptized, first communion, confirmed, the whole shebang. My parents and family are against anything homo and taught me homosexuality was wrong. My family really didn't care if a person wasgay as long as they or anyone they knew associated themselves with homosexuals.
As I grew, I learned about the sheer hipocrisy of these practices and just found my own beliefs. I found out I was Bi after being curious about one guy. We then talked and I found out I really enjoyed his company. I guess I wanted physical at first but emotional just blossomed out of it.
Now my parents don't know I'm Bi but I always ask myself: Why do they need to know? Seriously, regardless of them knwing I'm still going to be the way I am. So why create potential problems between us now? Besides, regardless of their thoughts, I will kiss, f*ck, and date anyone I want.
I actually plan to tell them when I'm like in my 20s during college.
@Briankelley: Sounds like you have a strnger bond with the faraway guy and yu hope to raise the level of the relationship. Although since its long distance, maybe you are imagining how perfect life will be if you get to see him.
My Situation
So today, I went to [Jeremy]'s apartment and I felt really anxious and uncomfortable, beginning when I first saw him coming towards me to go to his apartment. Part of it was that he was with his brother who is 13. I felt really uncomfortable with other people knowing I was Bi. [Jeremy] was saying "Its fine. They understand, and don't care." So afterwards we went to his apartment and there was 2 of [Jeremy]'s female friends. I felt awkward because they ALSO knew about me. I knew they didn't care if I was bi, but still I had never told anyne besides [Jeremy] about this and I just felt uncomfortable. The point of the escapade was to meet [Jeremy]'s mom, whom was really nice. Then [Jeremy] and I went to his room. We went in and he closed the door behind him. We started talking about us and how I was nervous about this whole experience of coming over and meeting his family and his friends, which go to my school. So then he hugged me again, and I pushed him away. I just didn't feel right touching [Jeremy]. We started to kiss and then I kissed him and backed away, really nervous. I don't know why I was nervus. I guess because his friends were in the living room and us in the bedroom. I kept playing with my phone. He then took my phone and went on top of me, on top of his bed. Laying down, I kept saying "Get off", but I didn't want him to get off, but at the same time I did. He said I was cute and how we should take it further. So then his [hot] friend[she's a girl] came in and we went back to the living room because supposedly [Jeremy]'s Ex-boyfriend was going to come, and all this other drama. I was still feeling tense, I couldn't relax. [Jeremy]'s friends were on myspace and i told them to add me and stuff, and we were just talking. I was still feeling tense, even thugh everyone-[Jeremy]'s mom,brother, friends- were cool with me being Bi. So then I left and [Jeremy] told me he was falling to me to which I replied, "Yea I have t admit it too". He walked me to the street I was going to and then at the end asked me if I was going to kiss him goodbye or at least hug him goodbye. I said "I'm sorry,no..., but I'll hug you." I hugged him and left.
I guess the reason I was nervous was because all my life I constantly hear "gay/bi/lesbian is wrong!" and for people to accept me and me finally being myself was amazing. Also, I guess I was nervous because I had never done ANYTHING with a guy, and it just felt weird to be doing it. At this point, I'm confused at what I want.
@Everyone dealing with homophobic parents:
Watch the movie "
Prayers for Bobby" [It has been uploaded on Youtube]. It talks about a gay boy coming out and ultimately being bashed and unaccepted by his religious parents. They think it is wrong and they try and try to "cure" him...but..? What else happens? Watch it! haha It is REALLY good and I could relate to him, if I ever were to come out as being bi.
It will make you feel better if you've been put down, struggling to tell people about your orientation, and fear of your parent's thoughts if you were to "come out".
