Still suffering from the most horrendous allergy attack I've had in years, simply because I walked inside my grandparents' cigarette smoke stuffed house. I love them to pieces, but they wonder why I don't visit them more often. It's because going to their house just about kills me every time.
My grandpa smoked a lot, and I hated it when I was younger. Now, whenever I smell his certain brand of cigarettes, I'm reminded of him. Double-edged sword/memory. Still, crappy that you are feeling awful.
After a great day, I walked home in the rain with my crush. We had some banter about stuff, and played truth or dare. I asked her if she'd ever date this guy, and she said "I don't know." So, yeah. Then we split, she going one way and me the other. When I got home, she started to (text) ask me why I asked her that. I explained, and then, after a few moments, she said "I thought so and so would have been your type." I replied that I've only ever loved one person. She said one person, and I said no, before she suggested herself. I said "...uh...yeah". Then she said the worst.
"I'm sorry [Insert Name Here] but I've never liked you that way and I never will. I'm sorry"
Kill me now.
Please.
That is rough. I hate being attached to liking someone for so long and then getting turned down. I know it's a bummer now, but at least this will help you move on and find someone even more amazing down the road. It took me a long time to find my current girlfriend, and we were basically made for each other. Sometimes it's okay to go through the sh*t because it makes you a better person and prepares you for the right one.
Sorry if that sounded like lame dad advice.
/sigh
Another day, another rejection following a job interview, another sinking feeling of dread because I feel like I'm going to be stuck in my dead-end retail job forever. All because I'm not smart enough, pretty enough, charismatic enough, or good enough of an interviewer and never will be.
It took me months to find a halfway decent job after I got my master's degree. The job search is awful, degrading, and a major beatdown. Use the retail job as a ground base and keep on trying. Also, you're smart enough; you're guaranteed to know something other people don't and you can always teach someone something. Don't know if you're pretty enough, and I don't really care because that shouldn't be a grading for job applications because, y'know, that's discriminatory. I don't know you, so I can't completely judge about charisma, but I believe you can shine through. Also, you're always good enough, you just have to find the right fit, which is really f-ing hard! Overall, don't get too discouraged and take everything as a learning experience.
Wasn't even 7AM before finding out Chris Cornell died. Day off to a bad start already.
Yeah, that was a bummer. It didn't hit me too hard, but I saw some friends seriously affected, and it's hard to watch an artist end their lives.
