Red Charizard
Current Love: Sinnoh
I'm a big stupid emotional person
I get depressed by almost anything
School starting
Thinking of cherished items of mine being trashed
Growing up
And I wanna know if anyone else feels like this
Back in February I mentioned that all my loved stuffed animals
from when I was a baby were thrown out. I can't bear to look
at a stuffed animal because it makes me choke up and cry.
I hold back all my depressed feelings and tears in fear of
what my family will think.
If I even mention depressions my parents will tell me to
suck it up or "Make myself happy".
I also feel an overwhelming depressing feeling when school begins.
No more summer nights, waking up/going to sleep late, beaches, or fun.
Back to the cold hard world of work and studying.
I am a wreck for like a month.
I am very nostalgic, but not in the good way.
I long for the past, for everything to be how it was.
Looking through boxes of old toys, pictures, and such
makes me choke up and feel like sprawling onto the floor
and crying my eyes out.
I am sick and tired of being a sad depressed person.
Maybe if all my cherished items were still here...
Or if my parents and I didn't fight whenever I
need to study, my life wouldn't be like this...
Studying leads to my mom and I having separate
ideas on how to get the job done. That leads to
fighting, not speaking to each other, and me going
into deep depressions that seem almost endless.
I know, I am a weird person for feeling this way about everything.
I just need help.
Do you guys ever feel this way?
How do you deal with this stuff?
Please help me...
I get depressed by almost anything
School starting
Thinking of cherished items of mine being trashed
Growing up
And I wanna know if anyone else feels like this
Back in February I mentioned that all my loved stuffed animals
from when I was a baby were thrown out. I can't bear to look
at a stuffed animal because it makes me choke up and cry.
I hold back all my depressed feelings and tears in fear of
what my family will think.
If I even mention depressions my parents will tell me to
suck it up or "Make myself happy".
I also feel an overwhelming depressing feeling when school begins.
No more summer nights, waking up/going to sleep late, beaches, or fun.
Back to the cold hard world of work and studying.
I am a wreck for like a month.
I am very nostalgic, but not in the good way.
I long for the past, for everything to be how it was.
Looking through boxes of old toys, pictures, and such
makes me choke up and feel like sprawling onto the floor
and crying my eyes out.
I am sick and tired of being a sad depressed person.
Maybe if all my cherished items were still here...
Or if my parents and I didn't fight whenever I
need to study, my life wouldn't be like this...
Studying leads to my mom and I having separate
ideas on how to get the job done. That leads to
fighting, not speaking to each other, and me going
into deep depressions that seem almost endless.
I know, I am a weird person for feeling this way about everything.
I just need help.
Do you guys ever feel this way?
How do you deal with this stuff?
Please help me...